The Darkness Inside

I did think a long time about a title for this post and pictures and after a conversation with a dear, sweet friend today, I suddenly had the idea – “The dark beast inside of me sometimes needs some release”

We all know that feeling I guess. You often just try to be polite and kind even if you feel that the inner beast tries to break free. In my life I learned that his beast has two different sides. It is very emotional and hot-headed on one side and sometimes it can be very dark ironic and sarcastic on the other. That is why I learned to control it and keep it locked in chains inside of me.

Certainly I was told to not always swallow all my emotions and everything that I get told, but the same time there is way how you can express this in a polite and adult way.

The most difficult it gets when you feel hurt. Because then this beast inside just rambles and rattles with the chains, developing immense power so that I sometimes really be afraid it would break that chains and just break free.

But exactly those situations taught me the most. When I was able to still keep it inside, it felt as a success to not let it win over me just because of someones judgement, rumors, gossips or words.

Every time I was able to keep it locked away, I felt that I did grow stronger. It was a long process and it took me years and sadly it is still not perfectly locked. But maybe it does not have to be, because everything has an end as well and so does patience, understanding and politeness. Sometimes people really need to know when they overstepped a line or did hurt me even if they will not believe nor change their behaviour – most of the time because they can’t as they have nothing in their life than trying to make others miserable. Then you do not even need to argue with those, because you can’t win. Anyways what you will say to prove them wrong they will turn it around and again use it against you no matter what. So all you can do is let it go, turn around and move on.

If you move on, you will meet new people in the future who will treat you with more respect and in an adult way. Certainly not only those, but all the others will wait for you left and right as well and maybe it is the personal challenge of everyone’s life to pass those who do not matter to meet those who DO matter – if that makes any sense. That does not mean you should not take any critiques, but you can learn to decide between the good and the bad critique. The bad, that only was used to hurt, blame or accuse you without any content OR the one that sometimes hurts too a bit – because you might have seen it different – but that as well contains facts and things that let you learn and grow from.

In the end you are the one, that has to make the decisions in your life – nobody can do or should do that for – as long as you can.

For me it feels better to have a mainly positive life (all of us have bad days or experiences) instead of a hate filled, jealous and not satisfied one. I always ask myself – before I react on things – if it would be worth fighting or arguing about something, or just smile and say thank you, turn around and move on. Both cases did happen and both will happen in the future, but if I argue or discuss I try to stay with the facts, be polite and kind and as well stay adult and not just release the inner beast without thinking. If that happens, I exactly would do that, what I do not want be done to myself – hurt, accuse or become personal and unobjective – and that is not an option to me if I can control it. I have to admit, over the years I became way more calm in such situations and maybe it is the age that lets you think before you take any action 😉

Details

Clothing & Accessoires:

Outfit: Salt & Pepper – “Strapped” (Gacha, Maitreya)

Arms Straps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arms” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Bax – “Regency Boots”

Chains: E.V.E Studio – “{Apocalyptica} Cyber Snake Chains”

Makeup & Hair:

Hair: A&Y Bunker – “Cyro Hair”

Hairbase: Mina – “Myla Hairbase” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup: Zibska – “Ballard Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: Swallow – “Pixie Ears”

Arms: Zibska – “Speckles” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Pose: Poseidon

It’s raining…

2nd U Magazine: https://issuu.com/secondumagazine/docs/2ndu-apr2017

Details
Outfit: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Chiara”
Gloves: [CON] – “Vampire Gloves”
Cape: E.V.E Studio – “Shroud of Chains”
Boots: Utopia@Design – “Akira”
Collar 1: Salt & Pepper – “Siah”
Collar 2: E.V.E Studio – “Shroud of Chains”
Hair: enVOGUE – “Carley”
Mask: La Baguette – “Cat Skull”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin
Basics:
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 2.6”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara V4.0”
Eyes: IKON – “Hope Eyes”
Shape: Selfmade

Running Free!

2nc U Magazine: https://issuu.com/secondumagazine/docs/2ndu-apr2017

Details
Outfit: Salt & Pepper – “Enya”
Left Foot: Meva – “Aster Boots”
Right Foot: DRD – “Post Apocalyptic Prostethic”
Gloves: Astralia – “Ivy Elf”
Wings: Astralia – “Dead Bird Cage”
Mask: Astralia – “Selvaggia”
Hair: KoKoLoReS – “Leighton”
Tattoo: White Widow – “Chocolat”

Pose: Poseidon

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Basics:
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 2.6”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara V4.0”
Eyes: IKON – “Hope Eyes”
Shape: Selfmade

She’s a Maniac

Locking rhythms to the beat of her heart
Changing movement into light
She has danced into the danger zone
When the dancer becomes the dance

It can cut you like a knife, if the gift becomes the fire
On a wire between will and what will be

She’s a maniac, maniac on the floor
And she’s dancing like she’s never danced before
She’s a maniac, maniac on the floor
And she’s dancing like she’s never danced before

[Michael Sembello]

When I saw the “She’s a Maniac” gacha set from Salt & Pepper, I immediately had the pictures of one of my favourite 80s movie in mind… Flashdance!

For those who are my age.. I am sure you remember that little beauty training her ass off, sweating like she would have stood in the rain to get hired by that ballet company :p

Yes, I admit, I had to watch the movie right there again while styling the new gacha set of Salt & Pepper and I highly enjoyed it – even if I saw it like a hundred times before – Thank you Salt!

I wanted to make my own interpretation of that main character of the movie, or how I would have seen the look in my very own vision. Since I am an 80s addicted, I had to have it in black and white with some hints of red on the lips and the fingernails, the hat as well was a must 😉

First I experimented with a ballet room with lots of mirrors and what not, but then I felt that something more simple would do a better job, to have the focus on the actual look and as well the fantastic poses from Poseidon.

So I just set up a white studio with a ballet barre from Cinphul and the “BoomBox” by [Since 1975]. I rarely saw such amazing energetic poses, than the ones of Poseidon. And when I saw he had  ballet and dances moves…

Again I experienced that not only great clothing, a cool set and some good photography make a picture.. no… poses do their huge part to it as well. It is always a combination of everything in my opinion.

And it is a lot more fun to work with energetic poses… if it fits the theme than with just static photo poses. Sometimes energetic, movement poses might not work on the first view, but if you change the angle, you can have super cool pictures, or if you just use a crop 😉

To give the whole look some more personal twist, I added the “Grim” eyepatch from [sys]. I love fancy headpieces and face deco and this little piece of art is just another master piece of [sys]. All those leather bands, chains and little decorations make this eyepatch to so much more than “just” an eyepatch 😉

The “Charming” collar from Happy Undead just matched so nicely in colors, style and as well in the positioning – it nearly looked as it was made for the “She’s a maniac” gacha set!

Maybe you now have the same desire as I had to watch ‘Flashdance’ again and I would like at least to link the video of that song 😉

TUNES

Details

Outfit: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “She’s a Maniac” – NEW @ The Arcade (Gacha Set)

Eyepatch: [sys] – “Grim”

Collar: Happy Undead – “Charming”

Watch: Minimal – “Christmas Watch” – NEW from the Mad Pea Advents Calendar

Hair (with hat): Truth – “Elira”

Ghettoblaster: [Since 1975] – “BoomBox”

Ballet Barre: Cinphul – “Delusory”

Poses: Poseidon

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

It’s a Life, it’s a Style…

TUNES

EXPRESS

It’s a cold and crazy world that’s ragin’ outside
Well baby me and all my girls are bringin’ on the fire
Show a little leg, gotta shimmy your chest
It’s a life, it’s a style, it’s a need, it’s

Burlesque

E-X-P-R-E-S-S
love, sex
Ladies no regrets

Been holding down for quite some time and finally the moment’s right
I love to make the people stare
They know I got that certain savoir-faire

Fasten up
Can you imagine what would happen if I let you close enough to touch?
Step into the fantasy
You’ll never want to leave, baby let’s give it to you…Why?

It’s a passion, and emotion, it’s a fashion, Burlesque
It’ll move, goin’ through you, so do what I do, Burlesque

All ladies come put your grown up, boys throw it up if you want it
Can you feel me, can you feel it? It’s

Burlesque

I tease ’em ’til they’re on the edge
They screamin’ more for more and more they beg
I know it’s me they come to see
My pleasure brings them to their knees

Fasten up
Can you imagine what would happen if I let you close enough to touch?
Step into the fantasy
You’ll never want to leave, baby let’s give it to you…Why?

It’s a passion, and emotion, it’s a fashion, Burlesque
It’ll move, goin’ through you, so do what I do, Burlesque

All ladies, confident, flaunt it
Boys throw it up if you want it
Can you feel me, can you feel it? It’s

Burlesque

It’s a passion, and emotion, it’s a fashion, Burlesque
It will move you goin’ through you, so do what I do, Burlesque

All ladies come put your grown up, boys throw it up if you want it
Can you feel me, can you feel it? It’s Burlesque

[by Christina Aguilera]

Details

Outfit: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Zip It”

Collar: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Joan”

Headpiece: [sys] – “Devotion”

Poses: Corpus

Pearl Curtain: 22769 – Segmented Curtain Silver

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin