Loneliness…

Loneliness

Loneliness
Is a place that I know well
It’s the distance between us
And the space inside ourselves

Emptiness
Is the chattering in your head
It’s the call of the living
And the race from life to death.
And I know
Yeah, I know, what you feel

And I’ve got a longing that’s hard to find
Won’t give me no peace of mind
Something that I’ve lived with all along
Days and weeks and months and years
Filling in the time, my dear
Tryin’ to find the place where I belong

[Annie Lennox]

Details

Outfit & Accessories:

Pants: .miss chelsea. – “Shea Shorts” (Maitreya)

Top 1: Storybook – “Dystopia” (Maitreya)

Top 2: [The Forge] – “Banshee Armour”

Arms: L’Emporio – “Harness Arm” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Essenz – “Honduras” (Maitreya)

Mask: Bauhaus Movement – “Cypriss Apoc Part II”

Necklace: Schadenfreude – “Corax Necklace”

Nails: >glyph< – “Apex Shadow” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: EMO-tions – “Lost”

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo 1 (legs): BODY MOD – “Vicious Tattoo” (Maitreya Applier)

Tattoo 2 (upper): PMS – “Buzz Tattoo” (Omega Applier)

Poses & Props:

Background: [ isuka ] – “dead ahead backdrop”

Matress: [ zerkalo ] – “Last Refuge Dirty Matress”

Seat: DRD – “PA – Sewer Shelter – Bucket Seat”

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

Vintage fun with [Gos]

[Gos] having their debut at UBER with a wonderful and sexy peep toe – “Bianca”!

“Zip into Bianca, an alluring variation of the classic peeptoe platform pump. Bianca features a high stiletto heel embellished by a zipper with circular pull. You will be spoilt for choice with Bianca’s 55 colour options.” , [Gos] describe their amazing new release. And I really have to agree. I was not able to snap 55 colors without photo bombing you all but I at least wanted to show some colors beside the black ones I used for the pictures 😉

[Gos] – “Bianca” Boutique HUD

Like we know it for all the new releases of [Gos], “Bianca” includes 3 colour HUDs – Boutique, Blueberry, and Metallics. The Boutique HUD includes 21 current, in-season colours perfect for any fashionista, the Blueberry HUD includes 28 colours which coordinate with clothing from Blueberry, and the Metallics HUD include 6 metallics which will have your feet shining. Each HUD also includes 5 sole, 2 metal, and 3 lining options.

 

[Gos] – “Bianca” Metallics HUD

“Bianca” includes fits for Maitreya Lara, Belleza and Slink High feet.

 

When I unpacked my new “Bianca” heels I instantly had an idea, how I wanted them to style. The peep toe did shout ‘pin up’ at me but the cool zipper at the back of the heel said ‘no way you will wear those with a cute dress!’

I wanted to dome rockabilly like style with a cool vintage car at a gas station… and there they were again… the problems if you have something particular in mind and no idea where you find your accessories, clothes or the location.

Ok the look first. To give the heels enough room and to fit the style idea I need some 3/4 long pants – preferred used blue jeans with a tight fit. I do have a ton of jeans, but believe it or not either they are loose fit, bell-bottom style or long down to the ground *grumbles*

The search for that special type of jeans made  me work through all my denim/jeans pants and I was able to decrease my inventory numbers significantly *snickers*. It is really funny how much stuff yo find if you dig deep enough in your inventory :p

There they are! My “Ronee Boyfriend Jeans from GizzA. Recently GizzA got re-branded to Giz Seorn and I have to post some of her amazing new releases soon, but some things you simply can’t let go 😉 Next I first thought for a white shirt, or maybe a white cool sporty blouse but I did not find the right one and so i changed my mind and thought even more towards the cool kids rockabilly side 😉 Yes, that looked so much better when I tried the “Kara Vest” from DE Designs. Now I just missed some typical cat eye shaped vintage glasses and since I wanted to go for a gas station for my pictures maybe some fingerless gloves, just in case I want to so some car mechanic pics 😉

While I was looking for gas stations, I remembered a little retro looking one at Netherwood. So I just had to rez the cute vintage pickup from Wetcat and ready to shoot! The “Shelby” pickup has some inbuilt poses, but I just used the one on the first picture. for the other pictures I played around with poses from Foxity and ALIUD. I do not know why but vintage or even more Rockabilly shoots always are fun as I love listen to that kind of music while I shoot and edit my pictures to get in to the right mood 😉

Speaking of… I would like to close todays post with some lyrics, that I just heard, while I was typing and which belong to one of my favourite rockabilly songs… the little bass guitar solo in there was one of the first I learned when I started to play bass :p

Stray cat strut, I’m a ladies cat
I’m a feline Casanova, hey man that’s that
Get a shoe thrown at me from a mean old man
Get my dinner from a garbage can

Don’t go crossing my path

[Stray Cats]

Details

Outfit & Accessories:

Top: DE Designs – “Kara Vest” (Maitreya)

Pants: GizzA – “Ronee Boyfriend Jeans” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Bianca” (Maitreya)  – NEW @ UBER

Gloves: L’Emporio – “Fingerless Gloves” (Maitreya, Bento)

Glasses: HAYSURIZA – “Cat Eye Sunglasses Flame”

Choker: Salt  & Pepper – “Iris”

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: Truth – “Sadie”

Body & Tattoos:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: Lower: Body Mod – “Vicious Tattoo” (Maitreya Applier) & Upper: Endless Pain Tattoos – “Suicide Girl” (Maitreya Applier)

Facetattoo: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Props & Poses:

Prop: Wetcat – “Shelby Vintage PickUp”

Poses: Wetcat, Foxcity & ALIUD

Location: Netherwood

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Just a walk… with freezy toes and cold fingers ;)

Now autumn really caught me in RL as well and so today I was in a totally autumn mood while sitting at my PC with freezy toes and fingers. So when I unpacked one of the newest releases from  [sys] for the Sad November event.

[sys] released a full outfit with the “SWEATER” outfit. The outfit contains a skirt and a huge oversized sweater dress. For todays post I just used the skirt together with the amazing “Y6 Jacket & SHirt” as well made by [sys] and released for the Seasons Story back in October 2017.

I loved the wintery touch that the colors and the style of the combination gave me and so I added more autumn/winter looking items to it. Certainly when it gets colder, you need som tights otherwise your legs will get freezy and turn into an ugly blue tone, what we do not wanna have 😉

The colored tights from Izzie’s had the perfect tone to match the red parts of the vest and with the cute “Varsity” sneakers from Miel, which i got at one of the last 50 Linden Fridays it just looked nearly perfect. While I was staring at my pixels, I remembered the “Boot Socks”, that I got longer ago at katat0nik. I was waiting so long for a chance to wear them as i loved them so much and they perfectly fitted on the sneakers and as well to the colors of the whole look!

The hair I found at the actual round of the Fantasy Gacha Carnival. Needless to say, they are a gacha and it might take a while until you get the ones you want, if you not wanna wait for the resellers to put them on Marketplace 😉 I loved the possibility of having different styles on a HUD where I could decide about bangs or no bangs and as well if I wanted both sides of the hair over my shoulders or just one side. For the bandana you as well have the choice of a uni colored one or an ornamented version.

With the sneakers and the socks the whole look became a sporty touch and made me want to add something on my hands. First I was thinking about some knitted gloves matching the bandana but then I remembered the cool “Fingerless Gloves” from L’Emporio, that I got from Marketplace not too long ago.

For the poses I again chose to go with HelaMiyo as I really loved the “Walk” poses and as well the “Ground Sit” pose set so  much. They perfectly went with my sporty look.

Details

Outfit & Accessories:

Top: [sys] – “Y6 Jacket & Skirt” (Maitreya)

Skirt: [sys] – “SWEATER Skirt” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Sad November 2017

Socks: kakat0nik – “Boots socks”

Gloves: L’Emporio – “Fingerless Gloves” (Maitreya)

Shoes: MIEL – “Varsity Kicks Natural” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: no.match – “No.Problem” (Gacha) – NEW @ Fantasy Gacha Carnival

Body & Tattoos:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Facetattoo: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses & Props:

Poses: HelaMiyo – “Ground Sit” & “Walk”

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

I won’t back down

I Won’t Back Down

Well I won’t back down
No I won’t back down
You could stand me up at the gates of hell
But I won’t back downNo I’ll stand my ground
Won’t be turned around
And I’ll keep this world from draggin’ me down
Gonna stand my ground
And I won’t back down

Well I know what’s right
I got just one life
In a world that keeps on pushin’ me around
But I’ll stand my ground
And I won’t back downHey baby there ain’t no easy way out
Hey I won’t back down
Hey baby there ain’t no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground
And I won’t back down
No I won’t back down
[Tom Petty]
Details
Clothing & Accessories:
Dress: United Colors – “Simone” (Maitreya)
Shoes: Hucci – “Itabuna Boots” (Maitreya)
Armstraps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arm” (Maitreya)
Headpiece: PFC – “Roach”
Makeup & Hair:
Facepaint: PFC – “Roach” (LeLutka Applier)
Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)
Hairbase: Mina – “Myla” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo:
Head: LeLutka – “Somine 3.0”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Brimstone” (Maitreya Applier) – NEW @ On9
Poses & Props:
Poses: Poseidon
Set:
Trees: Little Branch – “Spooky Tree 1 & 4”
Branches: [we’re CLOSED] – “Shrub Large Bare”
Skulls: [Kres] – “Dragon King” – NEW @ We ♥ RP

The Darkness Inside

I did think a long time about a title for this post and pictures and after a conversation with a dear, sweet friend today, I suddenly had the idea – “The dark beast inside of me sometimes needs some release”

We all know that feeling I guess. You often just try to be polite and kind even if you feel that the inner beast tries to break free. In my life I learned that his beast has two different sides. It is very emotional and hot-headed on one side and sometimes it can be very dark ironic and sarcastic on the other. That is why I learned to control it and keep it locked in chains inside of me.

Certainly I was told to not always swallow all my emotions and everything that I get told, but the same time there is way how you can express this in a polite and adult way.

The most difficult it gets when you feel hurt. Because then this beast inside just rambles and rattles with the chains, developing immense power so that I sometimes really be afraid it would break that chains and just break free.

But exactly those situations taught me the most. When I was able to still keep it inside, it felt as a success to not let it win over me just because of someones judgement, rumors, gossips or words.

Every time I was able to keep it locked away, I felt that I did grow stronger. It was a long process and it took me years and sadly it is still not perfectly locked. But maybe it does not have to be, because everything has an end as well and so does patience, understanding and politeness. Sometimes people really need to know when they overstepped a line or did hurt me even if they will not believe nor change their behaviour – most of the time because they can’t as they have nothing in their life than trying to make others miserable. Then you do not even need to argue with those, because you can’t win. Anyways what you will say to prove them wrong they will turn it around and again use it against you no matter what. So all you can do is let it go, turn around and move on.

If you move on, you will meet new people in the future who will treat you with more respect and in an adult way. Certainly not only those, but all the others will wait for you left and right as well and maybe it is the personal challenge of everyone’s life to pass those who do not matter to meet those who DO matter – if that makes any sense. That does not mean you should not take any critiques, but you can learn to decide between the good and the bad critique. The bad, that only was used to hurt, blame or accuse you without any content OR the one that sometimes hurts too a bit – because you might have seen it different – but that as well contains facts and things that let you learn and grow from.

In the end you are the one, that has to make the decisions in your life – nobody can do or should do that for – as long as you can.

For me it feels better to have a mainly positive life (all of us have bad days or experiences) instead of a hate filled, jealous and not satisfied one. I always ask myself – before I react on things – if it would be worth fighting or arguing about something, or just smile and say thank you, turn around and move on. Both cases did happen and both will happen in the future, but if I argue or discuss I try to stay with the facts, be polite and kind and as well stay adult and not just release the inner beast without thinking. If that happens, I exactly would do that, what I do not want be done to myself – hurt, accuse or become personal and unobjective – and that is not an option to me if I can control it. I have to admit, over the years I became way more calm in such situations and maybe it is the age that lets you think before you take any action 😉

Details

Clothing & Accessoires:

Outfit: Salt & Pepper – “Strapped” (Gacha, Maitreya)

Arms Straps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arms” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Bax – “Regency Boots”

Chains: E.V.E Studio – “{Apocalyptica} Cyber Snake Chains”

Makeup & Hair:

Hair: A&Y Bunker – “Cyro Hair”

Hairbase: Mina – “Myla Hairbase” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup: Zibska – “Ballard Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: Swallow – “Pixie Ears”

Arms: Zibska – “Speckles” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Pose: Poseidon

Whispers that I hear…

I can feel you here, watchin’ me
Whispers that I hear are haunting me
I can feel you here, watchin’ me
Whispers that I hear are haunting me
Feel it in the air…

[Lowkey]

Today I have an awesome gacha outfit from Salt & Pepper for you. The “Like a Prayer” gacha is available at the actual round of ROMP.

The gacha comes with so many different itmes and colors, I really had a hard time choosing the parts and colors for today’s look.

Usually a nun seems something well behaved and shiny, so I wanted to drag it over to something dark, since I am on a dark and scary mood at the moment*giggles*

I love how the habit moves with the poses and animations and with all the options you really can create looks from totally nice and proper to something uber sexy if you only use the harness for the body…

For the set, what else I could use as the “Abandoned Asylum” gacha from 22769. I do LOVE their creativity and love for the detail in all of their items. The gacha comes with so many different furniture and deco parts.. you can just decorate away with all of them and since they are usually modifiable, you can even reuse them in different sizes! The amazing spooky mannequins as well are a gacha but from Remarkable Oblivion. That was the most funniest gacha play I ever had. When I saw those mannequins on the Ironwood Hills sim, I instantly knew – I want them! So I went to the event where they were and was doing a happy dance when I saw they are all common items. Usually I am not a lucky person with gachas, that is one of the reasons I stopped playing most of the time. So I started to gamble aways after setting myself a limit and the first 3 pulls already all were 3 rares and I was like “What the hell??? Once I seriously want the commons – really???” No that I did not like the rares, they are amazing, but… seriously?!? – Just on a side note, I never ever was that lucky at any other gacha*laughs*

Thank god I found the missing mannequins for a reasonable price on marketplace, to complete my Spook Show :p

I do not wanna forget to mention, that all the amazing poses I used are from Poseidon.

I still have so many poses and props he made, that I would love to showcase, but that crazy genius guy seems to be on a release flood! Just kidding but it is really hard to follow up with the speed of his releases.. I sometimes really wonder if he ever sleeps*grins* But for this post they were just perfect again. Using his poses seems to me like getting a picture alive. They are so very well thought trough from the fingernails down to the toenails every limb does exactly what it has to, to create the perfect illusion of a movement in just one pose!

It was really great fun to do those pictures and I hope you enjoy them as much as I do 🙂

Details

Outfit (Incl necklace): Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Like a Prayer” (Maitreya, Gacha) @ ROMP

Boots: BAX – “Regency Boots” (Maitreya)

Bra & Stockings: Blacklace – “Vivian” (Omega Applier)

Gloves: L’Emporio – “Lace Gloves” (Maitreya Applier)

Claws: MEVA – “Bento Claw” (Maitreya)

Makeup: Slackgirl – “RoseGem Shadow” (Omega Applier)

Lipstick: je suis… – “LeLutka Lips no. 005[greys]” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses: Poseidon

Set: 22769 – “Abandoned Asylum” (Gacha) & RO – “Spook Show” (Gacha)

Basics:
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 2.7”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara V4.1”
Eyes: IKON – “Hope Eyes”
Shape: Selfmade

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin