I did a lot of nice gowns, cute casuals and wonderful summer outfits lately. I can do that to a certain point… being nice, sweet, polite, “normal” and maybe even cute. But then somewhen it breaks through again and I have to do something weird, crazy and edgy :p
I was listening to one of my favourite bands (linked above) and just started styling…
This time the beginning of the look was the new “Downward Spiral Gauge” piercing set of Haus of Darcy (HoD). This amazing and unusual set of piercings brought me on the thought of a fantasy elf. I reminded a skin from Tableau Vivant that was a group gift in the past… a male skin. But for some reason the face was not looking that much male and more like all the new androgyny skins that are on the grid and I really loved what it did with my face… just the upper body looked not that nice as I am a female and it looked kinda weird. I tried to find clothing that covered the most parts but nothing made the vibe that I wanted. Finally I found a very old outfit from Chaospire, really one of the very first ones I ever bought. I put it on and it totally matched my imagination and emotions, that I had for this styling and again the half of the upper body was uncovered *sighs*. I continued with the shoes first and some of the latest releases of Ezura totally met my idea 😉
I tried to snap from different angles and what not but nothing really came out, that nearly satisfied my vision of this styling and picture. I searched through Flickr and over a lot of profiles of SL photographers but nothing really captured my heart… suddenly I came to the stream of Annan Adored. I know Annan from a MVW Academy class and I follow her Flickr (http://www.flickr.com/photos/annanadored/) and work for longer, as she has something very special in her pictures – the little special extra I so desired for this style and picture. I looked up her profile and saw she does not accept client work for now and for a few days I did not even dare to ask her and kept trying on my own. It never reached at least 10% of my vision and I took a deep breath and dared to ask Annan if she could do the pictures for me. I was biting my nails till she answered and I jumped around like crazy literally as she said she would do it!!!
I told her about the problem of the male skin and about my emotions, feeling and vision for this picture and she immediately picked it up. It put a huge smile on my face as she sent me an idea for a background and I nearly could not wait for the shooting. A few days later the shooting was done and I was so nervous and excited that I had to bite my lips not to ask constantly. One day later Annan asked me for my email address to send me the done pictures and as I saw them I was speechless… this pictures outdid all what I ever could imagine… I was not even dreaming about such incredible pics that totally picked up my vision.
I have no words that are strong enough to say how grateful I am Annan…
…Thank you for this amazing pictures and for doing them for me!!!
Lyrics
Waits for the day, will let it out
To give it a reason, to give it its might
I fear who I am becoming,
I feel that I am losing the struggle within
I can no longer restrain it,
my strength, it is fading,
I have to give in
It’s the fear
Fear of the dark
It’s growing inside of me,
that one day will come to life
Have to save
To save my beloved,
there is no escape,
because my fate is horror and doom
Hold down your head now,
just let me pass by
Don’t feed my fear,
If you don’t want it out
I fear who I am becoming,
I feel that I’m losing all beauty within
I can no longer restrain it,
my strength, it is fading
I have to give in
It’s the fear
Fear of the dark
It’s growing inside of me,
that one day will come to life
Have to save
To save my beloved,
there is no escape,
because my fate is horror and doom
Long ago, it came to me
and ever since that day,
infected with it’s rage
but it ends today
It’s the fear
Fear of the dark
It’s growing inside of me,
that one day will come to life
Have to save
To save my beloved,
there is no escape,
because my fate is horror and doom
Details
Outfit: Chaospire – “Beledinoir”
Shoes: Ezura – “Mai Extreme Ankel Boots”
Cuffs and Choker: Ezura – “Cameo Cuffs & Neckdress”
Jewelry/Piercings: HoD – “Downward Spiral Gauage” – NEW (CHIC²)
Ears: Illusions – “Fairy Ears” – NEW (mesh)
Wings: Fancy Fairy – “Thistle Wings”
Hair: Rawhouse – “Urban Savage 2”
Lashes: Detour – “Spider”
Skin: Tableau Vivant – “Noctis” (group gift)
Nails: AKA – “Black Long Nails”
Poses: Del May
Photographer: Annan Adored
Model: Wicca Merlin