Illusion – Sometimes you wish…

Illusion

I know it’s hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt, I don’t want you to change
Because everyone has hopes, you’re human after all
The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand. Please, don’t cry now

Being like you are
Well this is something else, who would comprehend?
But some that do, lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them
That’s not what I believe, and it doesn’t matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last, but I’m still not sure
But what I do know, is to us the world is different
As we are to the world but I guess you would know that

Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, oh please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to change
For all the hurt that you feel
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you
[VNV Nation]

VIDEO

This video, inspired me for today’s post. In the moment when I saw the amazing “Uh Oh Makeup” from Slackgirl.
We all know that – sometimes we desire to be something or someone else. Those moments when all those self-doubts devour you from the inside and you just wish to escape your own body or the situation that you are in. But would that really be worth it? It might seem easier on the first view but would you not miss your past, all the things that made you to what you are now? Would this new desire not make it even worse? Would this moment not come again some when – a new desire to again be someone or something else?
I do think those moments let us grow. Each time they happen and we work them through we gain experiences and as well come out of them even stronger.
Secondlife to me was such an escape in the past. When my RL turned upside down, Wicca was my refuge. I know how crazy that must sound, but others find their hide out in alcohol and drugs so for that amount of time where it was really bad, I am happy I had Wicca instead. I always was aware of, that it was a running from reality and I never believed SL could be any kind of reality than a virtual one. So I was well aware of what I did and did not lose myself in a virtual environment completely.
I know we all say, that we know Secondlife is a game and that we always can press the red “X” on the right upper corner. But if you are in SL for 10 years, your avatar and the people around you as well as the things you do become a part of you. Certainly I would not go around and tell my RL friends I am a model in SL and that would count anything towards my RL… if that makes sense. But I can tell about a game that I play and that I use it as my free time fun like others use other things – for example surfing on the internet, doing YouTube videos, doing handicrafts or what ever they enjoy in their free time, besides work and socializing in real life.
Nowadays I am not going to SL to escape anymore. My online times are way shorter as they used to be back then and sometimes I do not log in for days when I have RL appointments or wanna meet friends. The purpose of login in changed, but I still do have fun with Secondlife – just different.
I still enjoy to do things that I could not do in real life and as well I do enjoy designing a lot. To me designing is kinda the same as for others doing handicrafts maybe. Producing something and see how something grows under your fingers until you have a final product. The same applies to blogging and making pictures ๐Ÿ˜‰
Secondlife can be an addiction, yes as you can easily lose yourself in it, but if you are aware of that, it can be a nice hideout with lots of fun and meeting amazing people – some even might become part of your real life out there ๐Ÿ™‚
For me Secondlife never could replace my real – I do love my life now, but it is a nice way to live parts of your dreams and illusions ๐Ÿ˜‰
Details
Clothing & Accessories:
Outfit: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita – Onepiece” (Gacha, for the Galatea Doll Lolita Body)
Necklace: shanghai – “Xana”
Headpiece: [sys] – “Hecate”
Hair & Makeup:
Face Art: Slackgirl – “Uh Oh Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo:
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”
Skin: YS&YS – “Immortal Skin” (LeLutka Applier)
Body: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita Body” (Gacha, Rare)
Props & Poses:
Fruct0se & Poseidon
Model & Photographer:

Spooky!

TUNES

I love the night
I like it spooky
Werewolves and their bites
I like it spooky
Skeletons laughing at your fright
I like it spooky
A black witch in green light
I like it spooky

[God Module]

Details

Outfit: Wicca’s Wardrobe -“Victoria” (Maitreya)

Lingerie: Blacklace – “Vivian” (Omega Applier)

Stockings: Izzie’s – “Sheer Tights” (Maitreya Applier)

Shoes & Socks: Ducknipple – “Docs vs1” (Maitreya)

Chocker: Enfant Terrible – “Belle Collar”

Necklace: :Bamse: – “Mechanical Crow”

Glasses: Crie Style – “Houkusai”

Hair: no.match – “No.Risk”

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: je suis… – “LeLutka Lips no. 005” (LeLutka Applier)

Basics:
Head: LeLutka โ€“ โ€œSimone 2.7โ€
Body: Maitreya โ€“ โ€œLara V4.1โ€
Eyes: IKON โ€“ โ€œHope Eyesโ€
Shape: Selfmade

Location: Arranmore

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Ice Queen

Azul Sofia 1

[Tunes]

When leaves have fallen
And skies turned to grey
The night keeps on closing in on the day
A nightingale sings his song of farewell
You better hide for her freezing hell

On cold wings she’s coming
You better keep moving
For warmth, you’ll be longing
Come on just feel it
Don’t you see it?
You better believe

Azul Sofia 2

When she embraces
Your heart turns to stone
She comes at night when you are all alone
And when she whispers
Your blood shall run cold
You better hide before she finds you

She covers the earth with a breathtaking cloak
The sun awakes and melts it away
The world now opens its eyes and it sees
The dawning of the new day

Azul Sofia 3

On cold wings she’s coming
You better keep moving
For warmth, you’ll be longing
Come on just feel it
Don’t you see it?
You better believe

Whenever she is raging
She takes all life away
Haven’t you seen?
Haven’t you seen?
The ruins of our world

[Within Temptation]

Details

Gown: Azul – Sofia – NEW

Hair: EMO-tions – “Claudia” – NEW @ Crossroads

Eyeshadow: Zibska – “Rowan 06”

Poses: [Quixotica]

Location: Vintage Romance

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

A Lonely Dancer

Zibska 10

A Lonely Dancer

A fallen dream…I hit the ground of Eden
For a last time…
A bleeding vision…an ancient prophecy

Zibska 9

White wings still burning…
I’m hidden in the dark…autumn never ends here
Forever trapped in the wings of eternity……
I gave you shelter…a place without fears
Oh, now I’m dancing with spectres of heaven……
A burning symbol bleeds – A deathless path ends
Did you realize what we have done?
A burning heart cries – A deathless love begins
I realized, life is just lies…
That bleeding vision shows us a true life
White wings are burning…
A lonely dancer…so far away from you
Sad melody dies – forever love lives…
A burning symbol bleeds – A deathless path ends
Did you realize what we have done?
We’re living in a new paradise…a painful journey begins
We’re wasting intentions of life…we’re wasting all of our sins……
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Zibska 1

We are wasting all…a lonely dancer
This is the last serenade…this is the last serenade
This is our last serenade…a lonely dancer…I am…
A burning heart cries-A deathless love begins
I realized, life is just lies…
We’re living in a new paradise
…a painful journey begins
We’re wasting intentions of life
…we’re wasting all
My fallen dream…it seems a broken mirror
In a lost time…
Ethereal vision…ethereal prophecy
White wings will fly again…
Until then a lonely dancer I am…will fly again…
Will fly again…a lonely dancer I am…I am…

[Etheral]
Zibska 7
Details
Outfit: Zibska – “Tina”
Headpiece: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Corona Headpiece”
Shoes: Zibska – “Svanhildr”
Jewelry: Zibska – “Scaramouche”
Braclets: United Colors – “Dragon Scale Braclet”
Mask: *deviant girls* – “Obscure Face”
Makeup: Zibska – “Ltd Noir 24” & Elysium – “Geometrica Line”
Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin
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