My Decision…

Not too long ago a very close friend of mine, Seaside, was IMing me, asking if I would be ok. First I was wondering why she would ask me that, but then she told me she was following my flickr and the latest, and very dark pictures did concern her. I thought that was very sweet and I tried to explain to her why I do have this super dark and destructive side as well. I was suffering of depressions a very long time of my life and I sometimes still do, but I learning to live and work with them. So if I do those very dark and morbid pictures, to me it is like checking up on an old friend, deep inside of me. This friend will never leave me, but we both learned how to co-exist. I just have to go there sometimes, to check on him and if he still is there in place, where I put him a long time ago. I do not know if that makes sense, but for me it is kinda like therapy and it does work out 90% of the time. The hard times, where I often was close to the moment of giving up, or even tried to give up are gone and that is what counts for me.

For quite some time, I did not want to see that. I thought with medicine, pills and therapy I can make it go away – I just wanted to ‘heal’. After many different attempts to do that, I met a wonderful person, that to me was more valuable than every therapist I ever met before. He was a therapist too, but I did not met him as a patient, I met him at one of my concerts and we became friends over the time. After we met several times we had a discussion about depressions and he gave me a completely new view on it. He told me, depressions would be kinda the same thing as being alcohol addicted, you can fight the symptoms, but not the facts, case or reasons. He stated, that I can decide, if I let the depressions take over my life or if I take control over the depressions. That sounds very easy , but it is not and I probably would not have been able to do that without any help. I was very lucky to have real friends and family, who helped me over the time of the learning process and it was not done in just a few weeks – it took years.

I decided to take control – even if I maybe never will have 100% of control, it made my life way easier that to just give up and live for the depressions. I wanted more from my life that what my depressions would have allowed me to do. But like I said before, sometimes that ‘old friend’ knocks at my door and I have to decide if I let him in, or if I just go out with him for a while or even go visit him at his place, where I can leave him when ever I want.

I know, depressions can be very different and there is no general solution for that, but you always have decision to fight against or to give up – I never won’t judge over someones decision, as either of both is an option to choose and while one can be good for someone, it can be bad for another person.

I hope, I could make sense with my words – English is not my first language πŸ˜‰

Outfit & Accessories

Outfit: Enfant Terrible – “Kimi” (Maitreya)

Boots: Blueberry – “Celia Boots – High Heels” (Maitreya)

Rings: Elle Boutique – “Bloom” (Maitreya, Bento)

Collar: Salt & Pepper – “Slumber Party” (Gacha, Rare)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Role”

Makeup: Zibska – “Mina Liner” (LeLutka Applier, Ltd. Gift)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLeutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Anon” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Prop: R.O.T. – “End Nature”

Poses: Foxcity – “Stairs (Sitting)” (Bento)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Fallen Angel

Fallen Angel

Late at night I could hear the crying
I hear it all, trying to fall asleep
When all the love around you is dying
You do it all for my own protection
You make me feel like I’ll be okay
Still I have so many questions
How do you stay so strong?
How did you hide it all for so long?
How can I take the pain away?

How can I save,
A fallen angel, in the dark
Never thought you’d fall so far
Fallen angel, close your eyes
I won’t let you fall tonight
Fallen angel, just let go
You don’t have to be alone
Fallen angel, close your eyes
I won’t let you fall tonight
I was right beside you
When you went to hell and back again
I was right beside you
When you went to hell and back again
And I, I couldn’t save, a fallen angel
A fallen angel, in the dark

Never thought you’d fall so far
Fallen angel, close your eyes
I won’t let you fall tonight
Fallen angel, just let go
You don’t have to be alone
Fallen angel, close your eyes
I won’t let you fall tonight
Fallen angel
[Three Days Grace]

Outfit & Accessories

Outfit: [Glitzz] – “Melinda Body” (Maitreya)
Shoes: A&Y Cybernetics – “Aglaya Latex Cyber Boots” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fetish Fair 2018 / 2nd Edition
Collar: .:Avanti:. – “Nayomi”
Horns & Septum: [CX] – “Wicket Beast”
Wings: Blueberry – “Oakley Wings-Black” (Gacha, Rare)
Headpiece: CURELESS [+] & DISORDERLY – “Dollhouse Survivors / Handy Tiara-Burnt” (Gacha)
Forehead: CURELESS [+] – “Leonius Marking”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Shield”
Hair Straints on the Closeup: Rayne Morgan (highly edited)

Body & Tattoos

Head: CURELESS [+] – “Luxurious Dolls / RARE / The Crystallized Doll Head” (Gacha, Rare)
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Arms: CURELESS [+] – “Melodic Doll Arms” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)
Tattoo: CURELESS [+] – “Divine Delineation” (Maitreya Applier, Group Gift)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity
Backdrop: %anxiety – “Catacomb”

Model & Photographer

Weird Fishes – Or is it me?

 

TUNES

Weird Fishes

In the deepest ocean
The bottom of the sea
Your eyes
They turn me

Why should I stay here?
Why should I stay?

I’d be crazy not to follow
Follow where you lead
Your eyes
They turn me
Turn me into phantoms
I follow to the edge
Of the earth
And fall off

Β 

Yeah, everybody leaves
If they get the chance
And this…
is my chance

I get eaten by the worms
And weird fishes
Picked over by the worms
And weird fishes

Weird fishes
Weird fishes

Yeah I, I’ll hit the bottom
Hit the bottom and escape
Escape

I, I hit the bottom
Hit the bottom and escape
Escape

[Radiohead]

Details

Dress: [sYs] – “Klio” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Blueberry – “Cupcake Boots” (Maitreya)

Hair: [sYs] – “Hanabusa”

Rings: MEVA – “Bento Boho Rings” (Maitreya)

Basics

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Shape: Selfmade

Set & Props

Fish: [Black Bantam] – “The Friendly Fish Roped 04” (Gacha)

Clock: darkendStare. – “Cat Wall Clocks [Black/Orange Painted]”

Rain & Grass: E.V.E Studio – “Poison Rain {Gold}” & “Poison Rain Spikes Grass M01{Gold}”

“Burtonesque”

I sense there’s something in the wind, that feels like tragedy’s at hand.

And though I’d like to stand by him, can’t shake this feeling that we have.

The worst is just around the bend.

And does he notice my feelings for him?

And will he see how much he means to me?

I think it’s not to be.

[Sally, Nightmare before Christmas]

That I am a Tim Burton lover is not a secret. I love the movies and I as well love t he architecture and the clothing that is used in all of the movies. Anyways if Nightmare before Christmas, Corpse Bride or Beetlejuice ( and so many others certainly) – I am an addicted and saw them all more than once πŸ˜‰ I love the dark humor and the way how Tim Burton expresses things in his movies.

When I saw the “Elvina” outfit from .AiShA., I instantly had a ‘Buronesque’ idea in mind.

The striped leggings immediately pulled the “Burton” trigger in me :p

When I was looking for some furniture for my set, I just typed ‘Burton’ in my inventory search and had a lot of things coming up, that I already forgot that I have them!

I played around with the “Inspired by Burton” set from 22769 and completed the set with a bookshelf from Toiz and some parts of the “Burton Tea Party” from Cheeky Pea. I liked the shelf with the books falling out so much for the whole scene πŸ˜‰

It was really hard to choose from all the snaps I had – I had so much fun playing with the set and all of my Poseidon poses πŸ˜‰

Details

Outfit & Hat: .AiShA. – “Elvina” (Maitreya, Gacha items)

Shoes: Blueberry – “Fire Boots” (Maitreya)

Lingerie: ::c.A.:: – “Thea Bodysuit”

Hair: EMO-tions – “Lynette”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “FreeLove” (Maitreya Applier)

Mask: BackBone – “Leather Crow Mask”

Makeup: Zibska – “Nerine” (Lelutka Aplpplier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Powie Lips” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses: Poseidon

Set: 22769 – “Inspired by Burton”, :CP: – “Burton Tea Party” & Toiz – “S.T.A.Y bookshelf”

Basics:
Head: LeLutka – β€œSimone 2.7”
Body: Maitreya – β€œLara V4.1”
Eyes: IKON – β€œHope Eyes”
Shape: Selfmade

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Thinking of Skulls & Roses

Wicca & Dahriel 6

Today I have the pleasure to announce the reopening of the House of Elliot. Today at 2PM SLT,Β  Zaryna will reopen her store and she already gave me a preview of her new creations. I was so happy as I arrived at the studio and saw that Dahriel had the male version of it and it totally hit me as Dahriel asked to do it together with a pic. He made a special pose for that called “Thinking” and it looks so amazing emotional to me and I was totally in love already, as we snapped the picture.

Lets take a closer look in the “Skulls & Roses” outfit. The whole outfit is mesh made and you can wear it with or without long pants to it. For the pictures I decided to go without the pants since Dahriel was wearing them πŸ˜‰ The body and the hood are separate mesh prims and you can decide how you wanna style it up. The wonderful texture reminded me on some of the Ed Hardy creations with all the skulls and roses on it and I love that style anyways πŸ™‚ We decided to go with sneakers and make the more cool kinds look with the “Skulls & Roses”, but you can for sure style it elegant as well.

Speaking of the pose that Dahriel made, for that wonderful “Skulls & Roses” couple, he as well has new group gifts for February and I guess he liked the “Skulls & Roses” outfit as much as I do and so he snapped the vendor pics for the February group gifts for PosESioN right away after we did the couple one πŸ˜‰ –Β  and yes guys there is a male pose as a group gift as well so… do not miss that!

So, to make a long story short… do not forget to join the reopening party of House of Elliot today at the new Mainstore, do not forget to join the PosESioN group for the amazing February group gifts for male and female and when you are already at the PosESioN Mainstore you can take a look at the new “Thinking” couple pose πŸ˜‰

February Gift Female

Details

Outfit: House of Elliot – “Skulls & Roses” – NEW (mesh)

Facetattoo: House of Elliot – “Black Face Tat”

Fishnets: *Thalia* – “Fishnet Pantyhose with Seam”

Shoes: Blueberry – “Knee High Sneaker Boots” (mesh)

Nails: Formanails – “Stiletto”

Skin: Silken Moon – “Wicca”

Ring: (NS) – “Vicious Rose”

Tattoo: v3 Tattoo – “Nothing left but Hate”

Hairbase: Tuty’s – “Limbo”

Couple Pose: PosESioN – “Thinking” – NEW

SinglePose: PosESioN – “February Gift Female” – NEW

Models: Dahriel & Wicca

Photographer: Dahriel