The last Key… Do you dare?

“Diabolical forces are formidable. These forces are eternal, and they exist today. The fairy tale is true. The devil exists. God exists. And for us, as people, our very destiny hinges upon which one we elect to follow.”

[Ed Warren]

Scary moments and moods! Again it was time for some creepy and horror inspired pictures *snickers*

This time it was the cool face tattoo from CURELESS[+] and the uber cool backdrop from CerberusXing that inspired me to do something dark and wicked. The “Crucifix Corridor” backdrop reminded me about a scene of the movie “The Nun” which lead me to 2 or my favorite horror movie series – Insidious and Conjuring with all its sequels and prequels. I never could decide which ones I loved more and so a little bot of all of them went into todays pictures.

You cannot make a picture with just a back drop and some face modifications, I thought and tried to put together a look that would work with what I wanted to showcase. Instantly the super awesome “Morgane Ribbon Heels” from [Gos] came to my mind. The were released for this month round of FaMESHed and I instantly fell in love with the way the ribbons reached down till the tip of the pumps. As always you get a wide range of colors with the HUD and as well the possibility to color the show and the ribbons, plus a few other details separately. I tried to show you a few possibilities above, but certainly you get way more than you can see up there 😉

For my outfit I chose and outfit I saw at the last round of ROMP, made by AsteroidBox and combined with the cool bracers from CerberusXing made the perfect look but still it looked a little bit too ‘cute’ for what I was looking for. With the cool horns from E.V.E and the evil hair from no.match I finally was satisfied with my look for what I had in mind. For the poses, always when I want to do something creepy and unusual, I went with the poses from Poseidon. I already wrote about them a couple of times, but I just cannot stop telling how awesome they are if you are looking for something that shows some action, or motions or something out of the mainstream looking.

I hope you enjoyed my little key keeper as much as I did and I will no go and watch some of the mentioned movies… maybe to get some more ideas for dark fantasy inspired pictures *wicked grin*

Clothing

Outfit: AsteroidBox – “Rosa Lingerie” (Maitreya)

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Harlot Stockings – Black” (Omega Applier)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Morgane Ribbon Heels – Boutique” (Maitreya) – NEW @ FaMESHed // November 2019

Accessories

Wings: [EC] – “Demon Wings (Destruction)” (Bento)

Horns: E.V.E – “Scatha Dark Knight Horns”

Arms: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme – Black” (Maitreya)

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Creature Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Second Eyes: CURELESS[+] – “Quattrocular Tattoo” (Omega Applier)

Lipstick: LeLutka – “Beast Applier” (LeLutka Applier)

Hair: no.match – “No.Evil” (GroupGift)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Bianca 3.4”

Eyes: CURELESS[+] – “Space Eyes”

Face: CURELESS[+] – “Ghoul” (Omega Applier)

Teeth: LeLutka – “Beast Teeth 1.1 for Bianca 3,4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Skin: CURELESS[+] – “Morphine” (Omega Applier)

Tattoo: Misschevious – “Do you love it – Good Girl” (Omega Applier, Gacha, Rare)

Shape: { wren’s nest } – “Eliza Proportional Shape” (lightly modified to fit the skin & face tattoo)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Poseidon

Backdrop: [CX] – “Crucifix Corridor”

Key 1:[Cubic Cherry] – “{Null} Key Earring” (I loved the shape so much I had to use it again as a prop)

Key Bundle: selfmade

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

There she walks with feet unmoving eternally…

TUNES

You are my endless disease
Die if you can if you please
Help me she lingers on and on
Now death ain’t so bad
My virus undead
[Beloved Enemy]

Most of the time we see humans being scared about undead or demons in movies and pictures… what about the thought of the undead fear the living to enter their world? That was the basic idea of todays post when I saw the “Deadly End Door”, a collaboration between CerberusXing and Insomnia Angel. Even if the hands are bloody and creepy that try to open that door from the other side, I had that imagination that this would not be the door to hell more the door from hell *snickers*

So lets take a look what the sweet little demon is wearing while she tries to hold the door from the living that try to enter her empire…

When I saw the “Anatomical Venus” gacha from CURELESS [+], I instantly did know, that I wanted to make a picture with it. Like so often, the right scenery wasn’t coming to my mind instantly and so it took a while until I did know what I wanted to do with it. When I saw the “Deadly End Door, it just fell all in place. First I thought the door would be just a part of a whole background set, but when I got it i saw it was only the door, but the colors matched the “Crucem Inverso” backdrop so perfectly that I just combined them. The huge skirt wasn’t easy to pose so I had to find poses that are not moving too much down from the hips, but as well are not too boring upwards from the hips. As so often I ended up just making some poses to express what I wanted to 😉 The whole scenery and outfit had some rich, brown tones and I wanted to add some more dramatic vibes to it. That was why I chose for red and green lights and some green smoke for the post processing of it. Even if Halloween is over already, I take the full advantage of the darker season to play with my visions and imaginations *winks* So that still won’t be the last post in that category as I really love the dark side more and more and we will see where it does push me for my next posts…

Clothing

Arms: CURELESS [+] – “Anatomical Venus /Pneuma Arms / GOLD” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Torso: CURELESS [+] – Anatomical Venus / Osseus Temple” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Skirt & Skeletons: CURELESS [+] – “Anatomical Venus / Mors Vincit” (Players Reward)

Accessories

Headpiece: CURELESS [+] – “Anatomical Venus / Dea Halo / GOLD” (Gacha, Common)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Analog Dog – “Midnight – Mix”

Faceart: CURELESS [+] – “Psychopomp Face” (Omega Applier)

Makeup: CURELESS [+] – “Undereye Lines & Eyeliner” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Aida 3.4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Skin: CURELESS [+] – “Anesthesia Skin / BEIGE” (Omega Applier)

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Thauron”

Eyes: LOTUS – “Noir Eyes 17” (Gacha, Rare)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Selfmade

Background: [CX] – “Crucem Inverso” & [CX] x Insomnia Angel – “Deadly End Door”

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“I’ll be there when your reality drowns!”

TUNES

You’ll be seein’ me in your dreams
Even when your reality drowns

There’s a bright side
To every wrong thing
If you’re lookin’ at me through the right eyes
Darkness in my name
Don’t you wanna come and play on the cool side
Don’t be so shy

There’s a pleasure in hidin’ from the sun
No I was never one for pretty weather
I’d rather be a creep, baby follow me into the water
I’ll take you to the darker

[Kailee Morgue]

Again I was in a freaky mood and since the Mermaid Cove event from Flair for Events, I do have a little Siren addiction *giggles*
When I saw the “Liquid Soul” gacha from :Moon Amore:, I was thinking quite a while what I could do with it. I wanted to do something artistic as the whole set screamed for it, but as well I did not want to make it too busy, to not distract from that great design too much. After trying several things from simple black backgrounds to some simple props that didn’t really make any sense, the siren idea came back to my mind and with the awesome halo, that makes the whole look even more wild, the idea was born! The idea to do some water shots again made me excited. While I was again using the sim of a close friend, since I do not have a huge water spot on our land. But all I tried .. Linden water didn’t do what I wanted. So I had to find something different. I went back on my platform to see what I could do to “fake” a water scene. After trying different things I just rezzed a blank white floor prim and put a water texture with a high transparency on top with a certain color I liked. In my case it even was a frozen water texture as the effect was kinda cool :). Later in my post processing, I used some water brushes with some more ripples and did just put it on top of the one I snapped inworld with 30% transparency to get the more rough sea feeling before I added some splashes to add a little action feeling and movement.

I immensely enjoy my freedom lately, to do interesting shoots and have extraordinary outfits from all over the grid, let my freak come out here and there more than usual and just let my mind fly to see what comes out in the end. Sometimes I do not even know myself what will be the end result, when I start fooling around with styling. It is possible, that I start with a complete different idea from what it will be in the end. Sometimes it even takes days until I am completely satisfied with the final result and then it takes me again some times – sometimes days – until I am happy with the post processing. It just feels amazing to have that freedom and time – I am grateful that designers still like me on their blogger list, even if I get dragged away by emotions, feelings, visions and new tutorials for post processing my pictures 😉 It means a lot to me that you trust me, bare with me and my funky ideas and time frames!

Clothing

Outfit: :Moon Amore: – “Liquid Soul / Tales of the Sea” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Gloves: Wicca’s Originals – “Ryn Gloves (Scales” (Maitreya, Bento) – NEW @ The Ark //September 2019

Shoes: :Moon Amore: – “Liquid Soul / Tap-Tap Shoes – Teal” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Accessories

Splashes: :Moon Amore: – “Liquid Soul / Fluids Halo – Water” (Gacha, Common)

Fishes: :Moon Amore: – “Liquid Soul / Lil Fish – Orange”

Fish: :Moon Amore: – “Liquid Soul / Shoal Fish – Orange”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: :Moon Amore: – “Liquid Soul / Brave Waves Hairstyle – Ginger” (Gacha, Common)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Skin: CURELESS[+] – “Morphine” (Omega & Maitreya Applier)

Teeth: LeLutka – “Beast Teeth 1.1”

Ears: ^^Swallow^^ – “Ears Elf HD”

Eyes: CURELESS [+] – “Lethe Eyes”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props

Poses: Poseidon

Props: E.V.E Studio – “Dancing Bubbles {White}”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Wicca’s Originals @ The Twisted Hunt + Update on our Bloodshed Gloves!

Wicca’s Originals @ The Twisted Hunt // September 2019

It’s time for the 11th annual Twisted Hunt and we are an official part of it! The hunt runs the entire month of September and we have our Bloodshed Gloves in a color exclusive to the Twisted Hunt. Our Bloodshed Gloves are designed to fit Lara, Freya and Hourglass. You can learn more about the Twisted Hunt by visiting https://www.twistedhunt.com/
To make it a little easier, I will give you a hint for finding the hunt gift: “Tick Tock, goes the clock, and what then shall we play?”
Due to popular demand we have updated our Bloodshed Gloves to not only fit Lara, but to fit Freya and Hourglass as well! Of course we have included a HUD to offer you 6 colors and 5 metals to choose from.

Something has grown in my chest…

If you are hearing this, there is nothing I can do
Something has grown in my chest.
And I have seen it.
It is hard and cold.
It’s been dormant for many years.
I have tried to save you, but I cannot come to save you
But this is what you deserve

[Marilyn Manson]

I know it might be a little early for Halloween visions, but since many events already had their applications out I fell in a light Halloween mood and I love to use that as my excuse for my dark, creepy side anyways *grins*

And I blame L’Emporio too, as they released such a kick ass, cool outfit at the oXXcuro event – just kidding, I love the outfit! It is a full outfit that contains garter, bolero, boots, corset, panties, sleeves, necklace, hat, bra, veil and pasties (last 3 I did not use for my post today). You as well get a HUD to color some parts in white, black or red like for example the crosses on the sleeves, the hat and the corset strings.

As I told you before, I was watching the “The Nun” movie not too long ago and when I saw that naughty nun  – plus my Halloween, creepy mood – I could not resist to do something dark 😉 When I was looking for a matching background, I remembered the cool “Crucem Inverso” backdrop from CerberusXing. I am anyways a [CX] addicted and so I just added some more [CX] with some piercings. When it comes to dark spooky looks, I love too use the tattoos and makeups from Cureless[+] and The White Crow. They always have such an amazing feel when it comes to the tiny boarder of creepy and disgusting 🙂 I love how much they stretch them selves out and still make it look stylish and cool, even if it is a super horrific design!

What came in handy as well  – and made the perfect addition to my look – are the “Gormory” ears from .:E.A.Studio:. With their huge crosses hanging down from the earlobe they just looked perfect. The ears come with a HUD as well to match your skin, choose your tattoo and a page for the metals as well to make sure they fit the rest of your style. The reason I did not use the original pasties from the outfit are just simple, I loved the upside-down cross looking ones so much to the look, that I just could not skip them 😉

Halloween comes closer and I guess, I just started my dark adventure through my favorite season. I hope I will find many dark and spooky things this year to be able to realize more of my horror visions I do already have – maybe even find or imagine some new ones 😉

Clothing

Outfit, Necklace & Shoes: L’Emporio – “Badessa” (Maitreya) – NEW @ oXXXcuro Event // August 2019

Pasties: Moon Elixir – “Gothique – 14 – Onyx Pasties” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Accessories

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Essential Dirty Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Septum: [CX] – “Drop Septum (Silver)”

Lip Piercing: [CX] – “Bitten 2017”

Hair & Makeup

Makeup 1: CURELESS[+] – “Undereye Lines & Eyeliner” (Omega Applier)

Makeup2: .ARISE. – “Kulo Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Lips & Chin: the crone – “heartbite”

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Skin: *YS&YS* – “Immortal Skin Applier” (LeLutka & Maitreya Applier)

Tattoo: -[TWC]- – “Okami Amaterasu V2” (Omega Applier)

Facetattoo: -[TWC]- – “Okami Amaterasu V2 III” (Omega Applier)

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Gormory”

Teeth: LeLutka – “Beast Teeth 1.1”

Eyes: Clemmm – “I’m Tired / Burn Out -Regular-“

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: [CX] – “Crucem Inverso”

Poses: Poseidon

Heart: CURELESS[+] – ” Valentine’s Heart” (without pose)

Face Animatin Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

 

Wicca’s Originals @ Mermaid Cove // July 2019

Wicca’s Originals @ Mermaid Cove (July 5th – 26th)

Whether you are the sort of mermaid associated with perilous events or the sort that is benevolent and falls in love with humans, our Amatheia Claws are perfect for any fashion-forward Mer. They are designed to fit Maitreya’s Lara, are Bento enabled, and come with that HUD that offers you 10 colors for the wrist band, chains, shells, and claws.

Taxi: Mermaid Cove by Flair for Events

 

I’m lost in a dream…

I’m lost in a dream, with a mind’s full of sadness,
I remember the good times, that we had in our madness,
Frozen tears with illusions of fire,
All of my life was filled with desire

[Axel Rudi Pell]

Sometimes you sit there, staring at your inventory and have no idea what you can do. You put on various outfits, dresses, pants, tops and nothing screams “Yes.. it’s me! Do something with me!” I am not saying, that all the stuff would be ugly or not nice… it all looks perfect and it is made amazingly, but just nothing touches you, nothing catches your eyes or heart.
There are moments in life where just nothing can grab your attention or drag your brain off some things that happen in your life. For me it was a RL situation, that really had tied up my brain and mind/mood completely. If you love your job and you put everything you have and can into it, if you even started a project and work on that for years and suddenly someone comes and tries to steal that from you and even get you kicked out from it, it really can go very deep and it does hurt like if someone rips out a part of yourself, throws it on the ground and tramples on it like crazy with a big grin in her/his face.

In exactly that mood I was nearly the whole past week and that was when this style grew over days, not knowing what I want to do. It did look like a bunch of things not belonging to each other on the first view for me, until I told my self to let it flow and see where it would be going. First I thought of a kind of fairy or “Galadriel” looking pictures in a fantasy environment. But while I was trying like an idiot I came across the amazing pictures of Alles Klaar (HERE). She has a lot of water based pictures, like her and her friends posing on water, having those amazing reflections. That reminded me of the never ending story if we could have real mirrors in Second Life (LINK). I did not want to download anything and I tried to remember how you could cheat on that fact with using mirror water (MIRROR WATER).

I do have no water available at my home at the moment, so I am very grateful, that – after a talk explaining my issue – Tour gave me the opportunity to use his sim for my experiments. While I was trying to fool with that water mirror effect, I realized, it isn’t what I wanted or my skills are not good enough to do what I had imagined. It was the first time, that I wasn’t alone while I tried to set up a scene. Tour was with me and we even had a voice conversation for some time while I was trying to find what I wanted to do. What really was fun, he as well did some snaps and we shared our visions about my project. That was quite interesting! I always thought I never could have somebody with me while doing this, but it even did inspire me somehow 🙂 Thank you Tour for your generosity to let me experiment on your land and ruining your terraforming for me, because of my need for water!

The more pictures I shot, the more my vision changed and my mind could let go of my RL situation and I found my fun back in doing weird and crazy things. My feelings and emotions changed from weak, frustrated and depressed to stubborn, stronger and willing to fight my way out of my actual mood. I rarely had so different emotions on my pixel face during a shooting I have to admit, as I usually try to make an indicating series of pictures.

Again Second Life was kind of a therapy to escape from real life, but as well it did help to free my mind again and not being stuck inside a certain situation. I am not saying SecondLife is the best therapy you can find, I am just saying sometimes it helps to allay concerns or get your brain some relief 😉

Believe me, after 12,5 years SL I know, that you need to step away from it sometimes or even shut it down for a while to solve RL problem… I hope you get the idea of what I was trying to say 😉

Since I changed the point of my blog, not only being a fashion catalog, but as well being a part of me and both of my lifes, my pictures do matter for me. After I attended Visionaire classes (I sometimes still do), it as well felt right to do so. I am not saying, fashion only blogs are not cool, I just decided for myself that I wanted to have more than just that after so many years of blogging 🙂

If you are one of those, that actually read the whole post, I would be happy if you would be brave enough to comment on it, or maybe even dare to tell about how or even if your SL does change your RL or any situations sometimes ♥

 

Clothing
Dress: Moon Elixir – “Fenris” (Maitreya
Accessories
Collar: ((LovelyAlien)) – “Amaranthine – Necklace – Silver”
Headpiece: -Elemental- – “Feronica Circlet”
Claws: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Thunderstrike Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)
Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Thunderstrike Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)
Horns: :[P]: – “Kratus Horns”
Bracelets & Anklets: E.V.E – “Scorpion Spikes” (Maitreya)
Armlets: Gemini – “Sis Bracelets” (Maitreya)
Hair & Makeup
Hair: no.match – “No. Gain” – NEW @ Tres Chic
Makeup: Zibska – “Rowan” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”
Eyes: ANATOMY – “Angel Eyes – Silver”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Skin: YS&YS – “Ginny Zafiro” (LeLutka/Maitreya Applier)
Tattoo (Arms): [White~Widow] –  “Ran” (Maitreya Applier)
Tattoo (Legs): [White~Widow] – “Okja” (Maitreya Applier)
Poses & Props
Poses: Poseidon
Set:
Statue White Girl: E.V.E – “Rapunzel in Evie White Tower”
Statue Steampunk Guy: R.O.T – “”Illusion Light Blue”
Statue Couple: R.O.T – “Soska Metallic”
Brushwood: E.V.E – “Rosina’s Undergowth M01”
Sphere: E.V.E – “Cubic Dreams {White Glow/Black}”
Heart: E.V.E – “Frosted Hearts Silver M1”
Model & Photographer

Drows – A dark Fantasy

I never was a huge fan of elves, but when I first learned about Drows – dark skinned and evil elves – I had to change my mind and look more into that 😉

Second Life gives us a lot of possibilities about fantasy characters and if you know the stores for the right skins, accessories and outfits, it is really fun to step out of your human body and be a fantasy creature – even one with ‘stupid’ ears, as my partner usually says. Since I discovered the mesh ears from .:E:A:Studio:. I tend to use those kind of ears more often as they do have the most amazing ones. Just the tinting sometimes isn’t easy as the color on the ears always seems to look a little more flat than the actual body skin. Most of the times I can make it work though – thanks to Sadystika for pushing my nose into easiest solution for managing the gap of the mesh head ear alpha *hides*

Today was one of those days and with the cool new arm warmers from A&Y, it was the right time to bring the little dark elf back on. I still love the “Ginny” skin appliers from YS&YS and the skin for today is exactly one of those. Most of my fantasy skins are from YS&YS. I do not know what it is, but sometimes colors skins looks details and highlights if they are colored. With YS&YS, I always get the impression that they not just color overlay their skins, they really seem to built them up from scratch, like they do it with their human skins as well.

The “Aglaya” arm warmers from A&Y are another addition to the whole “Aglaya” collection. I already blogged about the cool corset and boots before. When I was styling I tried many other latex clothing and accessories, but none would match so perfect than the “Aglaya” collection it self and so I decided to just do it in a completely different color than before 😉

I am addicted to the A&Y clothing, hair and accessories – I rarely saw such detailed and incredible textured sci-fi clothing and her latex is just super realistic and does not have those huge, just white reflection spots that latex in SL usually has. I am just in love with everything what she does!

Those who know me… do know my favorite color is black and all shades of black*snickers* It was quite out of my comfort zone to go white for the base color. Ok I admit I tried all kind of dark colors before, but none did pop put so great with the dark Drow skin. Since I already was out of my usual comfort zone, I thought I can add some colors as well that I usually do not touch too much 😉

Using colors reminded me, that I bought a hair style from .shi lately, which would fit perfect. The “Sa-Rah V2” hair has a special option for a second haircolor all kind of colors. You can decide if you want to wear it as a full normal hair color or if you want to add some color in the front.

For a real Drow feeling I certainly needed some sharp nails or claws and certainly I found some at FORMANAILS 😉 The eyes as well could not stay human – thank god I was shopping at the CURELESS [+] sale lately and got those uber amazing “Spookshow Eyes”, that perfectly fitted to todays styling.

I will now enjoy my look a little more and see what sims I can find to get more Drow inspirations and maybe some more ideas for another post 😉

Clothing

Corset: A&Y  – “Aglaya Latex Cyber Corset + Top” (Maitreya)

Gloves: A&Y – “Aglaya Latex Armwarmers” (Maitreya) – NEW @ ROMP

Shoes: A&Y – “Aglaya Latex Cyber Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Collar: A&Y – “Lorna Leather Collar” (Maitreya, Gacha)

Rings: FORMANAILS – “Rings Simple” (Maitreya)

Nails: FORMANAILS – “Chris Claws” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Makup + Lipstick: YS&YS “Ginny Drow Skin” (LeLutka Applier)

Hair: .shi – “Sa-Rah V2”

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Thauron Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Skin: YS&YS – “Ginny Drow Skin” (LeLutka + Maitreya Applier)

Eyes: CURELESS [+] – “Spookshow Eyes / Dialated”

Poses & Props

Poses: Bauhaus Movement

Backdrop: Paparazzi – “Spacestation – BACKDROP – Jade”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Fallen Angel

Fallen Angel

Late at night I could hear the crying
I hear it all, trying to fall asleep
When all the love around you is dying
You do it all for my own protection
You make me feel like I’ll be okay
Still I have so many questions
How do you stay so strong?
How did you hide it all for so long?
How can I take the pain away?

How can I save,
A fallen angel, in the dark
Never thought you’d fall so far
Fallen angel, close your eyes
I won’t let you fall tonight
Fallen angel, just let go
You don’t have to be alone
Fallen angel, close your eyes
I won’t let you fall tonight
I was right beside you
When you went to hell and back again
I was right beside you
When you went to hell and back again
And I, I couldn’t save, a fallen angel
A fallen angel, in the dark

Never thought you’d fall so far
Fallen angel, close your eyes
I won’t let you fall tonight
Fallen angel, just let go
You don’t have to be alone
Fallen angel, close your eyes
I won’t let you fall tonight
Fallen angel
[Three Days Grace]

Outfit & Accessories

Outfit: [Glitzz] – “Melinda Body” (Maitreya)
Shoes: A&Y Cybernetics – “Aglaya Latex Cyber Boots” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fetish Fair 2018 / 2nd Edition
Collar: .:Avanti:. – “Nayomi”
Horns & Septum: [CX] – “Wicket Beast”
Wings: Blueberry – “Oakley Wings-Black” (Gacha, Rare)
Headpiece: CURELESS [+] & DISORDERLY – “Dollhouse Survivors / Handy Tiara-Burnt” (Gacha)
Forehead: CURELESS [+] – “Leonius Marking”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Shield”
Hair Straints on the Closeup: Rayne Morgan (highly edited)

Body & Tattoos

Head: CURELESS [+] – “Luxurious Dolls / RARE / The Crystallized Doll Head” (Gacha, Rare)
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Arms: CURELESS [+] – “Melodic Doll Arms” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)
Tattoo: CURELESS [+] – “Divine Delineation” (Maitreya Applier, Group Gift)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity
Backdrop: %anxiety – “Catacomb”

Model & Photographer

I don’t wanna fight the world alone

Poseidon – “Amazon Princess 5 rev” (lightly moded for the left arm)

TUNES

Never wanted to feel
Never wanted you to steal my heart
Never wanted to know
Never wanted to show I’m weak

Always wanted to be
Always wanted you to see my heart
Always wanted your love
Always wanted but never was

Never told you before
Never loved you more

I’m falling all over myself
Trying to be someone else
I wish you would dare to walk me home
So I wouldn’t have to feel alone

I’m falling all over myself
Dying to be someone else
I wish you would dare to walk me home
I don’t wanna fight the world alone

[Pretty Reckless]

Pose: Infiniti – “Coy 3M” (lightly moded for the left arm)

“When you judge others, you do not define them, you define yourself”
[Earl Nightingale]

I am sure we all know that feeling… you got hurt to the bones and all you want is revenge in the very first moment, before your mind comes clear again.

It feels like some one ripped you apart and you want nothing more, than that person slowly dying, under all the pain that you even can imagine. Sometimes maybe we even need that feelings to wakeup, even if it feels like your heart got ripped out. Sometimes it opens our eyes that we closed by trust to someone, no matter what others said.

I am guilty for that, because I never listen to what one person has to say about another. I want to make my own experiences, without being biased by any kind of opinion. That might sound stupid to many, but for me in general it was a good thing, even if you get disappointed and hurt sometimes. I would not have met some of my dearest friends, just because others did not go well along with them. When you get older it is easier to listen first and to keep it in the back of your head without letting it affect your first meeting with a new person. But in general I am still stubborn with that and wanna know that person first before do any kind of judgment.

If you met such a person, and you go along well over many years and then all of a sudden that person turns around 180° and shows exactly that behavior, that you was warned about, THAT even hurts more than a ‘usual’ disappointment. That happened to me only 2 times in SL for thank god and not too many times in RL either. But in that very moments, it felt a blood rage coming up from deep inside and I was not able to do anything, because I was not even told what my mistake would have been, to make that person change so badly. You think of all kind of actions what you could do to that person, not only to hurt them but to get rid of that pain deep inside you. Sometimes it even makes you crazy when you try to figure out, what could have happened and do not find anything that would lead to such an action.

I always was a hot head with deep emotions and when I was younger it was even worse than today. As a kid I had to take immediate action somehow to lower that kind of pain. Today I at least can sit back and calm down first. After some time the pain lowers and I do not anymore feel like blinded by a mask of rage. I learned to deal with that kind of pain. Usually I tell myself, that we are all humans and humans are doing those things sometimes. That I am not always responsible for 360° mind changes, just because some people like to listen to others and never really do the hassle to try to get you known, or ask about a gossip they were told. That would require a lot of strength, to confront someone with a gossip and maybe not getting the response that you want. It is easier to believe something someone said about somebody, instead of going to that person and say “Hey I heard you did this/ said that about me”. I do that and even that can cost you a friendship, but then… that friendship might not have been hold too long anyways, or not being worth the effort to do that. Like Frank N. Further sang it already in the Rocky Horror Picture Show “Don’t judge a book by its” cover”! Sometimes it might be worth it to at least read the first few lines before you doom someone. You even might be surprised, what is behind that cover – or even that gossip you heard – if you know both sides. I know taking that time is an effort, but it might pay off positive in the end 😉

Real friendship, that even survives gossips and mistakes, is something very valuable to me and I do have a very few people in my RL and SL, that I would put my hand into fire for and I know – anyways when I call them, or if I try to reach them – they will be there for me – even in the middle of the night.

Having those friends, who even listen if you are in a bad pain psychological or physical, makes that pain not that heavy anymore. Sometimes they even can help you to calm down and see the other side of the coin by taking off your rage mask.

I am grateful for all of you, that helped me through hard, emotional situations. You know who you are, without me throwing names! Than you for making my Second Life more nice everyday and sometimes even my real life ♥

Pose: Infiniti – “Coy 3M” (lightly moded for the left arm)

Outfit & Accessories

Outfit (+Torso, feeet & hands): CURELESS [+] – “Anatomic Doll” (Maitreya, Bento, Gacha)

Collar: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Octoberfest Collar – Black” (Gacha)

Nails (right hand): [CX] – “Heavily Nailed – Rough”

Heart (left hand): CURELESS [+] – “Valentine’s Heart”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Case”

Body & Tattoo

Head: CURELESS [+] – “Luxury Dolls/Amethyst” (Gacha)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Skin: CURELESS [+] – “Luxury Dolls / Appliers & Carved Three” (Maitreya Applier, comes with the Head)

Poses & Props

Poses: Poseidon – “Amazon Princess 5 rev” + Infiniti – “Coy 3M” (both lightly moded for the left arm)

Backdrop: [CX] – “Crucem Inverso”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin