Sometimes you just do not know where to go or what to do, you feel torn inside and you only see darkness. Sometimes your inner only feels like a big fight and you have no clue how to escape.

Sometimes it it hard to find words to describe what you wanna say. And I tried to find words for this post and they just did not wanna flow. A close friend of mine, who is way better with words and who knows me very well wrote something for me after i showed her the pics and gave her a lot of single words and emotions and I would like to share it as it really expresses, what I only could say with pictures. Thank you Mal for finding the right words for me, for knowing me and understanding me even without any words sometimes.

Torn

I am alive – though I am dead

I am over you – though you bury me

I am me – though I am no one

I survive – though I die each day

I am strong – though I feel I will break any minute

I am you – though I don’t know who you are

I am here – though I don’t know where

I am understood – though you don’t know what I am talking about

I wanna enjoy –  though I don’t know fun anymore

I miss you – though I never know who you were

I am lonely – though there are crowds around me

I am dead – though I still move

I submit – though you are not worth it

I am all – though I cant cope

I will die – though I wanna live

I am weak – though I can do all I want

I am me  – though I am lost

I am there – though I don’t know where

I am a riddle – though it would be so easy

I wanna think – though I get stuck

I am happy – though I should not be

I am – though I am not

Details

Outfit: Graves – “G 179 Crossfire”

Hair: DeLa – “Marley” (mesh)

Chains: [Ca.Co] – “Chained Down”

Tattoo: [iN] – “Eternity Awaits”

Blindfold: N1CO – “Devotion Blindfolds”

Makeup: Shakeup – “Bleeding Mascara”

Lipstick: Silken Moon -“Wicca Lips Cardinal”

Skin: Silken Moon – “Wicca”

Boots: Slink – “Tall Leather Thigh Boots” (mesh)

Poses & Prop: Glitterati – “Mausoleum”

Poem: Malicia Python

Set building: Sazzy Nirpaw

Concept, Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin