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“My Heart has been always Yours”

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Image made for Eclipse Magazine // June 2020 https://issuu.com/eclipsemagazinesl/docs/eclipse_magazine_june_2020?issuu_product=document_page&issuu_context=action&issuu_cta=like_publication

Recently I had a talk with Trouble, my little brother in SL (that grew over many years) and we came across an idea we had for a while, but it never seemed to be the right time. Now it was the right time and we talked about my sweet little corner in the Eclipse Magazine, where I could contribute something with all my weird and crazy ideas. I always missed a more roleplay based fashion and places section. Not the typical fashion spread that we all got tired of seeing in all the magazines, more something with fantasy but still themed and with according places to go. More than that I am allowed to have a little paragraph about the theme to characterize and explain certain genres a little bit. I do not know how I can describe it properly, but my little “Across the Grid” section in the Eclipse Magazine was born *winks* Thank you Trouble for giving me a corner to express all my funky ideas and dreams!

I love steampunk in RL and SL and so it was an easy choice what my initial theme would be – Steampunk!

One of the pictures that I did for the magazine, is the one above (the other one I will showcase in a separate blog post). The style was based on a look I did for the Second Life CyberCon show we did with Madd Modelz, I just did pimp it a little bit more to go towards steampunk even more. For the show Tour Blanche – another close friend of mine – wrote a wonderful story to my look, which I have to put down here as well so that it wasn’t just for the show and I can read it over and over again myself too because I love it so much. Thank you so much Tour for that incredible, wonderful and amazing story.

There once was a man. He was brilliant, but his brilliance made him an outcast, exiled for dabbling in upsetting the natural order, attempting to create life itself. It was not so many years later that he had his first true breakthrough, and /she/ was awakened. A construct from head to toe, she was built with the purpose of being his assistant. Her metallic body was capable of working without tiring, and her capacity to learn made her adept at not only aiding in his work, but also conversing.

While the strangeness of her voice and slightly inhuman mannerisms might repel some, hers was the only companionship he had. She would be the reason he gave up pursuing further research. He viewed her as his magnun opus, and continued to refine her as needed as the years went on, rather than creating new constructs. While she was capable of thought, she was bereft of true feeling. Though she went through the learned motions to embrace him when he needed it, and spoke affectionate words, she did not truly know what they meant.

Over the decades, her parts were improved or sometimes replaced with mismatched pieces, but he aged, growing old, tired, and eventually infirm. On his deathbed, he pledged his love to her, “My heart has always been yours.” When he perished, she surgically extracted his heart, and using all he had taught her, connected it to herself. When this was done, his devotion to her strangely resonated within her chest. It struck her core like a hammer, and for the first time, part of her metal shell cracked and broke loose. A truth revealed: She had not been a full construct all along. She did not know whose body went into her creation, but she did know that she now missed him for the first time in her life, and yearned to hear his voice again. She knew now what he felt, as she felt it too; a love for him. She would find a way to bring him back. For now, she would preserve his heart as a part of her, and wander the earth, seeking the forbidden knowledge she would need.

Clothing

Dress: Wicca’s Originals – “Amity Dress [Black]” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Belt: Wicca’s Originals – “Amity Belt [Black]” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Sleeve: Wicca’s Originals – “Amity Arm Left” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Right Shoe: Wicca’s Originals – “Michonne Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Backpack: Hypnos – Treasure Hunter Backpack”

Rings & Nails: .:E.A.Studio:.  – “Thunderstrike Ring Woman” (Maitreya, Bento)

Head, Body & Tattoos

Head & Mask: Wicca’s Originals – “Elmstone Head [Gold]” (Maitreya)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 5.1”

Arms: Wicca’s Originals – “Eagleden Arms” (Maitreya)

Legs: Wicca’s Originals – “Eagleden Legs” (Maitreya)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Prop 1- Rusty Companion: HILTED – “Little Bust Rucket – Floaty Flying Version”

Prop 2 – Cat: HEXtraordinary – “Lord Bartleby Von Tinkleton Esq. – Companion”

Location

Piltover & Zaun

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

The Darkness Inside

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I did think a long time about a title for this post and pictures and after a conversation with a dear, sweet friend today, I suddenly had the idea – “The dark beast inside of me sometimes needs some release”

We all know that feeling I guess. You often just try to be polite and kind even if you feel that the inner beast tries to break free. In my life I learned that his beast has two different sides. It is very emotional and hot-headed on one side and sometimes it can be very dark ironic and sarcastic on the other. That is why I learned to control it and keep it locked in chains inside of me.

Certainly I was told to not always swallow all my emotions and everything that I get told, but the same time there is way how you can express this in a polite and adult way.

The most difficult it gets when you feel hurt. Because then this beast inside just rambles and rattles with the chains, developing immense power so that I sometimes really be afraid it would break that chains and just break free.

But exactly those situations taught me the most. When I was able to still keep it inside, it felt as a success to not let it win over me just because of someones judgement, rumors, gossips or words.

Every time I was able to keep it locked away, I felt that I did grow stronger. It was a long process and it took me years and sadly it is still not perfectly locked. But maybe it does not have to be, because everything has an end as well and so does patience, understanding and politeness. Sometimes people really need to know when they overstepped a line or did hurt me even if they will not believe nor change their behaviour – most of the time because they can’t as they have nothing in their life than trying to make others miserable. Then you do not even need to argue with those, because you can’t win. Anyways what you will say to prove them wrong they will turn it around and again use it against you no matter what. So all you can do is let it go, turn around and move on.

If you move on, you will meet new people in the future who will treat you with more respect and in an adult way. Certainly not only those, but all the others will wait for you left and right as well and maybe it is the personal challenge of everyone’s life to pass those who do not matter to meet those who DO matter – if that makes any sense. That does not mean you should not take any critiques, but you can learn to decide between the good and the bad critique. The bad, that only was used to hurt, blame or accuse you without any content OR the one that sometimes hurts too a bit – because you might have seen it different – but that as well contains facts and things that let you learn and grow from.

In the end you are the one, that has to make the decisions in your life – nobody can do or should do that for – as long as you can.

For me it feels better to have a mainly positive life (all of us have bad days or experiences) instead of a hate filled, jealous and not satisfied one. I always ask myself – before I react on things – if it would be worth fighting or arguing about something, or just smile and say thank you, turn around and move on. Both cases did happen and both will happen in the future, but if I argue or discuss I try to stay with the facts, be polite and kind and as well stay adult and not just release the inner beast without thinking. If that happens, I exactly would do that, what I do not want be done to myself – hurt, accuse or become personal and unobjective – and that is not an option to me if I can control it. I have to admit, over the years I became way more calm in such situations and maybe it is the age that lets you think before you take any action 😉

Details

Clothing & Accessoires:

Outfit: Salt & Pepper – “Strapped” (Gacha, Maitreya)

Arms Straps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arms” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Bax – “Regency Boots”

Chains: E.V.E Studio – “{Apocalyptica} Cyber Snake Chains”

Makeup & Hair:

Hair: A&Y Bunker – “Cyro Hair”

Hairbase: Mina – “Myla Hairbase” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup: Zibska – “Ballard Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: Swallow – “Pixie Ears”

Arms: Zibska – “Speckles” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Pose: Poseidon