Illusion – Sometimes you wish…

Illusion

I know it’s hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt, I don’t want you to change
Because everyone has hopes, you’re human after all
The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand. Please, don’t cry now

Being like you are
Well this is something else, who would comprehend?
But some that do, lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them
That’s not what I believe, and it doesn’t matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last, but I’m still not sure
But what I do know, is to us the world is different
As we are to the world but I guess you would know that

Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, oh please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to change
For all the hurt that you feel
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you
[VNV Nation]

VIDEO

This video, inspired me for today’s post. In the moment when I saw the amazing “Uh Oh Makeup” from Slackgirl.
We all know that – sometimes we desire to be something or someone else. Those moments when all those self-doubts devour you from the inside and you just wish to escape your own body or the situation that you are in. But would that really be worth it? It might seem easier on the first view but would you not miss your past, all the things that made you to what you are now? Would this new desire not make it even worse? Would this moment not come again some when – a new desire to again be someone or something else?
I do think those moments let us grow. Each time they happen and we work them through we gain experiences and as well come out of them even stronger.
Secondlife to me was such an escape in the past. When my RL turned upside down, Wicca was my refuge. I know how crazy that must sound, but others find their hide out in alcohol and drugs so for that amount of time where it was really bad, I am happy I had Wicca instead. I always was aware of, that it was a running from reality and I never believed SL could be any kind of reality than a virtual one. So I was well aware of what I did and did not lose myself in a virtual environment completely.
I know we all say, that we know Secondlife is a game and that we always can press the red “X” on the right upper corner. But if you are in SL for 10 years, your avatar and the people around you as well as the things you do become a part of you. Certainly I would not go around and tell my RL friends I am a model in SL and that would count anything towards my RL… if that makes sense. But I can tell about a game that I play and that I use it as my free time fun like others use other things – for example surfing on the internet, doing YouTube videos, doing handicrafts or what ever they enjoy in their free time, besides work and socializing in real life.
Nowadays I am not going to SL to escape anymore. My online times are way shorter as they used to be back then and sometimes I do not log in for days when I have RL appointments or wanna meet friends. The purpose of login in changed, but I still do have fun with Secondlife – just different.
I still enjoy to do things that I could not do in real life and as well I do enjoy designing a lot. To me designing is kinda the same as for others doing handicrafts maybe. Producing something and see how something grows under your fingers until you have a final product. The same applies to blogging and making pictures 😉
Secondlife can be an addiction, yes as you can easily lose yourself in it, but if you are aware of that, it can be a nice hideout with lots of fun and meeting amazing people – some even might become part of your real life out there 🙂
For me Secondlife never could replace my real – I do love my life now, but it is a nice way to live parts of your dreams and illusions 😉
Details
Clothing & Accessories:
Outfit: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita – Onepiece” (Gacha, for the Galatea Doll Lolita Body)
Necklace: shanghai – “Xana”
Headpiece: [sys] – “Hecate”
Hair & Makeup:
Face Art: Slackgirl – “Uh Oh Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo:
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”
Skin: YS&YS – “Immortal Skin” (LeLutka Applier)
Body: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita Body” (Gacha, Rare)
Props & Poses:
Fruct0se & Poseidon
Model & Photographer:

Wicca’s Wardrobe: Pinabella

Pinabella

You all know how it is with famous brothers, everybody knows them. But did you know that Pinocchio had a little sister? After he met the sad Fairy on his journey, she felt lonely. She decided to ask Master Geppetto to carve her a doll she could bring to life and raise as the child she could not have any other way.

The dollmaker granted her wish, because she helped his son so much to find the right way and finally become a real boy. He carved the most beautiful doll and gave it to the fairy. She was overwhelmed when her little doll came to life and promised her to make her Pinabella a real girl when the dolly had proven her character.

When the doll grew older, the fairy was pleased how her daughter turned out to be. One day, she talked to her about making her a real girl. Pinabella did not know what to think of that, because she never felt wrong about being what she was. But as it seemed to be important to her mom, she agreed.

They went to a nearby lake to transform the doll. The fairy gave her the kiss of life. She had thought her power to create life was endless, but alas, it was not. As she watched her daughter turning into a beautiful young woman, she saw her eyes widening with shock. Only then she realized her own spark was fleeing her body and she was vanishing from this world to enter the next one. She only managed to tell her daughter that she loved her and to be as good a human as she had been a doll.

The girl stood there shattered her mother had left her. Thus, losing her life for hers. Only when the first shock left her, she cried bitter tears of loss and loneliness. From that day on, Pinabella went to the lake every day to cry for her mother. And sometimes, when her misery was just too much she heard her mother‘s voice in the wind, soothing her like she had always done: „Hushhhhhhhh.“

Details

Dress (incl necklace and hat): Ezura – “Peu Loli”

Shoes: Ezura – “Peu Loli Floral Shoes”

Nails: Formanails – “Kuralisa”

Hair: DeLa – “Marley” (mesh) – “Kuralisa”

Socks: [SB] – “Knit Suspender Socks”

Make-Up: YaYo – “Running Mascara”

Skin: Silken Moon – “Wicca”

Poses: In-Pose – “Sad Wicca” (Trinity… again you helped me as I was despairing with making and searching poses for this post. Thank you so much for being you, a friend of mine and being there for me  🙂 )

Story: Malicia Python (Thank you so much Malicia, you are a never ending ending sea of inspiration, ideas and kindness. It is an honor for me to call you a friend 🙂 )

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Broken Beauty with eXxEsS

Gown (incl boots, necklace & armlets): eXxEsS – “Aeterna” – NEW

Earrings: Finesmith – “Vivienne”

Nails: Finesmith – “Black Onyx”

Skin: Silken Moon – “Rookie” (special custom makeup)

Eyeliner: Silken Moon – “Wicca”

Facetattoo: PurpleMoon – “Spooky Cracked Face”

Hair: eXxEsS – “Scorpio”

Poses: Corpus

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Cute News by Ezura!!!

Ezura‘s latest release really is one of the most cute things I got lately. The sweet “Lolita Latex” dress really touched my ‘dolly heart’ 😉 I had to style it the cute way at least once 🙂 The short latex, flexi skirt perfectly goes with the “Lolita Latex” boots (sold seperately) in color and style. The corsage makes a strict and tight contrast to the puffy ruffles and the little brooch of the top.

As we know from Ezura, she always acts like a perfectionist if it comes to designs and textures. Latex is one of the most difficult texture to do in SL I was told by many designers, because of the lightnings and shadows to produce this typical shine. As we can see on this dress Ezura did an amazing job and made it as realistic as possible.

The dress is available in many different colors and for the “Twisted  Krissmuss Event”   Ezura made a special color, wich I liked a lot as well.

All prims do have resizer in it so that you can fit it perfectly to your avatar. For the skirt you have the flexi prim option that I have on my pics and as well a sculpted non flexi one. To see more of Ezura‘s latest releases or to see all the colors (black, red, blue, yellow, pink, purple) of the “Lolita Latex” dress you better make your way to the Ezura Mainstore and take a look by yourself 😉

As well Ezura celebrates her 3rd Anniversary with a special event and sale.

(texture provided by Ezura)

For her inworld group she made a special gift what is as well amazing for the holiday season.

(textures provided by Ezura)

Details

Look 1:

Dress: Ezura – “Lolita Latex” /blue – NEW

Boots: Ezura – “Lolita Latex Boots” /blue – NEW

Hair: Tukinowaguma – “Jubatus”

Nails: Finesmith – “Snowflake”

Makeup: LovelyMi

Lipstick: L. Fauna

Lashes: Redgrave

Look 2:

Dress: Ezura – “Lolita Latex” – Krissmuss Special – NEW

Boots: Ezura – “Lolita Latex Boots” – Krissmuss Special – NEW

Jewelry: Finesmith – “Winter Flower”

Hair: Vanity Hair

Makeup: Miamai

Lipstick: L. Fauna

Poses: Di’s Opera

Model & Photographer (Pic 1-4): Wicca Merlin