Illusion – Sometimes you wish…

Illusion

I know it’s hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt, I don’t want you to change
Because everyone has hopes, you’re human after all
The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand. Please, don’t cry now

Being like you are
Well this is something else, who would comprehend?
But some that do, lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them
That’s not what I believe, and it doesn’t matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last, but I’m still not sure
But what I do know, is to us the world is different
As we are to the world but I guess you would know that

Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, oh please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to change
For all the hurt that you feel
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you
[VNV Nation]

VIDEO

This video, inspired me for today’s post. In the moment when I saw the amazing “Uh Oh Makeup” from Slackgirl.
We all know that – sometimes we desire to be something or someone else. Those moments when all those self-doubts devour you from the inside and you just wish to escape your own body or the situation that you are in. But would that really be worth it? It might seem easier on the first view but would you not miss your past, all the things that made you to what you are now? Would this new desire not make it even worse? Would this moment not come again some when – a new desire to again be someone or something else?
I do think those moments let us grow. Each time they happen and we work them through we gain experiences and as well come out of them even stronger.
Secondlife to me was such an escape in the past. When my RL turned upside down, Wicca was my refuge. I know how crazy that must sound, but others find their hide out in alcohol and drugs so for that amount of time where it was really bad, I am happy I had Wicca instead. I always was aware of, that it was a running from reality and I never believed SL could be any kind of reality than a virtual one. So I was well aware of what I did and did not lose myself in a virtual environment completely.
I know we all say, that we know Secondlife is a game and that we always can press the red “X” on the right upper corner. But if you are in SL for 10 years, your avatar and the people around you as well as the things you do become a part of you. Certainly I would not go around and tell my RL friends I am a model in SL and that would count anything towards my RL… if that makes sense. But I can tell about a game that I play and that I use it as my free time fun like others use other things – for example surfing on the internet, doing YouTube videos, doing handicrafts or what ever they enjoy in their free time, besides work and socializing in real life.
Nowadays I am not going to SL to escape anymore. My online times are way shorter as they used to be back then and sometimes I do not log in for days when I have RL appointments or wanna meet friends. The purpose of login in changed, but I still do have fun with Secondlife – just different.
I still enjoy to do things that I could not do in real life and as well I do enjoy designing a lot. To me designing is kinda the same as for others doing handicrafts maybe. Producing something and see how something grows under your fingers until you have a final product. The same applies to blogging and making pictures 😉
Secondlife can be an addiction, yes as you can easily lose yourself in it, but if you are aware of that, it can be a nice hideout with lots of fun and meeting amazing people – some even might become part of your real life out there 🙂
For me Secondlife never could replace my real – I do love my life now, but it is a nice way to live parts of your dreams and illusions 😉
Details
Clothing & Accessories:
Outfit: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita – Onepiece” (Gacha, for the Galatea Doll Lolita Body)
Necklace: shanghai – “Xana”
Headpiece: [sys] – “Hecate”
Hair & Makeup:
Face Art: Slackgirl – “Uh Oh Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo:
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”
Skin: YS&YS – “Immortal Skin” (LeLutka Applier)
Body: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita Body” (Gacha, Rare)
Props & Poses:
Fruct0se & Poseidon
Model & Photographer:

Beware! – You never know who’s around…

Today I tried to do a different picture, but if you caught up in a theme, nothing else just wants to work… So we are back to the post apocalyptic style and probably have even one more over the next days. On 27th Thereafter closes and hopefully my mind can wrap around something else then at least for a while 😉

Today I built a little set on my own as I wanted to showcase some more of the amazing landscaping items, accessories, clothing and poses, that were made for the Thereafter event.

Today I would like to start with the poses. The whole set – including the pistols – was made as an exclusive release for Thereafter by Gingerfish Poses. The set is called “One Shot” set and to me they are perfectly matching the theme. I really do love the movement and action they have to it, a very strong attitude. You can use them for so many different angles and I am sure they would work without pistols and for a nother theme as well. All the poses are so well made I did not have to adjust my shape nor anything else and could use them right as they came. That is kinda rare, as I am usually to tall for most of the poses and have to adjust my normal shape a lot to make it fit the poses. Certainly the whole set is bento compatible if you already own bento hands. In my case it was the Maitreya hands and they worked perfectly with the poses.

The cool dress, which I totally fell in love with when I saw it the first time was designed by !go!. The “Zulu” dress comes in many different colors and with all the amazing details it is a little art piece itself. It is very well rigged as well, even with the poses, that really have some action to it did not break at all. Theis dress is definitely a must have if you like post apocapytic styles 🙂

On all four pictures, I mainly used items for my set, which are made exclusively for the Thereafter event and I will credit them all in the end so I do not confuse the hell out of you and make you going back and forth between the pictures.

With a closer look to my face you will see that wonderful forehead ornament. I used it in black but Cureless [+] has many more colors included in the HUD of the “Leonius Marking”. Combine with the “Apocalypse Paint” is an amazing makeup applier from Veechi. You have 4 different options of that amazing face-art on the applier HUD.

So many exclusives, that fell together to one style.. it is just awesome. The cool gas mask as well you can find on the Thereafter event from Cubic Cherry. It as well comes with a texture HUD and resizer so you can make it fit either to your system head or various mesh heads as well.

What as well jumped to my eyes was the amazing “Myla” hair from Mina. I anyways love shaved hairstyles but that one even comes with 2 versions of hairbases and the one with the cut lines i loved the most (On the fist picture you can see it very clear).

Even the earring, which sadly is covered by the shadow in the picture above is for sale at the event as a full set. The “Noxx” set contains earrings and a collar plus a neat HUD that lets you color the whole set in various gold and silver combinations.

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Dress: !go! – “Zule Dress” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Thereafter

Shoes: Fame Femme – “Liana Boots” (Maitreya)

Mask: Cubic Cherry – “”After” – NEW @ Thereafter

Face Deco: Cureless[+] – “Leonius Marking” – NEW @ Thereafter

Stockings: Avi Candy – “Garter Socks – Neutral Collection” (Maitreya Applier)

Makeup & Hair:

Hair: Mina – “Myla” – NEW @ Thereafter

Makeup: Veechi – “Apocalypse Paint” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoos:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Shape: Selfmade

Tattoo: Identity. Body Shop – “Bitter Sorrow” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Poses: Gingerfish Poses – “One Shot” – NEW @ Thereafter

Fence: 7madRavens – ” Dystopia Rubble Fence” – NEW @ Thereafter

Buckets: *katat0nik* – “Bucket Helmets” (Gacha) – NEW @ Thereafter

Concrete Walls: 7madRavens – “Dystopia Rubble Wall 1 & 2” – NEW @ Thereafter

Warning Sign, Waterbarrels & Burning Trash: floorplan – “Survival Drinking Water, Safety Notice & Fire in a Barrel” – NEW @ Thereafter

Shelves: Second Spaces – “Supply Shelves” – NEW @ Thereafter

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

 

“Happy Valentines!” – Every Rose has a Thorn

Sometimes, strange moods can be very productive…

And exactly that I had today when I started to work on the styling for this post. It was a mixture of depression, sadness, the will to do something and the red all over because of Valentine :p .

I started with the “Oru” dress from [sys]. With it’s very cool and unusual shape, it made a great base for my look today, especially because it comes in such a bright and strong red 😉 .

When I tried on the “Luzy” hair from EMO-tions with the “Oru” dress, it was clear this will become kinda crazy :p

Valentine’s Day is something we do not celebrate in Germany as much as the US or other countries do. When I googled it, it said the first Valentines Party was round about 1950 in Germany, even if the traditional custom of that special day goes way back in history. So the biggest fortune of Valentine’s Day in Germany probably goes to the florists 😉

Anyways, I personally never was too much into Valentines’s Day as I do not believe, that only one day per year can tell how much i do love a person. To me it is more the steady and little things, than a bunch of flowers on one day.

But with all the Valentine advertisements and what not, you have a hard way around that and all the red at least inspired me for this post and the pictures.

The cool set I built with the “Tree of Nightmares” and “Koi Glitter Puffs” from E.V.E Studio. The red version of the tree really kicked my mind to go even more crazy with the whole look and so I decided to add some heavy makeup. Usually I am for either heavy eye makeup OR a ‘loud’ lipstick but today… It was calling for both 😉 .

The more I was playing with my style and the set, the more the thought of the phrase “every rose has a thorn” settled down inside myself and it became a working title for this post somehow. Like every wonderful moment you have, always can be destroyed by one little ugly ‘thorn’ that hides on that beautiful rose. If you do not think about it, it all of a sudden hurts you. That reminded me of some recent things that happened and so the phrase became more and more something I kept saying to myself, to remind me about the beauty of the rose and not think too much about the thorns.

The leggings from Cureless [+] even more dragged into the darker side and together with the “Nemesia” ankle boots from Glamistry, the whole look got some kind of a rocker chick touch to me.

Every year I discover my own little Valentine thoughts and it always is a lot of fun to see how they turn out if I try to make pictures or posts during that time of the year. But in the end I always enjoy them and I always discover new visions and thoughts of myself about Valentine’s Day looks and red challenges 😉

Happy Valentines!

Details

Outfit: [sys] – “Oru”

Jacket: Asteria – “Jane”

Leggings: Cureless [+] – “Baroque Corset Stockings”

Hair: EMO-tions – “Luzy”

Necklace: Empyrean Forge – “Levity Necklace”

Shoes: Glamistry – “Nemesia Ankle Boots”

Basics:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 2.2”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V3.5”

Poses: ALIUD

Set: E.V.E Studio – “Tree of Nightmares” & “Koi Glitter Puffs”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin