Demons in my Mind…

TUNES

Tell you all the things that are tearing me apart
Tell you every little thing thats been bleeding out my heart
Nothing that I say can make you change your mind so doesnt matter
What I do it doesnt matter where I start
Yeah ive been feeling down
No ones been around
My mind is foggy
I can’t tell you what is left or right
No matter what i say you always find a fucking way to twirl it
Demons in my mind they never listen

[plxntkid]

The nice part of having holidays is you have more time to fool around with things you always wanted to learn before. For me that is watching a lot of new tutorials for Photoshop and trying if I can use what I learned in my own ways on my pictures. Even if it takes a lot longer to try new skills and techniques, it is a lot of fun, too.

Today I wanted to do something editorial and I wanted to involve the incredible amazing designs of Zibska. When I put on the “Ruina” collar and makeup, I instantly knew, that I do not want too much things in the background that would distract from the design itself. The collar has 2 orbits withΒ  with fishies and hooks which I am not wearing for my todays picture as it added too much cuteness for my idea*giggles* While I was standing in my black spot and fooling around with lights I realized how cool the “Ruina” collar does reflect the lights and I just rezzed one, pulled it super huge trying t see what it would look like… like you can see on the pictures, I loved the idea :p I even stretched it a little more, rezzed another one, shoved them around and finally played with the color HUD. That again proves, that Zib Scaggs is truly an artist, you even can use her creations totally out of purpose and still they add an artful touch to your picture πŸ˜‰ For a matching expression to that powerful picture, I again used my Axis HUD from LeLutka. I already wrote about that (HERE), but I just cannot tell it often enough, that it does open a complete new world for me for pictures with some kind of mood or emotions πŸ˜‰

Clothing

Pants: Decoy – “Apple Shorts” (Maitreya)

Shoes: **UTOPIA@Design** – “Kora” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Morphine Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)

Claws: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Obsess Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Shoulderpiece: Zibska – “Ruina” – NEW @ Driftwood August 2019 – NEW @ Driftwood August 2019

Collar: [CX] – “Hells Harbinger (Black Out+Silver)” (Maitreya)

Lower Armparts: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme – Black” (Maitreya)

Mask: L’Emporio – “Cat Skull – 03 Lather Covered”

Arm Straps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arm” (Maitreya)

Pasties: .ARISE. – “Spiked Pasties / Black_Silver” (Maitreya)

Chains: -SECRETS- – “Danita Nipple Chain – Silver” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: KoKoLoResS – “Oakes”

Makeup: Zibska – “Ruina” (LeLutka Applier) – NEW @ Driftwood August 2019

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – β€œLondon” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Lost River” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Poseidon

Background Structures: Zibska – “Ruina” – NEW @ Driftwood August 2019 (rezzed and resized)

ModelΒ  & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

I’m lost in a dream…

I’m lost in a dream, with a mind’s full of sadness,
I remember the good times, that we had in our madness,
Frozen tears with illusions of fire,
All of my life was filled with desire

[Axel Rudi Pell]

Sometimes you sit there, staring at your inventory and have no idea what you can do. You put on various outfits, dresses, pants, tops and nothing screams “Yes.. it’s me! Do something with me!” I am not saying, that all the stuff would be ugly or not nice… it all looks perfect and it is made amazingly, but just nothing touches you, nothing catches your eyes or heart.
There are moments in life where just nothing can grab your attention or drag your brain off some things that happen in your life. For me it was a RL situation, that really had tied up my brain and mind/mood completely. If you love your job and you put everything you have and can into it, if you even started a project and work on that for years and suddenly someone comes and tries to steal that from you and even get you kicked out from it, it really can go very deep and it does hurt like if someone rips out a part of yourself, throws it on the ground and tramples on it like crazy with a big grin in her/his face.

In exactly that mood I was nearly the whole past week and that was when this style grew over days, not knowing what I want to do. It did look like a bunch of things not belonging to each other on the first view for me, until I told my self to let it flow and see where it would be going. First I thought of a kind of fairy or “Galadriel” looking pictures in a fantasy environment. But while I was trying like an idiot I came across the amazing pictures of Alles Klaar (HERE). She has a lot of water based pictures, like her and her friends posing on water, having those amazing reflections. That reminded me of the never ending story if we could have real mirrors in Second Life (LINK). I did not want to download anything and I tried to remember how you could cheat on that fact with using mirror water (MIRROR WATER).

I do have no water available at my home at the moment, so I am very grateful, that – after a talk explaining my issue – Tour gave me the opportunity to use his sim for my experiments. While I was trying to fool with that water mirror effect, I realized, it isn’t what I wanted or my skills are not good enough to do what I had imagined. It was the first time, that I wasn’t alone while I tried to set up a scene. Tour was with me and we even had a voice conversation for some time while I was trying to find what I wanted to do. What really was fun, he as well did some snaps and we shared our visions about my project. That was quite interesting! I always thought I never could have somebody with me while doing this, but it even did inspire me somehow πŸ™‚ Thank you Tour for your generosity to let me experiment on your land and ruining your terraforming for me, because of my need for water!

The more pictures I shot, the more my vision changed and my mind could let go of my RL situation and I found my fun back in doing weird and crazy things. My feelings and emotions changed from weak, frustrated and depressed to stubborn, stronger and willing to fight my way out of my actual mood. I rarely had so different emotions on my pixel face during a shooting I have to admit, as I usually try to make an indicating series of pictures.

Again Second Life was kind of a therapy to escape from real life, but as well it did help to free my mind again and not being stuck inside a certain situation. I am not saying SecondLife is the best therapy you can find, I am just saying sometimes it helps to allay concerns or get your brain some relief πŸ˜‰

Believe me, after 12,5 years SL I know, that you need to step away from it sometimes or even shut it down for a while to solve RL problem… I hope you get the idea of what I was trying to say πŸ˜‰

Since I changed the point of my blog, not only being a fashion catalog, but as well being a part of me and both of my lifes, my pictures do matter for me. After I attended Visionaire classes (I sometimes still do), it as well felt right to do so. I am not saying, fashion only blogs are not cool, I just decided for myself that I wanted to have more than just that after so many years of blogging πŸ™‚

If you are one of those, that actually read the whole post, I would be happy if you would be brave enough to comment on it, or maybe even dare to tell about how or even if your SL does change your RL or any situations sometimes β™₯

 

Clothing
Dress: Moon Elixir – “Fenris” (Maitreya
Accessories
Collar: ((LovelyAlien)) – “Amaranthine – Necklace – Silver”
Headpiece: -Elemental- – “Feronica Circlet”
Claws: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Thunderstrike Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)
Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Thunderstrike Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)
Horns: :[P]: – “Kratus Horns”
Bracelets & Anklets: E.V.E – “Scorpion Spikes” (Maitreya)
Armlets: Gemini – “Sis Bracelets” (Maitreya)
Hair & Makeup
Hair: no.match – “No. Gain” – NEW @ Tres Chic
Makeup: Zibska – “Rowan” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”
Eyes: ANATOMY – “Angel Eyes – Silver”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Skin: YS&YS – “Ginny Zafiro” (LeLutka/Maitreya Applier)
Tattoo (Arms): [White~Widow] –Β  “Ran” (Maitreya Applier)
Tattoo (Legs): [White~Widow] – “Okja” (Maitreya Applier)
Poses & Props
Poses: Poseidon
Set:
Statue White Girl: E.V.E – “Rapunzel in Evie White Tower”
Statue Steampunk Guy: R.O.T – “”Illusion Light Blue”
Statue Couple: R.O.T – “Soska Metallic”
Brushwood: E.V.E – “Rosina’s Undergowth M01”
Sphere: E.V.E – “Cubic Dreams {White Glow/Black}”
Heart: E.V.E – “Frosted Hearts Silver M1”
Model & Photographer

Who says Girls can’t be Car Mechanics?!?

β€œMy dad had always said to not trust something unless it’s taken a tumble in the dirt. He’d meant it for people, and for things. Shiny and new didn’t exist for humankind any more.”
[Katherine McIntyre, Snatched]

Since I went decoration crazy at our parcel with the new store, I thought I can do a few pictures there now πŸ˜‰

I really forgot how much fun decorating is and I never had the option to go post-apocalyptic crazy… the new look of the store does allow that, I have a feeling that will become a never ending story :p . One of the last garages I filled with neat little things was an actual vintage car mechanic looking slot. I never did know, I have all those gacha items for this special location in my inventory…

When I saw the finished spot I had the idea of a strong girl, which repairs cars and scooters on her own. After I was getting nuts finding oil appliers for hands and face, I decided to do ‘pre work’ pictures *giggles*.

The cool boots are the latest release of [Gos] for the actual round of FaMESHed. They do have a strong rubber looking sole and foot part, that lead into knitted high over-knee socks. I can see the awesome “Louise Trail Boots” as well as part of a school girl uniform or what ever you can imagine to do with them. I personally think they are very versatile. The boots come with a huge color HUD and are made for all popular mesh bodies. 13 colors for the shoes, 12 colors for the socks. As if that would not be already enough you can as well decide about a black or white tread and the way you want your stripes on the socks.

The cool and wild hair is one of the newest releases of no.match for the Salon 52 event. I love the asymmetric style and the high ‘wave’ at the front. It always reminds me about the 80s a little bit where we tried to get our hair fixed with a lot of hairspray like that.

Like I mentioned before, the garage is only one little spot of many at your new parcel and you are welcome to take a look and maybe do a few pictures yourself. I hope to see you there πŸ™‚

Clothing

Top: paper arrow co – “Popped Collar Polo White” (Maitreya)

Skirt: United Colors – “Morgan Skirt” (Maitreya)

Undies: (AMD) – “Tigres Hot Pants Black” (OMEGA Applier)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Louise Trail Boots” (Maitreya) – NEW @ FaMESHed // March 2019

Accessories

Mask: CURELESS [+] – “Procedure Mask”

Rings: FORMANAILS – “Buffalo

Earring (r): Dahlia – “Claire”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Water” – NEW @ Salon 52

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Serenity” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Shopping Cart (with Pose): anxiety – “Restless Shopping Cart”

Poses: Foxcity (Except Picture #1)

Set

Building: uK – “Dystopia Commercial Build 7”

Furniture:

{LA} – “Workbench – 7”

{LA} – “Workbench – 5”

{LA} – “Garage Shelf – 11”

{LA} – “Old Beetle”

Second Spaces – “You Better Work Bench – pegboard – measure” (Gacha)

Second Spaces – “You Better Work Bench – loose screws” (Gacha)

Second Spaces – “You Better Work Bench – rack of screwdrivers” (Gacha)

[Con.] – “The Garage Collection – Oil Bottles” (Gacha)

Location

Wicca’s Originals

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Waiting for you…

BDSM or Fetish… for many that instantly leads to perverts… but it isn’t about being pervert at all and many tried some things that will fall under this topic without even knowing or realizing!

I was thinking a long time about what it was, that pushed BDSM in the dark corner for so many people when they first hear about it. Probably it was the media and/or movie industry that did the most part to it, as you only read about cruelty, pain and forced actions and the typical backyard Domina that cracks the whip on some poor, nerdy, greasy and sleazy male in an inflated way of showing her power. To be honest, that is something I do not need or want to see either – but what ever floats your boat :p

But did you ever read about it in the newspaper when someone covered her/his partners eyes with a satin cloth or pinned his/her arm to the bed with her hands while kissing his/her body? Certainly not, as that doesn’t have the publicity impact of the first scenario I named above.

Lets see what Wikipedia says about BDSM:

BDSM is a variety of often erotic practices or roleplaying involving bondage, discipline, dominance and submission, sadomasochism, and other related interpersonal dynamics. Given the wide range of practices, some of which may be engaged in by people who do not consider themselves as practising BDSM, inclusion in the BDSM community or subculture is usually dependent upon self-identification and shared experience.

The BDSM initialism.

The term “BDSM” is first recorded in a Usenet posting from 1991, and is interpreted as a combination of the abbreviations B/D (Bondage and Discipline), D/s (Dominance and submission), and S/M (Sadism and Masochism). BDSM is now used as a catch-all phrase covering a wide range of activities, forms of interpersonal relationships, and distinct subcultures. BDSM communities generally welcome anyone with a non-normative streak who identifies with the community; this may include cross-dressers, body modification enthusiasts, animal roleplayers, rubber fetishists, and others.

Activities and relationships within a BDSM context are often characterized by the participants taking on complementary, but unequal roles; thus, the idea of informed consent of both the partners is essential. The terms “submissive” and “dominant” are often used to distinguish these roles: the dominant partner (“dom”) takes psychological control over the submissive (“sub”). The terms “top” and “bottom” are also used: the top is the instigator of an action while the bottom is the receiver of the action. The two sets of terms are subtly different: for example, someone may choose to act as bottom to another person, for example, by being whipped, purely recreationally, without any implication of being psychologically dominated by them, or a submissive may be ordered to massage their dominant partner. Despite the bottom performing the action and the top receiving they have not necessarily switched roles.

The abbreviations “sub” and “dom” are frequently used instead of “submissive” and “dominant”. Sometimes the female-specific terms “mistress”, “domme” or “dominatrix” are used to describe a dominant woman, instead of the gender-neutral term “dom”. Individuals who can change between top/dominant and bottom/submissive rolesβ€”whether from relationship to relationship or within a given relationshipβ€”are known as switches. The precise definition of roles and self-identification is a common subject of debate within the community.

[Wikipedia, 2019]

If you read the Wikipedia excerpt, you will think that sounds like everything and nothing, but that is exactly what it is! It can be everything and it can be just a tiny little thing and it doesn’t always involve pain or any “pervert” action. BDSM has so many different shades and fields that you would have a hard time to name them all and the same it is for Fetish… if you look at Wikipedia what it has to say about fetish… you even have to decide first in what way you wanna look at it as you get the choices Anthropological, Sexual, Arts and Business. If you google for the definition of Fetish you will find something like:Β  If someone has a fetish, they have an unusually strong liking or need for a particular object or activity.” or “If you say that someone has a fetish for doing something, you disapprove of the fact that they do it very often or enjoy it very much.” [Collins Dictionary]

According to that, Fetish doesn’t even have to be a sexual thing only! I have a friend, that cannot leave her home with having 2 different colored socks on. She is not menatlly ill or sick – that’s her fetish if you want to see it like that. Another of my friends has to have jeans from a certain brand since he is 20, he would never ever wear different jeans – that’s his fetish.

Certainly we use the word fetish in a sexual way as well, but what is wrong about wearing a blindfold in bed here and there and get seduced by someone? What is wrong by restricting movements a little bit, to get more intense feelings as long as both agree on it?

Maybe that is the issue for many as they think, a Dominant/Top can do everything what he wants to his submissive/bottom. But exactly that is the thing… they only can do as much as the submissive allows, if you follow the code called SSC – Safe, Sane & Consensual, which means that everything is based on safe activities, that all participants be of sufficiently sound/sane mind to consent, and that all participants do consent. It is mutual consent that makes a clear legal and ethical distinction between BDSM and such crimes as sexual assault or domestic violence.

What is pervert about something, that all the involved parties do like and if they do not bother or harm anyone or anything outside the partnership or group? I do not have an answer to that and that is why I do not call BDSM or Fetish pervert at all – there is other things in the world happening that we do hear and read in the news everyday, that fit way more to that term in my opinion.

All of us do have sexual dreams and desires and only some of us will be able to live their dreams. Maybe it is jealousy, if others do call those dreams and desires pervert, as they can and or do not want to live theirs, but even that is fine as I just said before – what ever floats your boat.

I do think it is great, if you can have a nibble of “forbidden” fruit and have some dreams or desires come true. Some of them may feel better as dreams, but you will never know if you did not try.My first fetish experience was, when one of my ex-boyfriends (I was 16, he was 18) tied my hands to the top of the bed with a satin scarf and caressed me slow and gently. It wasn’t harsh, it wasn’t painful, we did not even have sex in that moment – it just was a complete new experience for me. From that moment on I wanted to know more about it – fun part of that story… my ex-partner didn’t πŸ˜‰

I am a strong woman, I worked/work in a men dominated world called music business, teach at a school and still I had the desire of D/s relationship for a long time – even before I really did look more into BDSM and Fetish, I loved the idea of a gentleman that opens the door, decides the menu when we go out for dinner and basically carries his girl “on his arms” (in German that is kinda a quote for if a girl is precious for his man). D/s doesn’t mean that the Top just shouts orders and the sub runs accomplishing that… I was told that is called “Army” *snickers*

Maybe I can say, in a D/s relation ship, to me it feels like the sub is a precious gift for the Top, that he handles with care, love and all his abilities, so that it doesn’t get hurt, damaged or broken physical or psychological.

Even the belletristic and the movie world started to change the view about BDSM and Fetish. While in the 70s/80s ‘The Story of O’ and ‘Venus in Fur’ were two of the most popular examples, in the 90s/2000s we have ‘Fifty Shades of Grey’, ‘Secretary’, ‘Crossfire’ or the ’80 Days’ series, which give a complete different view about the topic, even make it more presentable to the public. Maybe that helps to drag this kind of stories, movies, dreams and desires out of the dark corners, out of the dirty backyards and shadows that the past pushed them into. Maybe the world is more ready nowadays to allow those things to happen or at least accept, that they are happening without pointing a finger and calling it bad things only.

As we can see in Second Life, the BDSM and Fetish communities are huge and many enjoy things they maybe cannot do in real life for various reasons. It seems to be something that attracts a lot of people and still many of them need to hide it from their friends and family, which is sad in my view. If they do enjoy it so much, if it is part of them, it is part of the great person that all of them know. I am sure many would love to share their experiences with people close to them, many would love to show their collar they are wearing without being judged in a bad way. But they are still damned to hide that even in Second Life, for example in modeling, as they are still being avoided if they are connected to such “pervert” things. I am not saying they should run around, shouting it over the grid or bother each and everyone with their experiences or put titles above their heads – non of the people I know ever did that in real life either – but where is the problem, if they do have a PG sounding statement in their profiles about having a Master or Mistress, what is wrong with a picture on Flickr wearing a collar or cuffs? With all the non BDSM or Fetish looking porn and non artistic nude pictures on Flickr – seriously a artistic and classic looking lingerie picture being bound or blindfolded would matter??? I do dislike all the pictures where girls hold their pixel boobies into my face bluntly, for no other reason that clicks and likes, on Flickr way more than a tasteful Fetish picture…

I would love to hear your opinion about it – if you can or want to share yours, I will be happy if you put it in the comments πŸ˜‰

Clothing

Outfit: [Sexy Princess] – “Tease” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fetish Fair, February 2019

Boots: -KC- – “Aletheia Boots” (Maitreya)

Gloves: .:Avanti:. – “Tessa Gloves” (Maitreya Applier)

Stockings: Avi Candy – “Lace Black Seam [Licorice]” (Maitreya Applier)

Accessories

Collar: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Choker Piper 69” – NEW @ Fetish Fair, February 2019

Armlets: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Pyper 69”

Garters: NANIKA – “Alisa Garter” (Maitreya)Β  – NEW @ Fetish Fair, February 2019

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Cake”

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (Maitreya Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Inferno” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

[Ds] – “Peep-O-Rama Bondage Stage OMNI v.1.0 a” – NEW @ Fetish Fair, February 2019

22769 – “The Messy Book Shop” (Gacha, Rare)

22769 – “Big Bookshelf” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Small Bookshelf” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Worn Rug” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Side Table” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Bookstore Table Lamp” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Nestchair” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Pipes Shelf” (Gacha, VIP Reward)

22769 – “Row Of Books” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Tall Stack Of Books” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Cluster Of Books” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Repaired Chair” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Chair with Books” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Table With Books” (Gacha, Common)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Red Temptation

It is weird… but lately I do love vibrant colors paired with black… that allows you to play with strong and deep hued lights as well. If you have such amazing clothes like from A&Y for example, where the designer really do know about materials – it is a dream to make pictures :)It is not a secret that I do love A&Y for a long time.. I even have very old things still in my inventory, as those kind of things are so rare and I really do love the style πŸ™‚ It always is a mixture of fetish looking things but paired with futuristic elements. Maybe it is the kick ass amazing textures that add their piece to the designs, too. Such a realistic leather and latex you will rarely find. It is like you can feel the folds, leather gets from being worn, under your fingerΒ  πŸ˜‰

For ROMP and the Fetish Fair, A&Y released an amazing outfit combo of corset, panties and legwarmers. At ROMP you will find the corset while the rest is offered at the Fetish Fair. For the whole outfit you have the option of wearing it with the fishnet parts like I do today or even without.The hair of today’s pictures, comes from No.Match and was released at the Cosmopolitan event this month. What I do love a lot for the “No.Inspiration” hair style is, that you have a Bob style looking hair cut that goes a little higher up in the back and you can see the shaved under cut beneath it (hairbase). For a real bad girl I certainly had to put some tattoos from [White~Widow] and some super cool piercings from [CX] and Meva. I do love that kind of bad girl look paired with those deep vibrant colors – to me that adds even more “I will kick your ass” feelings *giggles*Now I will see what I can come up with next πŸ˜‰

 

Outfit

Corset: [ A&Y ] – “Siren Cyber Corset+Fishnet” (Maitreya) – NEW @ ROMP // February 2019

Pants: [ A&Y ] – “Siren Cyber Panties+Fishnet” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fetish Fair // February 2019

Legs: [ A&Y ] – “Siren Cyber Legwarmers+Fishnet” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fetish Fair // February 2019

Shoes: [CX] – “Implant Revived-Trashed Steel” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Collar: [CX] – “Hells’s Harbinger (Black Out+Silver)” (Maitreya)

Arms: L’Emporio – “Harness Arm” (Maitreya)

Gloves: **RE** – “Livia Gloves & Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nose to Ear Piercing: [CX] – “Monstrum Catena”

Septum: [CX] – “Pierced Septum”

Chin Piercing: [CX] – “Spiked Gloss”

Chest Piercings: Meva – “Collarbone Piercing Silver” & “Cleavage Piercing Silver”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: No. Match – “No. Inspiration” – NEW @ Cosmopolitan // February 2019

Makeup: Zibska – “Asta Eyemakeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Replicas” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity – “Loco” (Bento)

Backdrop: Foxcity – “Lipstick Lounge Red”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Surreal Sunset

Picture made for Eclipse Magazine // February 2019 (https://issuu.com/eclipsemagazinesl/docs/eclipse_magazine_february_2019)

It’s clear as the day
Never gonna cast my anchor out
I’m a free spirit, torn in a way
I can’t stay here for too long
I got to keep on moving on
Nothing fades as nothing changes
This old place is driving me crazy

Live on and dream on

[Amy Macdonald]

When I was asked to do a spread of E.V.E Studio for the actual issue of the Eclipse Magazine, I was mega happy. I do love the creations from Noke Yuitza – owner and designer of E.V.E Studio – for a long time and he never stops to amaze me with his new designs. His imagination must be never ending huge πŸ˜‰

This picture was just one out of six I made for the magazine and I will try to show them one by one, as each one has it’s own theme and mood behind it and deserves it’s own spotlight.Β  This one probably is the most soft and dreamy one and I thought, it would make a good start for the series.

The imagination behind it was a peaceful, dreamy sunset on a surreal planet.

Accessories

Body Glitter: E.V.E Studio – “Rapunzel Suit Glitter” (Maitreya)

Collar & Back: E.V.E Studio – “Broken Chains: Scattered Roses”

Horns: E.V.E Studio – “Maleficent GW Horns”

Spine: Salt & Pepper – “Skeleton Spine” (Maitreya)

Nails: FORMANAILS – “Wedding” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Makeup & Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “New Wave” (LeLutka Applier)

Hair: lock&tuft – “Bass”

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Nepthune V2”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Nerve” (Maitreya Applier)

Lashes: alaskametro<3 – “Slay” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses & Props

Pose: Foxcity – “Legs for Days-2m” (Bento)

Set: E.V.E Studio – “Sunny Spells”, “Dystopias Chained Roses”, “Poison Rain Spikes Grass” & “Koi Square Confetti Path”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

It was one of those days again…

TUNES

Illusion

Being like you are, well, this is something else
Who would comprehend? But some that do lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them, that’s not what I believe
And it doesn’t matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last but I’m still not sure
But what I do know is to us the world is different
As we are to the world, I guess you would know that
Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you, please, please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
[VNV Nation]

It was one of those days again…
It was dark, cold and misty outside and sometimes it mirrors to my inner. I would not say I hate that days, they bring out a certain type of feeling and emotions and they make you think about yourself a lot more and as well different. Life taught me to not stay too long in that moments, but as well not try to skip them either. I need them as a part of me and if they happen, I just let them for a while. I have no idea if that makes sense – I hope it does and those who had those moments too, I thin you know what I am talking about.
If I am in Second Life on such days and try to style up a look, it does something to me and my looks. It takes me longer to finish a style and the thought s and emotions go way deeper than with a usual look. It is hard to explain as 90% about it is feelings and emotions and you know how hard those are to describe πŸ˜‰

Usually on such days I start off with something I bought longer ago and never had the right mood to work on it.
Today it was the “Black Parade Uniform” from CUREMORE. I fell in love with that outfit ages ago and when CURELESS [+] had their sale I could not longer resist and got the fatpack. I adore the way how CURELESS [+] as well as Moon Amore do obviously cute and frilly outfits, but they all have kinda a morbid feeling to them still. The texture work and the mesh details are amazing. Initially I had something Circus like in mind, but the more I was looking at it, trying several things the vision changed. First I added the awesome “Kate Thigh High Boots” from [Gos], which they released at UBER. I am a high boots addicted so those super cool boots were a no-brainer :p, I could not miss them in my wardrobe.

As usual the boots come in all the popular mesh body sizes and with the 3 amazing HUDs from [Gos] – Boutique, Metallic and Blueberry. You do not only have a wide variety for the colors – Even for metals and sole you get several options. As if that would not be already enough, for the “Kate Thigh High Boots” you get the option to chose from a thick or thin heel as well (like shown in the picture above)!
I do not know why, but while I was staring at my pixels to think about what I could do all of a sudden, the “Black Widow” collar from DRD popped up in my mind. First I thought it wouldn’t fit, because the uniform already had such a high neck… but it turned out, that exactly that made it fit perfectly! Sometimes it is kinda fate I guess.
For the poses and props I immediately had an idea after I added the huge back collar. I had blogged some poses of the “Necromatic” pose gacha with the skeleton, but I as well had some violin poses seen in my folder and I had a feeling, those would fit perfectly. First I used the violin and the bow that the pose had included but with the brown violin I felt a little disturbed from my vision. When I started to look for a black violin on MP I remembered I had a black skull violin from Grollwerk like in forever – I have to admit it is an old prim violin and the store already seems to have closed down, but for a picture it would do it I thought and it did πŸ˜‰
I wanted to wear such a little, cute hat that makes no sense, but looks good and so I had to find a special hair, which is close to the head and not too high at the top. Certainly I found one at no.match πŸ™‚
I love the textures and the way how no.match does their hair. I rarely have alpha glitches even with longer hair and she has the perfect size as well if hair goes down over my chest. If you followed me for while you will know, that I use no,match hair a lot :p.
Now I only needed a special makeup to satisfy my mood. I recently had the honor of being chosen to do a makeup spread in the Eclipse Magazine for ALMA (HERE). That brought ALMA back to my plate – I have to admit I know them for a while but sometimes you forget about cool stores and the more happy I was when I discovered it again and found so many new cool makeups and face art. If you are looking for something out of the box, vibrant colors or really complete, extraordinary face art, ALMA is your place of desire.
Finally after hours I was happy with my look and it did mirror exactly what I was feeling while doing it. That does not happen too often I have to admit, but I do enjoy that immensely.
Then comes that next challenge… what to use as background or scenery?!? Nothing too colorful, nothing clean but as well nothing too dark and nothing too dirty… initially that always feels like a challenge I never can work out. Sometimes I even get frustrated if I can not find the right location or built the right scenery and then I just delete my whole look as on those special days, where I am in that special mood I do not want to make any compromises as they just feel wrong and take all of the depth from the picture. Thank God there is Ironwood Hills! Ironwood Hills has so many different corners and places, that I usually find what I am looking for if I wasn’t able to built something or get an idea of what I would like to have. This time it was the old, rotten theater from Marcus Inkpen, that they have rezzed out there near the landing spot. I just had to add my music items and some broken furniture and it looked exactly as I imagined it and … the best part… it did match my feelings!!! You really should explore Ironwood Hills and I swear you won’t discover all the little details and corners on one day πŸ˜‰

Clothing

Outfit: CUREMORE – “Black Parade Uniform” (Maitreya)
Shoes: [Gos] – “Kate Thigh High Boots” (Maitreya) – NEW @ UBER
Tights: .::Nanika::. – “Alina Tights Black” (Maitreya Applier)

Accessories

Hat: *BOOM* – “The Baroness Hat”
Collar: .:Avanti:. – “Vexie Collar” (Rigged)
Back Collar: DRD – “Black Widow Collar – Frost”
Rings: [Since1975] – “NoMercy Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)
Nail Polish: {ZOZ} – “Time Reds Polish” (Maitreya Applier)
Instrument: [GW] – “Skull Violin” (Store Closed)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No. Comission”
Eyemakeup: ALMA – “Isola” (LeLutka Applier)
Face Art: ALMA – “Being Human” (LeLutka Applier)
Lipstick: Zibska – “Bussaba” (Maitreya Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Eyes: CURELESS [+] – “Seeres Eyes”
Skin: *YS&YS* – “Ginny Vamp Skin” (LeLutka & Maitreya Applier)
Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Izo” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses (incl. Stool): Le Poppycock – “Necromantic – The Oldest Song” & “Necromatic – Grim Anthem” (Bento, Gacha)

Note Stand: Fancy Decor – “Music Stand”

Notes: Nutmeg – “Old Music Sheets Floor” & “Old Music Sheets Standing”

Furniture 1: [ zerkalo ] – “Last Refuge – Dirty Matress – PG”

Furniture 2: DISORDERLY – “Overgrown Patio – Table & Chairs” + “Burried Treasure”

Location

Model & Photographer

Just the Way I am

TUNES

Maybe I’ma get a little anxious
Maybe I’ma get a little shy
‘Cause everybody’s trying to be famous
And I’m just trying to find a place to hide
All I wanna do is just hold somebody
But no one ever wants to get to know somebody
I don’t even know how to explain this
I don’t even think I’m gonna try
And that’s okay
I promise myself one dayI’ma tell ’em all that you could either hate me or love me
But that’s just the way I am
[Charlie Puth]

I rarely dress up to go shopping, clubbing or socializing – Usually I just wear the last outfit I blogged as I had that styled up anyways :p But today I felt not really blogging and I just put on some things I bought lately. With each piece I added I liked the look more – something I really did not feel for a long time and I have to admit… I like it! So this will be an “unscheduled” just the way I am picture series πŸ™‚ This look could be something I could imagine wearing on tour, or on stage with the band as well.

Yesterday I had a blast and it happened out of the blue… Nefertiti Kimagawa IMed me! I did not hear from her in ages and I was totally excited when I saw her IM popping up. We talked a little while about what we had done in the meantime and when I told her, I did open my own store she came over to see it. Certainly I had to TP down and when I landed I saw a tall, awesome demon. It really reminded me of good old times and we indulged in reminiscences about her store and as well about Claim the Fame, a designers contest we did years ago with SL Art Couture. Nefer was one of the contestants. I even still had a vendor picture where she used me as a model for an outfit and helmet called Wicca – I still remember how honored I felt when she named it after me. All of a sudden I saw an orange cloud right beside us – Nefer TPed someone… it was Kalyabreeaa Capelo! The designer of Mad Diva and my personal hero for the first avant garde bikini back in 2011 (https://wiccamerlin.de/can-swimwear-be-avantgarde-or-couture-mad-diva-shows-it/) It felt so crazy, to have 2 old friends in our store now, while I was blogging for them years ago, when I worked as a model *snickers* I tried to convince both of them to design again, as I really miss their awesome, crazy and avant garde ideas!

I never thought it would be so much fun to roll back in time for a few moments and think about all the cool things we did – but it really felt amazing and it put a smile on my face. I hope that it won’t take as long until we meet again πŸ™‚

As if that would not already have been the best evening for ages, Kaly mentioned she would TP another “model granny” over and before I could ask – Latrelly Flux rezzed in! OMG that really became a dinosaur revival :p I did not see all of them in ages, neither we talked, but it felt so good to se them again and while we were talking, it became more and more as we would have never stopped talking. I again felt like the dwarf between those ladies – as always – even if I am now not as high as I used to be as a model… even back then I was the tiniest πŸ˜‰

I do not wanna roll back the time, but we really had great times back then. Modeling was completely different.. and alive.We did not have as many events and designers really created full collections a few time of the year and not just one new outfit for a monthly event. We had Fashion Weeks or Designer Showcases to release their newest collections and it was really fun. They booked us for vendor shoots and I remember very well how honored and proud we felt, being used as vendor model – It really was a privilege and sometimes we even got paid for it.

I do not want to say, in the past everything was better – things change with time and future not just brings negative things, if you are able to develop and adapt new ways of doing tings. It is hard to release the past, especially if it was a nice one, but even if things change and force you to change it can be something good. Most of the time if you stick too hard to the past, it will hurt you and as well it will stop you from developing forward. I learned that more than once, but if you made your peace with that – it isn’t that painful and more and it happens way faster and easier, as if you fight against it everyday πŸ™‚

I hope I made sense with what I was trying to say… in the end I am no native English speaker, but I try my best πŸ˜‰

Outfit

Top: [CX] – “Mucronate Top – Leather” (Maitreya)

Pants: adorsy – “Marilice Pants Jeans Original” (Maitreya)

Shoes: **UTOPIA@Design** – “Rebeca” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Necklace: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Borg Necklaces (Girl)”

Bracelets (right): [ kunst ] – “Conrad Bracelet / Female” & Taylor Bracelets (F)”

Bracelet (left): amias – “Jasna black”

Rings: FORMANAILS – “Accessories for Maitreya Bento – Rings Simple” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nailpolish: Dark Passsions – “Koffin Nails – Mist Connection” (Maitreya Applier)

Septum: [ kunst ] – “Anuket Septum Ring”

Lips Piercing: [CX] – “Spiked Gloss”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: .shi – “Eirene / Her”

Body & Tattoo

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Gomory”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Replicas” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Background: Pseudo– “Paul T Scene Backdrop” (Gacha, Rare)

Poses: Foxcity – “Legs for Days” & “Sits Vol1” (Bento)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

 

Electric Blue

TUNES

I just freeze every time
You see through me
And it’s all over you
Electric Blue

[Icehouse]

It was time again for some futuristic ideas πŸ˜‰ Some times I do like to give myself some challenges and today, I wanted to bring together the awesome “Aglaya Latex Cyber Collar” – made by A&Y – and the super cute “Frenchie Ankle Boots” from [Gos]. Latex collar and some rough cloth looking ankle boots with a shiny leather tip. I made it a challenge for me to combine 2 complete different fabrics and none of both should look out of place, or have more impact than the other – if that makes sense. I wanted them to shine together with each other and not compete against. I looked though my inventory to balance out the style. The first day I tried it I was nearly giving up as nothing seemed to work – I already was about to use the full “Aglaya” set from A&Y as it goes so perfectly together. But I already blogged the other parts a few times (I still do love them like mad), plus I did not want to throw my first challenge of the year so quickly πŸ˜‰

I had to find the right balance and fabrics to put together my look. After a while I found a top, that played directly in my hands with those different fabrics and so I had hope again that this could work out nevertheless! The “Ellie Corset Top”, a collaboration of Azuchi and Vinyl. I do have that for a longer time and for today it was the perfect choice. The top has a matte fabric, while the corset has the perfect shiny look. For the arms I used one one arm some classic opera gloves, which I pimped with the cool “Pyper 69 Upper Arm” bracelet. On the other arm I went with the bento enabled “Nemesis Arms” from Wicca’s Wardrobe with the shiny metal plates. The latex skirt from United Colors and some Nylon stockings connected the upper with the bottom and the crazy “Medusa Cyber Hair”, as well from A&Y, combined with the “Disco Glasses from #187#gave the whole style a futuristic look. Since the look already is so full of details I decided to use a more simple background to get a more editorial looking picture.

Let’s see what mood I am in for the next post πŸ˜‰

Outfit

Top: Azuchi+Vinyl – “Ellie Corset Top” (Maitreya)

Skirt: United Colors – “Jen Skirt” (Maitreya)

Left Arm: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Nemesis Arms” (Maitreya, Bento)

Gloves (Right Arm): AE – “Natalie Opera Gloves” (OMEGA Applier)

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Harlot Stockings” (OMEGA Applier)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Frenchie Ankle Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Collar: [A&Y] – Aglaya Latex Cyber Collar” (Maitreya)

Glasses: #187# – “Disco Glasses Black”

Upper Right Arm: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Pyper 69 Upper Arms”

Nails Right Hand: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Obsess Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: [A&Y] – “Medusa Cyber Hair 1”

Lipstick: Izzie’s – “Black Lips” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Arctic” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Backdrop: Foxcity – “Photo Booth – Limitless LTD EDT”

Poses: Foxcity, <EMOZIONE> & .::shi.s.poses::.

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Fly with the Dragons

After a rough week again I am able to do a blog post. It is funny how bad you desire some SL blogging when RL becomes stressy and rough, while you sometimes desire RL back when blogging is too overloading πŸ˜‰

I saw those dragons from E.V.E for a while and did not dare to get them, as I wasn’t sure if I can make it on time. But today I finally got the chance πŸ™‚

The “Scatha” dragons come with a huge HUD to chnage colors and even the opacity of the head and the tail. Their eyes first did drive me nuts – they kept moving no matter what I was doing – until I found out, they follow my avatar!

While I was thinking for a cool set I remembered the “Sunny Spells”, as well made by E.V.E Studio. The made such a great background that I decided I do not need more πŸ˜‰

I want to drag your attention to my hands for a little bit. I do know FORMANAILS for a long time, but did you ever hear of it? Ivi Bings is one of the best skilled artists when it comes to nail art and hand accessories. Today I combined 2 of her amazing designs – the “Simple Rings” and the “Chris Claws”. They go along perfectly and with the HUD you can customize each part to what ever you need. If you search for something special, something different and out of the box for your hands, go take a look at FORMANAILS. She recently changed her store and you now go shopping in a huge shopping bag πŸ˜‰

The hair as well is something new, made ny no.match for the MOM event. The “No.Suffer” hairstyle is am amazing unisex, short hairstyle. I love the hair textures of the no.match hair a lot and with the update from her A version to her B version, they became even more realistic. With my short hair addiction, the “No.Suffer” just was a must have for me πŸ˜‰

Tomorrow I will be back with some more Halloween looks – I enjoy the dark and scary season way too much I guess πŸ˜‰

Outfit & Accessories

Top, Skirt & Panties: Casadel – “Jasmine” (Maitreya)

Shoes: UTOPIA@Design – “Noemi” – (Maitreya) –Β  NEW @ UBER

Gloves: CODEX – “Medea” (Maitreya, Bento)

Scarf: Bauhaus Movement – “Apoc Kitty Scarf” (Hunt Gift) – NEW @ Ironwood Hills

Garter: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Rebirth (Rosary Garter)” – NEW @ Kinky

Rings: FORMANAILS – “Rings Simple” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nails: FORMANAILS – “Chris Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Suffer” – NEW @ MOM

Face & right Eye: VYC – “Hunter” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup: Zibska – “Nerio” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: Izzie’s – “Black Lipstick” (LeLutka Applier, Gift)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – β€œSimone 3.0”

Ears: ^^Swallow^^ – “Darkness Ears”

Body: Maitreya – β€œLara 4.1”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Headgame” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Poseidon

Dragons: E.V.E Studio – “Scatha Dragon” – NEW @ Weβ™₯RP

Lights: E.V.E Studio – “Sunny Spells M03-IRIS” – NEW @ TLC

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin