The Approach…

Crazy times… Corona still holds the world in its hand and all of us try to do our best to fight it, even if we cannot see yet any success and things seem to get worse and worse. I know it isn’t the fact, but sometimes it feels like it. We are now in our second week without school in Germany. I am a teacher (usually in the mornings I do teach at a school) and I do have a tiny private afternoon tutoring company. Usually I am surrounded by kids all day and in the past I had days where that was quite exhausting. Always having 10 to 60 kids around you from 8 in the morning to 4 in the afternoon didn’t feel always easy but now that I see how it is to have none of them around – it doesn’t feel good either. I am lucky to have the possibility to hold online classes and have some one-on-one tutoring as well, but it doesn’t feel the same. Before the difficulties were the noise in bigger groups, or the kids being distracted by looking outside the window and now… the difficulties have changed. I never thought it could be that hard to explain something like mathematics to a child online only online… you talk a lot more trying to describe everything and if they have to draw triangles with certain length or certain degree angles. Most of them do not have the technical equipment to show you what they did, they usually only can take a snap with their cellphone and send it to me.. and if they spend already like 20 min to do that task and then something went wrong you can start all over again.

Certainly it has a positive side as well – I do not have the distance and the time to drive to school and back in the afternoon and I have the advantage of having an open bowser all the time to find answers I might not know out of the blue for certain questions, so I do not wanna whine or rage about it – I just discover everyday the differences and the different difficulties. Between all that I try to keep my Mom inside and safe – she is over 70 and recently had a brain tumor and chemo after it, so she is in the risk group for that damn virus as well. So my Second Life times at the moment are a little bit more limited and not as regular as I used to be, but I do not want to stop blogging and taking pictures completely as it feels like a little bit of resting time and holiday for my brain when I do that.

The pictures for todays post I already did  over a week ago, but I wasn’t able to post work them and write something about yet. So now the Cyber fair by ACCESS sadly is over but I am sure you can find all the goodies in the designers main stores already or soon.

First of all the amazing vinyl ensemble from A&Y called “Phex”, which is a combination of a long sleeved top and short pants with an awesome, realistic looking shine. It is decorated with straps and zippers and with the huge HUD you can change the colors for all different parts including the metals.

All the amazing accessories I as well found at the Cyber Fair, but like I said before I am sure you will find them most likely either already or soon at the designers main stores. The incredible face art done by Nefekalum Tattoos comes in 3 different versions. You can find many different tings in your folder. First of all the 3 different versions of the makeup it self. Black Tears only, Red Smudge only and a full version of both. Furthermore you will find appliers for head and body materials and the belonging erasers. On top of that, since all his tattoos are materials enabled, Sir Skye added a perfect projector (light source) as well, for you to use if you like.

Certainly I did need some cool nails and rings to complete my outfit and it was no question that the “Creature Claws” from CerberusXing were just the perfect choice. They are available in 3 colors (silver, onyx and gold) and rigged for Belleza Jake,  Signature Gianni, Maitreya and the female Slink hands.

The smart looking hair style was made by no.match. I love the wild top hair, the shaved sides and the fact that you still have 2 wisps at your ears. Like always for no.match hair styles you have different color packs and a fatpack available. The purchases will include a shaved hairbase as well, but since I do have my own shaved hair base I did not use it for todays post 😉

It was time again to built my own set – I found so many cool things at the Cyber Fair, I just had to. All you can see, from the backdrop over the drinks, food (weed) vending machine and the incredible animals, I collected at the Cyber Fair.

I would like to draw your attention a little bot towards the animals. The “Caged Biter” is available in 3 different colors. You can separate the animal from the cage as you can see in my pictures. The Biter is an animated mesh design and has adorable movements, which make it possible to have some more interactive looking pictures with the different poses or the animal.

I do have an immense fun at the moment with cyber and sci-fi posts as they open a whole new range for pictures and styles to me. We do not know what the fashion or environment will look like in our future, but for me that gives us a lot of room to experiment and the possibility of unending creativity 🙂

Clothing

Outfit: A&Y  – “Phex” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Eyepatch: RichB. – “Dex Eyepatch F”

Face Straps: unstable – “Code: WYVERN”

Septum: Astara – “Cthulhu Septum”

Mask: SEKA’s – “HVCKED Mask (no effect)”

Back Attachment: .{PSYCHO:Byts}. – “Feel the Connection – Back Implant”

Rings & Nails: [CX] – “Creature Claws – Onyx” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No. Industry”

Faceart 1: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Two Sides of Madness (Black Tears Only)” (BoM)

Faceart2: LuluB! – “Fembot” (BoM, Cyber Fair Gift)

Lipstick: Izzie’s – “LeLutka – Holo Metallic Lipstick 12 (green)” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLUTKA – “Lake 1.1”

Ears: [Cubic Cherry] – “Altered Ears (glow)”

Skin: Human Glitch – “MNFRM SKIN / MTL GENUS1” (BoM)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 5.0.2”

Legs: Blah. – “Love.Ai/RoboLegs Black” (Maitreya)

Tattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Organic Decay” (Maitreya, Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses:

Picture 1: BellePoses: – “NyxV2 2” (Bento, right arm lightly edited)

Picture 2: STUN – “Debora 4” (Bento, lightly edited)

Picture 3: BellePoses: – “NyxV2 7” (Bento)

Picture 4: Foxcity – “Power-1” (Bento)

Set:

Background: The Bearded Guy – “Industrial – The Future” (Gacha, Common)

Machine: # ninety – “Cyber Vending Food [ Weed ]”

Shower: HILTED – “Decontamination Shower – Adult – Silver/Green”

Animals & Cage: HILTED – “Caged Biter – Black/Green/Light”

Chairs: buildworksdecor – “Cyber / Retro Neon Chair White Changeable X”

Food: andika – “cyber sweets Dispenser set”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

 

Sweet Succubus

TUNES

You came to me in my sleep
A succubus all dressed in red
Filth that you whisper is sweet
But it’s my dream so let it be said:

You must have taken the wrong turn
You’ve ended up in hell

Hear me, temptress of the night,
There is more than one demon here
I see temples I yearn to defile,
‘Cause our horns hide divinity

And I think that the smell of your soft skin,
Is no less than the last legal drug
So here’s my seditious and bold whim:
Let’s drag the moon and make him watch

This grip will bloom into a bruise
These scars are your tattoos.
I said – “what kind of man would not succumb?”
You said – ‘what kind of monster you’ve become?

Succubus! Your horns are broken down
Succubus! Your wings are torn apart

[Phedora]

Clothing

Outfit & Horns: Casse lustre – “Sweet Succubus” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Aenigma // Feburary 2020

Shoes: [CX] – “Implant Revived – Trashed Steel” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Face Chain & Earring: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Kreuz Septum Chain”

Wings: PFC – “Angel”

Hair & Makeup

Hair:[RA] – “Alice Hair”

Face Art: ::moonshine:: – “Danara Tatoo” (BoM) – NEW @ Aenigma // February 2020

Face Contour: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Cheek and Nose Contour” (BoM)

Head Scales: Rainbow Sundae – “Lizard Scales Face – 4 – V1” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Nova 1.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 5.0.2”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Thauron”

Body Scales: Rainbow Sundae – “Lizard Scales Body – 4 – V1”

Tattoo: Juna – “Agatha tattoo Light Classic Avatar” (BoM) – NEW @ Aenigma // February 2020

Freckles: Izzie’s – “Pores and Blemishes – Freckles” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Backdrop: Tableau Vivant – “Prop art ~ The Darkest Nights” (old design, probably not anymore available)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Sometimes it is worth to think before you speak…

I thought a long time, if I can do a post with pictures like that without getting a shit storm started… but the idea I had for that post or better, what brought me to do pictures like that had a very special reason. I thought for along time to talk about bullying or psychological violence. These kinds of hurts may not leave a mark on someone that can be seen, but that doesn’t mean it would not hurt exactly like those – sometimes even more than if you would get a punch in your side. Physical wounds usually heal after a while and then you won’t see them anymore, psychological ones sometimes never fully heal and shadow us sometimes till the end.

My Grandpa once told me something when I was younger. I was sitting beside him when I was taunted at school about not being/looking like the majority of the class. While he was putting an arm around me and tried to solace me, he talked to me. Back then I didn’t understood what he meant, but later when I was a grown up (if I am fully grown up yet? I have no idea…), I slowly started to realize what he meant. He said “You are the one that chooses, who can hurt you.  You are the one to allow people to hurt you. So always think about it seriously, if it is worth to allow someone to hurt you!” First when I heard that from him, I thought he just is old and has no clue what he is talking about. I forgot about that for quite a while until I was older.

 

I always felt that I am not a great fit to my class mates. I didn’t behave like them, I didn’t look like them and I did not even want to. Most of my class mates are sons and daughters from lawyers, doctors, judges or something in that way. I was a teachers daughter, not dumb, nor stupid. My father died of cancer when I was 7 and my Mom was alone with me and my 3 years younger brother. Thank to the state, my Mom got the state pension from my father as teachers in Germany are employed by the state. We were really lucky as my Mom did know how to work with the money she had. We never missed anything – we went on holidays in summer and winter, we got birthday and Christmas presents and I never heard my Mom saying no if my brother or me wanted some ice cream while we were shopping (only if we already had some or we just had lunch or dinner). I only felt it, when branded clothing became important for some people from my class. For example I had jeans – cool jeans – but they were no Diesel or Lewis jeans. I never cared about that, I am more a simple person. If I like something, I won’t look what brand it is from or look if it would be expensive enough to buy it. Not to mention that I was a Punk back then anyways so jeans had to be modified and ripped anyways before I wanted to wear them. But that exactly seemed to be the issue. First I thought it must be the clothing that did separate me from many of my class mates and why they started to laugh at me – as a child you cannot just walk away and do you own thing… you want to be liked and you want some friends. So I went home and asked my Mom, if I could have some Diesel jeans. Her response first was: “Why, what is wrong with yours?” and when I explained it to her she said: “Sure you can have a pair for your birthday or Christmas, or you can buy them from your pocket money if you have enough, because they are expensive” Certainly I first thought that would be unfair until I was older and realized that it wasn’t just my clothing or what kind of game consoles I had.

I never was a stick-figure Barbie doll like all my class mates – I was the only one that had curves pretty soon, a nice present from the women on my mother side family tree. I did a lot of sports, because I loved it and not because I wanted to loose weight, or because someone told me to do so. I started with Gymnastics when I was 4 (until I was 22), I enjoyed riding from when I was 6 and later on I tried Volleyball and Swimming, too. So I basically was busy the whole week, everyday with some kind of sports and on the weekends there were contests for those. But that did not count either, it just did count that I wasn’t a size zero and that again was enough for some kids to pick on me and making fun out of me. I have to tell you… if that happens, it hurts like mad and that will not heal for quite a while. Especially if you later on meet guys that ask you for a date and then tell you you would be so sweet and nice, but with like 5 to 10 kilos you would be even more nice. All this bulling and hateful hurt doesn’t help teens to build up any kind of self esteem, which is so important to resist these same idiots who try to hurt you.

But that is not what I was trying to talk about, I don’t want your pity, because my life changed over the years and I understood what my Grandpa was trying to tell me. I do have true friends now and I enjoy my life as it is now. But sometimes I really get mad when I see people, groups or even websites, that bash certain people or groups, They think it is fun and never even think about how bad they can hurt other peoples feelings. They think they are right to judge or dictate others. I often ask myself what it would give them to do that… I do not have a real answer besides that their own life must be so miserable that they need to destroy others lifes for their own happiness. If that would not hurt others so bad, I would even feel pity with them and their misery.

How desperate you have to be, if you try to find something to hurt another person with it?!?

Who do you think you are to accuse people with whatever you think you found out that would be worth spreading the word about?!?

What rights you have to destroy other peoples lifes or dreams with a “truth” you just built out of nothing?!?

Why you think you are the one to judge about others peoples looks – because you are so much better?!?

Why you think you are allowed to take a rise out of somebody?!?

NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO DO THAT TO ANOTHER PERSON!!!

I know I won’t change the fact, that it happens everyday, everywhere anyways if in Real Life or in Second Life. But if I can just get one person to think about, before they open their mouth about someone or type (even worse) anonymous comments on websites about someone –  I am happy. I am not saying that we can not gossip or talk with our true friends about others and have our own opinions, but there is a difference if you try to hurt someone actively or if you just talk to someone in private and share an opinion. We do not get along with all and everybody, but n the end it should be a “live and let live” type of spirit. Both worlds are big enough for all of us and there is no need to destroy or eliminate someone. PLUS… never forget what you do to others… can be done to you as well if the time comes!

Maybe you now understand my drastic pictures for todays post. They only were meant to make inner pain visible and catch the mood of this post.

So my wish for 2020  – for both worlds – would be:

Sometimes just think before you open your mouth about something or someone. Think about if you would hurt someone irrecoverably and if you only get the glimpse of a “YES”, just keep your mouth shut or delete your comment where ever it was supposed to go!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Clothing

Corset: [CX] – “Immoral Support – Black” (Maitreya)

Panties: [CX] – “Malum Undies (Black)” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Liliana Stripe Boots – Boutique” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Septum: -[TWC]- – “Gear Septum Silver -CL Blood-“

Collar: [CX] – “Heavy Duty Collar – Rusty Filth (Un-Rigged)”

Sleeves: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme – Black” (Maitreya)

Cuffs: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Bondage Deluxe Set” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: .shi – “Gavri’ela /Unisex”

Wounds & Butterfly Aids: -[TWC]- – “Bad Dog -bruises- ” (Omega Applier)

Face: La Malvada Mujer – “Insommnia” (Omega Applier)

Makeup: La Malvada Mujer – “She Said Eyeshadow” (Omega Applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “London” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Ears: [CX] – “Ostium Impaler Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: -[TWC]- – “Bad Dog” (Omega Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Backdrop: #Cranked# – “Backdrop Black Padded Cell”

Rat: JIAN – “Rascal Rats 2. Black Companion” (Gacha, Common)

Pose Tool: AnyPose – “BVH Pose Stand”

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Ropes not Roses!

Today I am hurrying with a wonderful release of A&Y – the “Zoe” dress – for the Fetish Fair and the awesome “Insanity Eye Patch” from .:E.A.Studio:. for the Tres Chic event. The Fetish Fair ends today and Tres Chic should be done after the weekend as well so it would be the last chance to get those 2 incredible releases on the events before they return to the main stores.

The “Zoe” dress as you can see above, has a wonderful, sexy and deep neckline in the back, while it is very high closed in the front as you will se on the pictures below. The fabric shows excellent skills if it comes to latex. Latex is probably one of the most difficult fabric in Second Life to make if you want to satisfy those who use materials and those who don’t. Either you have white “spots” where the reflections are if you want the non materials user to be able to see the “shine” or you have the fabric only on the materials which results to the fact that, that those who do not have materials enabled won’t see much up to nothing that looks like latex. Anabel Crystal, owner and creator of A&Y found the perfect way to showcase latex perfectly to everyone – it amazes me every time again when I wear it.

The second design I would like to drag your focus on is the super cool “Insanity” eye patch from Eclipse Art Studio. A leather, heart shaped eye patch with nails and a plaster in the middle. You get the option of having either the left or the right eye covered and with the huge HUD you can customize the whole patch including some super interesting textures for the plaster in the middle.

I already talked about the mega amazing “Infernal Claw Ring Set”, which is the release for the Fetish Fair that you still can enjoy today before it closing its doors. This time I chose a red leather version and a different polish for the caws and rings to show you another possibility of the amazing HUD options.

I wanted to do this post way earlier but the last week of school craziness and then all the Christmas horror delayed kinda everything… it wasn’t planned like that and I hope I can catch up with all the posts I have planned over the Holidays 😉

Clothing

Dress: [A&Y] – “Zoe Dress” (Maitreya) – NEW @Fetish Fair 3rd Edition // December 2019

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Bette Stockings” (Maitreya Applier)

Shoes: UTOPIA@Design – “Dixie” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Eyepatch: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Insanoty Patch Eye (L)” – NEW @ Tres Chic // December 2019

Septum: -[TWC]- – “Thirst Septum – Silver”

Piercing: *PKC* – “Collar Lip Piercing” (LeLutka, Simone)

Collar: [A&Y] – “Lorna Leather Collar – Dark Red – 04” (Gacha, Common)

Nails & Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Infernal Claw Ring Set” (Maitreya, Bento) – NEW @Fetish Fair 3rd Edition // December 2019

Leg Straps: Gemini – “Sis Leg Bangles” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: .shi – “Ya-Resh”

Lipstick: .{PsychoByts}. – “Hecate Lipstick” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Gunvor”

Tattoo: TAOX – “Back Bio Spine” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

[Kres] – “Kinky Neon – 9” (Gacha, Common)

[Arch] Deco – “Box of Chains v1.0”

Mushilu – “0005bg Whip and Whispers Shop”

22769 ~ [bauwerk] – “Leather Whip”

Fapple – “BDSM Tool Box”

NOMAD – “Industrial Neon Lamp // Red”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

There she walks with feet unmoving eternally…

TUNES

You are my endless disease
Die if you can if you please
Help me she lingers on and on
Now death ain’t so bad
My virus undead
[Beloved Enemy]

Most of the time we see humans being scared about undead or demons in movies and pictures… what about the thought of the undead fear the living to enter their world? That was the basic idea of todays post when I saw the “Deadly End Door”, a collaboration between CerberusXing and Insomnia Angel. Even if the hands are bloody and creepy that try to open that door from the other side, I had that imagination that this would not be the door to hell more the door from hell *snickers*

So lets take a look what the sweet little demon is wearing while she tries to hold the door from the living that try to enter her empire…

When I saw the “Anatomical Venus” gacha from CURELESS [+], I instantly did know, that I wanted to make a picture with it. Like so often, the right scenery wasn’t coming to my mind instantly and so it took a while until I did know what I wanted to do with it. When I saw the “Deadly End Door, it just fell all in place. First I thought the door would be just a part of a whole background set, but when I got it i saw it was only the door, but the colors matched the “Crucem Inverso” backdrop so perfectly that I just combined them. The huge skirt wasn’t easy to pose so I had to find poses that are not moving too much down from the hips, but as well are not too boring upwards from the hips. As so often I ended up just making some poses to express what I wanted to 😉 The whole scenery and outfit had some rich, brown tones and I wanted to add some more dramatic vibes to it. That was why I chose for red and green lights and some green smoke for the post processing of it. Even if Halloween is over already, I take the full advantage of the darker season to play with my visions and imaginations *winks* So that still won’t be the last post in that category as I really love the dark side more and more and we will see where it does push me for my next posts…

Clothing

Arms: CURELESS [+] – “Anatomical Venus /Pneuma Arms / GOLD” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Torso: CURELESS [+] – Anatomical Venus / Osseus Temple” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Skirt & Skeletons: CURELESS [+] – “Anatomical Venus / Mors Vincit” (Players Reward)

Accessories

Headpiece: CURELESS [+] – “Anatomical Venus / Dea Halo / GOLD” (Gacha, Common)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Analog Dog – “Midnight – Mix”

Faceart: CURELESS [+] – “Psychopomp Face” (Omega Applier)

Makeup: CURELESS [+] – “Undereye Lines & Eyeliner” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Aida 3.4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Skin: CURELESS [+] – “Anesthesia Skin / BEIGE” (Omega Applier)

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Thauron”

Eyes: LOTUS – “Noir Eyes 17” (Gacha, Rare)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Selfmade

Background: [CX] – “Crucem Inverso” & [CX] x Insomnia Angel – “Deadly End Door”

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“Am I Beautiful Yet?”

“Am I Beautiful Yet?”
I’ve blinded my eyes with ornament. Replaced my limbs with ornament. Cut out my organs for ornament. Am I beautiful yet? I can dance for you. Watch me. I will never stop dancing. Never stop watching. Never. Stop. Or else.

For the the theme of ‘Freak Show’, I’ve put together this circus ballerina. Her limbs are wrapped in gold with pink accents, as well as barbs, some tinted with blood. Ballet is known for being brutal in its precision, and this type of decoration carries the metaphor visually.

Her face is obscured by a mask of similar style. Floral designs, especially that of the thorny rose, are prominently featured here almost like a religious icon. It is perhaps one of the most eye catching pieces of the style, in part representing her inability to see the world for what it is. She is blinded by her preconception of what beauty is, and is unable to appreciate the world around her.

Finally to pull it all together, the most unsettling piece is her torso body mod. Many strive for an hourglass shape, but the tragic ballerina has assumed a literal hourglass, complete with animated sands. Yet another clever visual metaphor representing the years of life she’s shaved off by taking her pursuit of the beauty ideal to unhealthy lengths and destroying parts of herself in the process.

The entire style combines fragility, obsession, suffering, and horror into a form of visual storytelling, in order to tell a very tragic story.

As stated above, the look was made for a special show hosted by Madd Modelz on the amazing “Uri Jefferson’s Freakshow” sim (SURL). We all had to write our own descriptions for our styles and presentation and I had in mind what I wanted to say but since I am not a native English speaker, it mostly doesn’t sound as I want it to be. This time I had great help from a dear friend – Tour Blanche, the partner of my sweet sister Consuela Blanche. He is a god with words and made my idea sound so amazing, that I could not just have it for the show. I wanted them to be visible for longer than the few minutes of the show and he allowed me to post them here on my blog. Thank you for that Tour ♥

Clothing

Outfit: Moon Amore – “Etheral Time / Hourglass Body” (Gacha, Rare)

Shoes: N-Core – “Ballet” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Collar: aisling – “Nura”

Headpiece: Moon Amore – “Etheral Time / Decima Mask – Gold” (Gacha, Common)

Arm/Hand Wraps & Nails: Moon Amore – “Etheral Time / Chronos Arms” (Gacha, Rare)

Leg Wraps: Moon Amore – “Etheral Time / Chronos Legs” (Gacha, Common)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: KoKoLoReS – “Runa”

Makeup: .::Nanika::. – “Gold Eyeshadow” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup 2: CURELESS[+] – “Noel Set” (Omega Applier)

Eyelashes: alaskametro<3 – “Slay” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “Impressionist” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Aida 3.4”

Eyes: -SU!– – “Aure Eyes” (Group Gift)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Neck: CURELESS[+] – “Dog Bites” (Omega Applier)

Knees: Izzie’s – “Knee Wounds” (Maitreya Applier)

Skin: CURELESS[+] – “Morphine” (Omega Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Poseidon

Set:

Backdrop: Chaotic Creative – “Center Stage Scenebox” (not anymore available)

Circus Ring: Chaotic Creative – “Aerial Dolls Trapeze” (not anymore available)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“The worst is just around the bend.”

TUNES

“It was a long time ago, longer now than it seems,

In a place that perhaps you’ve seen in your dreams.

For the story that you are about to be told,

Took place in the holiday worlds of old.

Now you’ve probably wondered where holidays come from.

If you haven’t, I’d say it’s time you begun.”

[The Nightmare before Christmas]

Clothing

Outfit: * Les Sucreries de Fairy * – “Sally” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)- NEW @ The Dark Style Fair

Shoes: **UTOPIA@Design** – Sadie” (Maitreya) – NEW @ FaMESHed // October 2019

Accessories

Mask: [Since1975] – “Clown Mask”- NEW @ The Dark Style Fair

Earrings: BLAXIUM – “Nocturna Earrings” – NEW @ The Dark Style Fair

Collar: *PKC* – “Risque Collar”

Rings: *Merlific* – “Back to School Rings” (Maitreya)

Nails: !TBL – “Ingrid Nails” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Dark Style Fair

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Private” – NEW @ Tres Chic

Faceart: { Speakeasy } – “Moon Child” (Omega Applier) – NEW @ Black Fair

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Handtattoo: Mug – “Rory Murder” (Omega Applier)

Poses & Props

Pose 1 (with Chainsaw): Belle Poses – “Martha” (Bento)

Pose 2: Poseidon Poses

Set: DRD – “Burtonized Skybox” (only parts of that and a super old item)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

The Engine Room – Part II

As I was threatening in my last post – her is the Engine Room part 2! *snickers*

Today with something more naughty, but still in a vintage, maybe today more dieselpunk looking way. Now you might scratch your head and think… usually she talks about steampunk and now she throws in a new word called “dieselpunk”, but actually it is a different genre, even if there is a lot of cross over happening in fashion. Lets take a look at the “Dieselpunk Encyclopedia“…

“Dieselpunk is a style and a budding sub-culture that combines the zeitgeist of the interbellum period through World War II and ending before or at the early 1950s with postmodern sensibilities from a counter-cultural viewpoint…”

“Dieselpunk fashion blends the styles commonly found during the diesel era with contemporary styles to create a fusion of both. The “punk” nature of the subculture comes from expressing a more complete presence in public akin to the fashion styles popular during the diesel era such as waistcoats, covered arms, hosiery, styles of shoes, and head wear to name a few. Military and paramilitary also counts, especially related to genre icons. Dieselpunk emphasizes the inclusion of such accouterments to render one’s look “complete,” in defiance of modern custom.

The now defunct blog Gearing Up was one of the first web sites dedicated to dieselpunk fashion. Despite its domain name (dieselpunk.net) it promoted mostly steampunk costumes and accessories but also helped to define the style and to point out the difference between Diesel and Steam… Generally, dieselpunk fashion is not (and never was) restricted to formal dress or military uniform. It includes a broad range of styles, from 1930s colonial to 1940s bomber jackets, from posh zoot suits to humble working-class overalls. Sometimes a light touch of style, like a vintage wristwatch, a pair of Art Deco earrings or an old-fashioned petrol lighter, is sufficient for a fashion-conscious dieselpunk.”

I tried to archive that look with some of the releases from the Engine Room certainly 🙂

When I saw that awesome bondage crane from Dictator Shop while I was wearing that super naughty, but kick ass cool and military looking “Disciplinarian” dress from CerberusXing, the dieselpunk idea was born in my mind. I do love the combination of steel and military inspired fashion with a little touch of fetish as well 😉

First I was tempted to cover up my chest with a black bra, but then I thought that would drag away the attention off the dress too much and when I found that cool nipple piercings in my inventory, which had a touch of a military decoration, the desicion was made.

The incredible detailed and interesting face art was made by Skye Nefekalum, an artist and friend which I do admire for along time for his creativity and skills. The “Shaman Series – Earth” is one of an amazing series of the 4 elements and it does come in black, color and one white/tintable version as an Omega applier. With that it is compatible with most of the mesh heads in Second Life.

What really caught my eyes are the “Mistic Glasses” from The White Crow. They do come with a tattoo for face and body, but for this post I only used the body part or it to not mix up the face art I already was wearing. The interesting part of the glasses are that they are “pierced” into your nose and do not have frame temples at the sides – those of you who know me, know that I LOVE such things 😉 They are available in 3 different colors and are resizable so you can customize them perfectly to your head.

To get an even more dominant touch for my pictures, I did add three of the “Unfortunate Destiny Mannequins” and put the new “Plague Masks” on them, which you can wear yourself a well as you can see in my last post (HERE) – so I was able to show all the colors that are available at the event 😉

The Engine Room is open until the 20th or October and again this will not be my last post – I am already working on the next look and pictures *winks*

Clothing

Dress: [CX] – “Disciplinarian – Original” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Accessories

Hat: !R! – “Peaked Cap/Wearble” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Glasses: -[TWC]- – “Mistic Glasses – Reading” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Collar: +AH+ – “Pampering Collar”

Piercing 1: IMMODEST – “Downfall Septum”

Piercing 2: Blaxium – “Dangerous Bento Piercing – Simone” (LeLutka Simone, Bento)

Piercing 3: .::Supernatural::. – “Sweet angel Nipple Piercing [Gold]”

Bracelets: Gemini – “Sis Bracelets” (Maitreya)

Rings: : CULT : – “Rou Rings Set” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nailpolish: DP – Koffin Nails – “Neo-Victorian Keys” (Maitreya Applier) – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Hair & Makeup

Hair: .Entwined. – “Nyx B”

Face Art: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Shaman Series – Earth (White/Tintable)” (Omega Applier) – NEW

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “London” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Akasuna”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Right Arm: Wicca’s Originals – “Eagleden Arms” (Maitreya, Bento) – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Tattoo: -[TWC]- – “Mistic” (Omega Applier, part of the glasses) – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

[Ds] – “Vindustria Bondage Crane – Adult OMNI v1” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

::Static:: – “Unfortunate Destiny Mannequin” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

::Static:: – “Plague Mask – Caged {Worn Hide}”, “Plague Mask – Aperture {Worn Pale}” & “Plague Mask – Caged {Worn Coal}” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

From little Seeds great Flowers grow…

“She limped, unaided around the house, like a bird with its wing broken. Tame, because it couldn’t fly away. All her time was taken up with managing herself, working out new ways to do things. Being a different person in the world.”
[ Joan London, The Golden Age ]

I guess I never had  more opposite posts back to back  than the last and today’s… maybe thats because my life at the moment is a little bit upside down and huge changes are about to come. I do have mixed feelings about it, as I did not really plan those, but sometimes you just get forced to make changes and you have to adapt the situation and make the best out of it for yourself.

But then, like I wrote yesterday… I always wanted the freedom to do what ever I want on my personal blog and so I hope you all don’t mind a black/silver against white/gold contrast 😉

It was always something I thought a lot about. When I started modeling, we were taught, that we should find our personal style. Back then it was like either you are a casual person, a formal one, am avant garde one or one of those kind of styles that we all know. I never felt ‘home’ in one style genre only and so I started to call my personal style weird or crazy to at least have category if I was asked about. I do not know where all that comes from, but it is not only happening in Second Life. In real life I am a musician, but as well a teacher and I do give private lessons for instruments and songwriting and I do work for a record studio playing the bass sometimes, too. I never had the desire to have a nine-to-five job, more than that I even was scared about the thought to have to do the same every day in a certain time frame. Certainly it would be easier and you could plan your free-time better, but I guess I would miss something just having one job.

It isn’t the first time that a chapter of the book of my life closes (sometimes I had to close them my self, too) and so I know if one closes another one will open. Just the time until that happens is sometimes a bit scary, as you never know what it will be. Usually those kind of “in-between” times only happen if you didn’t close the chapter yourself. Mostly they do happen, if you didn’t plan any changes and all of a sudden for no reason others decide to screw you over with lies and gossips that aren’t even true. First I tried to fight against that, but if you have 4 people gained up against you they can pretty much tell everything and being their own witnesses for their lies. First it dragged me down a lot and I was trying to find a way how I still could prove the truth, but the longer it did happen, the more I came to the point that it would be senseless. So I had to change my tactics and just make my peace with it and find new ways for myself. It would have been an unnecessary waste of power and time to keep on fighting in the end.

So I am looking forward to what will come. Things have come up to my mind already and now just need to grow and being developed more. That already feels much better than the time of uncertainty, where you have no clue what you are going to. Maybe that’s why I found parts of my creativity back, too and have fun taking pictures again even if they are a little bit weird *winks*

For now I will be on holidays and try to get some rest from all the past half a year crap. I know things will move on, as they always have and every time it happened, there was something new for  me that I really enjoyed. Even if that sounds old and lame sometimes and in the middle of frustrating and depressing times you neither want to hear or see it – Life has so much to give and there always will be ways to find new perspectives. Recently I found a quote, first I read it was from Sigmund Freud, but when I looked it up, there wasn’t any prove for that and no one really knows where it came from, but it does fit so perfectly for now and I like it a lot. I even thought, if I should put it on a sign and place it at my desktop somewhere, so I can look at it if I get bad feelings about the whole situation again. Maybe it makes a great closing sentence for today’s post *grins*

“Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self esteem, first make sure you are not, in fact, just surrounded by assholes.”

Clothing

Dress: CURELESS[+] – “Pygmalion’s Bride / M / Galatea Bridal Gown” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Gloves: CURELESS[+] – “Pygmalion’s Bride / M / Galatea Gloves” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Accessories

Collar: .Charm. – “Skai Collar” (Store closed)

Piercing: [CX] – “Bitten 2017”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Arrest”

Eyeshadow 1: Nanika – “Gold Eyeshadow” (LeLutka Applier)

Eyeshadow 2: Zibska – “Lennie” (LeLutka Applier)

Face Art: Nanika – “Serena Gold” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Legs: CURELESS[+] – “Pygmalion’s Bride / M / Galatea Legs / MARBLE” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Thauron Ears”

Eyes: .ARISE. – “Blind Eyes / Gold”

Skin: *YS&YS* – “Immortal Skin Applier” (LeLutka & Maitreya Applier)

Tattoo: Nanika – “Gold Sequins Mesh Body Applier” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Poseidon

Set:

E.V.E Studio – “WHISPER Petals {Gold}”  (Gacha, Rare)

E.V.E Studio – “Apple Flower M01”

E.V.E Studio – “Apple Flower M02”

E.V.E Studio – “Golden Apple”

E.V.E Studio – “Flowers of the Golden Apple”

E.V.E Studio – “Petals Path A {Gold}”

E.V.E Studio – “Petals Path B {Gold}”

E.V.E Studio – “Dancing Petals Dystopia in Bronze/Gold”

Air – “Road sign type A stand_gold_CM”

Air – “Road sign type C_gold_CM”

Air – “Road sign type D_gold_CM”

Air – “Road sign type E_gold_CM”

Air – “Lost Bravery stand(gold)_CM”

Air – “Lost Brain stand(gold)_CM”

DISORDERLY. – “Enchanted Extras / Beast’s Library Papers”

Raindale – “Elnaril floor candle holder (light gold)”

{anc} – “mannequin. MermaidPrincess(Adult)” (Gacha, Rare)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

The Dark Nun – My Journey of Blogging

It is still sunny and hot outside but I already desire the dark months again… maybe exactly because of that. I hate hot weather and I never was a huge friend of the sun.

Recently I watched the movie “The Nun” again. I do love mystic, horror movies a lot and the 2 Conjuring movies with the spin-offs of Anabelle and The Nun are just a must if you love that kind of genre 😉

So I guess The Nun was my inspiration for this when I saw the “Lost Saints ” gacha from ANTINATURAL[+] the first time. Like usual it took me a while before I found all my components and parts for my pictures, but I got used to that. I have a huge respect for those who get something at the release day and instantly have a cool idea what they could do with it for their pictures. I am not talking about the usual blogger pictures that are just showcasing the outfits (nothing wrong with them), but about those who make pictures that kinda tell stories or being made in an artistic way.

I remember times when I just blogged for blogging purposes like reviews, showcasing items, putting a simple stylecard and doing promotion for designers. Like I said before there is nothing wrong with that, but after 10 years of blogging I had to find something different for me as blogging started to feel like a duty only and the fun started to vanish. I started originally with one picture and a style card and never had more than one or two sentences to it. Back then it was cool as I could kinda pump out up to 7 posts per day. Back then we didn’t have any kind of windlight, shadows or meshes, so it was way more easy to shoot pictures and post process them lightly. Usually the only thing I did was to put me in front of a colored background, have more than one view of myself or closeups in the picture and in the end I added a shadow to give it at least some depth (EXAMPLE). Back then I felt really cool with doing that, as it did it’s purpose to showcase designers work as best as I could. Those damn shadows and the desire to have myself more than once on my pictures or have some closeups were the reason why I started to learn Photoshop back then *giggles*

Over the time I tried various things to develop my picture skills and to find new ways how I could showcase designers work properly. I tried simple backgrounds, busy ones and I tried the green-screening and having completely different backgrounds that did not came from Second Life. The last one I did not try for too long as it did not look right for me and I really wanted to keep my pictures taken in SL. I never had the desire to merge SL snapshots into RL pictures or backgrounds and so I gave up on that trend relatively quick. While I started with square pictures (512×512) I figured out fast, that other rations can look way more interesting and attractive. After experimenting quite a while with sizes and formats, I found out that I do love 4:3 (3:4 as well) ratio the most.

Back in 2009, blogging wasn’t as popular as it is today and as a model we were told we should do pictures of have a blog to showcase our styling skills away from the runway shows and vendor shots where the designers kinda put their own visions on us. It was a way to interpret clothing different than the designer initially did, but still it was a way to promote the designs and show that they could have different ways of styles and could attract different groups of people. I had the most fun to fool around with gowns, away from being just beautiful and pretty *grins*

First I was told if I keep on doing such things, like wearing gowns with shaved hair and piercings,  pull simple casual outfits to something wicked and dark with accessories and the location/set I was using, mix and match different outfits together or even use accessories away from their original purpose, I would damage my reputation and no one ever would give me things to blog anymore. I was new into the business back then and a little scared that those who already worked in the fashion industry would be right. So I calmed down again and went on with mainstream pictures again. Then something really funny happened. Designers, fellow models and some other people IMed me asking me why I would go back to those “boring” styles again. That was a wakeup call for me. Even if my ideas were unconventional and different, there were some people who enjoyed that as much as I do. I screwed the thought and the anxiety about my weird ideas and went back to what I really enjoyed. But I always made sure to not distort designers work with too weird poses and later on, when we got windlight, shadows and lights, to not change the color of an outfit or have things too dark so you could not anymore see them. I wanted to have more than one picture, so that I could tell a little story with them. To the same time it would give me the possibility to again focus on details in different pictures. I made the decision to put more pictures on my blog post and have one reference picture (mostly the one I loved the most) displayed on Flickr.  That all kept my pictures weird for my styles but in general relatively simple, as they looked flat without any emotion and depth. For quite a while that was ok for me and I enjoyed, that I could live my craziness of styles and got new sponsors now and then (EXAMPLE).

Again I came across a point where I had the desire to change something as I wanted to have more emotions and feelings in my pictures. When we got windlight, shadows and lights, I found out that you can create cool, dramatic shots with a strong light and shadow combination and a powerful windlight. But there was the other side of the coin… with deep shadows some details started to vanish and first I had the feeling I  should not do that as it does hide designers work too much. The more I tried, the less I could resist to all those new features and I that seriously put me on the horns of a dilemma. I wanted to do more artistic pictures that have more content than just the clothing that I was wearing, but how I could do that if I loose details to the dark. When bento came to Second Life it was even worse, as pose creators started to make more crazy poses and with my 4:3 ratio pictures I didn’t want to use standing poses only anymore where I had more background than avatar on the picture. I had so many awesome sponsors (if I now look back, it were too many) and I wanted to satisfy them all. I wasn’t able to have a combination of blog pictures and personal pictures done, as I had so many deadlines and outfits that I had to blog. There was a point where everything became too much and blogging or making pictures became a burden and nearly all the fun had vanished. I had to make a decision – either I go on like usual and loose all my interest in blogging, Second Life and everything I loved, or I have to change something drastically and revamp my blog.

It wasn’t an easy decision as I had the feeling I do have to let my sponsors go, when I cannot satisfy them anymore. I left a few and as well explained to them why I had to. A handful of my sponsors really surprised me, when they told me they would still like to keep me and see where my journey would go to – I never ever expected that!

I took a few weeks off and started to reconsider my blog and pictures. During that time I watched a lot of Photoshop tutorials and learned a lot of new techniques about photo editing. When I came back I was full of energy and started to play with lights, projectors and shadows and experimented with all the new things I learned in Photoshop. It was a complete new freedom and feeling and I found all the fun back, that I missed so much. I am a very self-critical person and so even if the fun was back I felt there was missing something, as many times the pictures looked ok but not “cool”. That was when Silly told me about VISONAIRE. First I thought, why I should take a course if I can have all the tutorials and information on the Internet as well? But the more I thought about the more I did remember, how much I loved attending classes and workshops in my life. So I signed up and I have to tell you, I do not regret any second! (If you want to know more about my VISIONAIRE experience you can look HERE) It was a completely different experience and it did teach me a lot about things that I never thought of and just did because I felt it looks nice. What was again a huge surprise, with my new way of pictures (I did not dare to apply as a blogger at too many places anymore) I got requested as a blogger or even got flickr mails where designers or blogger managers invited me to join their blogger team. That certainly was the most awesome thing that could happen – I do what I enjoy and others do enjoy my new way of blogging too!

I am sure, there will be times, when the desire of changes will come up again, but for now I really do enjoy blogging and taking pictures again 🙂

Clothing

Outfit: ANTINATURAL[+] – “Lost Saints / Unsainted Nun / Mini” (Gacha, Rare)

Veil: ANTINATURAL[+] – “Lost Saints / Unsainted Nun / Veil” (Gacha, Rare)

Shoes: ANTINATURAL[+] – “Lost Saints / Leather Boots” (Gacha, Rare)

Accessories

Wrist Armor: ANTINATURAL[+] – “Lost Saints / Gold Gauntlets” (Gacha, Rare)

Tounge Piercings: LeLutka – “BDYART-TBRBL” (Bento)

Headpiece: ANTINATURAL[+] – “Lost Saints / Sacred Silence / Gold” (Gacha, Common)

Horns: ANTINATURAL[+] – “Lost Saints / Gilded Horns / Gold” (Gacha, Common)

Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Tunderstrike Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nails: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Obsess Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Entwined – “Jana”

Eyemakeup: CURELESS[+] – “Undereye Lines & Eyeliner” (Omega Applier)

Forehead: CURELESS[+] – “Onibi Markings” (Omega Applier)

Wounds: .{PSYCHO:Byts}. – “Badass Fighter” (Omega Applier)

Lips: LeLutka – “Beast Applier” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Korina 3.3” (Bento)

Teeth: LeLutka – “Beast Teeth 1.1” (Bento)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1” (Bento)

Skin: *YS&YS* – “Immortal Skin” (LeLutka & Maitreya Applier)

Eyes: ANATOMY – “Reflect Eyes – Albino”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Gormory Ears”

Poses & Props

Poses: Poseidon – “Evil Nurse”, “Puppeteer”, “Hil Nurse” & “Morgue”

Background: SEMPITERNAL – “[The Forbidden Room]”

Table & Dishes: DRD – “Black Widow Tea Table”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin