Angel of Death

The Angel of Death
Will come from the sky
And claim up your soul
When the time comes to die
When the Angel of Death
Comes down after you
Can you smile and say
That you have been true

[- Hank Williams -]

I had a very rough few days, thinking about friendship and about the fact that you think you know people and then you get badly disappointed to find out… you were completely wrong by thinking you knew someone.

It is not the first time that I had to find out about the true colors of someone, who called me “friend” for a longer time. Every time when that happened, I told myself to not trust people anymore – especially not in a virtual environment, where it is even more easy to trick people about your identity and character.

For what ever reason, I go against my own guts again and again, when I meet new people. I always try to force myself to not trust them right away or maybe do not trust them at all even. But you know how that goes, if you are an emotional and true person, there will be a point after some time, where you feel something for someone and just can’t hold the protective wall, which you built around you, up any longer and again you fall for something you call friendship after a while. In good times, all will go fine and you think you got to know someone, even if he or she lives all across the world on the other half of the globe. And many times it really is like that, but you again and again will face the fact, that there is rotten tomatoes between all the good red ones. Usually they are well hidden and so it takes a while until they are seeing the sunlight. If they do it mostly hurts. In the past even more than today, as with getting older you experience that more often certainly, even if you never will get used to it.

If I think about closely, the situations where it turned out good, feel even stronger. I don’t want miss the friendship to a hand full of people I met in Second Life over the years – some of them I even call family by now and they most likely or better hopefully never would turn 180° on me. What if I would have gone with my “no trust” policy strictly? I never would have met those I truly care for and think about, even if I am not in Second Life. I would have missed those who I can trust and who trust me and all the wonderful times we shared together. So I guess I will be hurt again in the future, as I am not willing to give up on trusting people in general… I do not want to miss out on those, which possibly could become amazing wonderful friends over the time. Some probably would call me stupid for that, I would call it human I guess 😉

Clothing

Collar: [CX] – “Hell’s Harbinger (Black Out+Silver)” (Maitreya)

Top: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Top – Red” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Panty: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Undie – Red” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Skirt: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Skirt – Red” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Garters: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Garters – Black” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Ribbons, Pearls & Roses: ERSCH – “Monie Straps” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // April 2021

Boots: AsteroidBox – “Canopus Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Horns: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Magnus Horns”

Piercing: Badwolf – “Murdured by Love – Chain” – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // April 2021

Pasties: duckie – “Tape Black” (Maitreya)

Cuffs: [ abrasive ] – “Discipline Vinyl Cuffs”

Nails & Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Infernal Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Wings: {PSYCHO:Byts} – “Popobawa Wings 3 Female – Charred” (Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Truth – “Forever”

Face Art:  Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger” (EvoX BoM, Materials enabled)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “EvoX Avalon 3.0”

Ears: LeLUTKA – “/ EARS / Avalon ELF (add) 3.0” (part of the Avalon 3.0 head)

Ear Piercings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “I<3 Techno Piercing Earrings LEL EVOX Elf linked” – NEW @ Kinky // April 2021

Tongue (incl. mouth pose): {PSYCHO:Byts} – “Grayas Tongue”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo ( Dark ) Providence” (BoM) – New @ Shiny Shabby // April 2021

Piercing: [CX] x Ichigo – “Yoni’s Passion” (Maitreya)

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: VARONIS x [CX] – “Post Mortem Backdrop” – NEW @ ACCESS // April 2021

Poses: Foxcity

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Crime Scene!

TUNES

As he came into the window
It was the sound of a crescendo
He came into her apartment
He left the bloodstains on the carpet
She ran underneath the table
He could see she was unable
So she ran into the bedroom
She was struck down, it was her doom

[Michael Jackson]

Do you know that feeling, if you have gotten something you totaly like and then you have no satisfying idea how to showcase it in a styling? You do not want to make a compromise, nor you want to waste it in something it doesn’t belong 100% to? This I an fighting for 2 different things for weeks now and finally one design just made it into something I do like *smiles all over*

That is one reason, why I am wearing my Simone head from LeLutka again instead of one of the new Evolution line (that will be my next post again!) I was a longer process this time – it started way before the new head line from LeLutka was released *giggles*

When I finally had my look together, the huge problem of the background/scenery started again. Lately that is one of my biggest problems as I rarely find good places when I need them, they usually pop up way after I posted something and then I get into the “Damn, would you just have waited” mode. But if I wouldn’t have the pictures already, that moment would not have happened most likely…

I am pondering if I just over-think things sometimes and that becomes to the problem that I do not like anything I am doing, or if it is just an episode in my life that I question everything at the moment – I have no idea.

But this time I was lucky again and found my perfect background with the “Slum Riverside” backdrop from Paparazzi and some deco elements from DRD and floorplan to make it look like I wanted.

My item I was trying for so long to find the right look was the “Crime Scene” face art from Nefekalum Tattoos. It was a gift for the Hallow Manor. It is an amazing alteration of the “Seer” face tattoo, which I was already in love with and showcased before already (HERE).

Yellow usually isn’t a color I am very familiar with as I love black and red or white the most . Sometimes even blue but the warm, bright colors are something I struggle a lot with. Even more I wanted this pictures to be perfect and cool 😉

CerberusXing is one of my favorite places to go, if I am looking for something edgy, extraordinary or outstanding. I love his dark moods and designs a lot and they do inspire me a lot for many of my pictures. His texture work is incredible with so many different fabrics and his leather textures are just stunning.

Today I am wearing a mix and match of many of his designs. I combines the “Hiniata” net dress with the “Pantsu Codex” panties and the amazing detailed “LSD Fishnet” stockings. I will have another post for the stockings soon since I am hiding half of the beauty in my “Monster Boots” from Psycho Barbie.

I wanted to bring the yellow once again and I digged deep in my inventory to find something yellow that would work with the amazing face art. Yellow isn’t automatically yellow, something I tried to tell people for years. Even if it is the same color or color range it still might clash if you pair the wrong shades, but I rarely get heard with that *rolls her eyes*

It is the same when people keep saying red and pink do not go together – damn hell they do if you picture the right shades… anyways, lets focus on yellow and black again *winks*

I know I used the earring/piercing gacha set from Eclipse Art Studio already for my last picture but it is just so amazing I had to use it again for this post. I even loved that kind of piercing in RL and as well had one of those for a long time, where the nose piercing was connected to the ear – maybe thats is why I love it so much, as it reminds me on my 20s. Even if I have no clue anymore how I could sleep with that chain across my cheek… must have worked as I had for quite a while! I always loved long earrings more than short ones or studs only, even if sometimes my long hair totally became a mess when they tangled up with exactly that. The long earrings I used to take out at night and changed them kinda everyday.

The whole style remembers me on my 20s somehow even if I would have not worn that tiny, little nothing of that sexy net dress like that… but hey, that is what we have Second Life for!

Now I will crawl back to my platform and work some more on the new “Nova” head from LeLutka, so that I can show that to you next 😉

Clothing

Outfit: [CX] – “Hinata” (Maitreya)

Top: Apple May Designs – “Tigress Sliced Tops – Black” (Omega Applier)

Panties: [CX] – “Pantsu Codex” (Maitreya)

Stockings: [CX] – “LSD Fishnets – Black” (Maitreya)

Jacket: Vinyl – “Lenka Rain Jacket” (Maitreya)

Shoes: +Psycho Barbie+ – “[Monster Boots] (Maitreya)

Accessories

Earrings & Piercings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Gacha Set Blade/Tag/Heart Broke ( Bloggher Pack )”

Nose Plaster: [CX] – “Vice Crew / Nose Bandage – Black” (Gacha, Common)

Collar: [CX] – “Hells Harbinger” (Maitreya)

Necklace: DRD – “Anarchy Necklace”

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Creatures Claws – Silver” (Maitreeya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Face Art: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Crime Scene” (LeLutka Applier, Hallow Manor Gift 2019)

Hair: no.match – “No.Arrest”

Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Eyelashes: alaskametro<3 “Slay False Eyelashes” (LeLutka Applier)

Ears: ^^Swallow^^ – “Pixie Ears – Protruding”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Backdrop: Paparazzi – “Slum Riverside – BACKDROP – classic”

Crates 1: DRD – “Beer Stand – Empty Crates” (part of the Beer Stand Collection)

Crates 2: floorplan. – “Old Crate Stack”

Table & Deco: DRD – “PA – Sewer Shelter – Table” (part of the PA – Sewer Shelter)

Deco 1: DRD GG – “Post Apoc Radio/Receiver – Yellow” (Group Gift January 2017)

Deco 2: DRD GG “Post Apoc Transceiver – Yellow” (Group Gift January 2017)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin