Freak Show – Am I a freak? Are you a freak?

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I’ll tell you who the monsters are! The people outside this tent! In your town, in all these little towns. Housewives pinched with bitterness, stupefied with boredom as they doze off in front of their laundry detergent commercials, and dream of strange, erotic pleasures. They have no souls. My monsters, the ones you call depraved, they are the beautiful, heroic ones. They offer their oddity to the world. They provide a laugh, or a fright, to people in need of entertainment. Everyone is living the life they chose. But you, you undoubtedly will be one of those soulless monsters. Perhaps you already are.

[Elsa Mars // American Horror Story]

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In current usage, the word “freak” is commonly used to refer to a person with something strikingly unusual about their appearance or behaviour. This usage dates from the so-called freak scene of the 1960s and 1970s.

[Wikipedia]

So… what is a freak? Am I a freak?

To me the term freak never had any bad taste. In school people called me freak as I did  not look like anybody else. I had colored hair in deep hues and colors (red, green, blue)I used to have an undercut or s side cut and my clothing never matched the mainstream. I always had an addiction for punk and gothic fashions in RL as well. I never saw a reason to look like all the other girls, just because someone decided that this is an actual trend right now. During my teenager times it was not always easy. If you are called a freak or an outsider especially while you grow up and try to find yourself.. go figure. Several times I tried to level myself down, to what they called ‘mainstream or trendy’, but for whatever reason I always felt like dressing up for carnival and wearing a costume. It never took long before I went back to what I really liked, to again be called freak. Back then freak did hurt, but that changed big time, when I discovered that they just could not handle people who are different, but that was years later…

So I finished my school as the outsider with just a handful people in school I went along well, but each of them was worth a million more as the ‘hipsters’ in my class.

The I went to university to become a teacher, as iI wanted to prove my family I can do something ‘normal’ as well besides running to concerts and making music. That did last quite long and I really made my first exam quite fine. In germany there is required a second one after one year of guided teaching and when I had that first exam in my hands, I already felt that is the end of the street for me, since having the second year done would require to fit into what the guiding professor/teacher expects.

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The same time I was offered my first contract from a record label with one band I had back then. so that kinda made the decision easy, to leave the teacher thing behind with the first exam in my hands and finally turn towards the music scene, which I had desired before, but due to the family reasons not yet looked deeper into that just playing in some bands here and there.

It was not a huge contract, but it was my first and it was one :p and the more I walked into the music business, the more I discovered that way more musicians are freaks that everywhere else I was before*giggles* and I am using the word freak not in a bad way. So many great individuals, great open-minded people and all of a sudden being a freak did not mean to be an outsider anymore!

I had amazing 20 years in the music world before I thought about teaching at a school again.

I always had music students and tutored some kids if they could not follow the teachers in school with afternoon hours of trying to teach them maths, english or what ever was needed but never officially as a teacher more as a private mentor or tutor. Somewhen – about 4 years ago – I got a call from a school. They were asking if I would like to teach some guitar and bass guitar lessons for some kids of the school band, which they just started. It sounded exciting and I thought why not give it a try, especially because the principal was so amazing. He got told about me from a mother, tha had her child at his school, that was having bass guitar lessons from me for years. So I went there for a first meeting to meet the principal and talk about a few things since I was not the only one he called to find a music teacher for guitar and bass guitar. It was a wonderful experience and during our talk he told me he was a musician in his younger days as well, playing trumpet and trombone. I do not know how to say but in german we have a quote that says ‘The chemistry between us was right from the first moment”. Again I was an outsider, a freak with my clothing and my weird stylings at school but the kids liked it, as it was not the usual teacher look. To me it was totally new again to be an outsider but one the kids and as well my peers respected and as well liked…

I am still making music, play in bands and having fun, but I found a new chapter in my life which more and more puts me towards teaching at an official school.

Being a freak… once it did hurt be called like that, but nowadays I do not mind be called a freak or being an outsider, as I learned the most interesting people are freaks somehow and not squeezed into the mainstream 😉 Do not fear to be different.. life can be so much more exciting. You meet so much more interesting people if you dare watch over the border of the little plate we call life 😉

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Details

Outfit (incl. hat): !dM (Devious Mind) – “Dolly”

Tights: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Fishnet Tights” (Appliers only)

Gloves: Sweet Tea – “Formal Gloves Essentials”

Shoes: lassitude & enui – “Wicked Booties”

Cuffs: The Annex – “Lock Down”

Necklace: Empyrean Forge – “Apprize Charm” – NEW @ Enchantment

Hair: Adoness – “Eutychia”

Eyeshadow: Slackgirl – “Candy Shadow” – NEW @ Enchantment

Lipstick: Zibska – “Nereza” – NEW @ Enchantment

Lollipops: Aisha – “Lolipop Patch” – NEW @ Enchantment

Glitter: E.V.E Studio – “Koi Glitter Puffs”

Poses: Poseidon & Aliud

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

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Circus! – Faster Pussycat meets Machoire

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I have no clue how this idea was born…

That was one of the moments when you go over your wardrobe and try to find some inspiration 😉

I wanted to do something special for the new “Ganta Heels” from Machoire.

The heels are not only shoes, they are an art piece, so they needed something extraordinary. What could be for such an idea the something from Faster Pussycat!

I saw the “Hydra” outfit during the popstars show at the 24 event last weekend and fell immediately in love with it, A corset paired with a two-part harness and those exciting, wild horn parts covering the waits and chest. There is as well a headpiece matching to them, which I did not use for today’s pictures.

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The beautiful and strong-looking tattoo is one of the newest releases from White Widow.  Julie Hastings made this one as her contribution to the ‘anyBODY – for applier lovers‘ event.

The while look had kinda a burlesque or even vintage circus feeling and so I was trying to make some pictures in that direction. The poses certainly had to be different for that too as I wanted to highlight the whole look. It is not always easy to drag the focus on shoes if you want to showcase the outfit as well 😉

The amazing, cool hair was made by Mirja Mills, owner and designer of EMO-tions.

I have a weakness for circus themes anyways especially the more vintage ones, so this pictures really were a lot of fun 🙂

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Details

Outfit: Faster Pussycat – “Hydra”

Shoes: Machoire – “Ganta Heels” – NEW

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Focus” – NEW (@ anyBODY)

Hair: EMO-tions – “Alicia”

Nail Polish: Nailed It! – “Diva Set”

Mesh Body, Hands & Feet: Slink

Poses: .Infiniti. – “Contort”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

!:Lybra:! for the Murder Mystery Hunt

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At the moment we have so many amazing hunts out on the grid, that you really have to manage your tie properly to do all of them :p.

For example, starting at Finesmith you have the “Murder Mystery” hunt (http://finesmithjewelry.blogspot.co.il/2013/11/finesmith-murder-mystery-hunt.html)

“News Flash!
Socialite WrenNoir Cerise has been murdered and burglarized! They took all of her Finesmith jewelry AND stabbed her FIVE times! They must have really wanted her dead!
We need your help to find her killer!”

14 designer have placed gifts that are each 10L$and as much as I understood it the 10L$ of every item will support the ASPCA.

Today I would like to spotlight the hunt item of Lybra. Lybra Rage made an amazing full outfit including the cool makeup for the Murder Mystery hunt. The outfit is called “Clown Couture” and it did remind me on some of the puppets I know from my childhood. So i could not resist to go with the puppet idea ;).

The “Clown Couture” has mesh pants, a mesh top and a mesh made neck corset. All are provided in several sizes to make sure it fits your avatar. The hat and the huge neck ruffles are part of the outfit and the amazing white-faced makeup with the typical clown expression as well. If you imagine to get that whole outfit for 10L$ only.. you better hurry and get your copy 😉

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Details

Outfit (incl. hat and makeup): !:Lybra:! – “Clown Couture” – NEW (mesh, Murder Mystery hunt item)

Shoes: Baiastice – “Oxa” (mesh)

Hair: LeLutka – “Rykiel”

Poses & Puppethanger: HelaMiyo

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

News by NV Corsetry & [sys]!

Today it was time to create a crazy art look again and the new “Commedia Del Arte” outfit from NV Corsetry combined with the new “Vogue” ankle boots from [sys] brought me on this style.

The “Commedia Del Arte” outfit is a full outfit that contains one of the incredible corsets of NV Corsetry. The outfit itself can be worn in different ways. You have 2 corsets to choose from, one with black and one with white ribbons. For this post I went with the black version. An alpha layer as well included makes it even easier to wear this amazing corsets, if you do not wanna fiddle around too much with the fitting :p. As well for the skirt you can decide if you wanna have the short mini version that I am wearing for the post ir if you wanna go with a bigger skirt that is open in the front. The wonderful puffy sleeves, the huge collar and the cute hat with the red roses are as well part of the full outfit.

To bring the red of the roses back I decided to go with the new “Vogue” ankle boots from [sys] The red version of this awesome booties has some dangerous looking cool spikes at the heel in the back. The red leather is just amazing detailed and looks very real. The heel is covered with silver metal plates and carry the hot sharp spike that you as well can see more little in the front. The back of the booties is open and just decorated with amazing filigree lines. To make it look perfect, [sys] included part of a barefoot for the back or the feet. You can tint that to match your skin color with a HUD that comes with.

To see all of the wonderful news of NV Corsetry &  [sys] just hop over to the Mainstore and take a look at yourself 😉

Details

Outfit (incl hat): NV Corsetry – “Commedia Del Arte” – NEW

Booties: [sys] – “Vogue” – NEW

Skin: Nuuna – “White Skin”

Lipstick: blackliquid – “Geisha Mime Lip Red”

Makeup: Nuuna – “Makeup v3.3”

Hair: Baiastice – “Shepa”

Hairbase: White Widow – “Japan Field”

Jewelry: Finesmith – “Hermosa Espina”

Lashes: Kosh – “No Alpha Lashes V3”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin