Silent Crying

“The most painful tears we cried, were the tears we cried in silence…”

When was the last time you cried in silence?

Usually the emotions and the pain are way deeper if you cry in silence, than if you let people see it. But why we are crying in silence?

Maybe because we think no one would anyways understand why or what we are crying about, so we feel the need to hide it to not make things worse or complicated with other people involved?

Maybe we do not want to look weak and fragile and hide it, to not give people the idea we are an easy prey?

Maybe we do not want to worry the people, which are close and dear to us with issues and thoughts that might not even be real problems?

Maybe we do not have a reason that can be spoken out loud, as we do not have the words about the emotions that we are going through?

Maybe someone (accidentally) disappointed and hurt us so much and we do not wanna risk our future with that person and just have to play nice to not ruin everything?

Maybe we are scared that people won’t believe us or believe the reason we do cry?

There is so many reasons why we do it and each one must be very deep and painful, if we try to hide our emotions and feelings towards other people. The tears we cry won’t be seen by anyone. No one will come and put arms around you, because no one thinks you need support. Silent tears are one example of so many fights we have with ourselves. Even if no one can see them, after we released the tears and let them flow, we usually feel better and sometimes we even question our tears afterwards and then we are happy nobody did see them and we do not have to explain.

Do not be afraid to cry if your best friend is with you. Your best friend will understand, not feel bothered, not judge your strength in that moment, not question the reason for your tears, believe in every reason and maybe even put the arms around you and hold you silently until you feel better.

I am very grateful I have such a person in my life ♥

Todays pictures were the hardest for along time… do you know the feeling, when you have a complete vision of a picture in mind and then you run around like mad and can’t find what you were looking for? So it was today with my set. I had something in mind in a light, nearly purely white hallway with flying sheer curtains. I looked on MP and as well in world and I found a few things that were close, but not what I was looking for. Then I was trying one of the awesome creations from Exposeur, which I anyways love for a long time. I fell in love with the poses, what made me dump the idea of light and white and rethink my picture idea. So I ended up building something with the “Girl At The Window” pose prop from Exposeur and the “Flying Curtains” from Kalopsia.

The style of today was as well a little special as well. I wanted to do a post about the new “Lady G Pumps” from [Gos].

“What kind of Lady will you be today? Let Lady G help you decide. Out now at FaMESHed, Lady G is a classic high platform pump that is anything but basic. Four shoes in one, choose between a sky high stiletto or block heel and a open foot or Mary Jane strap.

Lady G is available in 3 colour HUDs – Boutique, Blueberry, and Metallics – each sold separately or as a collection. The Boutique HUD includes 21 current, in-season colours perfect for any fashionista, the Blueberry HUD includes 28 colours which coordinate with clothing from Blueberry, and the Metallics HUD include 7 metallics which will have your feet shining. Each HUD also includes 5 sole, 2 metal, 3 lining options and controls heel and strap wear options. 56 colors in all!” [Gospel Voom]

First I went for the typical casual elegant look, which usually is expected for pumps like that. If you imagine pumps, what style you imagine on the first thought? Casual elegant, lingerie or formal/elegant. When I was fully styled, I looked at me and thought… “Nope, that is not you!” and took off everything but the pumps. But now what else…? Usually if I get stuck with ideas I dive into my accessories folder and see what I find there to kick in some creativity :p

The first thing I tried was the “Mouth Silencer” from AsteroidBox. As a German I was curious what a mouth silencer woud be. When I unpacked it and put it on, the first look – I have to admit that – was kinda terrifying. It looked very harsh and martial and with the blood applier that comes with it – I had to swallow a few times before my curiosity won and I thought that this could be an interesting challenge. So I looked at me, standing there in pumps and that bloody iron piece on my mouth. Usual lingerie would be too nice and I anyways did not wanna go for that. Pure fetish would be too obvious too now with that special accessory. Maybe a mixture would do it!

I found the “Sex Vixen Princess” outfit from Dirty Princess, which made the perfect combo of cute and strong with the little ruffles on the lingerie and as well the strong leather harness on top of it. To drag it back a little bit I added the ripped stockings to get a more gothic touch in it and I loved the contrast of the elegant pumps and the ripped nylons 😉 Needless to say it was luck that the nylons were just as high to meet the garters of the outfit, but since .:Avanti:. has so many different heights for their stockings I did know I would find one that matches :p

Certainly a tattoo could not be missing in that look and what else than one of the [White Widow] tattoos could work better to bring the sweetness back again as well. The “It” tattoo with the cute roses just perfectly did what I expected from it. I did say more than once already, that I adore the texture skills Julie Hastings has and I would give my right arm for it to know, how she archives it to have all of her tattoos so needled-sharp on the mesh bodies 😉

Even if the pictures today turned out completely different than I first thought, the emotions and feelings I wanted to transport with them still remained the same. It was a great experience for myself to start with a mouth piece and heels and I hope there will me many more like those in the future 🙂


Outfit  & Accessories:

Outfit: Dirty Princess – “The Sex Vixen Princess” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Lady G Pumps” (Maitreya) – NEW @ FaMESHed

Collar: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Misaki Collar” (Gacha, Maitreya) – NEW @ Gacha Garden

Gloves: .:::G.ID:::. – “Hazel Gloves” (Maitreya)

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Ripped Nylons” (Maitreya Applier)

Gag & Blood: AsteroidBox – “Mouth Silencer” (with LeLutka Applier)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: Sintiklia – “Oona” (Monthly Midnight Madness Gift)

Makeup: Izzie’s – “Tears HUD” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoos:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “It” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Props: Exposeur – “Girl At The Window” (filled with all the poses I used) & Kalopsia – “Flying Curtains”

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

The Dark Warrior with PurpleMoon & EMO-tions

PurpleMoon & EMO-tions 01

Dark Illusion Warrior

From nowhere came a warrior
With a mission to complete
He was in possession of extreme power
That he’d use on everyone he’d meet

He came when you least expected him
He brought terror to the world
You could expect no mercy
As he swung his sword

He was cursed by the Gods
He had to fight ’til he died
But finally he beat the odds
And then he was free, free to rise

Nobody knew where he came from
No one knew his destiny
The story was told through the centuries
A piece of tragic history

He came when you least expected him
He brought terror to the world
You could expect no mercy
As he swung his sword

[by Supernatural]

PurpleMoon & EMO-tions 02


Outfit (incl gemstones & gloves): PurpleMoon – “Belladonna”

Hair & Head Piece: EMO-tions – “Anorg” (color modded)

Mask: Illusions – “Unseelie”

Furniture: 22769 – “Beyond the Sea Chaiselongue”

Poses: PosESioN

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Wicca’s Wardrobe: LOTD 11/29/2011 – Mother of Darkness

Yesterday, again I made my way to the DAB Studios, owned by Daron Brandeis. He was IMing me, if I would have time for a shooting. A designer booked a commercial picture and he wanted me to style and model it. As I arrived, the designer was there and we had a short talk about what she wanted to have, the after all was cleared she left.

We did a few test shots to show her later and as we finished I was fooling around with a few looks and styles I created before as, I heard Daron freaking out about my actual outfit. Again it was clear that our crazy minds are not that far from each other and he started building a stand up little set. I put on the funny lightballs again and got very excited about, what he has in mind… I suddenly saw electric lights between my hands and instantly put on my glowy blue eyes… one word gave the other and I heard the camera going again and again… and what came out… was so incredible I have no words for…

Then suddenly I got a notecard from Pindar, who was sitting and watching the photography session… I had no clue that he writes and was hell touched by what just came up his mind watching the shooting. I asked him if I may use his little “poem” for the blog as it says more than 1000 words I could do…

Mother of Darkness by Pindar Kanya

I walk the spaces
between the worlds
and stalk the ebon reaches beyond Time
universes come into being
between the possibilities of my Will
to Be…or not to Be…there is no question
for I decide
what will and will not Be
I am the Smiter of Gods
the Eater of Worlds
and the Mother of Darkness
I call and the stars answer
I smile
and Darkness covers a thousand worlds
I wait for all beings
in the places where all fear to look
deep within
that raw, primal, ancient space
I stand
and one day…your final day
long after Death takes you…
you will see my face


Outfit: Vaxer – “Sahara”

Spikes: SoliDea Folies “Cattiva”

Skin: Nuuna’s Skins – “Black Aqua”

Hair: Baiastice – “Xena”

Shoes: Shiny Things – “Oxford”

Model: Wicca Merlin

Poem: Pindar Kanya

Photographer: Daron Brandeis

Halloween at GizzA!!!

Outfit: GizzA – “Passion and Glory” (eyes included)

Skin: Glam Affair – “Castalia” /Vampire

Lashes: Redgrave – “Vampire”

Hair: LoQ – “Grappa Pieva” /white (orange tinted)

Poses: Corpus

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Wonderful dark news by Ezura!!!

Right in time for Halloween,  Ezura released a stunning dark goth gown, the “Marceline”gown. Sure, not only to use for Halloween but it would fit for that as well perfectly 😉

The gown has a very classy and elegant touch. The mixture of the floating and shining skirt goes perfectly to the ornamented fabric of the top. The huge neckcollar has wonderful tentacles that fawn awesome over the cleavage. What caught my eyes are the 2 cool skulls that make the shoulder parts. round the hips we have some cute ruffles that make a perfect contrast to the skills and tentacles and add a lightly playful touch. The gown has various possibilities to be worn for the skirt part.

Version number one, has a long skirt and this incredible tentacles at the bottom. The skirt reaches the floor and with the tentacles it nearly looks as you hover over the floor a bit and gives a little mystical touch.

For sure a mermaid skirt version cannot miss for this elegant gown.  Just take the tentacles off and you have a very sophisticated skirt that will be totally perfect for every kind of sophisticated event 🙂 You even could remove the huge neckcollar and only wear the top tentacles, but I am so in love with it so I just could not take it off :p

If you like it even more classy you can wear the long skirt that starts from the hips and goes more and more wide till it reaches the bottom. The gloves are as well part of the outfit. If you wanna keep it very simple you just take off all skirt prims and wear the skirt layer only. The gown can be purchased in black like you see it in the post or even in red and purple.

The incredible beautiful horns can be part of your dark queen outfit as well. Named like the dress the “Marceline” horns match awesome to the dress and adda again some more darkness and goth. Little skulls underline the theme and they are made with such love for the detail, so we again can say how much time and love Ezura puts in her creations.

What could match better to such an amazing gown as the “Noir” jewelry set from Finesmith Design. The shape of the earrings and the collar goes perfect with the tentacles of the “Marceleine gown!

You do not have a Halloween outfit yes and already invited to a great party? Make your way to the Ezura Mainstore and you will find the perfect outfit for you I am sure 😉


Gown: Ezura – “Marceline Goth Dress” /black

Jewelry: Finesmith Design – “Noir”

Skin: Glam Affair – “Castalia” /Vampire Skin

Lashes: Redgrave – “Vampire” & “Ultra Wild”

Shoes: Mea Culpa – “Evil”

Poses: agapee

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin