They’re coming to get you…

“When there’s no more room in hell, the dead will walk the earth.”

[Dawn of the Dead]

God I enjoy Halloween and the dark season way too much ๐Ÿ˜‰

Today I started watching the 8th season of TWD – go figure where the inspiration of todays post came from…

Ok it wasn’t only TWD, it was the uber cool gacha from Salt & Pepper in cooperation with another one from Mina Hair as well. Salt & Pepper does some exciting interactive gachas for a while now. To me she did something completely new with those “changing” gachas. I guess it started with the wet clothing options, where you could go into linden water and had all of a sudden wet clothing, that dried again after some time when you were outside of water again. As well you certainly had the option of a drying towel as well if you wanted it quicker. That already was a great idea for roleplay scenarios. The paint ball game was an other one, that even had a HUD where you could fight with other residents , who owned the same set and HUD. That are only a few of her interactives… there are way more!

The one I would like to showcase today, is my personal favorite so far. The “Zombie” (Gacha Key) and the “Beatriz Zombie Hair” (Gacha Key) gachas were created for the special pop up round of the Arcade in October. Besides the interactive clothing and hair in both gachas you will find two different vents and fire-hydrants, that let you transform by walking by and a transformation HUD where you just can do the change by click.

To make my Zombie complete, I had to add 2 more creepy, scary things*grins*ย  The first one are the “Zombie” nails from FORMANAILS. When first saw them I was like “Are you kidding me?!?!??” I thought something like this would not exist but then.. who else than Ivi Bing should have done them ๐Ÿ˜‰ She is the one to be reckoned with, if it comes to extraordinary nail and hand designs. Nevertheless those nails are more than perfect for my Zombie look. They make me seriously look like being a Zombie for quite a while with my nails being damaged and ripped… just so kick ass cool ๐Ÿ˜‰

The second thing is that super scary facetattoo from CURELESS [+]. Actually I mixed a facetattoo and one of their eye makeup to make it even more creepy. The “XXX” face art and the “XXX” eye makeup made the perfect match to achieve the look I was looking for. CURELESS [+] always was one of my favorite stores for dark and scary things, the more I go there and shop the more I find things I want to use and due the fact of their designs, I see even more dark posts coming ๐Ÿ˜‰ I guess it was always inside of me and I just did hide it behind too much casual posts and ‘political correct’ do’s and don’ts ๐Ÿ˜‰ Maybe i should follow my dark and creepy mid a little bit more now and then ๐Ÿ˜‰

The only thing left was, to exchange my normal teeth with the LeLutka “Beast Teeth” and cover them in blood with their HUD. To me that worked beter with the bloody heart that looked so delicious :p

I found a new sim lately – my heart jumped higher when I found out it is a dark and scary place that will last the whole time and not just for Halloween! I am talking about Pendle Hill, another amazing creation of Lauren Bentham. She did a lot of amazing places already like Arranmore, Everywinter, the Baja sims and many more, but this one probably is my personal favorite. She used lots of DRD buildings and the environment is perfect for all creepy, spooky and darkness lovers!

Talking about creepy, spooky and scary places, I have to run to find more before Halloween is over and I can’t just do creepy things without having to explain it :p

Outfit & Accessories

Outfit: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Zombie” (Maitreya, Gacha) – NEW @ The Arcade

Shoes: Astralia – “Bloody Bandages” (Maitreya)

Nails: FORMANAILS – “Zombie” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: MINA Hair – “Beatriz Short” (Gacha) – NEW @ The Arcade

Makeup: CURELESS [+] – “Undereye Lines & Eyeliner” (OMEGA Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka โ€“ โ€œSimone 3.0โ€

Body: Maitreya โ€“ โ€œLara 4.1โ€

Ears: ^^Swallow^^ โ€“ โ€œDarkness Earsโ€

Eyes: Clemmm – “I’m Tired / Black Bloodshot”

Teeth: LeLutka – “Beast Teeth”

Facetattoo: CURELESS [+] – “Psycho Face” (OMEGA Applier)

Poses & Prop

Poses: Poseidon (First 4 Pictures) & EMOZIONE (Last Picture)

Location

Pendle Hill

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Crazy for You

TUNES

Swaying room as the music starts
Strangers making the most of the dark
Two by two their bodies become one
I see you through the smokey air
Can’t you feel the weight of my stare
You’re so close but still a world away
What I’m dying to say, is that
I’m crazy for you
Touch me once and you’ll know it’s true
I never wanted anyone like this
It’s all brand new, you’ll feel it in my kiss
I’m crazy for you, crazy for you
[Madonna]

Outfit & Accessories

Outfit: Fellini Couture – “Arrogante” (Maitreya)
Tights: Izzie’s – “Sheer Tights” (Maitreya Applier)
Gloves: CLBlue – “Arm Warmer”
Rings & Nails: FORMANAILS – “Ciri” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Madonna”
Makeup & Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “New Wave” (LeLutka Applier)
Lashes: alaskametro<3 – “Slay” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara”
Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Izo” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity
Backdrop: [ isuka ] – “Dance Studio Backdrop”

Model & Photographer

In the Evidence of its Brilliance

TUNES

Love controlled by time
Future lovers shine for eternity
In a world that’s free
Put away your past
That will never last
If you’re holding on to a dream that’s gone
I’m gonna tell you about love
Would you like to try?
In the evidence of its brilliance

[Madonna]

And again it was Madonna, the Queen of Pop herself, that inspired me for today’s pictures. I again saw the Confessions Tour Opener on youtube and I so wanted to capture that mood, colors and theme. It looked so cool with her and all the dancers dressed as ponies, her way to move and control them… just awesome.

I digged deep in my inventory and it was quite time consuming to find all the parts I wanted. I did not just want to have a fetish looking pony girl, I really wanted to capture that special mood of the video. I did not want to have a typical pony tail or one one of the ‘usual’ pony boots…

I was so happy when I discovered one of the amazing !dM gachas called “PonyPlay”. I picked the latex looking tail and as well the shiny latex boots with the hooves at the bottom. Those were exactly the base for what I was looking for. The cool outfit with the back-bound arms I found in my inventory in my Ghoul’s folder. It is an older outfit but for today’s post it was exactly what I wanted. The “Bondage Harness” was perfect, but since I am not a friend of having all the private parts completely exposed, I decided to add some cool latex pasties from CURELESS [+].

The poses and the right backdrop were quite a challenge too… I needed a certain light, several light sources and as well something that is not too crowded or busy. I tried with a plain black backdrop first and added some lights and projectors but it did not yet feel right. Then I remembered a background from Foxcity and some cool editorial poses from the same creator. With the neon lights it was perfect and while I played with some windlights I realized that this would be the perfect choice.

Madonna always was/is a great source of inspiration for me anyways if I was thinking about fashion or music. I am sure that will not be my last post that she inspired me too ๐Ÿ˜‰

Outfit & Accessories

Outfit: {Ghoul} – “Juuzou Bondage Harness” (Maitreya Lara Exp)

Pasties: CURELESS [+] – “Sterile Pasties” (Maitreya, Group Gift)

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Noirette Stockings” (Maitreya Applier)

Shoes: !dM – “PonyPlay” (Maitreya, Gacha)

Tail: !dM – “PonyPlay” (Maitreya, Gacha)

Collar: #187# – “Leashed Collar”

Face Deco: +XAnSA+ – “JianDi Face Straps”

Gag: ::Axix:: – “Beloved Nocturnia Gag” (BoundBox October 2017)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match (Bangs Verion A) – “No.Cake”

Makeup: Zibska – “LTD Noir 13-24” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Folia Lips” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Ears: ^^Swallow^^ – “Gauged Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Volver” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Backdrop: Foxcity – “Photo Booth – Neon City Vol3 Black”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Trend: “Uncovered” – Part II

Picture Made for VERSUS Magazine Fall/Winter 2018 (https://issuu.com/versus.sl.magazine/docs/versus_magazine_fall_winter_2018)

Outfit & Accessories

Top & Suspender: Iโ™ฅF & Co – “Caroline” (Maitreya)

Pants: RIOT – “Emma Denim Shorts” (Maitreya)

Shoes: RealEvil Industries – ” Jassy Boots” (Maitreya)

Gloves: L’Emporio – “Fingerless Gloves” (Bento, Maitreya)

Nails: Slackgirl – “CrossNails” (Bento, Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: .Shi – “Binah”

Makeup:ย  alaskametro – “Cairo” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro – “Velvet” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka โ€“ โ€œSimone 3.0โ€

Body: Maitreya โ€“ โ€œLara 4.1โ€

Face: Izzieโ€™s โ€“ โ€œPores & Blemishes (LeLutka Applier)

Tattoo: [White~Widow] โ€“ โ€œAnonโ€ (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Pose: Foxcity

Location: Virtual Decay

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

What a Feeling!

TUNES

First when there’s nothing
But a slow glowing dream
That your fear seems to hide
Deep inside your mind
All alone I have cried
Silent tears full of pride
In a world made of steel
Made of stone
Well, I hear the music
Close my eyes, feel the rhythm
Wrap around
Take a hold of my heart
Now I hear the music
Close my eyes, I am rhythm
In a flash
It takes hold of my heart
What a feeling
Bein’s believin’
I can have it all
Now I’m dancing for my life
Take your passion
And make it happen
Pictures come alive
You can dance right through your life
What a feeling!
[Irene Cara]

Outfit & Accessories

Outfit: Tachinni – “Alexa Bodysuit” (Maitreya)
Legwarmer: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “She’s a Maniac” (Maitreya, Gacha)
Shoes: [Gos] – “J’Adore Pumps” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Collabor 88
Hat: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Man – HAT – tan”
Necklace: Kunglers – “Sahara – Silver”
Bracelet: Kunglers – “Elvira – Crystal”
Handaccessories: Pretty Mess & Nova – “Soceress Set – Silver” (Maitreya, Bento)
Nose Ring: [CX] – “Drop Septum – Silver”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Copy” – NEW @ COSMOPOLITAN
Makeup: alaskametro<3 – “Cairo” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)
Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Replicas” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Chair: [Black Tulip] – “Burlesque – My Chair”
Backdrop: Foxcity – “Photo Booth – Dance Hall”

Model & Photographer

Fates Warning

TUNES

Why is it some of us are destined to stay alive
And some of us are here just so that we’ll die
How come the bullet hits the other guy
Do we have to try and reason why

Are we the lucky ones saved for another day
Or they the lucky ones who are taken away
Is it a hand on your shoulder from the Lord above
Or the Devil himself come to give you a shove.A volcano erupts and sweeps a town away
A hurricane devastates the cities in its way
The grief and misery for the ones that are left behind
The worst is yet to come a hell to face mankind
Be it the Devil or be it him
You can count on just one thing
When the time is up you’ll know
Not just one power runs the show
[Iron Maiden]

Outfit & Accessories

Outfit 1: Luas – “Hurricane Bodysuit” (Maitreya)
Outfit 2: E.V.E Studio – “Tears Suit Metal” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Weโ™ฅRP
Boots: BAX – “Regency Boots” (Maitreya)
Mask: Cureless Amore – “Surrealisme / LInnocent” (Gacha)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Tableau Vivant – “Martin”
Hairbase: Mina – “Myla” (LeLutka Applier)
Makeup 1: Zibska – “Noir Pack #6” (LeLutka Applier)
Makeup 2: Arise – “Crackling Mask” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Elf Dior”
Arms: CURELESS [+] – “Melodic Doll / Dolly Arm” (Maitreya)
Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Tesis” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses & Katana:
Poseidon – “Shinobu”
Set:
E.V.E Studio – “Arch of Petals [M01-7Li] R/W”
E.V.E Studio – “Arch of Petals [M01-5Li] R/W”
E.V.E Studio – “Arch of Petals [M01-4Li] R/W”
E.V.E Studio – “Arch of Petals – 1/2 [M01-2Li] R/W”
E.V.E Studio – “Cyber Flower {Mural-Select Pic}” – NEW @ TLC
E.V.E Studio – “Cyber Flower {Cloud A} v.1.0” – NEW @ TLC

Model & Photographer

A Walk in the Park

Walk in the Park

You go for a walk in the park ’cause you don’t need anything
The hand that you sometimes hold doesn’t do anything
The face that you see in the door isn’t standing there anymore
In a matter of time, it would slip from my mind
In and out of my life, you would slip from my mind
In a matter of time
[Beach House]

Outfit & Accessories

Jacket: *COCO* – “Denim Jacket over Shoulders” (Maitreya)
Top: Maitreya – “Bali Boho Blouse” (Maitreya)
Pants: Kaithleen’s – “Frill Denim Shorts” (Maitreya)
Tights: Izzie’s – “Sheer Tights Basic” (Maitreya Applier)
Shoes: N-Core – “Rogue” (Maitreya)
Bag: GizzA – “Soho Tote Bag”
Glasses: EarthStones – “The Yesterday”
Necklace: Kunglers – “Melita”
Rings: .Drastic. – “Fairy Silver Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)
Nails: Nailed It! – “French Manicure Pastels Set” (Maitreya Applier)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Nothing” – NEW @ COSMOPOLITAN

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4,1”
Face:ย  Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Location

Model & Photographer

Cherries!

Do you know that feeling? When you unpack something and immediately get an idea in front of your inner eye, what this should look like on your pictures? Usually I do not have that too often with my first piece that I put on, but sometimes it happens ๐Ÿ˜‰

Today it was the case when I put on the Sakushi outfit and cap from Entice. I have no idea why – I did not see that movie in ages – but when I looked at it, I had a scene in mind from the movie ‘Catch me if you can’. The moment when Leonardo DiCaprio walked into the airport with all this blue dressed stewardesses. Maybe it was the cap and as well the vintage touch of that cherries, but I was stuck with that thought in my head.

 

As usual, that idea did not work out as I found no vintage airport that went with my 50s/60s idea for my picture. So I went back to my platform and tried to built me a set, that at least catches the vibe of what I wanted to do.

While I was rezzing all kind of things I remembered the propellers I got at one of the last FLF from NOMAD and they completely rocked. When I found them all the rest fell into place really easy ๐Ÿ˜‰

Now I needed shoes, that went with my idea and when I saw the “Heidi Slingbacks” from [Gos], I first was curing as on the picture they only had flower prints showing and I could not imagine flower prints with my cherry dress. But, when I opened them and saw all the amazing different HUDs, I was doing the happy dance. when I found out that the red of the ‘Boutique HUD’ even matched the red of the cherries, I was sold ๐Ÿ˜‰

When I was done with the pictures, I did some sim hopping and while I was roaming around,I found that fabulous “Time Portal”ย  location, with all those different mini locations of all kind themes and times and there was one 50s location too! They had a wonderful diner and as well this cute little pet shop, which you can see in the background of the first picture. As if it would have been fate, there was a bench with some really cool animations in front of it. One of the poses even had a vintage newspaper as a prop and I could not resist to just add one more picture in for this post.

I have to go back and explore this place some more and see what other cool posts I could do with inspiration of different centuries ๐Ÿ˜‰

Outfit & Accesories

Dress & Hat: Entice – “Sakushi Baby & Cap” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Heidi Slingbacks” (Maitreya) – NEW @ FaMESHed

Socks: Entice – “Sweet Dreams Socks” (Maitreya Applier)

Gloves: Sweet Tea – “Formal Gloves Essentials” (Maitreya Applier)

Necklace: :::NOIR::: – “Ava Chocker”

Glasses: Glamistry – “Sunglasses PU2003”

Ring: .:E.A.Studio – “Ring Opal Diamond Gold”

Bag: =Zenith= – “Spring Rattan Bag” (Gacha Rare)

Makeup & Hair

Hair: no.match – “No. Come On” – NEW (Groupgift)

Makeup: Izzie’s – “Aego Sal” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: Izzie’s – “Fae Lipgloss” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

Cigarette Machine: FIN – “Fifties Cigarette Vending Machine”

Coke Machine: 22769ย  ~ [bauwerk] – “Vintage Soda Machine”

Propellers: NOMAD – “Clean Propeller Fan // Floor & Wall”

Lamps: NOMAD – “Industrial Neon Lamp”

Crates: floorplan. – “Old Crate Stack”

Record Player: Ariskea – “[Record50] Vinyl Record “

Boxes: ..Tuesdays.. – “Keepsake Boxes – Vintage”

Location (Pic 1)

Time Portal, Time Machine Laboratory

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

 

Nude or Naked? – A Tribute to Flora Borsi

The past weeks/months I was allowed to be part of the latest VISIONAIRE batch. VISIONAIRE offers classes/workshops for inworld photography. When I first told a few friends, that I am excited about VISIONAIRE, they asked me why I would want to go there. I would already do pictures for such a long time and as well, I would work with Photoshop and could do PS tutorials instead.

I tried to tell them, that I am working on my own for such a long time and that I kinda felt stuck in my own world with my pictures. I love going to schools and workshops and learn new things or even get pointed out some things that I might have forgotten over the time. I do not know how to describe it, but it is like even if you know things, you can forget about them so easy and with classes and workshops you get a sweet reminder. Sometimes you learn something, you cannot use it right away and then you forget about it, even if it would be very useful for something else. Sometimes you try things and you do not like it at all and feel overchallenged at the moment you practice, but after some time you might be able to work it out, but you forgot about. And in the end it is always great if you get some critique on your work, that most of the time will encourage you to try better in my view.

I was very excited when we met the first time – I nearly was nervous, because the classes were going to be in voice and I am always afraid, to not able to follow properly if it comes to technical terms and stuffs. Soon I realized, I am not the only non native speaker, which made it a little easier. When I started to cam around, I again got scared seeing some big names beside me and I nearly fell for the same weird question I was asked “What they are doing here, they are so good!” :p But since I had my own reasons to do the course, I scratched that thought quickly ;)The classes, even if they took hours, were awesome. For many weeks Sundays were completely dedicated to that chatty, funny and passionated people and I do not regret one minute. I have to admit I felt strange sometimes and again the old discussion “it is because you are unique – it is because you are special” came up and I wanted to quit. I hate that term!!! There is times where you just want to be one of many and not the one, that stands out because of weird thoughts and craziness. I remember one Sunday, where we were supposed to look at pictures to find the spot in the picture, where our yes where pulled at and then explain why. You start to get frustrated, if your eyes mostly get attracted by other things than the rest of the group sees it…

I really had moments, where I thought I am just too stupid, or too weird to understand/see things. So I started to remain silent – Certainly Wren and Koko caught that and asked me why and told me that this would not be the solution. Since I am not a kid, I was aware of that and I tried to explain my problem. Wren was very understanding and I have to say she was so striving to calm me down and back into the ‘chat mode’. It took me a week to get back on track, but since we had fun homeworks all week, it was easy to step back into the group – they made it super easy for me too and did not even bring it up again.

Home work always sounds bad, but in case of VISIONAIRE they were amazing as the challenged me every week and go me out of my ‘same procedure like always’ mode, which kinda crept into my photography habit. It sometimes dragged me out if my comfort zone and made me re-think a lot of things not only technique wise, but as well composition wise ๐Ÿ™‚

It was interesting to get critique and opinions for the home work every week. Sometimes I did not even think about things, that others saw in my pictures. Again the old term “Beauty is in the eye of the beholder” made its point ๐Ÿ™‚ Even the never ending story “Why this picture of mine got so many faves while the other – which I personally like so much more – got less likes” git touched and Koko had some very interesting ideas to that subject, which again gave me a new perspective – Did you ever think about, if you do pictures with male or female gaze, or what even would be the difference on that in terms of art and photography?

Another great part was the using of glow, lights and projectors. While I hate glow, I always liked using projectors and lights but I never was able to really use them to their full beauty. I normally used 1 or 2 lights or projectors, not thinking about the fact that I could have more to highlight certain parts of the body, even certain spots of the whole scenery. In the past lights and projectors were my personal “OMG that never does what it should” overchallenging situations and I usually gave up on them. BUT if you have a homework… you damn try :p.

In one of the classes, when our home work was to create a portrait. Linda Reddevil, did one being inspired by Flora Borsi. I saw some of her pictures already, but I never was familiar with that artist. When Linda brought her up, I googled again and was so impressed that I wanted to to a picture inspired by Flora Borsi.

It was luck that to the same time Jian has their amazing flamingos at the FLF and so I took it as a sign and started to work on my idea. While I was doing the shoot, my mind went back to a subject we had at our VISIONAIRE meetings as well. A discussion about an ongoing trend in SL or on SL Flickr pictures – nudity. It seems if you throw and press your private parts into peoples faces, you get a lot of favorites on Flickr. I never was against nudity in arts in general, as long as it was done with class and not only or all of the time. There is much more, what can appeal sexy, than just simple show-offs in a crude way. Does it really have to show ‘everything’ all of them time? Is sometimes not just a basis idea the key to let the imagination fly? I remember very well a scene of movie, where people still going on about, if you see something or not. The interrogation scene in Basic Instinct, which is probably the most famous scene of that movie. The moment where Sharon Stone switching her one leg over the other, so many people did rewind that moment, to see if she would have panties on or not and we still do not know, because we saw… nothing, while the imagination was taking off.

Maybe it is because I am a German. I know it is not everywhere like this but in Germany, if you strip naked on a public media source (internet, magazines, Youtube, etc.), you need back some more attention to your person. on 90% of the time it is done by people, who suffer from fading popularity or fading fame. Before they become an extinct star on the sky of fame, they do that as a last try to get back into social media and in the heads of the people. For a while it works, but it basically for most is just to protract, what anyways will come and they just win a certain period of time before it happens. That is one of the reasons, why I never even thought about having my boobies all over my Flickr, as well I never had the desire to share that with everyone, even if it is just pixels. To me nude does NOT have to be naked all the time ๐Ÿ˜‰

With Flora Borsi in the back of my head, I started experimenting with my naked body and the flamingos, how I could show everything and nothing the same time. Since I even wanted to try again to draw hair, I even was bold. I only had changed my lashes to something unusual, while my whole body and head was completely nude and natural. They key was a pose I got from Falbala Fairey called “Crouched 6” it previously was a gift for a store and now it is back in her own store for sale. With that pose and pushing the flamingos in the right position I only needed a pillow to sit on and I was done.

Drawing hair still is a huge, exciting and time consuming project for me and again I was not yet even close to be satisfied with what I tried, so I again did lend me some instant painted hair to work with from Rayne Morgan aka Nina Rosario (in SL), only added a few strands of my own on those spots, that did not quite fit to my pose or avatar shape and colored it to match the flamingos.

I had a lot of fun working on the concept and the pictures and I hope I did make sense with my words as well. I am not just a prude German, I just prefer artistic and tasteful nude over just blunt views on others private parts on social media ๐Ÿ˜‰

Special thanks to Linda Reddevil for making me looking deeper into Flora Borsi’s art again and VISIONAIRE for their amazing course!

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Hair:ย  Rayne Morgan (modified & complemented by me)

Lashes: Stardust – “Kira” (LeLutka Applier)

Pose: Fairey Poses – “Crouched 6”

Animals: JIAN – “Flamingo Collection”

Pillow: Le Poppycock – “Book Lovers – Tell Me a Story”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

My Decision…

Not too long ago a very close friend of mine, Seaside, was IMing me, asking if I would be ok. First I was wondering why she would ask me that, but then she told me she was following my flickr and the latest, and very dark pictures did concern her. I thought that was very sweet and I tried to explain to her why I do have this super dark and destructive side as well. I was suffering of depressions a very long time of my life and I sometimes still do, but I learning to live and work with them. So if I do those very dark and morbid pictures, to me it is like checking up on an old friend, deep inside of me. This friend will never leave me, but we both learned how to co-exist. I just have to go there sometimes, to check on him and if he still is there in place, where I put him a long time ago. I do not know if that makes sense, but for me it is kinda like therapy and it does work out 90% of the time. The hard times, where I often was close to the moment of giving up, or even tried to give up are gone and that is what counts for me.

For quite some time, I did not want to see that. I thought with medicine, pills and therapy I can make it go away – I just wanted to ‘heal’. After many different attempts to do that, I met a wonderful person, that to me was more valuable than every therapist I ever met before. He was a therapist too, but I did not met him as a patient, I met him at one of my concerts and we became friends over the time. After we met several times we had a discussion about depressions and he gave me a completely new view on it. He told me, depressions would be kinda the same thing as being alcohol addicted, you can fight the symptoms, but not the facts, case or reasons. He stated, that I can decide, if I let the depressions take over my life or if I take control over the depressions. That sounds very easy , but it is not and I probably would not have been able to do that without any help. I was very lucky to have real friends and family, who helped me over the time of the learning process and it was not done in just a few weeks – it took years.

I decided to take control – even if I maybe never will have 100% of control, it made my life way easier that to just give up and live for the depressions. I wanted more from my life that what my depressions would have allowed me to do. But like I said before, sometimes that ‘old friend’ knocks at my door and I have to decide if I let him in, or if I just go out with him for a while or even go visit him at his place, where I can leave him when ever I want.

I know, depressions can be very different and there is no general solution for that, but you always have decision to fight against or to give up – I never won’t judge over someones decision, as either of both is an option to choose and while one can be good for someone, it can be bad for another person.

I hope, I could make sense with my words – English is not my first language ๐Ÿ˜‰

Outfit & Accessories

Outfit: Enfant Terrible – “Kimi” (Maitreya)

Boots: Blueberry – “Celia Boots – High Heels” (Maitreya)

Rings: Elle Boutique – “Bloom” (Maitreya, Bento)

Collar: Salt & Pepper – “Slumber Party” (Gacha, Rare)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Role”

Makeup: Zibska – “Mina Liner” (LeLutka Applier, Ltd. Gift)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLeutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Anon” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Prop: R.O.T. – “End Nature”

Poses: Foxcity – “Stairs (Sitting)” (Bento)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin