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True Colors

by

TUNES

But I see your true colors
Shining through
I see your true colors
And that’s why I love you
So don’t be afraid to let them show
Your true colors
True colors are beautiful
Like a rainbow

[- Cyndi Lauper -]

Finally RL gives me enough room to write a post I wanted to do for weeks now. It will be a premiere, because it will be the first post without any credits, but the topic  as well as the person are value a lot to me and so I wanted to do that without any fashion details.

This picture is a very special picture to me as it is the first picture of Vivien and me, done by her! I wanted a picture done by her for quite some time as I adore her picture and pose skills, but let me start like around a year back I guess it was, when I spotted her work the first time on Flickr…

When I saw her art the first time I immediately loved it and I remember how much I was pondering, if we even should contact her, as I thought she most likely must have been overwhelmed with sponsors already. But Silly contacted her never the less and when I heard that Vivien would be interested I thought I am dreaming. When I heard that she doesn’t even have that much sponsors yet I was more than surprised… how that was possible with the amazing pictures and showcases she did?!?

I was so happy when she agreed to be added to our blogger team. What I not yet did know how fast and conscientious she is with her blogging. She is so fast and creative… I am always amazed how she can have 2 or more pictures per day in that high quality and with so many different ideas. Certainly we started talking some when and figured out that we both are Germans. That made communication even easier and the more we typed and talked the more we found out that we have many commonalities about blogging and as well about general thoughts and views.

Then there was a point when Silly wanted to step back a bit from her blogger manager duties and asked if I would know someone who would like to take over… in the moment she asked It felt like loosing a sister and I had no clue who could take over. Silly was with us since the very beginning and when she said that I could not even think about someone who could take over. But Silly calmed me down saying she would not be gone as a friend anyway and as well not as a senior blogger manager either. She offered to help with the transition and still be there for the ones who do not speak German or English or if she is needed. That set my head free, to think about, who could potentially be her successor. As soon as I could think straight, it felt so natural to ask Vivien. We shared our visions about blogging, bloggers and how to treat sponsors and they were a lot alike.

When I asked her she told me that she would have no experiences, but she loves challenges and she would like to try it… Said and done! So she took over a few month ago and she does a hell of a job. More than I ever would have expected especially since she said she never did that before. Sometimes I even get scared how fast she is so that I really have to tr hard to catch up if I don’t want to miss one of  the wonderful pictures of your amazing team! She asks me stuff I didn’t even yet realize and it feels really awesome, how she takes care of the whole machine 😉

How did Beu mention today when I told her how happy I am with Vivien.. “Better chain her to the pipes at the basement” – I am not sure if I want her at the basement… but if she enjoys chains.. who knows *grins*

That brought us even more together than before and Vivien feels like a sister in crime to me. When I finally dared to ask her, about a picture giving her full reigns about what she would like to do. she made that incredible wonderful picture above. It already was a while ago and I really felt bad to not yet being able to post it as I didn’t want her to think I do not like it – I really love it and it does mean a lot to me that she took her time and patience to create that wonderful piece of art. But I didn’t just want to rush it through!

Since I posted about disappointment a few days ago and that we never should trust people at all anymore – Vivien is one of the examples why we should trust people even if we do not know them for along time. If I would have no trusted her, wee would have never had the awesome times we shared and I never would have been able to know her as close as she feels to me now.

That as well brought me to the idea to have a little series about those, who became family to me over the time. To show them how much I do appreciate them and how much they mean to me 🙂

Thank you Vivien for your friendship, your effort, your work and your creativity – Thank you for being an important part of my life and I hope we will make it to meet up RL for a coffee soon!

♥

Angel of Death

by

The Angel of Death
Will come from the sky
And claim up your soul
When the time comes to die
When the Angel of Death
Comes down after you
Can you smile and say
That you have been true

[- Hank Williams -]

I had a very rough few days, thinking about friendship and about the fact that you think you know people and then you get badly disappointed to find out… you were completely wrong by thinking you knew someone.

It is not the first time that I had to find out about the true colors of someone, who called me “friend” for a longer time. Every time when that happened, I told myself to not trust people anymore – especially not in a virtual environment, where it is even more easy to trick people about your identity and character.

For what ever reason, I go against my own guts again and again, when I meet new people. I always try to force myself to not trust them right away or maybe do not trust them at all even. But you know how that goes, if you are an emotional and true person, there will be a point after some time, where you feel something for someone and just can’t hold the protective wall, which you built around you, up any longer and again you fall for something you call friendship after a while. In good times, all will go fine and you think you got to know someone, even if he or she lives all across the world on the other half of the globe. And many times it really is like that, but you again and again will face the fact, that there is rotten tomatoes between all the good red ones. Usually they are well hidden and so it takes a while until they are seeing the sunlight. If they do it mostly hurts. In the past even more than today, as with getting older you experience that more often certainly, even if you never will get used to it.

If I think about closely, the situations where it turned out good, feel even stronger. I don’t want miss the friendship to a hand full of people I met in Second Life over the years – some of them I even call family by now and they most likely or better hopefully never would turn 180° on me. What if I would have gone with my “no trust” policy strictly? I never would have met those I truly care for and think about, even if I am not in Second Life. I would have missed those who I can trust and who trust me and all the wonderful times we shared together. So I guess I will be hurt again in the future, as I am not willing to give up on trusting people in general… I do not want to miss out on those, which possibly could become amazing wonderful friends over the time. Some probably would call me stupid for that, I would call it human I guess 😉

Clothing

Collar: [CX] – “Hell’s Harbinger (Black Out+Silver)” (Maitreya)

Top: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Top – Red” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Panty: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Undie – Red” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Skirt: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Skirt – Red” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Garters: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Garters – Black” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Ribbons, Pearls & Roses: ERSCH – “Monie Straps” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // April 2021

Boots: AsteroidBox – “Canopus Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Horns: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Magnus Horns”

Piercing: Badwolf – “Murdured by Love – Chain” – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // April 2021

Pasties: duckie – “Tape Black” (Maitreya)

Cuffs: [ abrasive ] – “Discipline Vinyl Cuffs”

Nails & Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Infernal Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Wings: {PSYCHO:Byts} – “Popobawa Wings 3 Female – Charred” (Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Truth – “Forever”

Face Art:  Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger” (EvoX BoM, Materials enabled)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “EvoX Avalon 3.0”

Ears: LeLUTKA – “/ EARS / Avalon ELF (add) 3.0” (part of the Avalon 3.0 head)

Ear Piercings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “I<3 Techno Piercing Earrings LEL EVOX Elf linked” – NEW @ Kinky // April 2021

Tongue (incl. mouth pose): {PSYCHO:Byts} – “Grayas Tongue”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo ( Dark ) Providence” (BoM) – New @ Shiny Shabby // April 2021

Piercing: [CX] x Ichigo – “Yoni’s Passion” (Maitreya)

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: VARONIS x [CX] – “Post Mortem Backdrop” – NEW @ ACCESS // April 2021

Poses: Foxcity

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin