Numb

TUNES

I’m tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Can’t you see that you’re smothering me
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
‘Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I’m becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
(I’m tired of being what you want me to be)
I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
(I’m tired of being what you want me to be)
[- Limp Bizkit -]
Clothing

Blanket: :: MOMOCHUU :: – “Holiday Blanket [dark]” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // December 2020

Top: [Salem] – “Lilith Corset” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // December 2020

Panties:

Legs: [CX] – “Chiyou Legwraps Black” (Maitreya)  – NEW @ Mainstore

Accessories

Mask: kosmii – “Victory Gag” – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // December 2020

Collar: ::Static:: – “Bound Collar { Female } Black”

Feet Claws: L’Emporio&PL – “Damned Claws – Flat Feet V2” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Dura – “B98-Hair-Fat Pack A:right (diamond face line)”

Eyeliner: CAZIMI – “Basic B Eyeliners Bonus Liners” (LeLUTKA Evo. HD Applier)

Lashes: ~Shiny Stuffs~ – “Lash Parade” (LeLUTKA Applier)

Faceart & Sclera Overlay: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger” – NEW @ Mainstore

Face Scars: . The Rotting Lab . – “Waster – Scar – Pale” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head & Piercings: LeLUTKA – “Erin 2.5”

Eyes: Madame Noir – “Vampyre Eyes” – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // December 2020

Ears: [CX] – “Sceleratis Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”

Tattoo 1: TF – “Machinist (F) :: Without Sore – Light 50%” (BoM)”

Tattoo 2: TF – “Mort :: Veins :: With Eyeshading” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Poseidon

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Backdrop: ANTINATURAL[+] – “Hospital for Souls / Hydrotherapy room”

Rat 1: JIAN – “Rascal Rats 2. Black Companion” (Gacha, Common)

Rat 2: JIAN – “Rascal Rats 6. Black Wanderer” (Gacha, Common)

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Lines of Light

“Cyberspace. A consensual hallucination experienced daily by billions of legitimate operators, in every nation, by children being taught mathematical concepts… A graphic representation of data abstracted from banks of every computer in the human system. Unthinkable complexity. Lines of light ranged in the nonspace of the mind, clusters and constellations of data. Like city lights, receding…”
[-William Gibson, Neuromancer-]

I wanted to post this way earlier as it does mostly feature designs from the ACCESS Cyberfair, but as I already write about… with looking for a new job my RL is completely upside down and takes more attention that usual. I do hate it  – I am usually a person that likes to have at least something stable in my life where I can fill all the other gaps with my own schedule and activities. At the moment I do not even know what the next day will bring as I try to find a new job and run from one appointment to another – it does pay off I have to admit but it is exhausting and time consuming. But I do not want to complain about – that is life. I am just trying to explain why my posts are sometimes a little behind.  I hope you will find all the amazing items in the designers main stores by now 😉

Nevertheless I want to put your attention on some of the amazing creations I am wearing in my pictures today. Since we have the closeup right above, Please take a closer look at that fantastic neon eyebrows and eye-covers. They are made by Madame Noir and they come with a color HUD, which allows you to customize this fantastic design to all of your cyber styling! What as well we can see are parts of the incredible vest and top from A&Y. The “Raizer” top and vest as well were released at the Cyberfair and like all oof the amazing designs of A&Y they perfectly fit together and as well do have a huge HUD to color ever little face of that incredible cyber creations.

Since I slaughtered the backdrop on my first picture with PS so much, I just left it untouched in the other 2 pictures, so you can get an idea what that incredible backdrop actually looks like 😉

I hope that I can post more regularly soon – I really miss my “free time” which I usually take, to make pictures and relax from busy, stressy days.

Clothing

Vest: A&Y – “Raizer Vest” (Maitreya)

Top: A&Y – “Raizer Top” (Maitreya)

Bodysuit: Graves – “G648 Impulse – Clasic Body” (BoM)

Gloves: MEVA – “Andra Gloves 2” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Salem] – “Lethal Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Headpiece: .{PSYCHO:Byts}. – “Peresephonix – Horns”

Glasses: – TRIGGERED – – “The Crow Gacha (Glasses-Black) (Gacha, Rare)

Piercing 1: LeLUTKA – “Ryn.Piercing.Lip.Ashley/Laubert” (part of the Ryn head)

Piercing 2: LeLUTKA – “Ryn.Piercing.Lips. Frenulum/Tongue” (part of the Ryn head)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: A&Y – “Medusa Cyber Hair”

Eyeliner: CAZIMI – “Basic B Eyeliners (LeLUTKA) Bonus Liners” (LeLUTKA Evo. HD Applier)

Lipstick: VELOUR – “New Gods HD Lipstick [LeLUTKA Evo RYN]” (LeLutka HD Evo Applier)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Ryn 2.0”

Eyebrows & Eyes: Madame Noir – “Neon Set”

Lashes: CAZIMI – “Starlet Lashes” (LeLUTKA Evo. Applier)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara v5.3”

Tattoo: Harana – “Artificial Human – 02 [Flesh Ver.] Dark” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: .PALETO. Backdrop. “30X-SPACE (MATERIAL)(LIGHT)”

Poses: Poseidon

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin