It was one of those days again…

TUNES

Illusion

Being like you are, well, this is something else
Who would comprehend? But some that do lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them, that’s not what I believe
And it doesn’t matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last but I’m still not sure
But what I do know is to us the world is different
As we are to the world, I guess you would know that
Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you, please, please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
[VNV Nation]

It was one of those days again…
It was dark, cold and misty outside and sometimes it mirrors to my inner. I would not say I hate that days, they bring out a certain type of feeling and emotions and they make you think about yourself a lot more and as well different. Life taught me to not stay too long in that moments, but as well not try to skip them either. I need them as a part of me and if they happen, I just let them for a while. I have no idea if that makes sense – I hope it does and those who had those moments too, I thin you know what I am talking about.
If I am in Second Life on such days and try to style up a look, it does something to me and my looks. It takes me longer to finish a style and the thought s and emotions go way deeper than with a usual look. It is hard to explain as 90% about it is feelings and emotions and you know how hard those are to describe πŸ˜‰

Usually on such days I start off with something I bought longer ago and never had the right mood to work on it.
Today it was the “Black Parade Uniform” from CUREMORE. I fell in love with that outfit ages ago and when CURELESS [+] had their sale I could not longer resist and got the fatpack. I adore the way how CURELESS [+] as well as Moon Amore do obviously cute and frilly outfits, but they all have kinda a morbid feeling to them still. The texture work and the mesh details are amazing. Initially I had something Circus like in mind, but the more I was looking at it, trying several things the vision changed. First I added the awesome “Kate Thigh High Boots” from [Gos], which they released at UBER. I am a high boots addicted so those super cool boots were a no-brainer :p, I could not miss them in my wardrobe.

As usual the boots come in all the popular mesh body sizes and with the 3 amazing HUDs from [Gos] – Boutique, Metallic and Blueberry. You do not only have a wide variety for the colors – Even for metals and sole you get several options. As if that would not be already enough, for the “Kate Thigh High Boots” you get the option to chose from a thick or thin heel as well (like shown in the picture above)!
I do not know why, but while I was staring at my pixels to think about what I could do all of a sudden, the “Black Widow” collar from DRD popped up in my mind. First I thought it wouldn’t fit, because the uniform already had such a high neck… but it turned out, that exactly that made it fit perfectly! Sometimes it is kinda fate I guess.
For the poses and props I immediately had an idea after I added the huge back collar. I had blogged some poses of the “Necromatic” pose gacha with the skeleton, but I as well had some violin poses seen in my folder and I had a feeling, those would fit perfectly. First I used the violin and the bow that the pose had included but with the brown violin I felt a little disturbed from my vision. When I started to look for a black violin on MP I remembered I had a black skull violin from Grollwerk like in forever – I have to admit it is an old prim violin and the store already seems to have closed down, but for a picture it would do it I thought and it did πŸ˜‰
I wanted to wear such a little, cute hat that makes no sense, but looks good and so I had to find a special hair, which is close to the head and not too high at the top. Certainly I found one at no.match πŸ™‚
I love the textures and the way how no.match does their hair. I rarely have alpha glitches even with longer hair and she has the perfect size as well if hair goes down over my chest. If you followed me for while you will know, that I use no,match hair a lot :p.
Now I only needed a special makeup to satisfy my mood. I recently had the honor of being chosen to do a makeup spread in the Eclipse Magazine for ALMA (HERE). That brought ALMA back to my plate – I have to admit I know them for a while but sometimes you forget about cool stores and the more happy I was when I discovered it again and found so many new cool makeups and face art. If you are looking for something out of the box, vibrant colors or really complete, extraordinary face art, ALMA is your place of desire.
Finally after hours I was happy with my look and it did mirror exactly what I was feeling while doing it. That does not happen too often I have to admit, but I do enjoy that immensely.
Then comes that next challenge… what to use as background or scenery?!? Nothing too colorful, nothing clean but as well nothing too dark and nothing too dirty… initially that always feels like a challenge I never can work out. Sometimes I even get frustrated if I can not find the right location or built the right scenery and then I just delete my whole look as on those special days, where I am in that special mood I do not want to make any compromises as they just feel wrong and take all of the depth from the picture. Thank God there is Ironwood Hills! Ironwood Hills has so many different corners and places, that I usually find what I am looking for if I wasn’t able to built something or get an idea of what I would like to have. This time it was the old, rotten theater from Marcus Inkpen, that they have rezzed out there near the landing spot. I just had to add my music items and some broken furniture and it looked exactly as I imagined it and … the best part… it did match my feelings!!! You really should explore Ironwood Hills and I swear you won’t discover all the little details and corners on one day πŸ˜‰

Clothing

Outfit: CUREMORE – “Black Parade Uniform” (Maitreya)
Shoes: [Gos] – “Kate Thigh High Boots” (Maitreya) – NEW @ UBER
Tights: .::Nanika::. – “Alina Tights Black” (Maitreya Applier)

Accessories

Hat: *BOOM* – “The Baroness Hat”
Collar: .:Avanti:. – “Vexie Collar” (Rigged)
Back Collar: DRD – “Black Widow Collar – Frost”
Rings: [Since1975] – “NoMercy Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)
Nail Polish: {ZOZ} – “Time Reds Polish” (Maitreya Applier)
Instrument: [GW] – “Skull Violin” (Store Closed)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No. Comission”
Eyemakeup: ALMA – “Isola” (LeLutka Applier)
Face Art: ALMA – “Being Human” (LeLutka Applier)
Lipstick: Zibska – “Bussaba” (Maitreya Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Eyes: CURELESS [+] – “Seeres Eyes”
Skin: *YS&YS* – “Ginny Vamp Skin” (LeLutka & Maitreya Applier)
Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Izo” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses (incl. Stool): Le Poppycock – “Necromantic – The Oldest Song” & “Necromatic – Grim Anthem” (Bento, Gacha)

Note Stand: Fancy Decor – “Music Stand”

Notes: Nutmeg – “Old Music Sheets Floor” & “Old Music Sheets Standing”

Furniture 1: [ zerkalo ] – “Last Refuge – Dirty Matress – PG”

Furniture 2: DISORDERLY – “Overgrown Patio – Table & Chairs” + “Burried Treasure”

Location

Model & Photographer

Loneliness…

Loneliness

Loneliness
Is a place that I know well
It’s the distance between us
And the space inside ourselves

Emptiness
Is the chattering in your head
It’s the call of the living
And the race from life to death.
And I know
Yeah, I know, what you feel

And I’ve got a longing that’s hard to find
Won’t give me no peace of mind
Something that I’ve lived with all along
Days and weeks and months and years
Filling in the time, my dear
Tryin’ to find the place where I belong

[Annie Lennox]

Details

Outfit & Accessories:

Pants: .miss chelsea. – “Shea Shorts” (Maitreya)

Top 1: Storybook – “Dystopia” (Maitreya)

Top 2: [The Forge] – “Banshee Armour”

Arms: L’Emporio – “Harness Arm” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Essenz – “Honduras” (Maitreya)

Mask: Bauhaus Movement – “Cypriss Apoc Part II”

Necklace: Schadenfreude – “Corax Necklace”

Nails: >glyph< – “Apex Shadow” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: EMO-tions – “Lost”

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo 1 (legs): BODY MOD – “Vicious Tattoo” (Maitreya Applier)

Tattoo 2 (upper): PMS – “Buzz Tattoo” (Omega Applier)

Poses & Props:

Background: [ isuka ] – “dead ahead backdrop”

Matress: [ zerkalo ] – “Last Refuge Dirty Matress”

Seat: DRD – “PA – Sewer Shelter – Bucket Seat”

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

β€œThe hardest thing was simply to speak.”

β€œThe chains and the silence, which should have bound her deep within herself, which should have smothered her, strangled her, on the contrary freed her from herself.”

[Pauline Reage]

The Story of O is an erotic novel of the French author Anne Desclos written under her pen name Pauline Reage.

Published in 1954 it was a very hot discussed book, maybe that is why it did take Anne Desclos so long to discover herself as the original author. Desclos claims , that she wrote the whole story as a series of letter to her lover Jean Paulhan.

She shares dreams, imaginations and desires, which are nowadays are not anymore that ‘abstract’ than they seemed back in 1954 πŸ˜‰

Based on the novel, dresses got tailored, according to the description of certain dresses that Pauline Reage made in her novel. Over the time we have many different ones – 50 years are a long time to have several ideas for such dresses πŸ˜‰ all of them required an open font and back as well as a topless option.

One of them in Second Life would be the “Story of O” outfit by Salt & Pepper. The outfit contains the wonderful dress with a huge HUD to change the texture of the leather and satin of dress to six different colors and as well the typical collar and the cuffs for wrists and ankles (as well HUD driven). If you take a closer look at the collar and the cuffs you again can see the filigree details on the chains and as well the texture on the dress with the combination of leather and satin shows the amazing designing skills of Salt.

The dress is top less as described in the novel but to keep it PG I decided to wear a bra for the picture πŸ˜‰ The wonderful bra comes from Blacklace and is part of the “Niki” set in red leather & lace. To me it looked perfect to the “Story of O” dress πŸ˜‰

For the makeup I used one eyeshadow of a set I lately kinda use only, as it gives me the perfect look for colorful lipsticks. The “Noir Pack 06” from Zibska. I really do love either colorful lipstick OR eyeshadow. With the bright, shiny red lipstick from je suis, the light smokey eyes from Zibska looked just perfect.

Speaking of lipstick from je suis… Julia Merosi is back with amazing new lipsticks for Catwa and LeLutka! Her new sets really cover each color you can imagine and with each tone you get 5 different shades of the color you purchased and certainly if you are addicted to have always a matching lipstick you will get the fact pack with all of them :p

Roleplay is a huge part of Second Life, any kind of different communities are virtually living their dreams, desires and fantasies – Which one is yours?

Details

Dress (incl Collar & Cuffs): Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Story of O” – NEWΒ  We <3 RP

Bra: Blacklace – “Niki” (Maitreya Applier)

Hair: DeLa – “Dorothy”

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06”

Lipstick: je suis… – “lelutka lips no. 002 – shiny [reds]” (LeLutka Applier)

Nail Polish: Dark Passions – “Dominatrix – Silver”

Poses: Poseidon

Basics:

Head: LeLutka – β€œSimone 2.3”

Body: Maitreya – β€œLara V3.5”

Eyes: IKON – “Hope Eyes”

Shape: Selfmade

Set:

Chains: {RW} – “Hanging Chain Deco”

Rack: Back Bone – “Toy Rack”

Cage: [zerkalo] – “Imprisoned Steel – Slave Cage”

Pillows: Stockholm & Lima – “Pillow Pile (PG)”

Whip: 22769 ~ [bauwerk] – “Leather Whip”