Sometimes you just do not know where to go or what to do, you feel torn inside and you only see darkness. Sometimes your inner only feels like a big fight and you have no clue how to escape.
Sometimes it it hard to find words to describe what you wanna say. And I tried to find words for this post and they just did not wanna flow. A close friend of mine, who is way better with words and who knows me very well wrote something for me after i showed her the pics and gave her a lot of single words and emotions and I would like to share it as it really expresses, what I only could say with pictures. Thank you Mal for finding the right words for me, for knowing me and understanding me even without any words sometimes.
Torn
I am alive – though I am dead
I am over you – though you bury me
I am me – though I am no one
I survive – though I die each day
I am strong – though I feel I will break any minute
I am you – though I don’t know who you are
I am here – though I don’t know where
I am understood – though you don’t know what I am talking about
I wanna enjoy – though I don’t know fun anymore
I miss you – though I never know who you were
I am lonely – though there are crowds around me
I am dead – though I still move
I submit – though you are not worth it
I am all – though I cant cope
I will die – though I wanna live
I am weak – though I can do all I want
I am me – though I am lost
I am there – though I don’t know where
I am a riddle – though it would be so easy
I wanna think – though I get stuck
I am happy – though I should not be
I am – though I am not
Details
Outfit: Graves – “G 179 Crossfire”
Hair: DeLa – “Marley” (mesh)
Chains: [Ca.Co] – “Chained Down”
Tattoo: [iN] – “Eternity Awaits”
Blindfold: N1CO – “Devotion Blindfolds”
Makeup: Shakeup – “Bleeding Mascara”
Lipstick: Silken Moon -“Wicca Lips Cardinal”
Skin: Silken Moon – “Wicca”
Boots: Slink – “Tall Leather Thigh Boots” (mesh)
Poses & Prop: Glitterati – “Mausoleum”
Poem: Malicia Python
Set building: Sazzy Nirpaw
Concept, Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin