Crime Scene!

TUNES

As he came into the window
It was the sound of a crescendo
He came into her apartment
He left the bloodstains on the carpet
She ran underneath the table
He could see she was unable
So she ran into the bedroom
She was struck down, it was her doom

[Michael Jackson]

Do you know that feeling, if you have gotten something you totaly like and then you have no satisfying idea how to showcase it in a styling? You do not want to make a compromise, nor you want to waste it in something it doesn’t belong 100% to? This I an fighting for 2 different things for weeks now and finally one design just made it into something I do like *smiles all over*

That is one reason, why I am wearing my Simone head from LeLutka again instead of one of the new Evolution line (that will be my next post again!) I was a longer process this time – it started way before the new head line from LeLutka was released *giggles*

When I finally had my look together, the huge problem of the background/scenery started again. Lately that is one of my biggest problems as I rarely find good places when I need them, they usually pop up way after I posted something and then I get into the “Damn, would you just have waited” mode. But if I wouldn’t have the pictures already, that moment would not have happened most likely…

I am pondering if I just over-think things sometimes and that becomes to the problem that I do not like anything I am doing, or if it is just an episode in my life that I question everything at the moment – I have no idea.

But this time I was lucky again and found my perfect background with the “Slum Riverside” backdrop from Paparazzi and some deco elements from DRD and floorplan to make it look like I wanted.

My item I was trying for so long to find the right look was the “Crime Scene” face art from Nefekalum Tattoos. It was a gift for the Hallow Manor. It is an amazing alteration of the “Seer” face tattoo, which I was already in love with and showcased before already (HERE).

Yellow usually isn’t a color I am very familiar with as I love black and red or white the most . Sometimes even blue but the warm, bright colors are something I struggle a lot with. Even more I wanted this pictures to be perfect and cool 😉

CerberusXing is one of my favorite places to go, if I am looking for something edgy, extraordinary or outstanding. I love his dark moods and designs a lot and they do inspire me a lot for many of my pictures. His texture work is incredible with so many different fabrics and his leather textures are just stunning.

Today I am wearing a mix and match of many of his designs. I combines the “Hiniata” net dress with the “Pantsu Codex” panties and the amazing detailed “LSD Fishnet” stockings. I will have another post for the stockings soon since I am hiding half of the beauty in my “Monster Boots” from Psycho Barbie.

I wanted to bring the yellow once again and I digged deep in my inventory to find something yellow that would work with the amazing face art. Yellow isn’t automatically yellow, something I tried to tell people for years. Even if it is the same color or color range it still might clash if you pair the wrong shades, but I rarely get heard with that *rolls her eyes*

It is the same when people keep saying red and pink do not go together – damn hell they do if you picture the right shades… anyways, lets focus on yellow and black again *winks*

I know I used the earring/piercing gacha set from Eclipse Art Studio already for my last picture but it is just so amazing I had to use it again for this post. I even loved that kind of piercing in RL and as well had one of those for a long time, where the nose piercing was connected to the ear – maybe thats is why I love it so much, as it reminds me on my 20s. Even if I have no clue anymore how I could sleep with that chain across my cheek… must have worked as I had for quite a while! I always loved long earrings more than short ones or studs only, even if sometimes my long hair totally became a mess when they tangled up with exactly that. The long earrings I used to take out at night and changed them kinda everyday.

The whole style remembers me on my 20s somehow even if I would have not worn that tiny, little nothing of that sexy net dress like that… but hey, that is what we have Second Life for!

Now I will crawl back to my platform and work some more on the new “Nova” head from LeLutka, so that I can show that to you next 😉

Clothing

Outfit: [CX] – “Hinata” (Maitreya)

Top: Apple May Designs – “Tigress Sliced Tops – Black” (Omega Applier)

Panties: [CX] – “Pantsu Codex” (Maitreya)

Stockings: [CX] – “LSD Fishnets – Black” (Maitreya)

Jacket: Vinyl – “Lenka Rain Jacket” (Maitreya)

Shoes: +Psycho Barbie+ – “[Monster Boots] (Maitreya)

Accessories

Earrings & Piercings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Gacha Set Blade/Tag/Heart Broke ( Bloggher Pack )”

Nose Plaster: [CX] – “Vice Crew / Nose Bandage – Black” (Gacha, Common)

Collar: [CX] – “Hells Harbinger” (Maitreya)

Necklace: DRD – “Anarchy Necklace”

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Creatures Claws – Silver” (Maitreeya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Face Art: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Crime Scene” (LeLutka Applier, Hallow Manor Gift 2019)

Hair: no.match – “No.Arrest”

Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Eyelashes: alaskametro<3 “Slay False Eyelashes” (LeLutka Applier)

Ears: ^^Swallow^^ – “Pixie Ears – Protruding”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Backdrop: Paparazzi – “Slum Riverside – BACKDROP – classic”

Crates 1: DRD – “Beer Stand – Empty Crates” (part of the Beer Stand Collection)

Crates 2: floorplan. – “Old Crate Stack”

Table & Deco: DRD – “PA – Sewer Shelter – Table” (part of the PA – Sewer Shelter)

Deco 1: DRD GG – “Post Apoc Radio/Receiver – Yellow” (Group Gift January 2017)

Deco 2: DRD GG “Post Apoc Transceiver – Yellow” (Group Gift January 2017)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

The last Key… Do you dare?

“Diabolical forces are formidable. These forces are eternal, and they exist today. The fairy tale is true. The devil exists. God exists. And for us, as people, our very destiny hinges upon which one we elect to follow.”

[Ed Warren]

Scary moments and moods! Again it was time for some creepy and horror inspired pictures *snickers*

This time it was the cool face tattoo from CURELESS[+] and the uber cool backdrop from CerberusXing that inspired me to do something dark and wicked. The “Crucifix Corridor” backdrop reminded me about a scene of the movie “The Nun” which lead me to 2 or my favorite horror movie series – Insidious and Conjuring with all its sequels and prequels. I never could decide which ones I loved more and so a little bot of all of them went into todays pictures.

You cannot make a picture with just a back drop and some face modifications, I thought and tried to put together a look that would work with what I wanted to showcase. Instantly the super awesome “Morgane Ribbon Heels” from [Gos] came to my mind. The were released for this month round of FaMESHed and I instantly fell in love with the way the ribbons reached down till the tip of the pumps. As always you get a wide range of colors with the HUD and as well the possibility to color the show and the ribbons, plus a few other details separately. I tried to show you a few possibilities above, but certainly you get way more than you can see up there 😉

For my outfit I chose and outfit I saw at the last round of ROMP, made by AsteroidBox and combined with the cool bracers from CerberusXing made the perfect look but still it looked a little bit too ‘cute’ for what I was looking for. With the cool horns from E.V.E and the evil hair from no.match I finally was satisfied with my look for what I had in mind. For the poses, always when I want to do something creepy and unusual, I went with the poses from Poseidon. I already wrote about them a couple of times, but I just cannot stop telling how awesome they are if you are looking for something that shows some action, or motions or something out of the mainstream looking.

I hope you enjoyed my little key keeper as much as I did and I will no go and watch some of the mentioned movies… maybe to get some more ideas for dark fantasy inspired pictures *wicked grin*

Clothing

Outfit: AsteroidBox – “Rosa Lingerie” (Maitreya)

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Harlot Stockings – Black” (Omega Applier)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Morgane Ribbon Heels – Boutique” (Maitreya) – NEW @ FaMESHed // November 2019

Accessories

Wings: [EC] – “Demon Wings (Destruction)” (Bento)

Horns: E.V.E – “Scatha Dark Knight Horns”

Arms: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme – Black” (Maitreya)

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Creature Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Second Eyes: CURELESS[+] – “Quattrocular Tattoo” (Omega Applier)

Lipstick: LeLutka – “Beast Applier” (LeLutka Applier)

Hair: no.match – “No.Evil” (GroupGift)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Bianca 3.4”

Eyes: CURELESS[+] – “Space Eyes”

Face: CURELESS[+] – “Ghoul” (Omega Applier)

Teeth: LeLutka – “Beast Teeth 1.1 for Bianca 3,4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Skin: CURELESS[+] – “Morphine” (Omega Applier)

Tattoo: Misschevious – “Do you love it – Good Girl” (Omega Applier, Gacha, Rare)

Shape: { wren’s nest } – “Eliza Proportional Shape” (lightly modified to fit the skin & face tattoo)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Poseidon

Backdrop: [CX] – “Crucifix Corridor”

Key 1:[Cubic Cherry] – “{Null} Key Earring” (I loved the shape so much I had to use it again as a prop)

Key Bundle: selfmade

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

You know you wouldn’t want it any other way…

TUNES

I hate the world today
You’re so good to me
I know but I can’t change
Tried to tell you
But you look at me like maybe
I’m an angel underneath
Innocent and sweet

Yesterday I cried
Must have been relieved to see
The softer side
I can understand how you’d be so confused
I don’t envy you
I’m a little bit of everything
All rolled into one

So take me as I am
This may mean
You’ll have to be a stronger man
Rest assured that
When I start to make you nervous
And I’m going to extremes
Tomorrow I will change
And today won’t mean a thing

Just when you think, you got me figured out
The season’s already changing
I think it’s cool, you do what you do
And don’t try to save me

I’m a bitch, I’m a lover
I’m a child, I’m a mother
I’m a sinner, I’m a saint
I do not feel ashamed
I’m your hell, I’m your dream
I’m nothing in between
You know you wouldn’t want it any other way

I’m a bitch, I’m a tease
I’m a goddess on my knees
When you hurt, when you suffer
I’m your angel undercover
I’ve been numb, I’m revived
Can’t say I’m not alive
You know I wouldn’t want it any other way

[Meredith Brooks]

Clothing

Jacket: [CX] – “Wild Hazard Jacket – B” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare) – NEW @ Epiphany // October 2019
Top: [CX] – “Wild Hazard Top – Black” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // October 2019
Pants: [CX] – “Wild Hazard Shorts – C” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // October 2019
Leg Right: [CX] – “Wild Hazard Leg Harness – Black (A)” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // October 2019
Leg Left: [CX] – “Wild Hazard Leg Harness – Black (B)” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // October 2019
Shoes: Oinc – “Mickaella Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Collar: [CX] – “Wild Hazard Collar – Black” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // October 2019
Collar 2: [CX] – “Xeno Circuit – Ocean” (Maitreya)
Glasses: -SU!- – “Midnight Doll Sunglasses Blue-Silver” (Gacha, Common)
Lip Piercing: [CX] – “Bitten 2017 Update (Silver+Daniel)” (Groupgift, Bento)
Septum: [CX] – “Drop Septum”
Forehead Jewelry: [CX] – “Kishin Bindi”
Ear/Nose Jewelry: [CX] – “Monstrum Catena – Silver”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Colors”
Makeup: La Malvada Mujer – “Mud Eyeshadow” (Omega Applier)
Lipstick: La Malvada Mujer – “Mud Lips” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Chloe 3.4”
Ears:  [CX] – “Ostium Impaler Ears”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Skin: 7 Deadly s[K]ins – “Judith – Marshmellow” (Omega Applier)
Shape: { wren’s nest } – “Hanna Proportional shape for LeLutka Chloe Bento” (lightly modified to work best with the skin)
Tattoo: Letis – “Rigel Princess : B&W” (Omega Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity & Emozione
Background:
Paparazzi – “Old School Locker Room – BACKDROP – blue”
[Since1975] – “Fitness Gacha-Weight Plates” (Gacha, Common)
[Since1975] – “Fitness Gacha-Shaker” (Gacha, SOI)
22769 ~ [bauwerk] – “Beertray Sidetable Black”
22769 – “Sloppy Books” (Gacha, Common)
FOXCITY. Prop – “Weights (Left Hand – Wear)”
DECO – “MESH SlingPack female large (ash)” (store closed)
:: PM :: – “Monogram Bag I Browns Left Forearm (not animated)”
.*Courtisane*. – “Sacoche (Bag) *wear me*” (store closed)
[La Baguette] – “Box of pizza 3 slice left v2 (1Li)”

Model & Photographer

Destructive… Sometimes…

Today I am very happy to do my first post as an official CerberusXing blogger. I was dreaming of that for quite some time now and now it finally happened *dances around*. I love the creations and designs of CerberusXing for… I guess in forever. He has a very special way of creating his designs and his texture skills are incredible. I rarely saw a better leather than in CerberusXing’s designs. I love his sadistic, morbid take on and that he always dares to stretch the boundaries from modern dark fashion to a nearly haute macabre look sometimes. He isn’t afraid to even go for stronger morbid thoughts or sometimes for fun stuff when you do not expect it. I admire the variety of styles his creations can be used for, but with always having his very personal trademark on them – even with no label on it, you easily can recognize a CerberusXing design.

For my first post I decided to go with a mix and match of my favorite items from CerberusXing. The “Enochian Succuba” outfit including the boots and the choker, the “Mucronate Top” as well as the cool “War Fan” and the “Tritinium Clave Collar, which is a collaboration of CerberusXing and The White Crow. The collar, which right gets plunged into your skin and flesh comes with an amazing tattoo layer that supports exactly that and makes it look more realistic. The bar-code reminds me of some kind of registration of a slave on a certain website 😉

If you look at the picture below you can see another extraordinary creation of CerberusXing – the “Ostium Impaler Ears”. I am a huge friend of unusual mesh ears and with the long stretched ear hole and the piercings these ears have exactly that what it takes. You are able to color the bottom of the earlobe like a tattoo and that heavy earing shows you why it is stretched that way 😉

For a cool look you need the perfect makeup as well and so I wanted to use one of the newest tattoos from Nefekalum Tattoos. His tattoos are more like artwork on your skin. Sometimes you get the feeling, that he has a slightly destructive adder which he puts in some of his creations and the same I feel sometimes with CerberusXing. I  am not saying that this is a bad thing! I have this adder as well and I really enjoy it, to live that part of me in SL more than in RL – that really balances me out sometimes and keeps me more healthy in RL*giggles*

Clothing

Top: [CX] – “Mucronate Top – Leather” (Maitreya)

Bottom: [CX] – “Enochian Succuba – Skirt (Black)” (Maitreya)

Boots: [CX] – “Enochian Succuba – Boots (Black)” (Maitreya)

Jacket: [CX] – “Enochian Succuba – Jacket A” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Backpiece: [CX] – “War Fan”

Collar: [CX] x -TWC- – “Tritinium Slave Collar”

Chocker: [CX] – Enochian Succuba – Choker” (Maitreya)

Glasses: .Inkhole. – “Trianglix Glasses”

Piercing: [CX] – “Drop Septum”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Comission”

Makeup: alaskametro<3 – “Impressionist” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Ears: [CX] – “Ostium Impaler Ears”

Eyes: !SU – “Tender Eyes” (Group Gift)

Faceart: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Corruption” (Omega Applier)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Chest Tattoo: [CX] x -TWC- – “Tritinium Slave – Skin Marks Applier” (Omega Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Del May

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

The Engine Room – Part I

The Engine Room is open now for about a week and it has so many AMAZING designs and creations that I wasn’t able to put them in one picture, so be prepared for so more steampunk madness in the next days!

My first post is kinda centered around that super cool top from [ContraptioN] and the awesome cute Barn owls in the steampunk version from {-Maru Kado-}. There is 2 packs of owls and each all owls come in 2 different version – one ‘casual’ owl and one ‘steampunk’ owl with all the sweet gear and goggles. But when I was setting up my little scenery inside the amazing skyebox from Catacomb –  while I realized those amazing rich and detailed textures – I found so much more cute and superb made things that I really had to hold myself back from cluttering my picture with too much things! The super cute animesh cat from HEXtraordinary in a rezzable and a wearable version, the incredible textured furniture from 22769… if you are a steampunk fan or someone that loves some Victorian gear and vibes, you HAVE to take a look at the Engine Room – you have time until the 20th or October!

But the Engine Room not only has furniture, decor and animals, you can find some totally crazy clothing and accessories. Today I combined the “Enginieer’s Top” from [ContraptioN] and the “Knickerbocker” pants, socks and shoes from Hotdog. The cool “Plague Mask” was made by Static. I was trying a lot what I could wear as a head piece of hair with that mask and in the end i decided not to just put a hat on top, but wear the unisex, short “No.Shallow” hairstyle, which no.match released at MoM this month.

I do not want to write too much today, as the pictures should be the main focus for this mega awesome designs and creations and… I have to admit, I already work on my second part pictures and realized I will probably even have to have a 3rd Engine Room part *giggles*

Clothing

Top: [ContraptioN]  – “Engineer’s Top” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Pants, Socks & Shoes: Hotdog – “Knickerbockers . plain” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Accessories

Mask: ::Static:: – “Plague Mask – Caged” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Nailpolish: DP – Koffin Nails – “Neo-Victorian Keys” (Maitreya Applier) – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Upper Arm Cuffs: Overt – “Summoner Cuffs – Red” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Shallow” – NEW @ MoM // Sepetmber 2019

Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses, Props / Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

Skybox: Catacomb – “The Bunker (With Base)” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Owls: {-Maru Kado-} – “Barn Owl Set 01-10 (Decor)” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Cat: HEXtraordinary – “Lord Bartleby Von Tinkleton Esq. – Wanderer (Rez)” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Furniture:

22769 – “Salon Chair” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Salon Couch” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Queen Victoria Bust” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Tripod Telescope” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Gramophone” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Industrial Endtable” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Armillary Sphere” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – Cart Coffee Table – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Ashtray” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Box Of Cigars” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

::Static:: – “Woodburned Periodic Table – Warm”- NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

{C&C} – “Aether-Tech Moon Clock – Brass – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

HILTED – “Knicknack Pets – Mean Honker” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

HILTED – “Knicknack Pets – Beep Boop” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

HILTED – “Knicknack Pets – Hop Hop” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

HILTED – “Knicknack Pets – Toot Toot” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

HILTED – “Knicknack Pets – Snooty Snoot” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Vintage Camera” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Industrial Wine Rack” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Bike Figurine” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Drum Table” (Gacha, Common)

[ContraptioN] Decor: – “Eccentric’s Curios Auric Discindo”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

The Ark – Animalish Moments

See the dark night has come down on us
The world is livin’ in its dream
But now we know that we can wake up from this sleep
And set out on the journey
Find a ship to take us on the way.

[Gerry Rafferty]

Today I would like to highlight an interesting event, that I didn’t see like that before. It is called “The Ark” and it is hosted by Palegirl Productions. Today sadly is the last day, but RL kept me so busy, that I wasn’t able top post earlier.

You can find all kind of designs inspired by animals there, not limited to animals and decor itself *winks* I saw that dress – yes a dress – and even if I am not too much into dresses, the way it was designed caught my attention. I loved the way the cut-outs are done at the sides and especially the arms with the sleeves connected to the middle finger. I never saw such a design before.

If you know me, it was clear, that I could not do just a simple casual look with that dress, so I was thinking a long time what I could do with that. Suddenly I came across the “Fibrous” tattoo from Nefekalum Tattoos again and thought, that would be a great challenge to make an editorial look with that tattoo and the dress! Certainly Zibska had to be involved with that idea too and her “WildThang” leggings just perfectly matched the animal print the dress carried too 🙂

I know the look will probably disturb many that are used to a more casual use of dresses, but that is my personal take on for that dress – even if it really took some time to find the right surrounding for it for my pictures 😉

Clothing

Outfit: [NC] – “Gira Dress” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Ark

Leggins: Zibska – “WildThang” (Maitreya Applier)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Barbara Sandals” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Belt: amias – “Fenna” (Maitreya, part of a whole outfit)

Collar: -SU! – “Lynexia” (Group Gift)

Glasses: -SU! – “The Shagi Glasses” (Group Gift)

Horns: glutz – “Ramifications Horns” – NEW @ The Ark

Piercing: *PKC* – Collar Lip Piercing” (LeLutka Simone, Bento)

Nails: [FORMANAILS] – “Mayra XXL” (Maitreya, Bento)

Rings: : CULT : – “Rou Rings Set” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Water”

Face Art: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Fibrous” (Omega Applier – Head & Body)

Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Akasuna”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Fibrous” (Omega Applier – Head & Body)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Fontain: [FOURTH WALL] – “Minimalist Garden Fountain – Black”

Animals: Jinx – “Snow Cloud Gacha” (Commons) – NEW @ The Ark

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Creatures

TUNES

I fall
This is the end of you
Whispers are their weakness

Their weakness
Everyday I must practice
To fake this smile on my face
It’s all the rain that’s putting me to sleep

It’s all the rain that’s putting me to sleep
I’ll let the blood tell the truth tonight, this is my life’s work
11 tracks is not enough, to tell you how I’ve died inside
And love is lost like words

11 tracks is not enough
In spiders eyes a man becomes a fly
In prolonged silence, we all stand defiled
We fall in line with the atrophy of life

The calm before the storm is a defeating silence
I’ve given my all, to this valley of despair
We are the damned, the cursed and the broken
There’s so much more inside us

We are the lost, the sick and unspoken
There’s so much more inside us
I’m drowning in an ocean of the tears that I’ve cried
I tried to drown my sorrows

Instead they’re all drowning me
I tried to drown my sorrows
Instead they’re all drowning me

[Motionless in White – Creatures]

Clothing

Harness: Moon Elixir – “Valentina” (Belleza Freya)

Pasties: .ARISE. – Spiked Pasties / White Silver” (Belleza Freya)

Accessories

Collar & Mask: Zibska – “Maea”

Claws: A&A – “Ornate Flat Claws” (Belleza Freya, Bento) – NEW @ We ♥ RP // September 2019

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No_Industry” – NEW @ The Liaison Collaborative // September 2019

Makeup: Zibska – “Maea” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Eyes: -SU!- – “Aure Eyes” (Group Gift)

Ears: [Trap][Gauze] – “Djin Ears”

Body: Belleza – “Freya V5.2”

Skin: ~JJ~ – “Faceted Skins” (Omega Evolved Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

E.V.E – “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.5 – Splashing Aurea STAR [A]”

E.V.E – “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.5 – Splashing Aurea STAR [B]”

E.V.E – “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.5 – Splashing Aurea STAR [C]”

E.V.E –  “Ivy Tree [M02-No leaves] Silver”

E.V.E – “Ivy Bonsai {Silver}”

E.V.E – “Poison Rain Spikes Grass M01 {White}”

E.V.E – “Poison Rain Spikes Grass M01{Silver}”

E.V.E – “Poison Rain Spikes Grass M02 Fade {White-DelS}”

[FOURTH WALL] – “Mossy Rocks Pack” (Modified: blank white texture with original materials)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

I can see you understand me…

“Once you put your hand in the flame,
You can never be the same,
There’s a certain satisfaction,
In a little bit of pain.
I can see you understand me
Tell that you’re the same”

[Madonna]

Sometimes it needs a kind person and some amazing conversations to be inspired for a certain picture. This happened today when I was thinking about doing a post about some awesome releases of the Fetish Fair that is currently running for a few more days. It is always difficult to do fetish or BDSM related pictures if you don’t want to be dirty or pornographic but ther is even editorial fashion shoots in the real world that are none of that. For my post I did not want the editorial ones only, I wanted some kind of emotion to it as well and that is, why I did not just use a blank background with simplistic furniture only. D/s is something very sensitive. It is part of the whole BDSM content but it is only one of a million different shades. But many people do have D/s relation ships without even being aware of. D/s itself can have a million different shades as well. Sometime girls like the fact that they are taken care of in life and that they only need to please (please ISN’T always only sexual!) a man, to be his precious he would take care of. Some girls do like older men, because they feel more safe with them and they like if they say how it goes (NOT only in a sexual way). That brings me to my next point… D/s doesn’t always have to be a sexual thing. Making a coffee for the man you belong to, because he asked for it… we could argue now if he did order you to get him one or if he just asked to have one… when you bring him that without starting a discussion or telling him off to get it on his own… you obey… you obey to a wish made by the person you love. So D/s is way more common as that we think about. Same if your partner tells you, he would like you to dress in a certain way… you can say, it is because you just love him and do it, because you know you please him with having him the gift of you wearing the particular outfit. But on the same hand you can sa it was an order you did obey to out of various reasons and motivations. D/s doesn’t mean anything else than, someone that gives orders (wishes, requests, begging… call it what ever you want) and someone that is willing to full fill them, either for a certain result or just because out of love, dedication or devotion. Where I live, we are lucky that we can be free in our choices that we make about our relation ships – I know this is not the case all over the world. And so all can decide how they want to have their relationships without being pointed with a finger at someone. Did you ever think about why in Second Life BDSM or D/s is so big? Because not everyone has the possibility to live their fantasies! Even if I made horrible experiences in Second Life with that kind of roleplay and gave up years ago in SL, because of wannabes and people who think they know it all only because they read the Story of O or saw 50 Shades of Grey on TV, it seems there is attraction in that kind of lifestyle for many and why not just let them do what ever they want as long as they to not violate any law or feelings of others who are not want to be involved? I have to admit I met a few people, that are living this lifestyle in the real world too and I had incredible amazing conversations about so many different things with them – I would not want to miss them. Most of those people are incredible skilled artists in one or both lifes and the lifestyle must have something that touches those sensitive and very special people.

Since my post tunred out totally different as intended and the shoes didn’t get the deserved spotlight on the pictures, I just thought I do a clean close up!

Recently I had the pleasure to talk more to someone, that I did know for a while and when we met, none of us did talk about BDSM or D/s or something like that. We just were assigned to do a print-work job together. It was a fashion job so far away from all of that. But when I arrived there, the way of how that person was talking already got me to my toes. I can not say why, but the way he used the English language wasn’t what I usually experienced. I mean, I did know his Flickr as I always look though peoples Flickr when I am assigned to work with them, but you find all kind of artists on that platform so I normally do not jump to conclusions if I do not know those people. The way he spoke, the use of words I never heard before for just normal conversations, did build some feelings or emotions that I could not sort the first time we met. It was a great shooting and the pictures turned out fantastic. It wasn’t the only time I had the pleasure to work with that person and I do not even remember anymore when or why I started to call him Sir, just in a normal conversation. I remember quite well, how bad I was blushing in real life, when I realized what I just said, but it just felt normal and right. He did not seem irritated by that and since it felt right, it was just normal for me to call him Sir whenever we worked together. A couple times we even just made pictures together, without any particular job behind it and they are some of the best pictures I ever had together with someone. Not too long go we got to talk more in IMs here and there and I had the pleasure to know him more each time we talked. It feels amazing if you can talk with someone in a natural way without ulterior motives, just because you are friends and respect someone. There are no words to describe our conversations, but I feel very honored to be allowed to have them. They unleash creativity, they reduce anxieties about some things, they even are an enrichment for my English skills, as I learn new words and different ways to say things. After all it feels incredible amazing to have someone, that does understand you, the way how you behave, or who you are. I have to admit, I guess I can be happy that he is so far away as I have no idea, if I could stand those eyes and voice, if I would be near him, but since I am happy in my own relationship (Yes – my partner knows about our conversations // NO – that isn’t anywhere near cheating) and far away, I just immensely enjoy those conversations and projects and hope there will be many more. Thank you Sir, for inspiring me for todays post and pictures!

Clothing

Outfit: :::insanya::: – “Helga Top & Shorts” (Maitreya)

Cuffs: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Bondage Deluxe Set” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fetish Fair // August 2019

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Vini Stockings” (Maitreya Applier)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Tamara Ankle Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Nails: .:Avanti:. – “Byzzy Nails” (Maitreya, Bento)

Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Morphine Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)

Piercing: Blaxium – “Dangerous Bento Piercing – Simone” (LeLutka, Bento)

Septum: Blaxium – “Aracnida Septum Piercing Unrigged – Silver” (Gacha, Common)

Hair & Makeup

Makeup: Livia – “Desire Eyeshadow” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “London” (LeLutka Applier)

Hair: no.match – “No.Aspects” – NEW @ Hairfair // August 2019

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: RedFish – “Roses Tattoo” (Maitreya Applier) – NEW @ Fetish Fair // August 2019

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Akasuna”

Lashes: Livia  – “Whisper Lashes” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

3rd Eye Perceptions – “Hanging Chain Curtain”

~*S.E.*~ – “Wall Pallet Bed (PG)”

[Since1975] – “All in1-BDSM Cage/Pole(Maledom)”

[Since1975] – “All in1-BDSM Cage/Hanger(Maledom)”

[Arch] Deco – “Box of Chains v1.0”

Mushilu – “0005bg Whip and Whispers complete”

ED. – “Anu Whip Black”

22769 – “Toys and Lube”

22769 – “Handcuffs”

22769 – “Leather Whip”

Face Animatin Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Imagine…

TUNES

You, you may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope someday you will join us
And the world will be as one

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man

Imagine all the people
Living life in peace

[John Lennon]

Clothing

Top: neve – “Milla” (Maitreya)

Pants: Blueberry – “Pride Shorts” (Maitreya, SL16B Gift)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Emelie Sandals” (Maitreya) – NEW @ UBER // August 2019

Accessories

Legwraps: Storybook – “Savage – Brown” (Maitreya)

Necklace 1: Eudora3D – “Eithne Necklace Gold Materials”

Necklace 2: MG – “Leather Alexa Choker – Design 3”

Rings: Meva – “Bento Maitreya Rings Gold” (Maitreya, Bento)

Glasses: EarthStones – “The Yesterday”

Headpiece: DRD – “Vagabond – Flower Crown”

Bangles (l): DRD – “Chunky Bangles – Flower”

Bracelet (r): [ kunst ] – “Conrad Bracelet”

Piercing:  [ kunst ] – “Piercing #10” (Gacha, Common)

Septumn: [ kunst ] – “Anuket Septum Ring”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Weird” – NEW @ COSMOPOLITAN // August 12th, 2019

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “London” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Ears: CODEX – “Marley Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: ((Mister Razzor)) – “Dante” (Omega Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

DRD – “The Stranded Pack Rat”

DRD – “Vagabond – Guitar” (Groupgift

DRD – “Post Apoc Camp Sitting Crates 1”

DRD – “GG – Catcher – One” (Groupgift

22769 ~ [bauwerk] – “Beertray Sidetable Green” (table made transparent to use ashtray and cigarettes)

Location

…:::Bartertown:::…

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

From little Seeds great Flowers grow…

“She limped, unaided around the house, like a bird with its wing broken. Tame, because it couldn’t fly away. All her time was taken up with managing herself, working out new ways to do things. Being a different person in the world.”
[ Joan London, The Golden Age ]

I guess I never had  more opposite posts back to back  than the last and today’s… maybe thats because my life at the moment is a little bit upside down and huge changes are about to come. I do have mixed feelings about it, as I did not really plan those, but sometimes you just get forced to make changes and you have to adapt the situation and make the best out of it for yourself.

But then, like I wrote yesterday… I always wanted the freedom to do what ever I want on my personal blog and so I hope you all don’t mind a black/silver against white/gold contrast 😉

It was always something I thought a lot about. When I started modeling, we were taught, that we should find our personal style. Back then it was like either you are a casual person, a formal one, am avant garde one or one of those kind of styles that we all know. I never felt ‘home’ in one style genre only and so I started to call my personal style weird or crazy to at least have category if I was asked about. I do not know where all that comes from, but it is not only happening in Second Life. In real life I am a musician, but as well a teacher and I do give private lessons for instruments and songwriting and I do work for a record studio playing the bass sometimes, too. I never had the desire to have a nine-to-five job, more than that I even was scared about the thought to have to do the same every day in a certain time frame. Certainly it would be easier and you could plan your free-time better, but I guess I would miss something just having one job.

It isn’t the first time that a chapter of the book of my life closes (sometimes I had to close them my self, too) and so I know if one closes another one will open. Just the time until that happens is sometimes a bit scary, as you never know what it will be. Usually those kind of “in-between” times only happen if you didn’t close the chapter yourself. Mostly they do happen, if you didn’t plan any changes and all of a sudden for no reason others decide to screw you over with lies and gossips that aren’t even true. First I tried to fight against that, but if you have 4 people gained up against you they can pretty much tell everything and being their own witnesses for their lies. First it dragged me down a lot and I was trying to find a way how I still could prove the truth, but the longer it did happen, the more I came to the point that it would be senseless. So I had to change my tactics and just make my peace with it and find new ways for myself. It would have been an unnecessary waste of power and time to keep on fighting in the end.

So I am looking forward to what will come. Things have come up to my mind already and now just need to grow and being developed more. That already feels much better than the time of uncertainty, where you have no clue what you are going to. Maybe that’s why I found parts of my creativity back, too and have fun taking pictures again even if they are a little bit weird *winks*

For now I will be on holidays and try to get some rest from all the past half a year crap. I know things will move on, as they always have and every time it happened, there was something new for  me that I really enjoyed. Even if that sounds old and lame sometimes and in the middle of frustrating and depressing times you neither want to hear or see it – Life has so much to give and there always will be ways to find new perspectives. Recently I found a quote, first I read it was from Sigmund Freud, but when I looked it up, there wasn’t any prove for that and no one really knows where it came from, but it does fit so perfectly for now and I like it a lot. I even thought, if I should put it on a sign and place it at my desktop somewhere, so I can look at it if I get bad feelings about the whole situation again. Maybe it makes a great closing sentence for today’s post *grins*

“Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self esteem, first make sure you are not, in fact, just surrounded by assholes.”

Clothing

Dress: CURELESS[+] – “Pygmalion’s Bride / M / Galatea Bridal Gown” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Gloves: CURELESS[+] – “Pygmalion’s Bride / M / Galatea Gloves” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Accessories

Collar: .Charm. – “Skai Collar” (Store closed)

Piercing: [CX] – “Bitten 2017”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Arrest”

Eyeshadow 1: Nanika – “Gold Eyeshadow” (LeLutka Applier)

Eyeshadow 2: Zibska – “Lennie” (LeLutka Applier)

Face Art: Nanika – “Serena Gold” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Legs: CURELESS[+] – “Pygmalion’s Bride / M / Galatea Legs / MARBLE” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Thauron Ears”

Eyes: .ARISE. – “Blind Eyes / Gold”

Skin: *YS&YS* – “Immortal Skin Applier” (LeLutka & Maitreya Applier)

Tattoo: Nanika – “Gold Sequins Mesh Body Applier” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Poseidon

Set:

E.V.E Studio – “WHISPER Petals {Gold}”  (Gacha, Rare)

E.V.E Studio – “Apple Flower M01”

E.V.E Studio – “Apple Flower M02”

E.V.E Studio – “Golden Apple”

E.V.E Studio – “Flowers of the Golden Apple”

E.V.E Studio – “Petals Path A {Gold}”

E.V.E Studio – “Petals Path B {Gold}”

E.V.E Studio – “Dancing Petals Dystopia in Bronze/Gold”

Air – “Road sign type A stand_gold_CM”

Air – “Road sign type C_gold_CM”

Air – “Road sign type D_gold_CM”

Air – “Road sign type E_gold_CM”

Air – “Lost Bravery stand(gold)_CM”

Air – “Lost Brain stand(gold)_CM”

DISORDERLY. – “Enchanted Extras / Beast’s Library Papers”

Raindale – “Elnaril floor candle holder (light gold)”

{anc} – “mannequin. MermaidPrincess(Adult)” (Gacha, Rare)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin