Sometimes it is worth to think before you speak…

I thought a long time, if I can do a post with pictures like that without getting a shit storm started… but the idea I had for that post or better, what brought me to do pictures like that had a very special reason. I thought for along time to talk about bullying or psychological violence. These kinds of hurts may not leave a mark on someone that can be seen, but that doesn’t mean it would not hurt exactly like those – sometimes even more than if you would get a punch in your side. Physical wounds usually heal after a while and then you won’t see them anymore, psychological ones sometimes never fully heal and shadow us sometimes till the end.

My Grandpa once told me something when I was younger. I was sitting beside him when I was taunted at school about not being/looking like the majority of the class. While he was putting an arm around me and tried to solace me, he talked to me. Back then I didn’t understood what he meant, but later when I was a grown up (if I am fully grown up yet? I have no idea…), I slowly started to realize what he meant. He said “You are the one that chooses, who can hurt you.  You are the one to allow people to hurt you. So always think about it seriously, if it is worth to allow someone to hurt you!” First when I heard that from him, I thought he just is old and has no clue what he is talking about. I forgot about that for quite a while until I was older.

 

I always felt that I am not a great fit to my class mates. I didn’t behave like them, I didn’t look like them and I did not even want to. Most of my class mates are sons and daughters from lawyers, doctors, judges or something in that way. I was a teachers daughter, not dumb, nor stupid. My father died of cancer when I was 7 and my Mom was alone with me and my 3 years younger brother. Thank to the state, my Mom got the state pension from my father as teachers in Germany are employed by the state. We were really lucky as my Mom did know how to work with the money she had. We never missed anything – we went on holidays in summer and winter, we got birthday and Christmas presents and I never heard my Mom saying no if my brother or me wanted some ice cream while we were shopping (only if we already had some or we just had lunch or dinner). I only felt it, when branded clothing became important for some people from my class. For example I had jeans – cool jeans – but they were no Diesel or Lewis jeans. I never cared about that, I am more a simple person. If I like something, I won’t look what brand it is from or look if it would be expensive enough to buy it. Not to mention that I was a Punk back then anyways so jeans had to be modified and ripped anyways before I wanted to wear them. But that exactly seemed to be the issue. First I thought it must be the clothing that did separate me from many of my class mates and why they started to laugh at me – as a child you cannot just walk away and do you own thing… you want to be liked and you want some friends. So I went home and asked my Mom, if I could have some Diesel jeans. Her response first was: “Why, what is wrong with yours?” and when I explained it to her she said: “Sure you can have a pair for your birthday or Christmas, or you can buy them from your pocket money if you have enough, because they are expensive” Certainly I first thought that would be unfair until I was older and realized that it wasn’t just my clothing or what kind of game consoles I had.

I never was a stick-figure Barbie doll like all my class mates – I was the only one that had curves pretty soon, a nice present from the women on my mother side family tree. I did a lot of sports, because I loved it and not because I wanted to loose weight, or because someone told me to do so. I started with Gymnastics when I was 4 (until I was 22), I enjoyed riding from when I was 6 and later on I tried Volleyball and Swimming, too. So I basically was busy the whole week, everyday with some kind of sports and on the weekends there were contests for those. But that did not count either, it just did count that I wasn’t a size zero and that again was enough for some kids to pick on me and making fun out of me. I have to tell you… if that happens, it hurts like mad and that will not heal for quite a while. Especially if you later on meet guys that ask you for a date and then tell you you would be so sweet and nice, but with like 5 to 10 kilos you would be even more nice. All this bulling and hateful hurt doesn’t help teens to build up any kind of self esteem, which is so important to resist these same idiots who try to hurt you.

But that is not what I was trying to talk about, I don’t want your pity, because my life changed over the years and I understood what my Grandpa was trying to tell me. I do have true friends now and I enjoy my life as it is now. But sometimes I really get mad when I see people, groups or even websites, that bash certain people or groups, They think it is fun and never even think about how bad they can hurt other peoples feelings. They think they are right to judge or dictate others. I often ask myself what it would give them to do that… I do not have a real answer besides that their own life must be so miserable that they need to destroy others lifes for their own happiness. If that would not hurt others so bad, I would even feel pity with them and their misery.

How desperate you have to be, if you try to find something to hurt another person with it?!?

Who do you think you are to accuse people with whatever you think you found out that would be worth spreading the word about?!?

What rights you have to destroy other peoples lifes or dreams with a “truth” you just built out of nothing?!?

Why you think you are the one to judge about others peoples looks – because you are so much better?!?

Why you think you are allowed to take a rise out of somebody?!?

NO ONE HAS THE RIGHT TO DO THAT TO ANOTHER PERSON!!!

I know I won’t change the fact, that it happens everyday, everywhere anyways if in Real Life or in Second Life. But if I can just get one person to think about, before they open their mouth about someone or type (even worse) anonymous comments on websites about someone –  I am happy. I am not saying that we can not gossip or talk with our true friends about others and have our own opinions, but there is a difference if you try to hurt someone actively or if you just talk to someone in private and share an opinion. We do not get along with all and everybody, but n the end it should be a “live and let live” type of spirit. Both worlds are big enough for all of us and there is no need to destroy or eliminate someone. PLUS… never forget what you do to others… can be done to you as well if the time comes!

Maybe you now understand my drastic pictures for todays post. They only were meant to make inner pain visible and catch the mood of this post.

So my wish for 2020  – for both worlds – would be:

Sometimes just think before you open your mouth about something or someone. Think about if you would hurt someone irrecoverably and if you only get the glimpse of a “YES”, just keep your mouth shut or delete your comment where ever it was supposed to go!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!!!

Clothing

Corset: [CX] – “Immoral Support – Black” (Maitreya)

Panties: [CX] – “Malum Undies (Black)” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Liliana Stripe Boots – Boutique” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Septum: -[TWC]- – “Gear Septum Silver -CL Blood-“

Collar: [CX] – “Heavy Duty Collar – Rusty Filth (Un-Rigged)”

Sleeves: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme – Black” (Maitreya)

Cuffs: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Bondage Deluxe Set” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: .shi – “Gavri’ela /Unisex”

Wounds & Butterfly Aids: -[TWC]- – “Bad Dog -bruises- ” (Omega Applier)

Face: La Malvada Mujer – “Insommnia” (Omega Applier)

Makeup: La Malvada Mujer – “She Said Eyeshadow” (Omega Applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “London” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Ears: [CX] – “Ostium Impaler Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: -[TWC]- – “Bad Dog” (Omega Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Backdrop: #Cranked# – “Backdrop Black Padded Cell”

Rat: JIAN – “Rascal Rats 2. Black Companion” (Gacha, Common)

Pose Tool: AnyPose – “BVH Pose Stand”

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Family sometimes grows unexpected…

… and if that happens like that, it is the best that can happen *smiles*

Today I had company for my shoot from a person I wanted to do a picture together in forever… my cute, evil, goth, kawaii daughter Shy. I never had a daughter in Second Life before the more I was surprised as some when Shy was in my IMs calling me “Mamasan” – I had to smile all over.

I know Shy for quite some time and I always adored her style and the way how she does her pictures. It always was a mixture of cute and creepy or cute and goth and always with a touch of kawaii. I never saw a “goth-kawaii” style in such a perfection before. She used to blog for Wicca’s Originals in the past and had to stop some when. We kinda lost us on our path through Second Life until I met her again on a Vernisage where her “Daddy”- Sir Skye Nefekalum –  had one of his art pieces – I was invited as well and when I saw her again it felt like we never stopped talking. I could not resist to ask her if she would consider to come back to our blogger team as I love her artwork so much. When she said she would think about since her Second Life as well changed again a lot, I already was happy about that. You can imagine, how it felt when she said she would be ready to come back and use our creations for her incredible awesome pictures again!

The more it did honor me and made me happy when she called me Mamasan. So she became my first Second Life daughter EVER 🙂 She is crazy, cute and sometimes even creepy always in the right balance and I hope this picture wasn’t the last we did together!

I did my credits as usual blow the post and if you want to know more about my cute, goth-kawaii daughters look, you either can poke her inworld or via Flickr mail 😉

Thank you Shy for an amazing shot and a fun time!

Clothing

Jacket: [CX] – “Wild Hazard Jacket – A” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Top: [CX] – “Wild Hazard Top – Black” (Maitreya, Gacha, Comon)

Dress: [CX] – “Hinata – Black” (Maitreya)

Panties: [CX] – “Pantsu Codex” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Kate Thigh High Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Piercing 1: *PKC* – “Collar Lip Piercing” (LeLutka, Simone)

Piercing 2: [CX] – “Monstrum Catena – Silver”

Collar: #187# – “Leashed Collar”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: adoness – “Beanie”

Makeup: La Malvada Mujer – “She Said Eyeshadow” (Omega applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “Impressionist” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: The Bearded Guy – “Sexy – Aerodynamic” (Thank you Shy for putting it out for our shoot!)

Pose: #Mewsery – “Babygirls [Bento] Pose” (Thank you Shy for putting it out for our shoot!)

Tool to alter the pose lightly: AnyPose – “BVH Pose Stand”

Models

Shy Nefekalum & Wicca Merlin

Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Ropes not Roses!

Today I am hurrying with a wonderful release of A&Y – the “Zoe” dress – for the Fetish Fair and the awesome “Insanity Eye Patch” from .:E.A.Studio:. for the Tres Chic event. The Fetish Fair ends today and Tres Chic should be done after the weekend as well so it would be the last chance to get those 2 incredible releases on the events before they return to the main stores.

The “Zoe” dress as you can see above, has a wonderful, sexy and deep neckline in the back, while it is very high closed in the front as you will se on the pictures below. The fabric shows excellent skills if it comes to latex. Latex is probably one of the most difficult fabric in Second Life to make if you want to satisfy those who use materials and those who don’t. Either you have white “spots” where the reflections are if you want the non materials user to be able to see the “shine” or you have the fabric only on the materials which results to the fact that, that those who do not have materials enabled won’t see much up to nothing that looks like latex. Anabel Crystal, owner and creator of A&Y found the perfect way to showcase latex perfectly to everyone – it amazes me every time again when I wear it.

The second design I would like to drag your focus on is the super cool “Insanity” eye patch from Eclipse Art Studio. A leather, heart shaped eye patch with nails and a plaster in the middle. You get the option of having either the left or the right eye covered and with the huge HUD you can customize the whole patch including some super interesting textures for the plaster in the middle.

I already talked about the mega amazing “Infernal Claw Ring Set”, which is the release for the Fetish Fair that you still can enjoy today before it closing its doors. This time I chose a red leather version and a different polish for the caws and rings to show you another possibility of the amazing HUD options.

I wanted to do this post way earlier but the last week of school craziness and then all the Christmas horror delayed kinda everything… it wasn’t planned like that and I hope I can catch up with all the posts I have planned over the Holidays 😉

Clothing

Dress: [A&Y] – “Zoe Dress” (Maitreya) – NEW @Fetish Fair 3rd Edition // December 2019

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Bette Stockings” (Maitreya Applier)

Shoes: UTOPIA@Design – “Dixie” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Eyepatch: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Insanoty Patch Eye (L)” – NEW @ Tres Chic // December 2019

Septum: -[TWC]- – “Thirst Septum – Silver”

Piercing: *PKC* – “Collar Lip Piercing” (LeLutka, Simone)

Collar: [A&Y] – “Lorna Leather Collar – Dark Red – 04” (Gacha, Common)

Nails & Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Infernal Claw Ring Set” (Maitreya, Bento) – NEW @Fetish Fair 3rd Edition // December 2019

Leg Straps: Gemini – “Sis Leg Bangles” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: .shi – “Ya-Resh”

Lipstick: .{PsychoByts}. – “Hecate Lipstick” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Gunvor”

Tattoo: TAOX – “Back Bio Spine” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

[Kres] – “Kinky Neon – 9” (Gacha, Common)

[Arch] Deco – “Box of Chains v1.0”

Mushilu – “0005bg Whip and Whispers Shop”

22769 ~ [bauwerk] – “Leather Whip”

Fapple – “BDSM Tool Box”

NOMAD – “Industrial Neon Lamp // Red”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

NEW Group Gift @ Wicca’s Originals

Naughty or Nice?

Wicca’s Originals knows the answer to this question, and has put together this incredibly naughty cupless bodice and panty set. Studs outline the straps and borders of the form-fitting outfit, begging for a rough hand during the ‘unwrapping session’. Buckles tight around the back hold the bodice together, and a single teasing buckle in front all suggestively ask to be unpackaged. And what is a present without a bow? This group gift completes the look with bows tied to bare nipples, and on the front and back of the panty set, commanding attention like the best kinds of gifts should.

In the spirit of the season, we are offering our gift in more sizes! Not only do we have our gift for Maitreya Lara and Slink Hourglass, we have it for Slink Physique and Belleza Freya too!

LM: Wicca’s Originals

 

Me, myself and I

Recently I was asked, why you never do casual anymore? Are you only going to do scary and creepy pictures now? Are you going to give up your versatileness?

The simple answer is… NO!

But what I gave up is to let others dictate me what I am doing or how I am showcasing things on my blog *winks*

I am in Second Life nearly 13 years now and I tried a lot of things on my blog. When I started I thought I have to have as many posts a day as I can pump out on one day and that 7 days a week. I had times where I ran though 5 to 7 “posts” a day – Posts in terms of I do a quick snap shot and post a style card. That didn’t satisfy me after some time and I started to write something to every picture. First the facts about the clothing, like what kind of HUDs, how many colors or what special features they had. Later even a little bit of a review about what I liked most of the items and designs I was given to blog. Again I felt at some point that that wasn’t the only thing what I liked to do and I dared to write a little bit about things in SL that bothered me, or about certain topics to explain them better as I had a feeling they were misunderstood and underestimated a lot. That I still like to do and sometimes my blog even was a place to vent for me and write things just off my soul to get rid of them. In my view a blog has to be more than just a style card. If I just would like to have style cards nowadays, I would just blog on Flickr I guess. But since I usually need or want more than one picture to showcase my styling, to as well highlight the details, I decided to keep my blog and continue to write what comes to my mind or sometimes even just post lyrics and tunes if I feel like it or have nothing to say.

 

Today I really felt kinda casual, or better I felt like doing my way of casual styling. When I showed my look to a friend and said I felt casual, she laughed her ass of and said: “Yeah, maybe for you that would be casual… could you ever imagine to go out like that?” My answer was: “Oh yeah… I did that in my 20s”. she stopped talking and asked if I would be serious… yes, I am serious. I was a little rebel in my RL as well – probably I am still one, but my temper might be more adult now as it used to be *snickers*

So lets take a look at the style… I wanted to use the “Fianna” face tattoo from Nefekalum Tattoos, parts of the “Voodoo Dolls Backpack and Mouthdoll” gacha set and the brand new “Infernal Claws” from .:E.A.Studio:. , the “Pepper Ankle Boots” from [Gos] and the “Heavy Duty Collar” made by CerberusXing. So I put that all on and looked at it thinking how the hell I could make this work as a look that I would call casual…

Maybe lets take a closer look at the “basic” parts I just had put on and then go from there. The “Pepper Ankle Boots” from [Gos] are a perfect pair of shoes for many kind of genres you want to style for. You can wear them to jeans, skirts, dresses or even to lingerie. With the edgy tip of the shoes and the huge, heavy heel it is very versatile as it combines the smart with the elegant for me. With the possibility to choose from many leather colors as well as from metal, shiny colors it allowed a huge range of use.

The “Voodoo Doll Backpack” is part of a gacha from .:E.A.Studio:. it is one of the rares and comes with a huge HUD to customize it for different colors and outfits. It is designed to wear it over one shoulder with a little buckled strap. The “Infernal Claws ” you will find at the 3rd Edition of the Fetish Fair at the booth of .:E.A.Studio:. until the 27th of December. You can choose if you want to wear only the rings or the nails or the whole set of it. With the HUD you have the possibility to color the metals and leather, the claw itself on the middle finger, the rings and the you even can color and hide all the nails separate for each finger. An amazing set and a must have for every Gothic wardrobe!

The “Heavy Duty Collar” from CerberusXing lives up to its name. It is a heavy iron collar, which lays around your neck with an attached leash in the front. It really has a martial look but I do love the feeling when a heavy cold metal collar gets locked around my neck *grins wickedly*. The face tattoo, even better the Face art comes from Skye Nefekalum for his brand Nefekalum Tattoos. It is very special and for me it did support the martial look of the collar perfectly as it as well is very harsh and dark.

To me that makes a perfect “Wicca Casual” and even if I am aware of, that this might not be a casual for everyone… this is my blog, my Second Life,  my personal fun and creativity and the spot where I can be 100% me, myself and I *winks*

Clothing

Dress: Bombshell – “Fanatine” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fetish Fair 3rd Edition // December 2019

Sleeves: [NC] – “AmazonQ – Arm Spikes” (Maitreya, Gacha, Ultrarare)

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Ripped Nylons V1” (Maitreya Applier)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Pepper Ankle Boots” (Maitreya) – NEW @ FaMESHed //December 2019

Accessories

Backpack: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Voodoo Dolls Backpack and Mouthdoll” (Gacha) – NEW @ Kinky Event // November 2019

Nails & Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Infernal Claw Ring Set” (Maitreya, Bento) – NEW @ Fetish Fair 3rd Edition // December 2019

Earrings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Tenebra Earrings”

Collar:[CX] – “Heavy Duty Collar – Rusty Filth (Un-Rigged)”

Glasses: SU!– “Poison Sunglasses”

Piercing: [CX] – “Mostrum Catena – Silver”

Bracelet (left): [CX] – “Ring Bracelet (L)”

Bracelet (right): amias – “JAASNA black right”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: .Shi – “Gavri’ela”

Faceart: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Fianna” (Omega Applier, Materials Enabled)

Lipstick: .{Psycho:Byts}. – “Hecate Lipstick” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Vodoo”

Horns: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Horns Dracarys”

Tattoo: -Endless Pain Tattoos- – “Clary” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

Backdrop: Paparazzi – “BACKDROP – Grime Block Balcony”

Cases: DRD – “San Mora – Survival Storage – Durable A & B”

Trash: DRD – “San Mora – City Trash – Bins”

Cat 1: JIAN – “Curious Kitties :: Wanderer Gry Tabby” (Gacha, Common)

Cat 2: JIAN – “Curious Kitties :: Wanderer Calico” (Gacha, Common)

Rat: JIAN – “Rascal Rats 2. Black Companion” (Gacha, Common)

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Wicca’s Originals @ Fetish Fair III Editon 2019

Wicca’s Originals @ Fetish Fair 3rd Edition 2019 //  December 13th – 27th

This is the season to be sexy! And what better way to do that than these thigh high boots we call Canace. These leather boots are adorned with straps and metal accent squares as well as metal studs at the ankles and lower calves. They come with a HUD that offers you 10 leather colors and 6 metal colors. Candace is designed to fit Maitreya, Freya, and Hourglass.

LM: Fetish Fair 3rd Editon 2019

100% Witch

TUNES

Yes, I am a witch
And I have conjured you
For my bidding
And all my charms and all my accidents
Are all just instruments
To lock you up
Yes, I am a carnival
A house of mirrors
And I will con you
And all my tricks and all my magic
Will keep you dizzy
With desire
How could I know my spell was broke?
I am nothing like the girl you thought I was without your love
How could I haunt you, keep you close
When you can see my seams, the fraying of my dress?
I am defenseless
[The Bird and the Bee]

Official Vendor poster for the “Dark Percentage” tattoo by Nefekalum Tattoos // Available at The Darkness event // December 2019 // Photography: Skye Nefekalum

Clothing

Bra: Moon Elixir – “Houdini – Bra” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)
Corset: Pixicat – “Temptation Corset – Dark (XS)”
Pants: [Gos] – “Bella Leather Shorts” (Maitreya)
Legs/Socks: Insomnia Angel – “Lizzie” (Maitreya)
Shoes: {Livalle} – “Payne”

Accessories

Glasses: -SU!- – “Hell Freak Sunglasses” (Gacha, Rare)
Lip Piercing: [CX] – “Bitten 2017 Update (Silver+Catya)”
Nose Piercing: [CX] – “Monstrum Catena”
Collar: [CX] – “XenoCircuit – Night” (Maitreya)
Upper Arm Cuffs: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Bondage Deluxe” (Maitreya)
Lower Arms: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme” (Maitreya)
Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Creature Claws – Silver” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: adoness – “Vonks”
Makeup: Look At Me – “Submissive Eyeshadows” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”
Ears: [CX] – “Ostium Impaler Ears”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Tattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Dark Percentage” (Omega Applier) – NEW @ The Darkness // December 2019

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

Backdrop: anxiety – “rapture scenebox”

Bed: Violetility – Tantra Bed

Frames: GizzA – “Halloween Decor / Frame Set”

Vanity Set: Quasi – “Makeup Addict”

Banner 1: Indolent – “Wall Hanging: Supernatural”

Banner 2: BackBone – “Office Life – Frame”

Standing Candle: 22769 – “Skull Candle” (Gacha, Common)

Table Cadle: *HEXtraordinary* – “Melting Spell Candle – Small”

Ball Candle: [QE Home] – “Geo Candleholder -Black Magic-“

Skull Candle: Ariskea[Muertos] – “Skull Candle & Flower [Dark]”

Floor Deco: 22769 – “Witchcraft Drape With Runes”

Cat: SEmotion Libellune –  “Sphynx Cat #10 UNCOMMON” (Gacha, Common)

Model & Photographer