The Darkness Inside

I did think a long time about a title for this post and pictures and after a conversation with a dear, sweet friend today, I suddenly had the idea – “The dark beast inside of me sometimes needs some release”

We all know that feeling I guess. You often just try to be polite and kind even if you feel that the inner beast tries to break free. In my life I learned that his beast has two different sides. It is very emotional and hot-headed on one side and sometimes it can be very dark ironic and sarcastic on the other. That is why I learned to control it and keep it locked in chains inside of me.

Certainly I was told to not always swallow all my emotions and everything that I get told, but the same time there is way how you can express this in a polite and adult way.

The most difficult it gets when you feel hurt. Because then this beast inside just rambles and rattles with the chains, developing immense power so that I sometimes really be afraid it would break that chains and just break free.

But exactly those situations taught me the most. When I was able to still keep it inside, it felt as a success to not let it win over me just because of someones judgement, rumors, gossips or words.

Every time I was able to keep it locked away, I felt that I did grow stronger. It was a long process and it took me years and sadly it is still not perfectly locked. But maybe it does not have to be, because everything has an end as well and so does patience, understanding and politeness. Sometimes people really need to know when they overstepped a line or did hurt me even if they will not believe nor change their behaviour – most of the time because they can’t as they have nothing in their life than trying to make others miserable. Then you do not even need to argue with those, because you can’t win. Anyways what you will say to prove them wrong they will turn it around and again use it against you no matter what. So all you can do is let it go, turn around and move on.

If you move on, you will meet new people in the future who will treat you with more respect and in an adult way. Certainly not only those, but all the others will wait for you left and right as well and maybe it is the personal challenge of everyone’s life to pass those who do not matter to meet those who DO matter – if that makes any sense. That does not mean you should not take any critiques, but you can learn to decide between the good and the bad critique. The bad, that only was used to hurt, blame or accuse you without any content OR the one that sometimes hurts too a bit – because you might have seen it different – but that as well contains facts and things that let you learn and grow from.

In the end you are the one, that has to make the decisions in your life – nobody can do or should do that for – as long as you can.

For me it feels better to have a mainly positive life (all of us have bad days or experiences) instead of a hate filled, jealous and not satisfied one. I always ask myself – before I react on things – if it would be worth fighting or arguing about something, or just smile and say thank you, turn around and move on. Both cases did happen and both will happen in the future, but if I argue or discuss I try to stay with the facts, be polite and kind and as well stay adult and not just release the inner beast without thinking. If that happens, I exactly would do that, what I do not want be done to myself – hurt, accuse or become personal and unobjective – and that is not an option to me if I can control it. I have to admit, over the years I became way more calm in such situations and maybe it is the age that lets you think before you take any action 😉

Details

Clothing & Accessoires:

Outfit: Salt & Pepper – “Strapped” (Gacha, Maitreya)

Arms Straps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arms” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Bax – “Regency Boots”

Chains: E.V.E Studio – “{Apocalyptica} Cyber Snake Chains”

Makeup & Hair:

Hair: A&Y Bunker – “Cyro Hair”

Hairbase: Mina – “Myla Hairbase” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup: Zibska – “Ballard Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: Swallow – “Pixie Ears”

Arms: Zibska – “Speckles” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Pose: Poseidon

Wicca’s Wardrobe: Mother Earth

Wood Elf Full 1

TUNES

Mother Earth (Within Temptation)

Birds and butterflies
Rivers and mountains she creates
But you’ll never know
The next move she’ll make
You can try
But it is useless to ask why
Cannot control her
She goes her own way

Wood Elf Full 2
She rules until the end of time
She gives and she takes
She rules until the end of time
She goes her way

With every breath
And all the choices that we make
We are only passing through
on her way
I find my strength
Believing that their souls live on
Until the end of time
I’ll carry them with me

Wood Elf Close

Once you will know my dear
You don’t have to fear
A new beginning always starts
at the end
Once you will know my dear
You don’t have to fear
Until the end of time
She goes her way

Wood Elf Face

Details

Dress: House of Dragovar – “Goblin’s Greed” (mesh)

Vines: Wunderlich – “Ivy-Moss”

Hair: Caverna Obscura – “Sylvani-Twiggy”

Face Decor: 22769 – “Dryad Head Piece” – NEW (L’accessoire)

Skin: Silken Moon – “Wicca”

Makeup: Makeup Artist – “Lua’s Elegance”

Lipstick: Silken Moon – “Wicca Lips Tintable”

Bracelets: artilleri – “Wooden Bracelets”

Ears: Illusion – “Fairy Ears”

Collar: CatniP – “Enslaved Collar”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Wicca’s Wardrobe: Mystical Dark Fantasy

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The Undefeated Creature

We all heard the stories about Yeti´s, unicorn, chupacabra or even Nessie. Many people claimed to have seen them, but nobody actually caught them. Rumors and stories about this fantasy beings have been told since generations.

But now in the year 2012 something strange is going on deep in the spooky forest.deep down in Ireland. People found foot prints, first they though it might be a hoofed animal but now it changed all. People claimed to have seen a mysterious wild creature, yet female looking , she got a dark skin, horns, wild hair and hooves. This creature must have been hiding good because nobody ever was able to catch her, rumours are spread that the one that tames this beast will have all the wishes fulfilled that he or she might have.

Many people failed at trying to find her, a lot of people even didn´t return from their adventure. But one day a brave young man decided to try his luck to find this being, he got laughed at and people took bets on him – whether he would come back and no.

One day this mysterious creature roamed around the forest to try to find something to eat, after all she was really gentle and friends with the nature, she wouldn´t harm animals or humans. Her food was nuts and plants. She was a peaceful being, and over the time she got sad, because people tried to chase her and the family and now she was the onliest one left from her species.

The friendly beast took a small break at a small lake, she didn´t feel any danger so she wasn´t aware that a man was sitting in the bush right next to her, she hummed a little song and thought about her joyful peaceful life in the forest when suddenly a man jumped out of the darkness with a drawn sword.

She stopped breathing for a moment and thought she would end up like all of her other ancestors before her. After she got some clear thoughts she jumped off and tried defending herself but couldn´t find a way to fight back. She started running, and she ran and ran. Her heart was beating heavily, she just wanted to carry on her species, even though she would be the last one alive.

The man was still chasing her, she looked back and saw him following her with the big sword in his hands. She ran faster, but then, she stumbled over a tree root and fell. Her ankle started hurting and she couldn´t find a way to stand up again. With the last power she got back on her feet, but the male was too close now and as she turned, she ran directly in the big sword he had in his hands right behind her. A huge pain run through her body and silver tears were running down her cheeks as the man stopped in front of her to finish his prey.

She felt her power vanish and broke down to the ground, feeling the smooth and damp grass of the morning underneath her. Her last view was the male, standing above her his hands raised, lucky about his victory. In the moment of her death he would loudly call his wishes out in the forest, like the rumors said and like it always had been when one of her species was murdered.

She closed her eyes, a last silver tear ran down her cheeks, her breathing went quieter and quieter until she finally died on the forrest ground, kissed by a few last sunbeams that guided her over to where all her ancestors waited for her.

Details

Wicca:

Outfit: Stygian

Socks: .:EC:. Enelya’s Creations

Skin: Nuuna’s

Horns: Wasabi Pills

Hair: Baiastice

Mask: Illusions

Hooves: VS – Kali

Collar: GizzA

Corset: Trilobite

Ears: Rebel – X

Piercings: [ni.ju]

Tattoo: Wicket Tattoos

Kenshin:

Hair: EMO-tions

Facetattoo: White Widow

Jewelry: Firestorm Creations & Mandala

Pants: Egoisme

Boots: Egoisme

Gloves: 1st Act

This story and idea was in my head for a long time, thank you so much Daron , Sazzy, Kenshin and Oralee to let it come true!!!

Models: Kenshin Xevion & Wicca Merlin

Story: Wicca Merlin

Set: Sazzy Nirpaw

Photographer: Daron Brandeis