Numb

TUNES

I’m tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Can’t you see that you’re smothering me
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
‘Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I’m becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
(I’m tired of being what you want me to be)
I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
(I’m tired of being what you want me to be)
[- Limp Bizkit -]
Clothing

Blanket: :: MOMOCHUU :: – “Holiday Blanket [dark]” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // December 2020

Top: [Salem] – “Lilith Corset” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // December 2020

Panties:

Legs: [CX] – “Chiyou Legwraps Black” (Maitreya)  – NEW @ Mainstore

Accessories

Mask: kosmii – “Victory Gag” – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // December 2020

Collar: ::Static:: – “Bound Collar { Female } Black”

Feet Claws: L’Emporio&PL – “Damned Claws – Flat Feet V2” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Dura – “B98-Hair-Fat Pack A:right (diamond face line)”

Eyeliner: CAZIMI – “Basic B Eyeliners Bonus Liners” (LeLUTKA Evo. HD Applier)

Lashes: ~Shiny Stuffs~ – “Lash Parade” (LeLUTKA Applier)

Faceart & Sclera Overlay: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger” – NEW @ Mainstore

Face Scars: . The Rotting Lab . – “Waster – Scar – Pale” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head & Piercings: LeLUTKA – “Erin 2.5”

Eyes: Madame Noir – “Vampyre Eyes” – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // December 2020

Ears: [CX] – “Sceleratis Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”

Tattoo 1: TF – “Machinist (F) :: Without Sore – Light 50%” (BoM)”

Tattoo 2: TF – “Mort :: Veins :: With Eyeshading” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Poseidon

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Backdrop: ANTINATURAL[+] – “Hospital for Souls / Hydrotherapy room”

Rat 1: JIAN – “Rascal Rats 2. Black Companion” (Gacha, Common)

Rat 2: JIAN – “Rascal Rats 6. Black Wanderer” (Gacha, Common)

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Blessed Be

A new year has begun… 2021! Let’s see what it has for all of us 😉

We are still in the dark season and I am enjoying doing the darker stuff anyway – but you know that already.

Today I am posting something which I planned to put into a magazine but apparently it wasn’t released in December as planned. I thought before it vanishes into the Nirvana, I will add some more pictures and make a blog post out of it 😉

So here we go!

Most of the designs I found at the Saturnalia event (I really hope they will do more events as their team really does amazig work and something different) –  such a super amazing event, directed to the more traditional and naturally side of the Christmas time. To me it was such a relief to see that Christmas isn’t just all shiny gold & red, not just the Santa Claus, Cola Truck, modern, profit-oriented, video game console Christmas. There is people like me who can see the more traditional, mystical and nature-loving Christmas – or even remember what Yule means 😉 For those who do not know, just lemme show, what Wikipedia has to say about it, as it might sound better than me trying to describe it with my limited English words *snickers*

“Yule or Yuletide (“Yule time” or “Yule season”) is a festival historically observed by the Germanic peoples. Scholars have connected the original celebrations of Yule to the Wild Hunt, the god Odin, and the pagan Anglo-Saxon Mōdraniht.

Later departing from its pagan roots, Yule underwent Christianised reformulation, resulting in the term Christmastide. Some present-day Christmas customs and traditions such as the Yule log, Yule goat, Yule boar, Yule singing, and others may have connections to older pagan Yule traditions. Terms with an etymological equivalent to Yule are still used in Nordic countries and Estonia to describe Christmas and other festivals occurring during the winter holiday season. Today, Yule is celebrated in Heathenry and other forms of Neopaganism, as well as in LaVeyan Satanism.”

[- Wikipedia -]

I am still at home while the state is fighting and debating weather to open up stores and schools again or just one of both or none… to me it slowly becomes a joke and the measures get more and more opaque and difficult to comprehend. People get more and more disaffected. And even if I hate to admit that, I start understanding them. They are not against any rules – I am not speaking of all those who deny the existence of Covid or those who spread weird conspiracy theories – the normal mainstream crowd, who just don’t understand all this back and forth politics. How you can say schools can be open with 20-30 people,  inadequate hygiene standards, while bars and restaurants who invested hundreds or thousands of Euros to exactly follow their given rules and as soon as they had everything installed and working, they get closed again while schools and kindergartens are still remain open… anyway, I am not the one to make changes or decisions, but I slowly can understand those how get annoyed and frustrated.

I just will stick at home as much as possible to not risk an infection because of my mother and partner as they are both counted as group at risk members. I will teach and give music lessons online and trying to keep creative in SL and make the best out of it 😉

Happy new year and blessed be!

Clothing

Dress: ERSCH – “Saty” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Headpiece: [CX] – “Kronos’ Crown (Gold)”

Horns: ::Static:: – “Solstice Spiral Horns”

Nails & Rings: [CX] x BUENO – “Welded Eye (Gold) (Maitreya, Bento) – NEW @ Kustom9 // December 2020

Wings: Jinx – “Simple Bento Wings

Staff: Lux Aterna – “[Der Heilige Nikolaus] Staff”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: MINA Hair – “Emilia”

Eyeshadow: APOTHIC – “Venus . Eyeshadows” (LeLUTKA Evo. HD Applier)

Lipstick: APOTHIC – “Venus . Lips” (LeLUTKA Evo. HD Applier)

Fceshading 1: Skoll – “Tva Eyes2 Terra” (BoM)

Fadeshading 2: LuluB! – “Saturna – Conturing – Black” (BoM)

Face Marks: Skoll – “Tva marks TINT ME” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Erin 2.5” (Boundless)

Eyes: Madame Noir – “Sarah Eyes”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo ( Dark ) Memento Mori” (BoM) – NEW @ Men only Monthly // December 2020

Legs/Legtattoo: Astralia – “North Pole Faun Legs (dark/gold)” (Maitreya, Maitreya Applier, Gacha, Common)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Pose Tool: Anypose – “BVN HUD v1.82”

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

LB – “GiantCedar{Animated}*Seasons 7Li”

[we’re CLOSED] – “shrub large bare”

DRD – “The Cemetery – Ground Roots”

DRD – “Forest Ritual Site – Tree Trunk”

DRD – “Forest Ritual Site – SpellBook”

DRD – Forest Ritual Site – Treestump

DRD – The Cemetery – Angel Statue – Those We Love

JIAN – “Fallow Fawn”

JIAN – “Gray Fox”

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“Miss Nothing”

TUNES

“Miss Nothing”

I’m Miss Autonomy, Miss Nowhere
I’m at the bottom of me
Miss Androgyny, Miss Don’t-Care-What-I’ve-Done-To-Me
I am misused, I don’t wanna do
Be not your slave
Misguided, high-minded
I’m missin’ the train
And I don’t know where I’ve been
And I don’t know what I’m into
And I don’t know what I’ve done to me
And as I watch you disappear into the ground
My one mistake was that I never let you down
So I’ll waste my time and I’ll burn my mind
I’m Miss Nothing, I’m Miss Everything


I’m Miss Fortune, Miss So-Soon
Like a bottle of pain
Miss Matter, you had her
Now she’s goin’ away
I’m misused, miss-cunt-strued
I don’t need to be saved
Miss-slighted, high-minded
I’m stuck in the rain
And I don’t know where I am
And I don’t know what I’m into
And I don’t know what I’ve done to me

And as I watch you disappear into the ground
My one mistake was that I couldn’t let you down
So I’ll waste my time and I’ll burn my mind
I’m Miss Nothing, I’m Miss Everything
I’m Miss Everything
And as I watch you disappear into my head
Well, there’s a man who’s tellin’ me I might be dead
So I’ll waste my time and I’ll burn my mind
So I’ll waste my time and I’ll burn my mind
I’m Miss Nothing, I’m Miss Everything

[- Pretty Reckless -]
Clothing

Top: STOP – “Horror Costume” (Mairteya)

Arm Bandage (Right): .:E.A.Studio:. – “KnothArm CottonMilitary Maitreya ( R )” (Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Kinky // December 2020

Pants & Garter: Eliavah – “Vixen” (Maitreya)

Tights: .:Avanti:. – “Cozy Tights Applier HUD – Black (Toeless)” (Maitreya Applier)

Shoes: L’Emporio&PL – “Ravage”

Accessories

Glasses: ::OOPS:: – “Adriel Glasses”

Cigarette: NikotiN – “Cigarette-Dirty V.2”

Hand (Left): Wicca’s Originals – “Corsair Hand Maitreya L” (Maitreya)

Nails & Rings (Right): [CX] x BUENO – “Welded Eye – Silver ( Maitreya ) R”

Necklace: L’Emporio&PL – “Venom” (Gift)

Hair & Makeup

Cap: OPALE – “Bart Hat V.1”

Eyeliner: CAZIMI – “Desert Rose Eyeliner – 1 Dusty Brown” (BoM)

Eyeshadow: Immortuos – “Arena Shadows – HUD” (LeLUTKA HD Applier)

Lashes: Immortuos – “Arena Lashes” (LeLUTKA HD Applier)

Face Scar: The Rotting Lab – “Waster – Scar – Pale” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Erin 2.5” (Boundless)

Ears: L’Emporio&PL – “Athan”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark Grim Weather”

Knees: Clemmm – “Messy Knees” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: .PALETO. – “Backdrop:. Ed. Mohawk “

Deco 1: CHI – “Smoker Set”

Deco 2: Prestige Furniture – “Pillow black white 001”

Deco 3: DRD – “Powergaming Shed – Trashcan”

Animal: JIAN – “Boston Terrier :: Wanderer”

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“We can change the world if we change ourselves…”

“We can change the world if we change ourselves. We just need to get hold of the old patterns of thinking and dealing with things and start listening to our inner voices and trusting our own superpowers.”

[- Nina Hagen -]

So many new releases I just had to do another post today!

I would like to highlight some really exciting news. Lets start with the extraordinary eyes and glasses of my more casual looking styling – at least for me that would be casual :p

The glasses and the eyes are made by Madame Noir. Known for her incredible and extraordinary eye designs she started  – for quite some time now – to make amazing fierce accessories. For example the “Aniquilation Glasses” – on the first view you just see those awesome shaped glasses with the huge side parts and if you take a closer look you see those nasty little claws that point right into your eye. Paired with the new “Spectro” eyes, it gives you a totally wicked look.

Since we are already looking at the closeup picture – LeLUTKA has again updated their new Evolution line heads! Now they are all boundless… what does that mean… they now have unrestricted bones! Yu can even customize your heads more than ever and if you absolutely don’t like it you still get the option with the ‘dated’ heads as  well included in the new update pack. The great HUD git an update too and was polished even more. Omega was removed for skin and lashes layers, a second HD eyeshadow has been added, we got a new HD brow layer and a tear line has been added. While we already had so many awesome moods for our heads, we now even get more – 64 moods in total! The face expressions got reworked too and even there we got more now \o/.

What I totally love is, that you now do not have to wear all piercings single anymore. Now we have 3 different sets: Ears, lip and nose and an extra HUD. With that HUD you can hide/show the piercings way easier and detailed.

The super cute and to the same time mega cool shoes, are made by DRD. The “Girlie Stompers” You get a rigged and un-rigged version so you can make the best fit even with pants, which usually require a wider shape. With the color HUD you get different options and colors for laces, bow, shoe base, shoe tip and the platforms. Since  am a DRD addicted, I could not resits to use the cool “Gypsy Claws” as my hand accessories and all the amazing decoration of my set you can see, is made by DRD too (I credited them all detailed below).  To finish my look I used one of the lates releases from Vegas Tattoo – the “Dark Body and Soul” tatoo available at the current round of UBER.

I could not resist to put that little, cute kitty from JIAN into my pictures, as I loved the little distraction to the whole scenery, which that little boy brought to the set 😉

I hope I did not scare yo with all the little pictures and details, but I felt they needed to be shown for the new 2.5 update of LeLUTKA, which I immensely enjoy 😉

Clothing

Outfit: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Roxy” (Maitreya)

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Ripped Nylons – V1” (BoM)

Shoes: DRD – “Girlie Stompers – Colors Rigged” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Glasses: Madame Noir – “Aniquilation Glasses” – NEW @ Salon 52 // October 2020

Hand Accessories: DRD – “Gypsy Claws – Colors” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Action Inkubator – “Neo”

Eyeshadow: CAZIMI – “Vamp HD Makeup” (LeLUTKA Evo.HD Applier)

Lipstick: -SU!- – “Cyber Necromancer Lips Gloss” (LeLUTKA Evo.HD Applier) – NEW @ Necrotize // October 2020

Nose Tattoo: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Sigurd – Scar Nose Plaster ( LeLEvo )” (BoM, Gacha, Common)

Cheek Tattoo: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Sigurd – Scar Cheekbone Psycho ( LeLEvo )” (BoM, Gacha, Common)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Lake 2.5” – NEW Update 2.5 – Boundless

Eyes: Madame Noir – “Spectro HD Eyes” (LeLUTKA Evo.HD Applier) – NEW @ The Darkness // November 2020

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Kanji Ears” (Gacha, Rare)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark Body and Soul vBlack” (BoM) – NEW @ UBER // October 2020

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxity

Cat: JIAN Curious Kitties :: Companion Tuxedo

Set:

DRD – “San Mora – City Trash – Pile – B”

DRD – “PA – Constructed Outlook – Tire Pile”

DRD – “Scrappy Scooter – Rusted Black”

DRD – “Beer Stand – Crates and Kegs”

DRD – “Beer Stand – Crate Pile”

DRD – “Beer Stand – Crate Stack”

DRD – “post apoc camp sitting crates 1”

DRD – “post apoc camp sitting crates 2”

DRD – “post apoc camp sitting crates 3”

DRD – “GFYH – Fund Cup – Buy DRD”

Backdrop: .PALETO. – “Backdrop:. Detroit Streets”

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Sometimes one of your Dreams comes true…

Sometimes you dream of something for a long time and when you think not too much about it, it all of a sudden comes true!

As a blogger you have some personal goals and this year another one of my biggest ones came true. I am allowed to blog for Death Row Designs! I am a DRD addicted for years, probably since I started playing Second Life. I adore their buildings and landscaping parts as well as their clothing, accessories and shoes. My inventory still holds accessories and body parts from times before mesh did enter the grid and now with BoM some of them do work again! And certainly I do not want to bother you only with the old stuff – Today I have something brand new for you! The “Hellion Outfit”, released at The Warehouse Sale event. The outfit is made for Maitreya Lara,/Petite, Legacy and Legacy Perky , Freya and Hourglass mesh bodies. The pants have 4 colors to choose from and the top even have 7 different versions – if I may give a suggestion… just get the fatpack, it is so worth it and you do not have to decide!

To complete my first ‘official’ DRD look, I certainly had to dig in my DRD folder to find all the goodies, which I already own, like the “Sticker Stompers” and the super cool beer hat, which even is an actual group gift at the DRD main store.

The mega cool neck tattoo, which goes down from the back of the head, touches the chin and goes down the cleavage in a new release as well and was made by Eclipse Art studio for the Kinky event. Since we have BoM it is so cool that you can have seamless tattoos that go up to your head as well – I always loved the idea of that, when a tattoo not just stops at the neckline. Speaking already of new releases, we cannot forget the generous gift called “Take Over”, that Vegas Tattoo put out at UBER!

Most of the time I do make my own sets for my shoots, but this time I decided to just hop down on the sim, outside of our store, where I was allowed to create Bartertown, a neat little post apoc place. What could make a better scenery for such a cool casual look than something from DRD? I decorated Bartertown with a lot of DRD designs and the “Beer Stand – Collection” felt like the right choice. I am looking forward on my new adventure with the awesome and crazy DRD team – I can’t wait to see what will be their next release 😉

I guess I should refill my beer hat and go for some shopping for my next post 😉

It has so many great details amd the textures are just incredible amazing. You do not have to use the full set and can decorate something with all the single parts as well, but I just loved how the softlink version did look like. The pack contains 20 single parts and you can arrange them as you like as well if you do not want to use the pre-made linked version. I love that DRD always provides a soft-linked version for all their buildings and structures, which allows you still to re-arrange or you can built your own version with all the single parts.

 

Clothing

Top: DRD – “Hellion Top/Hell” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // August 2020

Pants: DRD – “Hellion Pants/Blue” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // August 2020

Shoes: DRD – “Sticker Stompers – Colors” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Hat: DRD – “2020 Beerhat” (Groupgift)

Glasses: -SU!- – “Midnight Doll Sunglasses Amber” (color modified)

Piercing 1: LeLUTKA – “Erin.Piercing.Lip.Ashley/Laubert” (part of the Erin head)

Piercing 2: LeLUTKA – “Erin.Piercing.Lips. Frenulum/Tongue” (part of the Erin head)

Piercing 3: LeLUTKA – “Erin.Piercing.Nose.3rdEye/Bridge”

Septum: *PKC* – “Rosie Septum”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Place”

Eyeshadow: *YS&YS* – “ImmortalMake-up 04” (BoM)

Nose: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Sigurd Gacha – Scar Nose Plaster ( LeEvo )” (BoM, Gacha, Common)

Cheekbone Left: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Sigurd Gacha – Scar Cheekbone ( LeEvo )” (BoM, Gacha, Common)

Cheekbone Right: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Sigurd Gacha – Scar Cheekbone Psycho ( LeEvo )” (BoM, Gacha, Common)

Head, Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLUTKA – “Erin 2.0”

Ears:  .:E.A.Studio:. – “Kanji Ears”

Neck Tattoo:  .:E.A.Studio:. – “TaTToo Valhalla Woman 90% (LEL EVO)” (BoM) – NEW @ Kinky // August 2020

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 5.2”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark Take Over” (BoM, Exclusive Gift) – NEW @  UBER // August 2020

Shape: Denver’s Shapes – “Amy Shape for Lelutka”

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity – “Tomorrow – 3m,4m,5m” & “Lolita – 3m”

Background: DRD – “Beer Stand – Collection” (Full Set)

Cat 1: JIAN – “Curious Kitties :: Companion Calico” (Gacha, Common)

Cat 2: ..::THOR::.. – “Salem the Cat – licking”

Pose Tool: Anypose – “BVN HUD v1.6”

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Location

Bartertown

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Sometimes it is worth to think before you speak…

I thought a long time, if I can do a post with pictures like that without getting a shit storm started… but the idea I had for that post or better, what brought me to do pictures like that had a very special reason. I thought for along time to talk about bullying or psychological violence. These kinds of hurts may not leave a mark on someone that can be seen, but that doesn’t mean it would not hurt exactly like those – sometimes even more than if you would get a punch in your side. Physical wounds usually heal after a while and then you won’t see them anymore, psychological ones sometimes never fully heal and shadow us sometimes till the end.

My Grandpa once told me something when I was younger. I was sitting beside him when I was taunted at school about not being/looking like the majority of the class. While he was putting an arm around me and tried to solace me, he talked to me. Back then I didn’t understood what he meant, but later when I was a grown up (if I am fully grown up yet? I have no idea…), I slowly started to realize what he meant. He said “You are the one that chooses, who can hurt you.  You are the one to allow people to hurt you. So always think about it seriously, if it is worth to allow someone to hurt you!” First when I heard that from him, I thought he just is old and has no clue what he is talking about. I forgot about that for quite a while until I was older.

 

I always felt that I am not a great fit to my class mates. I didn’t behave like them, I didn’t look like them and I did not even want to. Most of my class mates are sons and daughters from lawyers, doctors, judges or something in that way. I was a teachers daughter, not dumb, nor stupid. My father died of cancer when I was 7 and my Mom was alone with me and my 3 years younger brother. Thank to the state, my Mom got the state pension from my father as teachers in Germany are employed by the state. We were really lucky as my Mom did know how to work with the money she had. We never missed anything – we went on holidays in summer and winter, we got birthday and Christmas presents and I never heard my Mom saying no if my brother or me wanted some ice cream while we were shopping (only if we already had some or we just had lunch or dinner). I only felt it, when branded clothing became important for some people from my class. For example I had jeans – cool jeans – but they were no Diesel or Lewis jeans. I never cared about that, I am more a simple person. If I like something, I won’t look what brand it is from or look if it would be expensive enough to buy it. Not to mention that I was a Punk back then anyways so jeans had to be modified and ripped anyways before I wanted to wear them. But that exactly seemed to be the issue. First I thought it must be the clothing that did separate me from many of my class mates and why they started to laugh at me – as a child you cannot just walk away and do you own thing… you want to be liked and you want some friends. So I went home and asked my Mom, if I could have some Diesel jeans. Her response first was: “Why, what is wrong with yours?” and when I explained it to her she said: “Sure you can have a pair for your birthday or Christmas, or you can buy them from your pocket money if you have enough, because they are expensive” Certainly I first thought that would be unfair until I was older and realized that it wasn’t just my clothing or what kind of game consoles I had.

I never was a stick-figure Barbie doll like all my class mates – I was the only one that had curves pretty soon, a nice present from the women on my mother side family tree. I did a lot of sports, because I loved it and not because I wanted to loose weight, or because someone told me to do so. I started with Gymnastics when I was 4 (until I was 22), I enjoyed riding from when I was 6 and later on I tried Volleyball and Swimming, too. So I basically was busy the whole week, everyday with some kind of sports and on the weekends there were contests for those. But that did not count either, it just did count that I wasn’t a size zero and that again was enough for some kids to pick on me and making fun out of me. I have to tell you… if that happens, it hurts like mad and that will not heal for quite a while. Especially if you later on meet guys that ask you for a date and then tell you you would be so sweet and nice, but with like 5 to 10 kilos you would be even more nice. All this bulling and hateful hurt doesn’t help teens to build up any kind of self esteem, which is so important to resist these same idiots who try to hurt you.

But that is not what I was trying to talk about, I don’t want your pity, because my life changed over the years and I understood what my Grandpa was trying to tell me. I do have true friends now and I enjoy my life as it is now. But sometimes I really get mad when I see people, groups or even websites, that bash certain people or groups, They think it is fun and never even think about how bad they can hurt other peoples feelings. They think they are right to judge or dictate others. I often ask myself what it would give them to do that… I do not have a real answer besides that their own life must be so miserable that they need to destroy others lifes for their own happiness. If that would not hurt others so bad, I would even feel pity with them and their misery.

How desperate you have to be, if you try to find something to hurt another person with it?!?

Who do you think you are to accuse people with whatever you think you found out that would be worth spreading the word about?!?

What rights you have to destroy other peoples lifes or dreams with a “truth” you just built out of nothing?!?

Why you think you are the one to judge about others peoples looks – because you are so much better?!?

Why you think you are allowed to take a rise out of somebody?!?

NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO DO THAT TO ANOTHER PERSON!!!

I know I won’t change the fact, that it happens everyday, everywhere anyways if in Real Life or in Second Life. But if I can just get one person to think about, before they open their mouth about someone or type (even worse) anonymous comments on websites about someone –  I am happy. I am not saying that we can not gossip or talk with our true friends about others and have our own opinions, but there is a difference if you try to hurt someone actively or if you just talk to someone in private and share an opinion. We do not get along with all and everybody, but n the end it should be a “live and let live” type of spirit. Both worlds are big enough for all of us and there is no need to destroy or eliminate someone. PLUS… never forget what you do to others… can be done to you as well if the time comes!

Maybe you now understand my drastic pictures for todays post. They only were meant to make inner pain visible and catch the mood of this post.

So my wish for 2020  – for both worlds – would be:

Sometimes just think before you open your mouth about something or someone. Think about if you would hurt someone irrecoverably and if you only get the glimpse of a “YES”, just keep your mouth shut or delete your comment where ever it was supposed to go!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Clothing

Corset: [CX] – “Immoral Support – Black” (Maitreya)

Panties: [CX] – “Malum Undies (Black)” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Liliana Stripe Boots – Boutique” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Septum: -[TWC]- – “Gear Septum Silver -CL Blood-“

Collar: [CX] – “Heavy Duty Collar – Rusty Filth (Un-Rigged)”

Sleeves: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme – Black” (Maitreya)

Cuffs: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Bondage Deluxe Set” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: .shi – “Gavri’ela /Unisex”

Wounds & Butterfly Aids: -[TWC]- – “Bad Dog -bruises- ” (Omega Applier)

Face: La Malvada Mujer – “Insommnia” (Omega Applier)

Makeup: La Malvada Mujer – “She Said Eyeshadow” (Omega Applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “London” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Ears: [CX] – “Ostium Impaler Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: -[TWC]- – “Bad Dog” (Omega Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Backdrop: #Cranked# – “Backdrop Black Padded Cell”

Rat: JIAN – “Rascal Rats 2. Black Companion” (Gacha, Common)

Pose Tool: AnyPose – “BVH Pose Stand”

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Me, myself and I

Recently I was asked, why you never do casual anymore? Are you only going to do scary and creepy pictures now? Are you going to give up your versatileness?

The simple answer is… NO!

But what I gave up is to let others dictate me what I am doing or how I am showcasing things on my blog *winks*

I am in Second Life nearly 13 years now and I tried a lot of things on my blog. When I started I thought I have to have as many posts a day as I can pump out on one day and that 7 days a week. I had times where I ran though 5 to 7 “posts” a day – Posts in terms of I do a quick snap shot and post a style card. That didn’t satisfy me after some time and I started to write something to every picture. First the facts about the clothing, like what kind of HUDs, how many colors or what special features they had. Later even a little bit of a review about what I liked most of the items and designs I was given to blog. Again I felt at some point that that wasn’t the only thing what I liked to do and I dared to write a little bit about things in SL that bothered me, or about certain topics to explain them better as I had a feeling they were misunderstood and underestimated a lot. That I still like to do and sometimes my blog even was a place to vent for me and write things just off my soul to get rid of them. In my view a blog has to be more than just a style card. If I just would like to have style cards nowadays, I would just blog on Flickr I guess. But since I usually need or want more than one picture to showcase my styling, to as well highlight the details, I decided to keep my blog and continue to write what comes to my mind or sometimes even just post lyrics and tunes if I feel like it or have nothing to say.

 

Today I really felt kinda casual, or better I felt like doing my way of casual styling. When I showed my look to a friend and said I felt casual, she laughed her ass of and said: “Yeah, maybe for you that would be casual… could you ever imagine to go out like that?” My answer was: “Oh yeah… I did that in my 20s”. she stopped talking and asked if I would be serious… yes, I am serious. I was a little rebel in my RL as well – probably I am still one, but my temper might be more adult now as it used to be *snickers*

So lets take a look at the style… I wanted to use the “Fianna” face tattoo from Nefekalum Tattoos, parts of the “Voodoo Dolls Backpack and Mouthdoll” gacha set and the brand new “Infernal Claws” from .:E.A.Studio:. , the “Pepper Ankle Boots” from [Gos] and the “Heavy Duty Collar” made by CerberusXing. So I put that all on and looked at it thinking how the hell I could make this work as a look that I would call casual…

Maybe lets take a closer look at the “basic” parts I just had put on and then go from there. The “Pepper Ankle Boots” from [Gos] are a perfect pair of shoes for many kind of genres you want to style for. You can wear them to jeans, skirts, dresses or even to lingerie. With the edgy tip of the shoes and the huge, heavy heel it is very versatile as it combines the smart with the elegant for me. With the possibility to choose from many leather colors as well as from metal, shiny colors it allowed a huge range of use.

The “Voodoo Doll Backpack” is part of a gacha from .:E.A.Studio:. it is one of the rares and comes with a huge HUD to customize it for different colors and outfits. It is designed to wear it over one shoulder with a little buckled strap. The “Infernal Claws ” you will find at the 3rd Edition of the Fetish Fair at the booth of .:E.A.Studio:. until the 27th of December. You can choose if you want to wear only the rings or the nails or the whole set of it. With the HUD you have the possibility to color the metals and leather, the claw itself on the middle finger, the rings and the you even can color and hide all the nails separate for each finger. An amazing set and a must have for every Gothic wardrobe!

The “Heavy Duty Collar” from CerberusXing lives up to its name. It is a heavy iron collar, which lays around your neck with an attached leash in the front. It really has a martial look but I do love the feeling when a heavy cold metal collar gets locked around my neck *grins wickedly*. The face tattoo, even better the Face art comes from Skye Nefekalum for his brand Nefekalum Tattoos. It is very special and for me it did support the martial look of the collar perfectly as it as well is very harsh and dark.

To me that makes a perfect “Wicca Casual” and even if I am aware of, that this might not be a casual for everyone… this is my blog, my Second Life,  my personal fun and creativity and the spot where I can be 100% me, myself and I *winks*

Clothing

Dress: Bombshell – “Fanatine” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fetish Fair 3rd Edition // December 2019

Sleeves: [NC] – “AmazonQ – Arm Spikes” (Maitreya, Gacha, Ultrarare)

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Ripped Nylons V1” (Maitreya Applier)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Pepper Ankle Boots” (Maitreya) – NEW @ FaMESHed //December 2019

Accessories

Backpack: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Voodoo Dolls Backpack and Mouthdoll” (Gacha) – NEW @ Kinky Event // November 2019

Nails & Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Infernal Claw Ring Set” (Maitreya, Bento) – NEW @ Fetish Fair 3rd Edition // December 2019

Earrings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Tenebra Earrings”

Collar:[CX] – “Heavy Duty Collar – Rusty Filth (Un-Rigged)”

Glasses: SU!– “Poison Sunglasses”

Piercing: [CX] – “Mostrum Catena – Silver”

Bracelet (left): [CX] – “Ring Bracelet (L)”

Bracelet (right): amias – “JAASNA black right”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: .Shi – “Gavri’ela”

Faceart: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Fianna” (Omega Applier, Materials Enabled)

Lipstick: .{Psycho:Byts}. – “Hecate Lipstick” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Vodoo”

Horns: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Horns Dracarys”

Tattoo: -Endless Pain Tattoos- – “Clary” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

Backdrop: Paparazzi – “BACKDROP – Grime Block Balcony”

Cases: DRD – “San Mora – Survival Storage – Durable A & B”

Trash: DRD – “San Mora – City Trash – Bins”

Cat 1: JIAN – “Curious Kitties :: Wanderer Gry Tabby” (Gacha, Common)

Cat 2: JIAN – “Curious Kitties :: Wanderer Calico” (Gacha, Common)

Rat: JIAN – “Rascal Rats 2. Black Companion” (Gacha, Common)

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Nude or Naked? – A Tribute to Flora Borsi

The past weeks/months I was allowed to be part of the latest VISIONAIRE batch. VISIONAIRE offers classes/workshops for inworld photography. When I first told a few friends, that I am excited about VISIONAIRE, they asked me why I would want to go there. I would already do pictures for such a long time and as well, I would work with Photoshop and could do PS tutorials instead.

I tried to tell them, that I am working on my own for such a long time and that I kinda felt stuck in my own world with my pictures. I love going to schools and workshops and learn new things or even get pointed out some things that I might have forgotten over the time. I do not know how to describe it, but it is like even if you know things, you can forget about them so easy and with classes and workshops you get a sweet reminder. Sometimes you learn something, you cannot use it right away and then you forget about it, even if it would be very useful for something else. Sometimes you try things and you do not like it at all and feel overchallenged at the moment you practice, but after some time you might be able to work it out, but you forgot about. And in the end it is always great if you get some critique on your work, that most of the time will encourage you to try better in my view.

I was very excited when we met the first time – I nearly was nervous, because the classes were going to be in voice and I am always afraid, to not able to follow properly if it comes to technical terms and stuffs. Soon I realized, I am not the only non native speaker, which made it a little easier. When I started to cam around, I again got scared seeing some big names beside me and I nearly fell for the same weird question I was asked “What they are doing here, they are so good!” :p But since I had my own reasons to do the course, I scratched that thought quickly 😉

The classes, even if they took hours, were awesome. For many weeks, Sundays were completely dedicated to that chatty, funny and passionated people and I do not regret one minute. I have to admit, I felt strange sometimes and again the old discussion “it is because you are unique – it is because you are special” came up and I wanted to quit. I hate that term!!! There is times where you just want to be one of many and not the one, that stands out because of weird thoughts and craziness. I remember one Sunday, where we were supposed to look at pictures to find the spot in the picture, where our eyes where pulled at and then explain why. You start to get frustrated, if your eyes mostly get attracted by other things than the rest of the group sees…

I really had moments, where I thought I am just too stupid, or too weird to understand/see things. So I started to remain silent – Certainly Wren and Koko caught that and asked me why and told me that this would not be the solution. Since I am not a kid, I was aware of that and I tried to explain my problem. Wren was very understanding and I have to say she was so striving to calm me down and back into the ‘chat mode’. It took me a week to get back on track, but since we had fun homeworks all week, it was easy to step back into the group – they made it super easy for me too and did not even bring it up again.

Home work always sounds bad, but in case of VISIONAIRE they were amazing as the challenged me every week and go me out of my ‘same procedure like always’ mode, which kinda crept into my photography habit. It sometimes dragged me out if my comfort zone and made me re-think a lot of things not only technique wise, but as well composition wise 🙂

It was interesting to get critique and opinions for the home work every week. Sometimes I did not even think about things, that others saw in my pictures. Again the old term “Beauty is in the eye of the beholder” made its point 🙂 Even the never ending story “Why this picture of mine got so many faves while the other – which I personally like so much more – got less likes” got touched and Koko had some very interesting ideas to that subject, which again gave me a new perspective – Did you ever think about, if you do pictures with male or female gaze, or what even would be the difference on that in terms of art and photography?

Another great part was the using of glow, lights and projectors. While I hate glow, I always liked using projectors and lights but I never was able to really use them to their full beauty. I normally used 1 or 2 lights or projectors, not thinking about the fact that I could have more to highlight certain parts of the body, even certain spots of the whole scenery. In the past lights and projectors were my personal “OMG that never does what it should” overchallenging situations and I usually gave up on them. BUT if you have a homework… you damn try :p.

In one of the classes, when our home work was to create a portrait. Linda Reddevil, did one being inspired by Flora Borsi. I saw some of her pictures already, but I never was familiar with that artist. When Linda brought her up, I googled again and was so impressed that I wanted to to a picture inspired by Flora Borsi.

It was luck, that to the same time Jian has their amazing flamingos at the FLF and so I took it as a sign and started to work on my idea. While I was doing the shoot, my mind went back to a subject we had at our VISIONAIRE meetings as well. A discussion about an ongoing trend in SL or on SL Flickr pictures – nudity. It seems if you throw and press your private parts into peoples faces, you get a lot of favorites on Flickr. I never was against nudity in arts in general, as long as it was done with class and not only or all of the time. There is much more, what can appeal sexy, than just simple show-offs in a crude way. Does it really have to show ‘everything’ all of them time? Is sometimes not just a basis idea the key to let the imagination fly? I remember very well a scene of movie, where people still going on about, if you see something or not. The interrogation scene in Basic Instinct, which is probably the most famous scene of that movie. The moment where Sharon Stone switching her one leg over the other, so many people did rewind that moment, to see if she would have panties on or not and we still do not know, because we saw… nothing, while the imagination was taking off.

Maybe it is because I am a German. I know it is not everywhere like this, but in Germany, if you strip naked on a public media source (internet, magazines, Youtube, etc.), you need back some more attention to your person. In 90% of the time it is done by people, who suffer from fading popularity or fading fame. Before they become an extinct star on the sky of fame, they do that as a last try to get back into social media and in the heads of the people. For a while it works, but it basically for most is just to protract, what anyways will come and they just win a certain period of time before it happens. That is one of the reasons, why I never even thought about having my boobies all over my Flickr, as well I never had the desire to share that with everyone, even if it is just pixels. To me nude does NOT have to be naked all the time 😉

With Flora Borsi in the back of my head, I started experimenting with my naked body and the flamingos, how I could show everything and nothing the same time. Since I even wanted to try again to draw hair, I even was bold. I only had changed my lashes to something unusual, while my whole body and head was completely nude and natural. They key was a pose I got from Falbala Fairey called “Crouched 6”. It previously was a gift for a store and now it is back in her own store for sale. With that pose and pushing the flamingos in the right position I only needed a pillow to sit on and I was done.

Drawing hair still is a huge, exciting and time consuming project for me and again I was not yet even close to be satisfied with what I tried, so I again did lend me some instant painted hair to work with from Rayne Morgan aka Nina Rosario (in SL), only added a few strands of my own on those spots, that did not quite fit to my pose or avatar shape and colored it to match the flamingos.

I had a lot of fun working on the concept and the pictures and I hope I did make sense with my words as well. I am not just a prude German, I just prefer artistic and tasteful nude over just blunt views on others private parts on social media 😉

Special thanks to Linda Reddevil for making me looking deeper into Flora Borsi’s art again and VISIONAIRE for their amazing course!

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Hair:  Rayne Morgan (modified & complemented by me)

Lashes: Stardust – “Kira” (LeLutka Applier)

Pose: Fairey Poses – “Crouched 6”

Animals: JIAN – “Flamingo Collection”

Pillow: Le Poppycock – “Book Lovers – Tell Me a Story”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Who says it always has to be a Bikini?

Do you know that feeling, when you get told by people what you can do and what you can’t do?

I do and sometimes I am getting tired of it 😉 That usually brings out the little rebel in me and I do want to prove them I can do everything I want – usually in SL that is easier than in RL, but it works in both worlds somehow 😉

I was in such a mood, when I put on the new lingerie from [Gos]. With the “Diana” lingerie set, I was thinking about an idea for pictures. I tried all the usual stuff first – laying n a bed, a couch or a sofa… on the ground with some aerial, wavy cloth… all looked ‘ok’ but none did the ‘WOW’ for me. That made me think of something completely different. Why not doing a summer, pool inspired scenery. Like you come from work, or you were on a walk with your dogs and you see that amazing pool and have no swimsuit or bikini? If you have a lingerie like the “Diana” lingerie from [Gos], it is not a problem to use that for a quick refreshment *snickers* Who says it always has to be a bikini?

When I saw the cute “Fun in the sun Frenchies” gacha from Bee Designs, I fell in love with the little puppies in a blink. The gacha holds 4 different kinds of little dogs in 4 different coat colors – Swimmers, Held Puppers, Companions and Wanderers besides the 3 special rares. They are so cute and adorable I simply could not resist to not have them in my pictures 😉

The amazing pool decor you can find at the actual round from the Liaison Collaborative, made by Bee Designs.

As well an awesome new release you can find at the actual anniversary round of the Cosmopolitan events which only has a few days left. The “No.I don’t” hair style from no.match.

The perfect hair style for a warm, sunny summer day. With the little knot up at the back head and the long hair falling down your back it is perfect for swimming as well 😉

Typical for no.match you get a lot of different possibilities for the color HUDs. I really love the hair textures of no.match an as well the special blond tones, they go so very well with my skin tone and the no eyebrow trademark that I now have for quite a few years.

Last but not least I would like to drag the view on the amazing “Diana D’Orsay” pumps as well made by [Gos]. With the delicate lace and the second color high light option at the back of the foot, they match perfectly to the lingerie, which as well has solid parts and amazing lace parts. The best advantage is, the color HUDs of both make a perfect match , because they hold all the same colors 😉

Outfit & Accessories

Lingerie: [Gos] – “Diana Lingerie Set” (Maitreya) – NEW @ UBER

Shoes: [Gos] – “Diana D’Orsay Pumps” (Maitreya) – NEW @ FaMESHed

Body Jewelry: (AMD) – “Body Jewelry – Gold” (Maitreya)

Jewelry: AvaWay – “Emmanuelle Back Necklace #1”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.I Don’t” – NEW @ COSMOPOLITAN

Makeup: Zibska – “Delight” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Delia” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Tattoo: RedFish – “Sexy Flower” (Maitreya)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity – “Pool Bunny Vol 2” & Body Language – “FineSand” (Bento)

Set:

Dogs & Pool: JIAN – “Fun in the Sun Frenchies” (Gacha)

Pool Deco: Bee Designs – “Pool Decor Gacha” (Gacha) – NEW @ The Liaison Collaborarative

Location

Wicca’s Wardrobe (Garden Parcel)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Summertime

Summertime

Summertime, and the livin’ is easy
Fish are jumpin’ and the cotton is high
Oh, your daddy’s rich and your ma is good-lookin’
So hush, little baby, don’t you cry
One of these mornings you’re gonna rise up singing
And you’ll spread your wings and you’ll take to the sky
But till that morning, there ain’t nothin’ can harm you
With daddy and mammy standin’ by
One of these mornings you’re gonna rise up singing
And you’ll spread your wings and you’ll take to the sky
But till that morning, there ain’t nothin’ can harm you
With daddy and mammy standin’ by
Summertime, and the livin’ is easy
Fish are jumpin’ and the cotton is high
Oh, your daddy’s rich and your ma is good-lookin’
So hush, little baby, don’t you cry
[Ella Fitzgerald]

Outfit & Accessories

Top & Pants: [sYs] – “Mirbel” (Maitreya)
Shoes: [sYs] – “Vogue” (Maitreya)
Glasses: ANE – “Tehe Sunglases-Lemon”
Bangles: :Z.S: – “Cheer Bangles”
Rings: *elise* – “Sabrina” (Maitreya, Bento)
Nailpolish: Nailed It! – “Ray of Light” (Maitreya Applier)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Cheat” – NEW @ Secret Affair
Lipstick: Izzie’s – “Metallic Lipsticks” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses & Props

Set:
*Artisan Fantasy* – “Boho” (Gacha) – NEW @ GachaLand
JIAN – “Chipmunk Collection”
Little Branch – “WildGrass”

Location

Wicca’s Wardrobe (left to the store)

Model & Photographer