Disarranged…

The picture exactly shows how I feel sometimes… Totally disarranged but… somehow still interesting*laughs*

Did you ever came across such a situation where you had something in mind, started to style for your idea and for whatever reason, the whole concept fell and was replaced by a complete different idea? It happens to me so often…

When I started to dress for this post, I had a military style in mind with the “Orsay” dress, but then I remembered the cool puppet hanger from Curio Obscura and the same time [Gos] released their “Natalie” ankle boots and all of a sudden my idea changed to something complete different. The first idea only had the dress in the focus and then I got shoes that matched so wonderful so I had to find an idea where i can showcase the dress AND the shoes ๐Ÿ˜‰

Recently I had to re-think my idea for shoe posts as I did not like the “closeup only” pictures of shoes and accessories. I wanted something that still would allow more than just one part of the body in the picture and so I started experimenting a lot with crazy poses, crouch poses and certain sit and kneel poses. Sometimes it becomes more editorial looking and sometimes it just falls in place to a cool picture with the right angle. It is really fun the more you dare to fool around with poses and angles. Sometimes it just looks weird but if you just try a little more and not be afraid of crazy ideas it becomes way more exciting and interesting.

I will try to play more with those kid of ideas in the future and hope you will enjoy the results as much as I do ๐Ÿ˜‰ Thanks a lot for reading!

Details

Outfit & Accessories:

Dress: [sYs] – “Orsay” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Natalie Ankle Boots” (Maitreya)

Knees: .:Avanti:. – “Knit Knee Warmers” (Maitreya)

Crown: Enfant Terrible – “Crown Roses ULTRA RARE” (Gacha)

Rings: *elise* – “Orietta” (Maitreya)

Nails: Slackgirl – “Lourds Mesh Nails” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: Fabia – “Luida”

Makeup: Zibska – “Araceli Makeup” & “Araceli Lips” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoos:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon & Helamiyo

Props:

Puppethanger: Curio Obscura – “Marionette Controls and Strings”

Stage: Wimey – “Speakeasy Stage”

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

Pink Therapy!

Pink always was and is a challenge to me. Some of you might remember times, when I tried to act like I had a pink allergy and even had a special skin with pimples and spots. Or if I got pink outfits for shows, I always predicted I had to have my medicine and pills with me to not get those allergy symptoms again. It was fun times and for what ever reason even nowadays people approach me about that allergy ๐Ÿ˜‰

That even more encourages me sometimes, to try something in pink as it can be a very strong color and not just a Barbie girl tone.

First I wanted to do a picture where I sit on an object, because I wanted to showcase the shoes as well as the dress, the hair and the jewelry. I realized, if I just have a simple standing pose, most of the time the shoes get lost in the whole picture as they turn out way to tiny compared to the the rest of the picture. But I did not just want a little close up on the blog either and no hint for my flickr picture.

Everything what I tried to sit on – that did not seem boring and strong enough as well as matching my mood – did not work out. After some time I really got frustrated and had to step away from the whole thing. I logged out and went to the couch, to continue reading my book. After a couple of hours, I took a look at the watch and it was not yet that late. I thought I should give it another try and see if now the muse would be genuine enough to come back and maybe even kiss me again.

First I did throw the idea away to pose sitting on something and reduced the set drastically to some lights and effects from E.V.E Studio. I still was I a certain mood, which I wanted to express via the pictures as well. Something pensive, lightly fragile and with – here I have to credit Ephemeral Skye, since he was so kind to listen to my frustration and had kind words, which helped to go back to the whole project – “a hint of defiance in her as well”. It made me speechless that he tried to see “behind” the picture and saw what I tried to aim for. He is an incredible artist, which I adore personally for his creativity and ideas and if someone with that outrageous skills gives you such kind words… that is really motivating I have to admit and I am really grateful about that.

If you have a very minimal background, poses and angles count even more to have an interesting picture in the end. I love to jump into my Poseidon poses folder when I try to have a strong mood or attitude in mind. I have no idea how Gryphon Vendetta does it, but he ALWAYS hits the nail on the head when he makes his poses. They are so strong and expressive, even if they have an ’emo’ feeling to them. You can play with the angles amazingly with Poseidon poses as there is always more than one view that works. With the right crops you can even use extreme poses or flying poses without having their initial purpose shown.

Before I now go back to my inventory and look, what I could use for my next look, I would like take a closer look at the shoes, even if they are shown in the picture at the beginning. I so often feel that shoes are underestimated and as well way too often taken for granted.

The new “Charlie Platform Sandals” are available at the actual round of Fameshed (like the amazing dress that I am wearing for todays post as well). The perfect spring season heels come as usual for Maitreya, Slink and Belleza feet and have the amazing 3 new HUDs that [Gos] includes for all their new releases. The Boutique HUD for the amazing [Gos] colors we all know,ย  as well the Metallic and the Blueberry HUD with matching colors for your Blueberry clothing.

Afterall I have to admit… pink isn’t that bad ๐Ÿ˜‰

Outfit & Accessories:

Dress: [Gos] – “Charlie Wrap Dress” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fameshed

Shoes: [Gos] – “Charlie Platform Sandals” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fameshed

Collar & Brows: Zibska – “Florenz”

Cuffs: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Mordrem”

Rings: *elise* – “Brenda” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nails: ::SG:: – “Catarina” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: A&Y Cybernetics – “Cyber Ghost”

Makeup: Zibska – “Agafia Eyemakeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoos:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Ears: ^^Swallow^^ – “Pixie Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon

Props: E.V.E Studio – “Heart Stars-Leaves” & “Sunny Spells”

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

Those Moments…

Sometimes you have something in mind and as much as you try… it won’t look like you first wanted it.

Do you know that feeling? You built a wonderful set, you had all kind of poses in mind to bring your set and vision alive and what ever you try it looks wrong?

Exactly that happened to me today. I was fooling around over 3 hours, stubborn about my first idea and anyways what I tried – pushing furniture around, changing poses, twisting poses and even make poses – nothing worked…

So I gave up on the first idea and since I anyways love playing with poses, I went into my Poseidon poses folder and started going through them. The dress (like dresses always do) limited the possibilities lightly because of the legs movement, but the more I played with them the more I got new courage and new ideas about how todays pictures should look like. I trashed my set and just played with poses, windlights and shadows.

Today my style was based off the amazing “Rihanna” boots from [Gos].

“Step into Rihanna, a sky-high thigh high boot featuring perforation detailed accented by a metal-capped square toe and sculpted-metal stiletto heel.
Rihanna is available in 3 colour HUDs – Boutique, Blueberry, and Metallics – each sold separately or as a collection. The Boutique HUD includes 16 current, in-season colours perfect for any fashionista, the Blueberry HUD includes 20 colours which coordinate with clothing from Blueberry, and the Metallics HUD include 7 metallics which will have your feet shining. Each HUD also includes 5 sole and 3 metal options.” Gospel Voom states and he is not exaggerating!

The boots are skin tight and with the perforation something very special. It as well shows how accurate the boots are made and rigged as you cannot alpha out anything!

The cool dress with the amazing chained bottom part was made by [sYs]. You can have many different colors but since I am a black addicted – I went for black ๐Ÿ˜‰

The awesome face decoration I found at Zibska. I adore her for her special sense of art. In every of her designs you see, what a skilled artist she is. Her items are never boring mainstream and always when I use her creations for a style it adds so much character and attitude. The eye decoration I really had to get, when I saw it as it reminded me of seeing many different shades of one thing if you look through all those parts or the imagination of how many you can see in one thing only.

So even if I trashed my set today I hope you nevertheless had fun with my look ๐Ÿ˜‰

Details

Outfit & Accessories:

Dress: [sYs] – “Ano” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Rihanna Perforated Boots” (Maitreya)

Gloves: L’Emporio – “Fingerless Gloves” (Maitreya)

Arm Straps right: L’Emporio – “Harness Arm” (Maitreya)

Collar: NOIR – “Mallory Choker”

Fingernails & Rings: Slipper – “Deidra” (Maitreya)

Facedeco: Zibska – “Pari” (with LeLutka Applier)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: Exile – “Windsong”

Makeup: Zibska – “Razmig”

Body & Tattoos:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: Ivory & Rose – “Alexandrina” (Maitreya Applier)

Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

Last Day before Christmas…

Again we only have one day left for Christmas. In Germany we celebrate Christmas on the 24th, in my family usually in the afternoon or evening. It never was a huge party we we only have the closest family around. This year it will be my mom, my brother and his girl friend, Red and myself.

Usually the last day before Christmas was very hectic, as I never made it to have all Christmas presents together in time ๐Ÿ˜‰ This year I am all set and done \o/

So all I have left is preparing the apartment and do some Christmas tree decorating. It is a great feeling if you have everything ready and just can relax and enjoy the pre-Christmas feeling ๐Ÿ˜‰

You can make your self a nice cocoa or – what I like even more – a nice ‘Glรผhwein’. It was really a wonderful day today and that brought me on today’s pictures and post.

First I only wanted to do a shoe post about the amazing “Kendall” ankle boots from [Gos]. The Kendall boot is a peep-toe leather biker ankle boot. Accented by double buckles and exposed zipper detail, Kendall is sure to add flair.
Kendall is available in 3 colour HUDs – Boutique, Blueberry, and Metallics – each sold separately. The Boutique HUD includes 14 current, in-season colors perfect for any fashionista, the Blueberry HUD includes 21 colors which coordinate with clothing from Blueberry, and the Metallics HUD include 6 metallics which will have your feet shining. Each HUD also includes 5 sole, 3 metal, 7 lining, and 2 heel options.

Based on the shoes I wanted to do a winter, cozy look and I just took the awesome “Lila Sweater” from .:Avanti:. and an older gacha hair, that I never used as I never found the right style for it. To not have bare legs with my denim shorts, I wanted some tights and remembered the cool socks/tights combination I got a few weeks ago, which even had a toe-less option – perfect for the peep-toe boots!

While I was playing with poses and some decorations… my sweet little niece India showed up and we all know how kids can be… curious especially one day before Christmas. She sat down with her little Rudolph cuddly toy and wanted some hot chocolate. She had a lot to tell from Kindergarten and about Christmas and certainly she asked me all those questions about Santa. she did not forget to mention that she hopes Santa got her wish-list in time this year and when I would think that he will come. I told her that we still need to get the cookies out the fridge later and make a little plate for Santa with them. I should not have mentioned the cookies I guess since India is the biggest cookie monster I ever met :p I had a hard time to tell her we cannot eat the cookies for Santa and that she better keeps her hands off them and that they are only belong to Santa and how important it would be to give them to him.

Finally I made it, to get her into her bed and after a little bedtime story she closed her eyes and fell asleep with a smile on her face. I closed the book and turned the lights off before I left the room and went back down to continue decorating and drinking the last few sips of my ‘Glรผhwein’ before I got sleepy myself and went to bed.

If you want to see India’s little over nightsecret… just take a look at her cute story ๐Ÿ˜‰ https://indiaamari.wordpress.com/2017/12/23/its-almost-christmas/

I wish all of you Merry Christmas and hope you can enjoy the next days with your family and friends as much as I will ๐Ÿ™‚

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Top: .:Avanti:. – “Lila Sweater” (Maitreya)

Pants: GizzA – “Betsy Demin Shorts” (Maitreya, store closed)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Kendall Boots” (Maitreya)

Knee: .:Avanti:. – “Knit Knee Warmer” (Maitreya)

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Cozy Tights” (Maitreya Applier)

Gloves: Blackburns – “Short Knit Gloves” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: Sleepy Eddy – “Handknotmuffler+Nao” (Gacha, Rare)

Makeup: alaskametro<3 – “Soiree” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “Fall Runway” (LeLutka Apllier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Facetattoo: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses & Props:

Ladder: 22769 – “Library Stepladder” (Gacha, Common)

Tree: [Chic Buildings] – “Holiday Trimming Tree Pale” + “Ornaments Box Pale”

Drink: RazzBerry Inc. – “Sugar Cookie Cocoa”

Reindeer:ย Sweet Lies – “Female Reindeer Bow” (Gacha, Common)

Hot Chocolate Set: -tres blah- – “Cozy Winter – Hot Chocolate”

Poses: Poseidon

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

Illusion – Sometimes you wish…

Illusion

I know it’s hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt, I don’t want you to change
Because everyone has hopes, you’re human after all
The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand. Please, don’t cry now

Being like you are
Well this is something else, who would comprehend?
But some that do, lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them
That’s not what I believe, and it doesn’t matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last, but I’m still not sure
But what I do know, is to us the world is different
As we are to the world but I guess you would know that

Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, oh please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to change
For all the hurt that you feel
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you
[VNV Nation]

VIDEO

This video, inspired me for today’s post. In the moment when I saw the amazing “Uh Oh Makeup” from Slackgirl.
We all know that – sometimes we desire to be something or someone else. Those moments when all those self-doubts devour you from the inside and you just wish to escape your own body or the situation that you are in. But would that really be worth it? It might seem easier on the first view but would you not miss your past, all the things that made you to what you are now? Would this new desire not make it even worse? Would this moment not come again some when – a new desire to again be someone or something else?
I do think those moments let us grow. Each time they happen and we work them through we gain experiences and as well come out of them even stronger.
Secondlife to me was such an escape in the past. When my RL turned upside down, Wicca was my refuge. I know how crazy that must sound, but others find their hide out in alcohol and drugs so for that amount of time where it was really bad, I am happy I had Wicca instead. I always was aware of, that it was a running from reality and I never believed SL could be any kind of reality than a virtual one. So I was well aware of what I did and did not lose myself in a virtual environment completely.
I know we all say, that we know Secondlife is a game and that we always can press the red “X” on the right upper corner. But if you are in SL for 10 years, your avatar and the people around you as well as the things you do become a part of you. Certainly I would not go around and tell my RL friends I am a model in SL and that would count anything towards my RL… if that makes sense. But I can tell about a game that I play and that I use it as my free time fun like others use other things – for example surfing on the internet, doing YouTube videos, doing handicrafts or what ever they enjoy in their free time, besides work and socializing in real life.
Nowadays I am not going to SL to escape anymore. My online times are way shorter as they used to be back then and sometimes I do not log in for days when I have RL appointments or wanna meet friends. The purpose of login in changed, but I still do have fun with Secondlife – just different.
I still enjoy to do things that I could not do in real life and as well I do enjoy designing a lot. To me designing is kinda the same as for others doing handicrafts maybe. Producing something and see how something grows under your fingers until you have a final product. The same applies to blogging and making pictures ๐Ÿ˜‰
Secondlife can be an addiction, yes as you can easily lose yourself in it, but if you are aware of that, it can be a nice hideout with lots of fun and meeting amazing people – some even might become part of your real life out there ๐Ÿ™‚
For me Secondlife never could replace my real – I do love my life now, but it is a nice way to live parts of your dreams and illusions ๐Ÿ˜‰
Details
Clothing & Accessories:
Outfit: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita – Onepiece” (Gacha, for the Galatea Doll Lolita Body)
Necklace: shanghai – “Xana”
Headpiece: [sys] – “Hecate”
Hair & Makeup:
Face Art: Slackgirl – “Uh Oh Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo:
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”
Skin: YS&YS – “Immortal Skin” (LeLutka Applier)
Body: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita Body” (Gacha, Rare)
Props & Poses:
Fruct0se & Poseidon
Model & Photographer:

Sporty Moment

Yes, sometimes even me has a sporty urban moment*giggles*

This time it was the shoes that totally got me and when I bought them at the last sale of Reign. I always was in love with that shoes, but when they were in the sale I could not anymore resist.

The shoes come in 3 different colors if you get the fatpack and all 3 are just awesome ๐Ÿ˜‰ They are made of 2 parts so you could wear them as short ones too without the upper thigh parts.

First I wanted to do a baseball looking style but I did not find all the stuff I wanted for it so I decided to go with a ‘Sporty Spice’ look ๐Ÿ˜‰

That kind of style is out of my personal comfort zone, but sometimes it is fun to try those as well ๐Ÿ˜‰

 

Details

Jacket: Sabotage – “Sports Bomber Jacket” (Maitreya)

Top: GizzA – “Lucy Tank” (Maitreya)

Pants: [sYs] – “Ride” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Reign – “Suicide Heels” (Maitreya)

Hair: Mina – “Indica”

Necklace: Minimal – “Chiker Bow Tie”

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)

Basics

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Shape: Selfmade

Set

Background: anxiety – “Sunday pack %83”

Poses: Poseidon

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Dark Visions

Dark Visions

There’s something hidden
In the depthsof the night
From a placenot forbidden
But deprived of light
A landscape of mistery
Is the other side
Derying the limits
Of the mind

Dark Visions
Fragment of a story that’s not a lie
Dark vision
Image of an existence destinedto die
Dark visions

A raid into the unknown
Enigmatic strangeland
Where the incognito’s grown
Harder to understand
The faceof silence
The likehood of fear
A reflex that will slowly
Disappear

Nightmares and dreams
Fictions or realities
Dark Visions

[Alien Produkt]

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Outfit: Zibska – “Lilitu” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Secret Affair

Shoes: Reign – “Kendall” (Maitreya)

Nails: glYph – “Apex” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: Analog Dog – “Pipe Dream”

Makeup: Slackgirl – “SecretFreak” (Omega Applier) – NEW @ The Secret Affair

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon

Props: E.V.E Studio – “KOI Square Confetti Ring” & “Sugarflies {Red}”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

I won’t back down

I Won’t Back Down

Well I won’t back down
No I won’t back down
You could stand me up at the gates of hell
But I won’t back downNo I’ll stand my ground
Won’t be turned around
And I’ll keep this world from draggin’ me down
Gonna stand my ground
And I won’t back down

Well I know what’s right
I got just one life
In a world that keeps on pushin’ me around
But I’ll stand my ground
And I won’t back downHey baby there ain’t no easy way out
Hey I won’t back down
Hey baby there ain’t no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground
And I won’t back down
No I won’t back down
[Tom Petty]
Details
Clothing & Accessories:
Dress: United Colors – “Simone” (Maitreya)
Shoes: Hucci – “Itabuna Boots” (Maitreya)
Armstraps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arm” (Maitreya)
Headpiece: PFC – “Roach”
Makeup & Hair:
Facepaint: PFC – “Roach” (LeLutka Applier)
Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)
Hairbase: Mina – “Myla” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo:
Head: LeLutka – “Somine 3.0”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Brimstone” (Maitreya Applier) – NEW @ On9
Poses & Props:
Poses: Poseidon
Set:
Trees: Little Branch – “Spooky Tree 1 & 4”
Branches: [we’re CLOSED] – “Shrub Large Bare”
Skulls: [Kres] – “Dragon King” – NEW @ We โ™ฅ RP

The Darkness Inside

I did think a long time about a title for this post and pictures and after a conversation with a dear, sweet friend today, I suddenly had the idea – “The dark beast inside of me sometimes needs some release”

We all know that feeling I guess. You often just try to be polite and kind even if you feel that the inner beast tries to break free. In my life I learned that his beast has two different sides. It is very emotional and hot-headed on one side and sometimes it can be very dark ironic and sarcastic on the other. That is why I learned to control it and keep it locked in chains inside of me.

Certainly I was told to not always swallow all my emotions and everything that I get told, but the same time there is way how you can express this in a polite and adult way.

The most difficult it gets when you feel hurt. Because then this beast inside just rambles and rattles with the chains, developing immense power so that I sometimes really be afraid it would break that chains and just break free.

But exactly those situations taught me the most. When I was able to still keep it inside, it felt as a success to not let it win over me just because of someones judgement, rumors, gossips or words.

Every time I was able to keep it locked away, I felt that I did grow stronger. It was a long process and it took me years and sadly it is still not perfectly locked. But maybe it does not have to be, because everything has an end as well and so does patience, understanding and politeness. Sometimes people really need to know when they overstepped a line or did hurt me even if they will not believe nor change their behaviour – most of the time because they can’t as they have nothing in their life than trying to make others miserable. Then you do not even need to argue with those, because you can’t win. Anyways what you will say to prove them wrong they will turn it around and again use it against you no matter what. So all you can do is let it go, turn around and move on.

If you move on, you will meet new people in the future who will treat you with more respect and in an adult way. Certainly not only those, but all the others will wait for you left and right as well and maybe it is the personal challenge of everyone’s life to pass those who do not matter to meet those who DO matter – if that makes any sense. That does not mean you should not take any critiques, but you can learn to decide between the good and the bad critique. The bad, that only was used to hurt, blame or accuse you without any content OR the one that sometimes hurts too a bit – because you might have seen it different – but that as well contains facts and things that let you learn and grow from.

In the end you are the one, that has to make the decisions in your life – nobody can do or should do that for – as long as you can.

For me it feels better to have a mainly positive life (all of us have bad days or experiences) instead of a hate filled, jealous and not satisfied one. I always ask myself – before I react on things – if it would be worth fighting or arguing about something, or just smile and say thank you, turn around and move on. Both cases did happen and both will happen in the future, but if I argue or discuss I try to stay with the facts, be polite and kind and as well stay adult and not just release the inner beast without thinking. If that happens, I exactly would do that, what I do not want be done to myself – hurt, accuse or become personal and unobjective – and that is not an option to me if I can control it. I have to admit, over the years I became way more calm in such situations and maybe it is the age that lets you think before you take any action ๐Ÿ˜‰

Details

Clothing & Accessoires:

Outfit: Salt & Pepper – “Strapped” (Gacha, Maitreya)

Arms Straps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arms” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Bax – “Regency Boots”

Chains: E.V.E Studio – “{Apocalyptica} Cyber Snake Chains”

Makeup & Hair:

Hair: A&Y Bunker – “Cyro Hair”

Hairbase: Mina – “Myla Hairbase” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup: Zibska – “Ballard Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: Swallow – “Pixie Ears”

Arms: Zibska – “Speckles” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Pose: Poseidon

True Friendship

“And now to something completely different!”

In RL my English teacher – back when I was at school – used to say that if he was changing his topic, and after a roll of post apocalyptic posts (one is still missing), I wanted to do something different and finally my mind was able to do something else *giggles*

I am always fascinated from white pictures and rarely – if I try one – , they come out as I want them too.

But this time it did! I wanted to do a combination of power and fragile moments in a very soft environment.

All I added for the set were the “Waving Bioluminescent Fungus” in white and the “Rapunzel in Evie White Tower” in front of a white background. The “Rapunzel in Evie White Tower” reminded me of the thought of your inner voice, that talks to you if you have decisions to make or that you ask when you are down and do not know who to ask. It looked great in the background for the idea of the picture.

Do you know that moment, where people want you to be strong and you feel right the opposite but cannot show that, because you have a task to end or you have to be there for someone?

It is like an inner fight with yourself, trying to not let the fragile side win. Sometimes you need to be strong, no matter what. Even if I have been told several times to not hide my feelings – if you have a true friendship, sometimes your own feelings have to be pushed behind to be there for your friend. Thank god it does not happen too often that those 2 ‘souls’ come up to the same time. Would you not expect the same from a true friend – to be there for you when you need him or her most? and even if I am always afraid to bother someone with my problems and moods. But IF I do, I really to expect close and true friends to be there for me. And saying that I would even get up in the middle of the night and drive 500 and more kilometers to help , when it would be needed and possible.

True friendship is rare and even more rare in an online environment, but it is there. Many times you might be disappointed from people who you thought you know but if you stop trusting… you never will find those who are true and honest. You would cut yourself off to meet people who could be potential true and honest friends. I do not know if that makes sense – bear with the German – but I hope you know what I am trying to say.

In the past 10 years in SecondLife, I met many people. Some I still talk to, some quit playing and some just vanished. It was a rollercoaster journey in terms of meeting people. A few I let come close to me and they ripped out my heart and left me in pain for weeks. sometimes I even thought I will quit playing Second Life. But then there are some that I met, which caught me, gave me the feeling of being close to them and those I would not want to miss again. It might only be a handful people who really do know me – know more behind Wicca’s pixel – but those I highly value and I could not think about a life without them anymore. Even if we never met, we shared tons of hours on skype or inworld, even further on mobile communication tools and they became part of not only my Second Life but my real one as well.

Friendships are different – Some are super close and with some you share moments and experiences but you do not talk to them on an everyday base. That does not have to be bad though, they are still friends I do care for and in the moment we meet we have the biggest fun ever ๐Ÿ™‚

I never would wanna change the past, as it did make me to what I am now – SL and RL. Even the pain made me learn something –ย  I never stopped to trust people or give people a chance to know me and become new, true friends.

Sometimes it is hard, but if you go out to find new true and real friends maybe do not give them the burden or the doubt out of your past experiences. They are not responsible for that, nor they know.

I hope I did make sense with what I was trying to say – if not… maybe holler at me inworld and you can help me doing it better ๐Ÿ˜‰

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Outfit: Plastix – “Solaris” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Essenz – “Calgary” (Maitreya)

Shoulder Piece, Necklace & Brows: Zibska – “Verad” (Gacha)

Makeup & Hair:

Makeup: Zibska – “Verad Eye Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Adia” (LeLutka Applier)

Hair: enVogue – “Carley”

Head, Body & Tattoos:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon

Props: E.V.E Studio – “Waving Bioluminescent Fungus” & “Rapunzel in Evie White Tower”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin