Numb

TUNES

I’m tired of being what you want me to be
Feeling so faithless, lost under the surface
Don’t know what you’re expecting of me
Put under the pressure of walking in your shoes
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
Can’t you see that you’re smothering me
Holding too tightly, afraid to lose control?
‘Cause everything that you thought I would be
Has fallen apart right in front of you
Every step that I take is another mistake to you
(Caught in the undertow, just caught in the undertow)
And every second I waste is more than I can take
And I know
I may end up failing too
But I know
You were just like me with someone disappointed in you
I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
Become so tired
So much more aware
I’m becoming this
All I want to do
Is be more like me
And be less like you
I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
(I’m tired of being what you want me to be)
I’ve become so numb
I can’t feel you there
(I’m tired of being what you want me to be)
[- Limp Bizkit -]
Clothing

Blanket: :: MOMOCHUU :: – “Holiday Blanket [dark]” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // December 2020

Top: [Salem] – “Lilith Corset” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // December 2020

Panties:

Legs: [CX] – “Chiyou Legwraps Black” (Maitreya)  – NEW @ Mainstore

Accessories

Mask: kosmii – “Victory Gag” – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // December 2020

Collar: ::Static:: – “Bound Collar { Female } Black”

Feet Claws: L’Emporio&PL – “Damned Claws – Flat Feet V2” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Dura – “B98-Hair-Fat Pack A:right (diamond face line)”

Eyeliner: CAZIMI – “Basic B Eyeliners Bonus Liners” (LeLUTKA Evo. HD Applier)

Lashes: ~Shiny Stuffs~ – “Lash Parade” (LeLUTKA Applier)

Faceart & Sclera Overlay: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger” – NEW @ Mainstore

Face Scars: . The Rotting Lab . – “Waster – Scar – Pale” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head & Piercings: LeLUTKA – “Erin 2.5”

Eyes: Madame Noir – “Vampyre Eyes” – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // December 2020

Ears: [CX] – “Sceleratis Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”

Tattoo 1: TF – “Machinist (F) :: Without Sore – Light 50%” (BoM)”

Tattoo 2: TF – “Mort :: Veins :: With Eyeshading” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Poseidon

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Backdrop: ANTINATURAL[+] – “Hospital for Souls / Hydrotherapy room”

Rat 1: JIAN – “Rascal Rats 2. Black Companion” (Gacha, Common)

Rat 2: JIAN – “Rascal Rats 6. Black Wanderer” (Gacha, Common)

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Loneliness…

Loneliness

Loneliness
Is a place that I know well
It’s the distance between us
And the space inside ourselves

Emptiness
Is the chattering in your head
It’s the call of the living
And the race from life to death.
And I know
Yeah, I know, what you feel

And I’ve got a longing that’s hard to find
Won’t give me no peace of mind
Something that I’ve lived with all along
Days and weeks and months and years
Filling in the time, my dear
Tryin’ to find the place where I belong

[Annie Lennox]

Details

Outfit & Accessories:

Pants: .miss chelsea. – “Shea Shorts” (Maitreya)

Top 1: Storybook – “Dystopia” (Maitreya)

Top 2: [The Forge] – “Banshee Armour”

Arms: L’Emporio – “Harness Arm” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Essenz – “Honduras” (Maitreya)

Mask: Bauhaus Movement – “Cypriss Apoc Part II”

Necklace: Schadenfreude – “Corax Necklace”

Nails: >glyph< – “Apex Shadow” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: EMO-tions – “Lost”

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo 1 (legs): BODY MOD – “Vicious Tattoo” (Maitreya Applier)

Tattoo 2 (upper): PMS – “Buzz Tattoo” (Omega Applier)

Poses & Props:

Background: [ isuka ] – “dead ahead backdrop”

Matress: [ zerkalo ] – “Last Refuge Dirty Matress”

Seat: DRD – “PA – Sewer Shelter – Bucket Seat”

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

A Lonely Dancer

Zibska 10

A Lonely Dancer

A fallen dream…I hit the ground of Eden
For a last time…
A bleeding vision…an ancient prophecy

Zibska 9

White wings still burning…
I’m hidden in the dark…autumn never ends here
Forever trapped in the wings of eternity……
I gave you shelter…a place without fears
Oh, now I’m dancing with spectres of heaven……
A burning symbol bleeds – A deathless path ends
Did you realize what we have done?
A burning heart cries – A deathless love begins
I realized, life is just lies…
That bleeding vision shows us a true life
White wings are burning…
A lonely dancer…so far away from you
Sad melody dies – forever love lives…
A burning symbol bleeds – A deathless path ends
Did you realize what we have done?
We’re living in a new paradise…a painful journey begins
We’re wasting intentions of life…we’re wasting all of our sins……
 

Zibska 1

We are wasting all…a lonely dancer
This is the last serenade…this is the last serenade
This is our last serenade…a lonely dancer…I am…
A burning heart cries-A deathless love begins
I realized, life is just lies…
We’re living in a new paradise
…a painful journey begins
We’re wasting intentions of life
…we’re wasting all
My fallen dream…it seems a broken mirror
In a lost time…
Ethereal vision…ethereal prophecy
White wings will fly again…
Until then a lonely dancer I am…will fly again…
Will fly again…a lonely dancer I am…I am…

[Etheral]
Zibska 7
Details
Outfit: Zibska – “Tina”
Headpiece: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Corona Headpiece”
Shoes: Zibska – “Svanhildr”
Jewelry: Zibska – “Scaramouche”
Braclets: United Colors – “Dragon Scale Braclet”
Mask: *deviant girls* – “Obscure Face”
Makeup: Zibska – “Ltd Noir 24” & Elysium – “Geometrica Line”
Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin
 Zibska 2