The Darkness Inside

I did think a long time about a title for this post and pictures and after a conversation with a dear, sweet friend today, I suddenly had the idea – “The dark beast inside of me sometimes needs some release”

We all know that feeling I guess. You often just try to be polite and kind even if you feel that the inner beast tries to break free. In my life I learned that his beast has two different sides. It is very emotional and hot-headed on one side and sometimes it can be very dark ironic and sarcastic on the other. That is why I learned to control it and keep it locked in chains inside of me.

Certainly I was told to not always swallow all my emotions and everything that I get told, but the same time there is way how you can express this in a polite and adult way.

The most difficult it gets when you feel hurt. Because then this beast inside just rambles and rattles with the chains, developing immense power so that I sometimes really be afraid it would break that chains and just break free.

But exactly those situations taught me the most. When I was able to still keep it inside, it felt as a success to not let it win over me just because of someones judgement, rumors, gossips or words.

Every time I was able to keep it locked away, I felt that I did grow stronger. It was a long process and it took me years and sadly it is still not perfectly locked. But maybe it does not have to be, because everything has an end as well and so does patience, understanding and politeness. Sometimes people really need to know when they overstepped a line or did hurt me even if they will not believe nor change their behaviour – most of the time because they can’t as they have nothing in their life than trying to make others miserable. Then you do not even need to argue with those, because you can’t win. Anyways what you will say to prove them wrong they will turn it around and again use it against you no matter what. So all you can do is let it go, turn around and move on.

If you move on, you will meet new people in the future who will treat you with more respect and in an adult way. Certainly not only those, but all the others will wait for you left and right as well and maybe it is the personal challenge of everyone’s life to pass those who do not matter to meet those who DO matter – if that makes any sense. That does not mean you should not take any critiques, but you can learn to decide between the good and the bad critique. The bad, that only was used to hurt, blame or accuse you without any content OR the one that sometimes hurts too a bit – because you might have seen it different – but that as well contains facts and things that let you learn and grow from.

In the end you are the one, that has to make the decisions in your life – nobody can do or should do that for – as long as you can.

For me it feels better to have a mainly positive life (all of us have bad days or experiences) instead of a hate filled, jealous and not satisfied one. I always ask myself – before I react on things – if it would be worth fighting or arguing about something, or just smile and say thank you, turn around and move on. Both cases did happen and both will happen in the future, but if I argue or discuss I try to stay with the facts, be polite and kind and as well stay adult and not just release the inner beast without thinking. If that happens, I exactly would do that, what I do not want be done to myself – hurt, accuse or become personal and unobjective – and that is not an option to me if I can control it. I have to admit, over the years I became way more calm in such situations and maybe it is the age that lets you think before you take any action ๐Ÿ˜‰

Details

Clothing & Accessoires:

Outfit: Salt & Pepper – “Strapped” (Gacha, Maitreya)

Arms Straps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arms” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Bax – “Regency Boots”

Chains: E.V.E Studio – “{Apocalyptica} Cyber Snake Chains”

Makeup & Hair:

Hair: A&Y Bunker – “Cyro Hair”

Hairbase: Mina – “Myla Hairbase” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup: Zibska – “Ballard Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: Swallow – “Pixie Ears”

Arms: Zibska – “Speckles” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Pose: Poseidon

Latest Releases from Faster Pussycat!

Again I have the great pleasure to show you some of the latest creations ofย  Honey Bender, genius designer of Faster Pussycat. I so fell in love with that label that has such unusual, fresh and smart clothing that can be combined and styled in every style you want to, anyways if wild and crazy or even more usual and casual. Honey’s creations are really chameleons of styling ๐Ÿ™‚ and you can add your personal note totally!

My first outfit for today, also showed in the fist picture is called “Jungle Cat”.

Basically a cute short dress with amazing huge flexible prims, that nearly cover the whole upper body. The fantastic hat is also part or the whole outfit , with its little hatband and the cute little animal head in the front that is made with a lovely eye for the detail. To make the special look I decided to wear boots from Hoorenbeek to it.

The skin is one of the wonderful Nuuna Skins and the hair comes from 3636.

My second outfit for today carries the great name “White Goddess”.

This outfit really makes you feel like a goddess with its amazing and elegant, classy look.

A long elegant and aerial skirt that reaches the ground gives a very classy touch. The stunning black corset adds the lightly “fresh” touch. Another black prima attachment that follows straight under the corset makes a beautiful lead over to the white flexible long skirt.

The upper body is covered by another prim attachment that is made with the same texture as the skirt. This gives a wonderful unusual and new look.

Again, and yes I am an addicted ๐Ÿ˜‰ I used a Nuuna’s Skin.

My last outfit for today is the “Winter Vamp”

This outfit I have for a bit longer but I so love it that I had to include it in that post to show it ๐Ÿ˜‰

It is maybe a little to warm for the summer season but it is always nice to be prepared for the up coming next season ๐Ÿ˜‰

Long leggings cover the sexy legs and also the top has long tight sleeves. The upper body is covered by an amazing corset that breaks the black and white basic. The corset and the long arm shirt are made of a lovely pattern texture that shows the amazing skills of Honey Bender if it comes to textures.ย  A totally eye catcher on this outfit are the 2 “fluffy” parts. First the skirt that gives the whole outfit a lightly playfully touch and then the neckpart repeats that amazing kind of texture.

Details

Outfit1: Faster Pussycat – “Jungle Cat”

Skin: Nuuna’s

Boots: Hoorenbeek

Outfit2: Faster Pussycat – “White Goddess”

Skin: Nuuna’s

Outfit3: Faster Pussycat – “Winter Vamp”

Skin: Nuuna’s

Hair: 3636

Boots: BAX

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin