My Decision…

Not too long ago a very close friend of mine, Seaside, was IMing me, asking if I would be ok. First I was wondering why she would ask me that, but then she told me she was following my flickr and the latest, and very dark pictures did concern her. I thought that was very sweet and I tried to explain to her why I do have this super dark and destructive side as well. I was suffering of depressions a very long time of my life and I sometimes still do, but I learning to live and work with them. So if I do those very dark and morbid pictures, to me it is like checking up on an old friend, deep inside of me. This friend will never leave me, but we both learned how to co-exist. I just have to go there sometimes, to check on him and if he still is there in place, where I put him a long time ago. I do not know if that makes sense, but for me it is kinda like therapy and it does work out 90% of the time. The hard times, where I often was close to the moment of giving up, or even tried to give up are gone and that is what counts for me.

For quite some time, I did not want to see that. I thought with medicine, pills and therapy I can make it go away – I just wanted to ‘heal’. After many different attempts to do that, I met a wonderful person, that to me was more valuable than every therapist I ever met before. He was a therapist too, but I did not met him as a patient, I met him at one of my concerts and we became friends over the time. After we met several times we had a discussion about depressions and he gave me a completely new view on it. He told me, depressions would be kinda the same thing as being alcohol addicted, you can fight the symptoms, but not the facts, case or reasons. He stated, that I can decide, if I let the depressions take over my life or if I take control over the depressions. That sounds very easy , but it is not and I probably would not have been able to do that without any help. I was very lucky to have real friends and family, who helped me over the time of the learning process and it was not done in just a few weeks – it took years.

I decided to take control – even if I maybe never will have 100% of control, it made my life way easier that to just give up and live for the depressions. I wanted more from my life that what my depressions would have allowed me to do. But like I said before, sometimes that ‘old friend’ knocks at my door and I have to decide if I let him in, or if I just go out with him for a while or even go visit him at his place, where I can leave him when ever I want.

I know, depressions can be very different and there is no general solution for that, but you always have decision to fight against or to give up – I never won’t judge over someones decision, as either of both is an option to choose and while one can be good for someone, it can be bad for another person.

I hope, I could make sense with my words – English is not my first language πŸ˜‰

Outfit & Accessories

Outfit: Enfant Terrible – “Kimi” (Maitreya)

Boots: Blueberry – “Celia Boots – High Heels” (Maitreya)

Rings: Elle Boutique – “Bloom” (Maitreya, Bento)

Collar: Salt & Pepper – “Slumber Party” (Gacha, Rare)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Role”

Makeup: Zibska – “Mina Liner” (LeLutka Applier, Ltd. Gift)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLeutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Anon” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Prop: R.O.T. – “End Nature”

Poses: Foxcity – “Stairs (Sitting)” (Bento)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Butterflies – Black & White Experience

Sometimes, you see an outfit and immediately have an idea what you would like to do with it.

Exactly that happened with the “Siran” outfit from Zibska. In general with Zibska I have never a hard time when I am wearing one of her outfits, as I love er artistic view on clothing and design.

It was one of that days.. I stood around going through my inventory – telling myself I need to sort and clean that mess – and fooling around with unboxing and trying several things, when I found the “Siran” outfit from Zibska, which I got a while ago. When I put it on, the black and white caught my heart on the first sight. Yes – I have a weakness for black & white stuffs πŸ˜‰

The asymmetric design with the huge black body attachment and the black butterflies on the right side and the more filigree white one on the left perfectly match the 2 colored body suit. The bodysuit as well is unsymmetrical with a long black arm on the right and short white one on the left.

Since I had butterflies already I felt the need for more butterflies and added some in the background that I got ages ago from Tableau Vivant.

The amazing hand piercings and claws are from MEVA… I know I had them showcased already a few times but they are just so amazing that I can’t take them off :p

The mask and the cute little key in my mouth, I found in a folder that I got longer ago :p It was made by Bauhaus Movement and originally there is as well a clown collar coming with it, which I did not use for todays look.

I really do enjoy black & white themes so I kept the background as well very simple. I hope you enjoyed the Black & White as much as I did πŸ˜‰

 

Details

Outfit: Zibska – “Siran” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Legal Insanity – “Aria” (Maitreya)

Mask & Key: Bauhaus Movement – “Lethargica”

Hair: KoKoLoReS – “Oakes”

Claws: MEVA – “Bento Claws Dark”

Makeup: Zibska – “Folia Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Folia Lips” (LeLutka Applier)

Wall Decor: Tableau Vivant – “Needful Things ~ Butteflies”

Basics:
Head: LeLutka – β€œSimone 2.7”
Body: Maitreya – β€œLara V4.1”
Eyes: IKON – β€œHope Eyes”
Shape: Selfmade

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

“The most beautiful makeup for a woman is passion…”

“The most beautiful makeup for a woman is passion. But cosmetics are easier to buy.”

[Yves Saint Laurent]

And again I find myself doing black & red tones pictures… I do not know what that is, but to me lack & red are a very strong color combination especially if you have a deep hued saturated red πŸ˜‰

For the set I used several items from E.V.E Studio. I love the way how she does her designs, as they can be used from casual to fantasy up to artistic surroundings.

When I unpacked the “{The Wall} Mural Tir Na Nog ” pack from E.V.E Studio, I was totally in love with all this tiles that make a wonderful structured wall and ground. playing with projectors was fun with this wall as the tiles reflect the lights in such an amazing way πŸ˜‰

The cool dress comes from [sYs] and I found out it’s ‘secret’ when I put on the HUD. Each color comes with a HUD and you can color 2 parts of the dress separate! If you own more than one HUD you can even mix the different colors :p

Tattoos – I rarely wear other tattoos that the amazing art pieces from [White~Widow]. Julie Hastings really is a genius with her tattoos and I rarely found such original, filigree and detailed tattoos somewhere else. Usually you have RL tattoos that, someone brings to SL, but Julie seems to hand draw hers one by one and it looks like her creativity has no limits πŸ˜‰ The “GetOut” tattoo you can find at the actual round of the Kinky event.

If we take a closer look on the glasses and the shoes you will remember both being made by Glamistry. The shoes come – as usual for Glamistry –Β  withΒ  several HUD options so you can customize them to your likings. The glasses are made the same way πŸ˜‰

I more and more like playing with projectors in combination with the SL windlights and I am sure, I will have something more for you soon πŸ˜‰

Details

Dress: [sYs] – “Symetra” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Glamistry – “Angelica” (Maitreya)

Gloves: .:Avanti:. – “Tessa Gloves” (Maitreya Applier)

Collar & Headpiece: [[RH]] – “Zakuro”

Glasses: Glamistry – “Sunglasses PU2004”

Hair: Fabia – “Luida” @ Vintage Fair 2017

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “GetOut” (Maitreya Applier) @ Kinky

Lipstick: La Boheme – “Eve Set 1” (LeLutka Applier)

Set: E.V.E Studio – “{The Wall} Mural Tir Na Nog”, “‘Army of me’ Ink Flowers” & {anc} – “Mannequin [alice]”

Basics:
Head: LeLutka – β€œSimone 2.7”
Body: Maitreya – β€œLara V4.1”
Eyes: IKON – β€œHope Eyes”
Shape: Selfmade

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

LOTD 08/05/2016 – Yesterday @ GizzA

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Yesterday when I dressed up for my GizzA shift I found myself in a light elegant mood. That for I tried one of the latest releases from GizzA called “Adrianna”. “Adrianna” is a wonderful ensemble of a jacket with a deep neckline and a wonderful short leather skirt. The outfit is available for standard avatars as well as for Slink Physique/Hourglass and Maitreya Lara mesh bodies.

Since GizzA recently started to make appliers for mesh bodies, I could not resist to use the new “Fleur Lace Top” under the “Adrianna” outfit. I made a wonderful addition to the rest of the look πŸ™‚ The “Fleur Lace Top” comes with four appliers (Slink, Belleza, Maitreya & Omega) so you should be able to wear it with all the popular mesh bodies out there. What really caught my attention, the lines are very sharp and crisp and so you could see all the love for the details, Giz put into that wonderful new release. To complete the outfit I put sheer tights from Izzie’s and the wonderful “MeiMei” set made by Meva for the past round of On9, but I am sure you will find it at her main store now πŸ˜‰

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For the pictures I again found my way to one of the Neva sims. This time it was Saint Pete City. A wonderful designed little city with so many details that I still find some every time I go back there πŸ˜‰ For these picture series, I walked to the more outsides where you can see the seaside from those lovely benches. That would be as well a wonderful place just to relax and chat and enjoy the waves and birds I guess πŸ˜‰

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Details

Outfit: GizzA – “Adrianna” – NEW

Shirt: GizzA – “Fleur Lace Top” (Applier) – NEW

Tights: Izzie’s – “Sheer Tights Basic” (Applier)

Hair: enVogue – “Melissa”

Jewelry: Meva – “MeiMei”

Avatar:

Head: CATWA – “Jessica”

Body: Slink – “Physique”

Hand & Feet: Slink

Location: Saint Pete City

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

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Fragilestrong with Salt & Pepper!

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Today I have something very special and as well a personal favour for you.

Lately I got an incredible rope harness from Salt & Pepper. I did not know that amazing designer personally before and I was super surprised, that we share the same country in RL*grins*

It is always kinda funny, if you talk to people in English and after a longer while you discover, that you could have spoken your mother tongue :p

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When I met that wonderful lady, I immediately had an amazing and comfortable feeling talking to her and the more we talked, the more I felt, I would like to do that sweet lady a favour. Just because she was so nice and kind to me πŸ˜‰

She released an amazing Rope & Flowers set on a very new event called Objets d’Amour, which was hosted by the owners or the ROMP event. The first round, where this artpiece was released, was going on from the 4th or February until the 15th.

Sadly, RL did not let me do the pictures in time of the event :/

But since I wanted to do something very special, I simply could not rush the pics through.

But I took a peek at the main store of Salt & Pepper and I saw that she has the gacha machine up there now with that amazing items πŸ˜‰

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I know that many people have prejudices about ropes on a nearly nude body and many times it just falls towards porn or gets judged like that. But as in so many cases, it is always in the eye of the beholder or about personal taste I guess.

To me ropes can be very artistic and as well, tasteful and artistic lingerie or nude shots can be very impressing and amazing.

And exactly that, I wanted to transport on my todays pictures πŸ˜‰

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First I put on the harness and all the parts that came with it and looked at it very close. It comes with HUDs for all pieces, where you can change the colors of the ropes, metals and roses. The set contains even more parts than the ones I used but for the purpose and look I was going for they did not wanna really fit in to my view this time πŸ˜‰

I decided to go with the harness, the gag and cuffs for ankles and wrists. All parts are scripted for roleplay as well.

The more I looked on the different pieces, the more I found all those incredible details like the little chains that lead for the ropes to the metals or the amazing detailed texture of the rope itself. That already proves the high quality of the Salt & Pepper designs. The whole set contains 5 standard sizes for the classic avatars, Slink Physique/Hourglass and a Maitreya Lara fitting version.

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When I was staring at my pixels wearing the awesome parts of the “Ropes & Flowers” set, imaginations ran through my head about what to do with it.

First I tried the black ropes and everything I tried to style kinda was sexy and seductive… but I wanted more. The more I tried, the more an idea got stuck in my mind about opposites. I wanted something artistic, something sexy, something classy.. something fragile and something strong and powerful.

First I thought that will be too many in one but the more I played with stuff the more I was confident about it can work.

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I got stuck on the white ropes with the rose golden metals and the darker red roses. To give an opposite to the strong and kinky look of the “Ropes & Flowers” set, I wanted some white lingerie – not too playful with lots of ruffles and lace. More something classy, simple but still modern and different looking AND for the Slink Physique mesh body. After spending more than an hour on Marketplace, I made my way into the Starwalkers2010 chat and asked – kinda depressed – about ideas for something like that.

I got some very good advises but one girl hit the nail on the head with her suggestion… Thank you Voshie Paine!!!

She lead my way to Chocolate Atelier (c.A.). I TPed over to the store and already was very impressed about the designs and I was curious what Marketplace would give me for that brand since sometimes gacha items or older products are not available in world anymore but still there.

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BINGO!

I found the “Thea Bra & Panties” ensemble. The amazing layer set can be worn on many different mesh bodies and mesh body parts with the provided appliers and it has the layer versions inside as well.

The simple looking light, smooth fabric has some very fascinating cutouts on both parts, that make an amazing front and back view πŸ˜‰

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While I was searching through my inventory for any kind of scenery or decoration ideas, I stumbled over something that I got a long time ago and never really used it. It comes out of a time long before mesh even was talked about :p .

The “Draped” set from Glitterati was released back in 2011 and comes with a sheer satin looking fabric prop and 10 different poses. I did not use all of them but for a few I wanted to give it a try.

With all the new windlight, the old sculpties did not cooperate too well and I had to rework them a little later in PS. Since I am not a trained graphic artist in RL… go figure… that took a while, but it was well worth every minute for me and I learned new things πŸ˜‰

I had so much fun doing those pictures and post. I met a wonderful and kind person, I learned about 2Β  – for me new – brands I definitely will put on my “to shop and watch out for” list so overall it was a wonderful experience and try to play with lingerie, ropes and opposites πŸ™‚

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Outfit: Salt & Pepper – “Ropes & Flowers” (Gacha)

Lingerie: Chocolate Atelier – “Thea Bra & Panties” (Gacha)

Hair: no.match – “no.perfection”

Poses & Props: Glitterati & Del May

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

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LOTD 08/17/2015 – Goodies @ On9 :)

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Today I would like to showcase some of the amazing designs available at the On9 event.

On9 is a monthly event, that offers many different designers, creations, and items. You will find clothing, accessories, furniture, poses, shoes, makeup and nearly everything you can thin about all in one place done by different genius and skilled creators. You can imagine how happy I was when I was asked if we would like to be part with Wicca’s Wardrobe as well… among all those incredible designers and creators πŸ˜‰

But today I won’t use any of our own stuff and put some spotlight on some of those amazing items you can find at the current On9 event.

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Let’s start with the incredible amazing head-piece. Who else that Zib Scaggs, owner and designer of Zibska, could do such an amazing art piece?

The huge head-piece looks like made out of petals and some sweet fishes are swimming around. The head-piece comes with a great color HUD that lets you customize the petals, the accents and the fishes to many different colors.

To fit under this wonderful head-piece I needed some not too high but still modern and fresh looking hairstyle. Guess what… I as well found that one at On9 *snickers*. No.Match offers the perfect hair for my actual look. The “No.Call” style with the two smart braided tails left and right was the right addition to balance the crazy and the cute touch of the whole look.

The glasses are as well available at On9. Made by [Since 1975] those glasses are an extra ordinary addition to your accessories box! You can decide between 4 different colors. I went with the golden version for today’s post.

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The super sweet top was made by the amazing Poulet Koenkamp, owner and designer of PurpleMoon.

Poulet is one of the most talented people, I was allowed to meet and call a friend in SL. She always amazed me with her stunning hand printed textures and her awesome ideas and designs. For this month of On9 she made this delicate top called “Anika” in 7 different colors. The top is a wide and loose fit and together with the cool sleeves, this top really is a must have for every ladies wardrobe especially for the late summer season:) .

Β The pants and the shoes coming from a very talented and skilled woman too. Thetra Blackheart, ower and designer of E-Clipse. The “Fringe Pants” I got longer ago but the amazing “Follia” heels are as well available at On9. In 6 different colors or as a fatpack, those amazing heels fit the Slink, the Maitreya and the TMP feet. The strapped heels have wonderful fringes at the front and some amazing metal decorations on the straps. With the HUD you can change the metals to 3 different types.

Last but not least I would like to zoom in a little bit closer and drag the focus on this incredible necklace from Kunglers. You can pick from 5 different colors. The great combination of filigree metals, stones and gems makes a wonderful every day necklace for many different styles.

For all the other amazing ne releases at On9 please jump over there and take a look by yourself. And don’t forget… every designer offers one piece for 20% off the regular price, like always at On9!

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Details

Top: PurpleMoon – “Anika Blouse” – NEW @ On9

Pants: E-Clipse – “Fringe Pants”

Shoes: E-Clipse – “Follia” – NEW @ On9

Head Piece: Zibska – “Maris” – NEW @ On9

Necklace: (Kunglers Extra) – “Iracy Necklace” – NEW @ On9

Glasses: [Since 1975] – “Vintage Glasses 209” – NEW @ On9

Hair: No.Match – “No Catch” – NEW @ On9

Furniture: 22769 – “Purity” (Complete Set)

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Hairmania with EMO-tions

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EMO-tions – “Nella”

And finally RL let me free to enjoy SL a bit more again πŸ˜‰

I would like to start my blogging year 2015 with a “New Hair” post.

Mirja Mills from EMO-tions was such a busy bee even during the christmas and holiday season, that I really thought I owe her a special hair post πŸ™‚

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EMO-tions – “Mona”

Recently she made some wonderful mesh hair styles, I really fell in love with. The “Nella ” and the “Mona” style totally captured my attention as this is kinda the way I used to have my hair RL and it reminded me of some cool pictures i got from a gig with my band. Both are kinda windblown and not just al good girl sorted. So the perfect choice for an amazing everyday look.

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EMO-tions – “Michaela”

But even the good girls will be satisfied with for example “Michaela”. The amazing long braid, that is coming down over the right shoulder comes in 2 different looks. Once like we see it on the picture with hiding half of the face under a wonderful wisp of hair. The “Michaela 2” as well has some hair needles wich pull exactly that hair to the back.

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EMO-tions – “Laleen A”

“Laleen” again is a ‘2 in 1’ hair style with the amazing sweet and cute animation, which the avatar does when you change the hairstyle by touch. The “Laleen” hair can be worn as a long ponytail over the right shoulder or when clicked it becomes a sweet casual up-do πŸ™‚

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EMO-tions – “Laleen B”

For both versions the knot at the back of the head stays the same.

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EMO-tions – “Jared”

“Jared” originally was made as a male hair style. It as well has an amazing beard in the box but that really looked too awkward for my today’s post ;). But I never saw the reason why certain male hairstyles cannot be worn by females as well πŸ˜‰

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EMO-tions – “Lauren”

With Lauren my little punk heart was beating a tick louder than usual. Those amazing little braids all pulled over to the right side of the head show a wonderful shaved under-cut on the left side of the head.

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EMO-tions – “Alicia”

“Alicia” is one of those hair styles I dreamed about in RL ion forever but I never dared to cut my hair again so short, after I had a bad accident with a person that cut my hair while I was a child too short. But “Alicia” totally brings a super modern vibe to me and makes an amazing every day hair style.

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EMO-tions – “Eles”

Last but not least for today we have “Eles” a more elegant hair style which as well can be used for casual stylings but gives them a more classy look. The playful wisps tha go down at the sides add a very realistic touch.

Even if I posted all of those amazing hair now in only one color, you certainly have the normal color options we know from EMO-tions πŸ™‚

So do not wait and take the next taxi to the EMO-tions main store!

Exciting News for 2015 @ Wicca’s Wardrobe & Happy New Year!

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Today again is a very special to me as I can bring already a short sneak peel of some news at Wicca’s Wardrobe of 2015 πŸ˜‰

To already show part of the great newness I asked Sazzy Nirpaw to be with me for this amazing post for a very special reason.

Today’s post will be about a new release at Wicca’s Wardrobe and as well an introduction of a special new collection located at Wicca’s Wardrobe.

The ones of you who know me and Wicca’s Wardrobe for a while may know Sazzy Nirpaw as my COO and as well my personal assistant and very dear friend. But that’s not yet all πŸ™‚

Sazzy as well has amazing designing skills and already had a store way before Wicca’s Wardrobe was in my mind πŸ˜‰ Many of you might remember her brand FATAL.

She closed her doors couple of years ago and for me it felt kinda as a loss for the SL fashion world since then. But she wanted to develop herself more and had various other projects and things she wanted to get done. But lately we more and more talked about FATAL again and the more we talked the more the idea was growing in both of our minds. I kept nagging her about her amazing designing and creator skills – I guess I was close to just get yelled at for not stopping my bothering :p

But… it seems my constant poking was not for nothing^^

Sazzy agreed to think about designing again!

I am very proud and honored that I may show you the very first release of the Wicca’s Wardrobe [FATAL] collection…

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The “Sense & Sensuality” lingerie!

This amazing lingerie ensemble contains bra, panties, corset and stockings. The corset is mesh made while the bra, panties and stockings come as layers forΒ  very special reason.

For the very first time me and Saz were sitting together to figure out how the appliers for the Slink Physique are working.

Saz made the amazing “Sense & Sensuality” set in 6 different colors. For today’s post Saz is wearing the ‘black’ version and I decided to go with the ‘navy’ one.

The great thing of that lingerie is, it can be worn as usual layer clothing with the mesh corset AND with the Slink Physique mesh body. We included a HUD where you can apply the bra, panties and stockings to body, legs and feet.

So be sure to take a look and find the color that matches you best for a wonderful evening with the one you love πŸ˜‰

Thank you Sazzy for your work, trust, and friendship and I hope that’s the beginning of another chapter in the book we are allowed to write together – our book of the wonderful journey that brought us till where we are now <3

I am very proud, honored and happy to have Saz now not anymore only as a COO – I am looking forward to a great collaboration of Wicca’s Wardrobe & FATAL!

Happy New Year from Wicca’s Wardrobe & FATAL

Wicca. Saz & Red

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Leave your Hat on – Styling around a hat Part II

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Because I had so much fun with the stylings for the Art in Hats show, I would like to share another of my stylings made around just a hat πŸ˜‰

This time the hat I started out with came from Miuccia Klaar. The amazing “The Garden in my Head Hat” shows a watering can and some huge flowers in red and pink growing out some grass.

So what to style around… I wanted to keep the hat center, but still have the colors repeated somewhere plus, I wanted to keep the art character of the hat for the whole look.

I remembered black pants from [AD] Creations, wich had 2 huge pink buttons at the belly and a long waist decoration so I jumped into my [AD] folder and tried all pants till I found them. They are part of the “Haw outfit. With the buttons at the belly and the sheer parts on the right leg they were just perfect.

To bring back the sheer part and to kinda make it pop out a bit more I decided to go with the shirt of the “Riga” outfit from SoliDea FoliEs. The amazing sleeves with the attached mesh hands are from [AD] Creations.

For the boots I chose one of my long time favourites, the “Piccadilly Overknee” mesh boots from Leezu.

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Details

Hat: Miuccia Klaar – “The Garden in my Head” (Art in Hats 2014)

Pants: [AD] Creations – “Haw” (part of the outfit)

Top: SoliDea FoliEs – “Riga” (part of the outfit)

Sleeeves with Hands: [AD] Creations – “Wristlee” (mesh)

Hair: [taketomi] – “Kurako” (mesh)

Shoes: LeeZu – “Piccadilly Overknee Boots” (mesh)

Collar: Etchaflesh – “Executioner Collared Kalima Neck Corset” (mesh)

Poses: Del May

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Crazy Connection: Gemini

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Style Details at: http://crazyconnection.wordpress.com/2013/12/14/crazy-connection-gemini/