Dark Visions

Dark Visions

There’s something hidden
In the depthsof the night
From a placenot forbidden
But deprived of light
A landscape of mistery
Is the other side
Derying the limits
Of the mind

Dark Visions
Fragment of a story that’s not a lie
Dark vision
Image of an existence destinedto die
Dark visions

A raid into the unknown
Enigmatic strangeland
Where the incognito’s grown
Harder to understand
The faceof silence
The likehood of fear
A reflex that will slowly
Disappear

Nightmares and dreams
Fictions or realities
Dark Visions

[Alien Produkt]

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Outfit: Zibska – “Lilitu” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Secret Affair

Shoes: Reign – “Kendall” (Maitreya)

Nails: glYph – “Apex” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: Analog Dog – “Pipe Dream”

Makeup: Slackgirl – “SecretFreak” (Omega Applier) – NEW @ The Secret Affair

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon

Props: E.V.E Studio – “KOI Square Confetti Ring” & “Sugarflies {Red}”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

The Darkness Inside

I did think a long time about a title for this post and pictures and after a conversation with a dear, sweet friend today, I suddenly had the idea – “The dark beast inside of me sometimes needs some release”

We all know that feeling I guess. You often just try to be polite and kind even if you feel that the inner beast tries to break free. In my life I learned that his beast has two different sides. It is very emotional and hot-headed on one side and sometimes it can be very dark ironic and sarcastic on the other. That is why I learned to control it and keep it locked in chains inside of me.

Certainly I was told to not always swallow all my emotions and everything that I get told, but the same time there is way how you can express this in a polite and adult way.

The most difficult it gets when you feel hurt. Because then this beast inside just rambles and rattles with the chains, developing immense power so that I sometimes really be afraid it would break that chains and just break free.

But exactly those situations taught me the most. When I was able to still keep it inside, it felt as a success to not let it win over me just because of someones judgement, rumors, gossips or words.

Every time I was able to keep it locked away, I felt that I did grow stronger. It was a long process and it took me years and sadly it is still not perfectly locked. But maybe it does not have to be, because everything has an end as well and so does patience, understanding and politeness. Sometimes people really need to know when they overstepped a line or did hurt me even if they will not believe nor change their behaviour – most of the time because they can’t as they have nothing in their life than trying to make others miserable. Then you do not even need to argue with those, because you can’t win. Anyways what you will say to prove them wrong they will turn it around and again use it against you no matter what. So all you can do is let it go, turn around and move on.

If you move on, you will meet new people in the future who will treat you with more respect and in an adult way. Certainly not only those, but all the others will wait for you left and right as well and maybe it is the personal challenge of everyone’s life to pass those who do not matter to meet those who DO matter – if that makes any sense. That does not mean you should not take any critiques, but you can learn to decide between the good and the bad critique. The bad, that only was used to hurt, blame or accuse you without any content OR the one that sometimes hurts too a bit – because you might have seen it different – but that as well contains facts and things that let you learn and grow from.

In the end you are the one, that has to make the decisions in your life – nobody can do or should do that for – as long as you can.

For me it feels better to have a mainly positive life (all of us have bad days or experiences) instead of a hate filled, jealous and not satisfied one. I always ask myself – before I react on things – if it would be worth fighting or arguing about something, or just smile and say thank you, turn around and move on. Both cases did happen and both will happen in the future, but if I argue or discuss I try to stay with the facts, be polite and kind and as well stay adult and not just release the inner beast without thinking. If that happens, I exactly would do that, what I do not want be done to myself – hurt, accuse or become personal and unobjective – and that is not an option to me if I can control it. I have to admit, over the years I became way more calm in such situations and maybe it is the age that lets you think before you take any action ๐Ÿ˜‰

Details

Clothing & Accessoires:

Outfit: Salt & Pepper – “Strapped” (Gacha, Maitreya)

Arms Straps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arms” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Bax – “Regency Boots”

Chains: E.V.E Studio – “{Apocalyptica} Cyber Snake Chains”

Makeup & Hair:

Hair: A&Y Bunker – “Cyro Hair”

Hairbase: Mina – “Myla Hairbase” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup: Zibska – “Ballard Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: Swallow – “Pixie Ears”

Arms: Zibska – “Speckles” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Pose: Poseidon

True Friendship

“And now to something completely different!”

In RL my English teacher – back when I was at school – used to say that if he was changing his topic, and after a roll of post apocalyptic posts (one is still missing), I wanted to do something different and finally my mind was able to do something else *giggles*

I am always fascinated from white pictures and rarely – if I try one – , they come out as I want them too.

But this time it did! I wanted to do a combination of power and fragile moments in a very soft environment.

All I added for the set were the “Waving Bioluminescent Fungus” in white and the “Rapunzel in Evie White Tower” in front of a white background. The “Rapunzel in Evie White Tower” reminded me of the thought of your inner voice, that talks to you if you have decisions to make or that you ask when you are down and do not know who to ask. It looked great in the background for the idea of the picture.

Do you know that moment, where people want you to be strong and you feel right the opposite but cannot show that, because you have a task to end or you have to be there for someone?

It is like an inner fight with yourself, trying to not let the fragile side win. Sometimes you need to be strong, no matter what. Even if I have been told several times to not hide my feelings – if you have a true friendship, sometimes your own feelings have to be pushed behind to be there for your friend. Thank god it does not happen too often that those 2 ‘souls’ come up to the same time. Would you not expect the same from a true friend – to be there for you when you need him or her most? and even if I am always afraid to bother someone with my problems and moods. But IF I do, I really to expect close and true friends to be there for me. And saying that I would even get up in the middle of the night and drive 500 and more kilometers to help , when it would be needed and possible.

True friendship is rare and even more rare in an online environment, but it is there. Many times you might be disappointed from people who you thought you know but if you stop trusting… you never will find those who are true and honest. You would cut yourself off to meet people who could be potential true and honest friends. I do not know if that makes sense – bear with the German – but I hope you know what I am trying to say.

In the past 10 years in SecondLife, I met many people. Some I still talk to, some quit playing and some just vanished. It was a rollercoaster journey in terms of meeting people. A few I let come close to me and they ripped out my heart and left me in pain for weeks. sometimes I even thought I will quit playing Second Life. But then there are some that I met, which caught me, gave me the feeling of being close to them and those I would not want to miss again. It might only be a handful people who really do know me – know more behind Wicca’s pixel – but those I highly value and I could not think about a life without them anymore. Even if we never met, we shared tons of hours on skype or inworld, even further on mobile communication tools and they became part of not only my Second Life but my real one as well.

Friendships are different – Some are super close and with some you share moments and experiences but you do not talk to them on an everyday base. That does not have to be bad though, they are still friends I do care for and in the moment we meet we have the biggest fun ever ๐Ÿ™‚

I never would wanna change the past, as it did make me to what I am now – SL and RL. Even the pain made me learn something –ย  I never stopped to trust people or give people a chance to know me and become new, true friends.

Sometimes it is hard, but if you go out to find new true and real friends maybe do not give them the burden or the doubt out of your past experiences. They are not responsible for that, nor they know.

I hope I did make sense with what I was trying to say – if not… maybe holler at me inworld and you can help me doing it better ๐Ÿ˜‰

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Outfit: Plastix – “Solaris” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Essenz – “Calgary” (Maitreya)

Shoulder Piece, Necklace & Brows: Zibska – “Verad” (Gacha)

Makeup & Hair:

Makeup: Zibska – “Verad Eye Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Adia” (LeLutka Applier)

Hair: enVogue – “Carley”

Head, Body & Tattoos:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon

Props: E.V.E Studio – “Waving Bioluminescent Fungus” & “Rapunzel in Evie White Tower”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

 

Summertime and the living is easy…

Summer would be so nice, if it would not be so damn hot all the time :p

Ok, I am not a friend of too high temperatures. For me it would be enough round about 25ยฐ C with some wind during the days, but I know not too many would agree with that ๐Ÿ˜‰

After a few days off, which were really needed I feel way better again and the little “hole” that the musical left in my life, needs some filling. So I thought, why not do a summer time blog.

The base for today look were the amazing new “Iris Heels” from Glamistry and the “Iela Bikini” from [sYs]. I do have a weakness for unusual things and the “Ilea Bikini” was really something that caught my attention. It is available in 7 different colors and was originally made for the Kinky event, but I am sure you will find it at the [sYs] main store now. It is made for all popular mesh bodies and has a perfect fitting for nearly any kind of movement.

The new “Iris Heels” are super detailed and I fell in love with the strappy design for summer. The shoes come with the amazing, huge HUD system like always for Glamistry. Glamistry always amazed me with their amazing details and materials and this new heels again do so. I love how you can see the shine of the leather for every color and as well you get the impression as you could feel the leather if you would grab it.

The beautiful hair, was made by EMO-tions. The “Summa” hair comes in a normal and a busty version and with all the amazing butterfly attachments! The butterflies are modifiable attachments, so you can replace them where ever you want.

The cool pool scenery I got at Trompe Loeil and it is called “Keliana Pool”. The pool has some inbuilt poses, but for my today’s post I used the “Beach Bunny” and the “Pool Bunny” set from Foxcity. Both sets are bento enabled and just matched perfectly to the outfit and the scenery. I have the pool set up on the little parcel besides the Wicca’s Wardrobe store, which is open to public as well to make photos or just hang out. Maybe you might meet India in her lovely tree housey there too ๐Ÿ˜‰

Let’s take a closer look on the incredible headpiece and the stunning makeup of todays look. The headpiece was made by Noke Yuitza for her brand E.V.E Studio. The headpiece has 2 different versions. one with 2 flowers at the upper side (Version A) and one with one flower only (Version B). For both you get a HUD to customize the flowers, and the pearls.

The wonderful makeup was made by Julie Hastings for [White~Widow]. The “Bird” face tattoo was just so perfect for the look. It come sin many colors and for all popular mesh heads. You have the choice if you want to use it with eye shadow or just the wonderful ornaments around the eyes. For my post I chose the black version with eyeshadow.

I am usually not a summery-butterfly girl but this all fell in place so lovely so I could not resist to play with it and take some pictures :p

Details

Outfit: [sYs] – “Iela Bikini” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Glamistry – “Iris Heels” – NEW (Maitreya)

Hair & Butterflies: EMO-tions – “Summa”

Headpiece: E.V.E Studio – “Etheral Vol.04 HP [Sakura] A”

Chocker: PerveTTe – “Choker [My Sweet Love]”

Nail Polish: Nailed It! – “Water Set” (Maitreya)

Makeup: [White~Widow] – “Bird” (LeLutka applier)

Poses: Foxcity

Pool: Trompe Loeil – “Keliana Pool”

Dogs: {anc} – “Flottante Puppy”

Location: Wicca’s Wardrobe Photoparcel beside the Store

Basics

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 2.7”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Shape: Selfmade

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

“The most beautiful makeup for a woman is passion…”

“The most beautiful makeup for a woman is passion. But cosmetics are easier to buy.”

[Yves Saint Laurent]

And again I find myself doing black & red tones pictures… I do not know what that is, but to me lack & red are a very strong color combination especially if you have a deep hued saturated red ๐Ÿ˜‰

For the set I used several items from E.V.E Studio. I love the way how she does her designs, as they can be used from casual to fantasy up to artistic surroundings.

When I unpacked the “{The Wall} Mural Tir Na Nog ” pack from E.V.E Studio, I was totally in love with all this tiles that make a wonderful structured wall and ground. playing with projectors was fun with this wall as the tiles reflect the lights in such an amazing way ๐Ÿ˜‰

The cool dress comes from [sYs] and I found out it’s ‘secret’ when I put on the HUD. Each color comes with a HUD and you can color 2 parts of the dress separate! If you own more than one HUD you can even mix the different colors :p

Tattoos – I rarely wear other tattoos that the amazing art pieces from [White~Widow]. Julie Hastings really is a genius with her tattoos and I rarely found such original, filigree and detailed tattoos somewhere else. Usually you have RL tattoos that, someone brings to SL, but Julie seems to hand draw hers one by one and it looks like her creativity has no limits ๐Ÿ˜‰ The “GetOut” tattoo you can find at the actual round of the Kinky event.

If we take a closer look on the glasses and the shoes you will remember both being made by Glamistry. The shoes come – as usual for Glamistry –ย  withย  several HUD options so you can customize them to your likings. The glasses are made the same way ๐Ÿ˜‰

I more and more like playing with projectors in combination with the SL windlights and I am sure, I will have something more for you soon ๐Ÿ˜‰

Details

Dress: [sYs] – “Symetra” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Glamistry – “Angelica” (Maitreya)

Gloves: .:Avanti:. – “Tessa Gloves” (Maitreya Applier)

Collar & Headpiece: [[RH]] – “Zakuro”

Glasses: Glamistry – “Sunglasses PU2004”

Hair: Fabia – “Luida” @ Vintage Fair 2017

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “GetOut” (Maitreya Applier) @ Kinky

Lipstick: La Boheme – “Eve Set 1” (LeLutka Applier)

Set: E.V.E Studio – “{The Wall} Mural Tir Na Nog”, “‘Army of me’ Ink Flowers” & {anc} – “Mannequin [alice]”

Basics:
Head: LeLutka โ€“ โ€œSimone 2.7โ€
Body: Maitreya โ€“ โ€œLara V4.1โ€
Eyes: IKON โ€“ โ€œHope Eyesโ€
Shape: Selfmade

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

It’s raining…

2nd U Magazine: https://issuu.com/secondumagazine/docs/2ndu-apr2017

Details
Outfit: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Chiara”
Gloves: [CON] – “Vampire Gloves”
Cape: E.V.E Studio – “Shroud of Chains”
Boots: Utopia@Design – “Akira”
Collar 1: Salt & Pepper – “Siah”
Collar 2: E.V.E Studio – “Shroud of Chains”
Hair: enVOGUE – “Carley”
Mask: La Baguette – “Cat Skull”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin
Basics:
Head: LeLutka โ€“ โ€œSimone 2.6โ€
Body: Maitreya โ€“ โ€œLara V4.0โ€
Eyes: IKON โ€“ โ€œHope Eyesโ€
Shape: Selfmade

Red Poison!

I have no clue why but lately all the cyber and the vibrant colors to it, have an impact on me as never before.

Maybe it is the new hairstyles from EMO-tions that got me into it again, or as well the suspense between black and intensive deep hued, saturated colors.

Today – as I just said – the base of my styling was the amazing new hair from EMO-tions, which was available at the passed round of we โ™ฅ RP, but it should be available in the EMO-tions main store by now.

I could not resist to make one picture with the newest feature from LeLutka for their bento heads. Finally we can stick out our tongues with LeLutka as well and even if I might not have that chance too often, I totally love it :p

LeLutka released a few more new expressions on the Skin Fair lately and they are so easy to install to your LeLutka Bento head, anyways which of them. You as well can keep them separate and use them vis the HUD that you get with the box as well. They are all cool and they are so different from really photogenic smiles to as well those few tongue out expressions, which I really got addicted to the past few days ๐Ÿ˜‰

The cool makeup is not a super new release but one of my personal faves when it comes to cool and extraordinary ones. The “Tammy” makeup with its unsymmetrical look just was perfect for that cyber punk look ๐Ÿ˜‰

The awesome dress I am wearing for this post comes from [sys], wich was released for the Tres Chic event. The “Ellea” dress is just really cool with the huge laced part t the top and the bottoms that look like upside down jacket lapels on the skirt. together with the “Jassy” boots and gloves as well with lots of lace, it just totally did it for me ๐Ÿ˜‰

To just add one accessory I decided to go with the “Joyce” necklace, that was created by Wicca’s Wardrobe for our collaboration with Enfant Terrible.

The super amazing tattoo comes from White Widow again and it is one of Julie’s newer ones.

For the scenery I used some of the awesome designs of E.V.E Studio. I love to make scenes with her creations as they always add some artsy feelings to all of the pictures. I totally love her surreal environments ๐Ÿ™‚

I guess I go and find a place now where I can stick out my tongue to people a little more before I go to bed, as I enjoy this new feature way tooย  much at the moment :p

Details

Outfit: [sys] – “Ellea” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Real Evil Industries – “Jassy Boots” (Maitreya)

Gloves: Real Evil Industries – “Jassy Corset Gloves” (Maitreya)

Necklace: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Joyce”

Hair: EMO-tions – “Sun”

Makeup: Slackgirl – “Tammy” (Lelutka Applier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Nereza” (Lelutka Applier)

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Wonder” (Maitreya Applier)

Set: E.V.E Studio – “Chained Red Orchid”, ” Dancing Poison Rain” & “Ivy Bonsai”

Basics:

Head: LeLutka โ€“ โ€œSimone 2.3โ€

Tongue: LeLutka – “Anima. TNG. Set 02”

Body: Maitreya โ€“ โ€œLara V3.5โ€

Eyes: IKON โ€“ โ€œHope Eyesโ€

Shape: Selfmade

“Happy Valentines!” – Every Rose has a Thorn

Sometimes, strange moods can be very productive…

And exactly that I had today when I started to work on the styling for this post. It was a mixture of depression, sadness, the will to do something and the red all over because of Valentine :p .

I started with the “Oru” dress from [sys]. With it’s very cool and unusual shape, it made a great base for my look today, especially because it comes in such a bright and strong red ๐Ÿ˜‰ .

When I tried on the “Luzy” hair from EMO-tions with the “Oru” dress, it was clear this will become kinda crazy :p

Valentine’s Day is something we do not celebrate in Germany as much as the US or other countries do. When I googled it, it said the first Valentines Party was round about 1950 in Germany, even if the traditional custom of that special day goes way back in history. So the biggest fortune of Valentine’s Day in Germany probably goes to the florists ๐Ÿ˜‰

Anyways, I personally never was too much into Valentines’s Day as I do not believe, that only one day per year can tell how much i do love a person. To me it is more the steady and little things, than a bunch of flowers on one day.

But with all the Valentine advertisements and what not, you have a hard way around that and all the red at least inspired me for this post and the pictures.

The cool set I built with the “Tree of Nightmares” and “Koi Glitter Puffs” from E.V.E Studio. The red version of the tree really kicked my mind to go even more crazy with the whole look and so I decided to add some heavy makeup. Usually I am for either heavy eye makeup OR a ‘loud’ lipstick but today… It was calling for both ๐Ÿ˜‰ .

The more I was playing with my style and the set, the more the thought of the phrase “every rose has a thorn” settled down inside myself and it became a working title for this post somehow. Like every wonderful moment you have, always can be destroyed by one little ugly ‘thorn’ that hides on that beautiful rose. If you do not think about it, it all of a sudden hurts you. That reminded me of some recent things that happened and so the phrase became more and more something I kept saying to myself, to remind me about the beauty of the rose and not think too much about the thorns.

The leggings from Cureless [+] even more dragged into the darker side and together with the “Nemesia” ankle boots from Glamistry, the whole look got some kind of a rocker chick touch to me.

Every year I discover my own little Valentine thoughts and it always is a lot of fun to see how they turn out if I try to make pictures or posts during that time of the year. But in the end I always enjoy them and I always discover new visions and thoughts of myself about Valentine’s Day looks and red challenges ๐Ÿ˜‰

Happy Valentines!

Details

Outfit: [sys] – “Oru”

Jacket: Asteria – “Jane”

Leggings: Cureless [+] – “Baroque Corset Stockings”

Hair: EMO-tions – “Luzy”

Necklace: Empyrean Forge – “Levity Necklace”

Shoes: Glamistry – “Nemesia Ankle Boots”

Basics:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 2.2”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V3.5”

Poses: ALIUD

Set: E.V.E Studio – “Tree of Nightmares” & “Koi Glitter Puffs”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Exotic Orchid

Usually I am not too much of a gown person, but the “Talissah”gown from Azul really caught my eyes. With all those huge attachments and the unusual shapes of them, it really did touch me inside.

When it comes to Azul, I always admired Mami’s texturing skills. She used to always have so amazing details on her gowns and designs, that you never saw them all on the first view. Every time when you look at them you will find another amazing detail, like the delicate, asian looking brocade on the “Talissah” gown. The huge ruffles, together with the long metal parts reminded me of exotic orchids. The head piece as well has this huge ruffles and some metal parts and it comes with a wonderful tiara looking jewelry as well. Wit the flexi parts at the gown and as well attached to the bracelets, it got a very dreamy touch for me, too.

The dress was made for Talissah Xenga, one of the MVW candidates this year.

The amazing makeup – which I am using on my new “Simone” bento head from LeLutka – was made by Zibska.

The “Sirra” applier for mesh heads comes for LeLutka, TMP and as well for Omega compatible heads. Even the standard avatar heads can wear the tattoo version of it. The soft and spring looking colors with the darker, outer eye corner, just looked fantastic to the colors of the gown and still give kind of a nude look, that does not overlay the whole styling too much.

For the set I chose something more simple but as well something that made an impressive point to my look. I used the “Aerial Screw Parasol” because of with its top, it matched amazingly the asian touch of the gown. To enhance the dreamy feeling i got from the gown, I added the “Dancing Petals Dystopia” as well from e.V.E Studio.

Details

Gown:ย  – Azul – “Talissah!

Shoes: [CX] – “Implant Revived”

Hair: enVOGUE – “Inna”

Makeup: Zibska – “Sirra”

Basics:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 2.2”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V3.5”

Set:

E.V.E Studio – “Aerial Screw Parasol” & “Dancing Petals Dystopia”

Stand my Ground

TUNES

Stand my Ground

I can see
When you stay low
Nothing happens
Does it feel right?
Late at night
Things I thought I’d put behind me
Haunt my mind

I just know there’s no escape now
Once it sets it’s eyes on you
But I wont run
Have to stare it in the eyes


It’s all around
Getting stronger, coming closer into my world
I can feel that it’s time for me to face it
Can I take it?

Though this might just be the ending
Of the life I held so dear
But I won’t run
There’s no turning back from here

All I know for sure is that I’m trying
I will always stand my ground

Stand my ground
I won’t give in
I won’t give up
No more denying
I’ve gotta face it
Won’t close my eyes and hide the truth inside
If I don’t make it, someone else will
Stand my ground

[Within Temptation]

Details

Outfit: [sys] – “Cassie”

Headpiece: [sys] – “Hecate”

Shoes: Elysium – “Sophia Knee High Boots”

Gloves: Asteria – “Lady Faith”

Nails: Formanails – “Stiletto Nails”

Rings: Formanails – “Rings 2”

Jewelry: E.V.E Studio – “Broken Chains”

Earrings: Maxi Gossamer – “Tallulah Drop”

Set: E.V.E Studio – “Whispers Gacha” & “Broken Chains”

Horse: C L A Vv. – “The Death’s Horse – Rearing” (Gacha)

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin