From little Seeds great Flowers grow…

“She limped, unaided around the house, like a bird with its wing broken. Tame, because it couldn’t fly away. All her time was taken up with managing herself, working out new ways to do things. Being a different person in the world.”
[ Joan London, The Golden Age ]

I guess I never had  more opposite posts back to back  than the last and today’s… maybe thats because my life at the moment is a little bit upside down and huge changes are about to come. I do have mixed feelings about it, as I did not really plan those, but sometimes you just get forced to make changes and you have to adapt the situation and make the best out of it for yourself.

But then, like I wrote yesterday… I always wanted the freedom to do what ever I want on my personal blog and so I hope you all don’t mind a black/silver against white/gold contrast 😉

It was always something I thought a lot about. When I started modeling, we were taught, that we should find our personal style. Back then it was like either you are a casual person, a formal one, am avant garde one or one of those kind of styles that we all know. I never felt ‘home’ in one style genre only and so I started to call my personal style weird or crazy to at least have category if I was asked about. I do not know where all that comes from, but it is not only happening in Second Life. In real life I am a musician, but as well a teacher and I do give private lessons for instruments and songwriting and I do work for a record studio playing the bass sometimes, too. I never had the desire to have a nine-to-five job, more than that I even was scared about the thought to have to do the same every day in a certain time frame. Certainly it would be easier and you could plan your free-time better, but I guess I would miss something just having one job.

It isn’t the first time that a chapter of the book of my life closes (sometimes I had to close them my self, too) and so I know if one closes another one will open. Just the time until that happens is sometimes a bit scary, as you never know what it will be. Usually those kind of “in-between” times only happen if you didn’t close the chapter yourself. Mostly they do happen, if you didn’t plan any changes and all of a sudden for no reason others decide to screw you over with lies and gossips that aren’t even true. First I tried to fight against that, but if you have 4 people gained up against you they can pretty much tell everything and being their own witnesses for their lies. First it dragged me down a lot and I was trying to find a way how I still could prove the truth, but the longer it did happen, the more I came to the point that it would be senseless. So I had to change my tactics and just make my peace with it and find new ways for myself. It would have been an unnecessary waste of power and time to keep on fighting in the end.

So I am looking forward to what will come. Things have come up to my mind already and now just need to grow and being developed more. That already feels much better than the time of uncertainty, where you have no clue what you are going to. Maybe that’s why I found parts of my creativity back, too and have fun taking pictures again even if they are a little bit weird *winks*

For now I will be on holidays and try to get some rest from all the past half a year crap. I know things will move on, as they always have and every time it happened, there was something new for  me that I really enjoyed. Even if that sounds old and lame sometimes and in the middle of frustrating and depressing times you neither want to hear or see it – Life has so much to give and there always will be ways to find new perspectives. Recently I found a quote, first I read it was from Sigmund Freud, but when I looked it up, there wasn’t any prove for that and no one really knows where it came from, but it does fit so perfectly for now and I like it a lot. I even thought, if I should put it on a sign and place it at my desktop somewhere, so I can look at it if I get bad feelings about the whole situation again. Maybe it makes a great closing sentence for today’s post *grins*

“Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self esteem, first make sure you are not, in fact, just surrounded by assholes.”

Clothing

Dress: CURELESS[+] – “Pygmalion’s Bride / M / Galatea Bridal Gown” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Gloves: CURELESS[+] – “Pygmalion’s Bride / M / Galatea Gloves” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Accessories

Collar: .Charm. – “Skai Collar” (Store closed)

Piercing: [CX] – “Bitten 2017”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Arrest”

Eyeshadow 1: Nanika – “Gold Eyeshadow” (LeLutka Applier)

Eyeshadow 2: Zibska – “Lennie” (LeLutka Applier)

Face Art: Nanika – “Serena Gold” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Legs: CURELESS[+] – “Pygmalion’s Bride / M / Galatea Legs / MARBLE” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Thauron Ears”

Eyes: .ARISE. – “Blind Eyes / Gold”

Skin: *YS&YS* – “Immortal Skin Applier” (LeLutka & Maitreya Applier)

Tattoo: Nanika – “Gold Sequins Mesh Body Applier” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Poseidon

Set:

E.V.E Studio – “WHISPER Petals {Gold}”  (Gacha, Rare)

E.V.E Studio – “Apple Flower M01”

E.V.E Studio – “Apple Flower M02”

E.V.E Studio – “Golden Apple”

E.V.E Studio – “Flowers of the Golden Apple”

E.V.E Studio – “Petals Path A {Gold}”

E.V.E Studio – “Petals Path B {Gold}”

E.V.E Studio – “Dancing Petals Dystopia in Bronze/Gold”

Air – “Road sign type A stand_gold_CM”

Air – “Road sign type C_gold_CM”

Air – “Road sign type D_gold_CM”

Air – “Road sign type E_gold_CM”

Air – “Lost Bravery stand(gold)_CM”

Air – “Lost Brain stand(gold)_CM”

DISORDERLY. – “Enchanted Extras / Beast’s Library Papers”

Raindale – “Elnaril floor candle holder (light gold)”

{anc} – “mannequin. MermaidPrincess(Adult)” (Gacha, Rare)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Illusion – Sometimes you wish…

Illusion

I know it’s hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt, I don’t want you to change
Because everyone has hopes, you’re human after all
The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand. Please, don’t cry now

Being like you are
Well this is something else, who would comprehend?
But some that do, lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them
That’s not what I believe, and it doesn’t matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last, but I’m still not sure
But what I do know, is to us the world is different
As we are to the world but I guess you would know that

Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, oh please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to change
For all the hurt that you feel
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you
[VNV Nation]

VIDEO

This video, inspired me for today’s post. In the moment when I saw the amazing “Uh Oh Makeup” from Slackgirl.
We all know that – sometimes we desire to be something or someone else. Those moments when all those self-doubts devour you from the inside and you just wish to escape your own body or the situation that you are in. But would that really be worth it? It might seem easier on the first view but would you not miss your past, all the things that made you to what you are now? Would this new desire not make it even worse? Would this moment not come again some when – a new desire to again be someone or something else?
I do think those moments let us grow. Each time they happen and we work them through we gain experiences and as well come out of them even stronger.
Secondlife to me was such an escape in the past. When my RL turned upside down, Wicca was my refuge. I know how crazy that must sound, but others find their hide out in alcohol and drugs so for that amount of time where it was really bad, I am happy I had Wicca instead. I always was aware of, that it was a running from reality and I never believed SL could be any kind of reality than a virtual one. So I was well aware of what I did and did not lose myself in a virtual environment completely.
I know we all say, that we know Secondlife is a game and that we always can press the red “X” on the right upper corner. But if you are in SL for 10 years, your avatar and the people around you as well as the things you do become a part of you. Certainly I would not go around and tell my RL friends I am a model in SL and that would count anything towards my RL… if that makes sense. But I can tell about a game that I play and that I use it as my free time fun like others use other things – for example surfing on the internet, doing YouTube videos, doing handicrafts or what ever they enjoy in their free time, besides work and socializing in real life.
Nowadays I am not going to SL to escape anymore. My online times are way shorter as they used to be back then and sometimes I do not log in for days when I have RL appointments or wanna meet friends. The purpose of login in changed, but I still do have fun with Secondlife – just different.
I still enjoy to do things that I could not do in real life and as well I do enjoy designing a lot. To me designing is kinda the same as for others doing handicrafts maybe. Producing something and see how something grows under your fingers until you have a final product. The same applies to blogging and making pictures 😉
Secondlife can be an addiction, yes as you can easily lose yourself in it, but if you are aware of that, it can be a nice hideout with lots of fun and meeting amazing people – some even might become part of your real life out there 🙂
For me Secondlife never could replace my real – I do love my life now, but it is a nice way to live parts of your dreams and illusions 😉
Details
Clothing & Accessories:
Outfit: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita – Onepiece” (Gacha, for the Galatea Doll Lolita Body)
Necklace: shanghai – “Xana”
Headpiece: [sys] – “Hecate”
Hair & Makeup:
Face Art: Slackgirl – “Uh Oh Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo:
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”
Skin: YS&YS – “Immortal Skin” (LeLutka Applier)
Body: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita Body” (Gacha, Rare)
Props & Poses:
Fruct0se & Poseidon
Model & Photographer:

Butterflies – Black & White Experience

Sometimes, you see an outfit and immediately have an idea what you would like to do with it.

Exactly that happened with the “Siran” outfit from Zibska. In general with Zibska I have never a hard time when I am wearing one of her outfits, as I love er artistic view on clothing and design.

It was one of that days.. I stood around going through my inventory – telling myself I need to sort and clean that mess – and fooling around with unboxing and trying several things, when I found the “Siran” outfit from Zibska, which I got a while ago. When I put it on, the black and white caught my heart on the first sight. Yes – I have a weakness for black & white stuffs 😉

The asymmetric design with the huge black body attachment and the black butterflies on the right side and the more filigree white one on the left perfectly match the 2 colored body suit. The bodysuit as well is unsymmetrical with a long black arm on the right and short white one on the left.

Since I had butterflies already I felt the need for more butterflies and added some in the background that I got ages ago from Tableau Vivant.

The amazing hand piercings and claws are from MEVA… I know I had them showcased already a few times but they are just so amazing that I can’t take them off :p

The mask and the cute little key in my mouth, I found in a folder that I got longer ago :p It was made by Bauhaus Movement and originally there is as well a clown collar coming with it, which I did not use for todays look.

I really do enjoy black & white themes so I kept the background as well very simple. I hope you enjoyed the Black & White as much as I did 😉

 

Details

Outfit: Zibska – “Siran” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Legal Insanity – “Aria” (Maitreya)

Mask & Key: Bauhaus Movement – “Lethargica”

Hair: KoKoLoReS – “Oakes”

Claws: MEVA – “Bento Claws Dark”

Makeup: Zibska – “Folia Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Folia Lips” (LeLutka Applier)

Wall Decor: Tableau Vivant – “Needful Things ~ Butteflies”

Basics:
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 2.7”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara V4.1”
Eyes: IKON – “Hope Eyes”
Shape: Selfmade

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Black & White – Pose Studies with Bauhaus Movement

I was in a Black& White mood again and with the amazing outfit from Moon Elixir, called “Gothique” it was easy to go with those colors. The “Gothique” outfit is a huge gacha set with 22 commons and 2 rares. There is many different versions you can wear, with all the parts being single like the harness is not connected to the pants or the body suit, or the top and the sleeves can be taken off as well.

Sometimes, I just have fu fooling around with poses, not for a special purpose just to practise about angles, crops and new views, or even just to see what you can work with shadows in several angles.

Lately I got a huge pack of poses from Bauhaus Movement, because I was searching ‘no standing’ poses. I realized that I have a lot of modeling poses, but not too many sitting, laying or crouching poses or editorial poses that allow to show a full body shot without having more background that me on my blog pictures.

It is hard if you just go with the general way of modeling poses and then try to make a blog picture that does not show like a million trees and flowers and your avatar gets swallowed by your surrounding especially if you go to a non square format for your pictures. I do like the 4:3, or in general the wider then high proportions for my pictures and so I have to find some solutions for myself. And there is so many more options, that make pictures so much more cool with not just ‘standing and being pretty’ poses 😉 And cropping does help a lot with that but sometimes you just wanna see the whole avatar or at least 90% of it 😉

For those kind of pictures I like a plain simple set or background. When I just wanna play with poses, angles and crops I like it very simple to see the result of the shoots better. That’s why I just put some lamps from neigeux, a wall with a black texture and a frame.

The pack I got from Bauhaus Movement is called “Full Metal Panic” set and has 50 different poses – some even with variations. I really felt the whole pack as a great variety of poses for so many different purposes. Certainly I could not show all 50 of them but I found a few cool ones that worked with today’s outfit. In general I like to wear pants for such pose playing, because with skirts you are way more limited with poses because of the stretching and breaking the skirt or its texture.

Sometimes playing with poses without any special goal can be so much fun and usually I end up with way too many pictures and have a hard time choosing the ones I wanna use for my post :p But I hope you enjoy my selection as much as I did 🙂

Details

Outfit: Moon Elixir – “Gothique” (Maitreya, Gacha)

Hair: Exile “Bad Reputation”

Makeup: .AiShA. – “Be Dramatic” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses: Bauhaus Movement – “Full Metal Panic”

Basics:
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 2.7”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara V4.1”
Eyes: IKON – “Hope Eyes”
Shape: Selfmade

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Wild Fairy Dance

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TUNES

I wandered alone to the forest one night
Led by a music strange to hear
And followed the glow of a shimmering light
That seemed to grow distant as I grew near

The woods were alive with the fragrance of spring
But winter was everywhere clear to see
The moon shone bright and a bat on the wing
Beckoned me closer and said to me:

“A clearing close in the forest you’ll find
A fabulous banquet, a fairy ball
If you close your eyes and you open your mind
The veil disappears and you’ll see it all”
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When I closed my eyes to the shimmering light
All memory faded and I could see
That a mushroom circle of red and white
And myriad fairies surrounded me

Beyond all space and beyond all time
On gossamer wings did the fairies fly
With a joy unknown to a music sublime
The fairies danced, and there danced I

“Those who seek us surely find us
See the trail we leave behind us
Some bewildered, some enlightened
Some are brave, some are frightened

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Are we kind or are we vicious?
Nectar poison or delicious?
That, my sweet, you will discover
Fairy foe, or fairy lover”

Come and play as the wild fairies play
In a magical circle, a fairy ring
You won’t want to leave and forever you’ll stay
Where the vision is bright as spring

Come and dance the wild fairy dance
Spin in a circle as fast as light
Once you begin you are caught in a trance
And the world can grow old in a single night

I wandered alone to the forest one night
Led by a music strange and clear
If you happen to pass when the moon is bright
And the veils are thin you will find me here
If the veils are thin you will find me here

[Gary Stadler]

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Details

Outfit: Salt&Pepper – “Cybernized Bodysuit” NEW @ Gacha Garden

Feetstraps: Salt&Pepper – “Ryan”

Hair: EMO-tions – “Selma”

Tattoo: White Widow – “Moonlight”

Facetattoo: White Widow – “Honey”

Set: E.V.E Studio – “Whisper Petals” + “Sugarflies” + “Bioluminescent Fungus”

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Ice Queen

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[Tunes]

When leaves have fallen
And skies turned to grey
The night keeps on closing in on the day
A nightingale sings his song of farewell
You better hide for her freezing hell

On cold wings she’s coming
You better keep moving
For warmth, you’ll be longing
Come on just feel it
Don’t you see it?
You better believe

Azul Sofia 2

When she embraces
Your heart turns to stone
She comes at night when you are all alone
And when she whispers
Your blood shall run cold
You better hide before she finds you

She covers the earth with a breathtaking cloak
The sun awakes and melts it away
The world now opens its eyes and it sees
The dawning of the new day

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On cold wings she’s coming
You better keep moving
For warmth, you’ll be longing
Come on just feel it
Don’t you see it?
You better believe

Whenever she is raging
She takes all life away
Haven’t you seen?
Haven’t you seen?
The ruins of our world

[Within Temptation]

Details

Gown: Azul – Sofia – NEW

Hair: EMO-tions – “Claudia” – NEW @ Crossroads

Eyeshadow: Zibska – “Rowan 06”

Poses: [Quixotica]

Location: Vintage Romance

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Black & White with [sys] & Wicca’s Wardrobe

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Today I am very excited to showcase one of the latest releases from [sys] and another original mesh piece from Wicca’s Wardrobe.

Black & White is one of my favourite color combinations. Everyone who knows me already is aware of that even if I am not scared to go colorful as well 😉

 The “CAPITOL” outfit is one of the latest releases from [sys] for the ‘My Attic’ event (http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/The%20Deck/87/185/21). Besides the black & white combination you as well have the choise between black, white and pink n either a leather or a linen fabric. The outfit contains the long, high wasted skirt, a wonderful neck holder top and the collar, wich gives the whole look a futuristic touch.

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 In the pack you will find one fitted mesh piece of each part, the needed alpha layer and as well several versions for the new mesh bodes, like Maitreya or Slink. The collar itself is not rigged so you can adjust it to your body and make sure it fits.

The amazing nail polish was made by Giela Delpaso, owner and designer fo Nailed It!. I lately has a talk with her and I had to tell her that she kinda seems to read my mind about her new releases. Always when she brings out a new design I have the feeling of ‘Oh yes exactly that I missed!’ With her nail designs I am always finding the right style for my looks!

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The mask, is one of our latest original mesh creations for Wicca’s Wardrobe. Inspired by a Ram Horn, this mask is a totally must have for all professional stylists. The “Ram Horn Mask” fits male or female and is available in 7 different shiny metals.

The amazing futuristic looking chairs are made by 22769. The
“Flower Chair” in black, white, purple and red are available at the On9 event till the 28th of May (http://maps.secondlife.com/secondlife/Tropical%20Orchid/239/193/999)

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Details

Outfit: [sys] – CAPITOL – NEW (My Attic)

Head Piece: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Ram Horn Mask” – NEW (Mainstore)

Hair: Vanity Hair – “Guns & Pearls”

Lipstick: Oceane Body Design – “Jade Lips Black Silver Stripes”

Nail Polish: Nailed It! – “Monochrome”

Earrings: Pure Poison – “Brandy Earrings”

Poses: PosESion

Furniture: 22769 – “Flower Chair” – NEW (On9)

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Crazy Connection: Time Traveller

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“I’ve done a lot

God knows I’ve tried

To find the truth

I’ve even lied

But all I know

Is down inside

I’m bleeding

And super heroes

Come to feast

To taste the flesh

Not yet deceased

And all I know

Is still the beast

Is feeding.

And crawling on the planets face

Some insects called the human race

Lost in time

And lost in space

And meaning.”

[Lyrics from the Rocky Horror Show]

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Details

Stylecard Malicia:

Hat: Bliss Couture – “Naja Hat” (Holiday Edition)

Necklace: Lazuri – “Celeste Heirloom Special Edition Necklace”

Skin: Silken Moon – “Silke” – NEW

Lips: Silken Moon – “Simone” – NEW

Eyeshadow: Silken Moon – “Elemental”

Dress: LeeZu – “Mali Dress” Boots: Redgrave – “LQMesh Overknees Boots KIM” Hair:

Exile – “Erase and Rewind” Nails: Silken Moon – “Shinez”

Stylecard Wicca:

Hat: Xen’s Hat – “Danni”

Skin: Silken Moon – “Wicca”

Lips: Silken Moon – “Luna Lips Silverrush Underlay & Overlay”

Eyeshadow: Silken Moon – “Luna Eyes Silverrush”

Pants: Maitreya – “Couture Leggings”

Top: ISON – “Leather Asymmetrical Jacket”

Hair: LeLutka – “Pocahontas”

Nails: Silken Moon – “Shine Pastels”

Pose: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Catch me if you can”

Models: Malicia Python & Wicca Merlin

Photographer: Wicca’s Merlin

Crazy Connection: Minimal Style with NYU

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“The most important thing to remember is that you can wear all the greatest clothes and all the greatest shoes, but you’ve got to have a good spirit on the inside. That’s what’s really going to make you look like you’re ready to rock the world.”

— Alicia Keys

Sometimes you do not need much to express yourself. Simplicity can be the key as well 😉

Not too long ago, I only knew Dahriel by name, before Raven Pennyfeather, owner and designer of RFyre, brought us together 😉 We started to do pics together and more and more we discovered that we have a lot of things together depending on fashion style and even personality. Sometimes it is just scaring how close alike we think and act. For me it is not something that happened a lot, that you know a person for not too long and already feel you would have known this person for your whole life. I am very grateful that Raven played fate and introduced us to each other 😉

The more we worked on pictures, the more we both discovered that we would like to make more out of our ideas and just post together sometimes. We kind wanted to have a project together.  We both are busy bees, Dahriel with his pose store *PosESioN* and me with blogging teaching and modeling but still we wanted to use the little free time to make something together. As we were asked for doing a column for a magazine, the “Crazy Connection” was born.

We both like the non usual and the different view on things, as well we like to have fun and be creative and we both felt kinda connected to each other, so the name was just perfect 😉

Today we wanted to make something special with a minimal style. What could fit better to start with as the wonderful creations of Nyunyu Kimono, owner and designer of NYU – Minimalistic High Fashion Couture. Dahriel picked the “Cropped Jumpsuit” and the “Tux Loafers” from NYU while I decided to go with the “Cotton Dress” with the “Cotton Cuffs” and the “Collared Bow Heels”.

Dahriel had the idea to use one of the cool buildings from Ewan Crumb for the scenery and he made the 2 poses we are using… I am sure that he will soon sell them at *PosESioN* 😉

For the skins we wanted something very pale that goes with the white stylings and Dahriel decided to wear one of his favourite skins from Fruk, while I used one of the new skins by Silken Moon. The blindfold was kinda the perfect finish for the whole look and it felt like a strong symbol for being open-minded and not just to believe what you can see 🙂

We hope you enjoyed our simple and minimalistic journey.

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Wicca’s Style:

Dress: NYU – “Cotton Dress”

Hands: Slink – “Mesh hands Casual”

Earrings: LeeZu – “Amour Serpent”

Hair: EMO-tions – “Cosma”

Blindfold: Illusion – “Silk Blindfold”

Piercing: [iN] – “Moon Chaser”

Cuffs: NYU – “Cotton Cuffs” – NEW

Shoes: NYU – “Collared Bow Heels” – NEW

Makeup: Silken Moon – “SM Eclipse Eyeliner Deep Set” & “SM Eclipse Color Eye Silver”

Lipstick: Silken Moon – “SM Eclipse Canvas Icecream” – NEW

Dahriel’s Style:

Skin: Fruk Bennett – Thanatos series – Blond/yellow –NEW (at Mens Dep)

Hair: *Birth* Stripe Hair – Platinum

Blindfold: Schöen [White] Satin Blindfold with charm – NEW (FFL Gachas)

Piercings: – .HoD. – Bulletproof v3  – Frost, – .HoD. – Compassion Piercing Set Prt. 1 Frost, – .HoD. – Sideswept v3 Piercing – Frost

Earings: – .HoD. – Dragon’s Tail Gauge Frost

Lips: Madrid Solo – Pouting Thomas-Silver NEW (at FFL)

Outfit: NYU – Cropped Jumpsuit, Vanilla

Shoes: NYU –  Tux Loafers – Cream, Male

Both poses: *PosESioN* (Comming Soon)

Skybox: CONTEMPO (by Ewan Crumb)

Photographer: Dahriel

Models: Wicca Merlin & Dahriel

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