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In these illusions of life

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Hide yourself behind profile
In the place for friends there is new lifestyle
In the digital deep there is no trace
Another Cybergirl in the cyber space
Swim, baby, swim
What do you seek behind the screen?
In these illusions of life
In these illusions of feel
You are so disclosed
You are so nude
But no one knows the real you
Let’s dive ‘till the morning comes
Lonely Cyber Girl

[Xe-None]

 

Again it was crazy time.. I felt it coming already a few days ago*giggles*

When I got the “Nexus Cyber Bikini” it kinda jinxed it 😉 When I put it on, I immediately was thinking how a cyber-girl could go swimming and how that scenery could look in the future.

The “Nexus Cyber Bikini” is part of the Summer Loving hunt and set for 50% off until the 13th of May (http://bepsl.com/summer-loving-hunt/). It comes with that amazing HUD that A&Y always puts to her designs. I do love it a lot as it gives you so many different possibilities on so many parts of the creation and still is clearly labeled.

Since the bikini should be the focus today, I was very minimalistic on the accessories and only picked a few parts to support the futuristic look that I wanted to have.

If you are looking for strong, powerful poses that show action and movement and as well can me snapped from all kind of awesome angles, you should make your way to Poseidon – Gryphon Vendetta, owner and creator of Poseidon, is a god with exactly that. He never stop to amaze me with the new ideas. It is like he would imagine a special scenery, then make a pose set exactly for that and it seems his creativity never comes to an end – thank god! This time I used a lot of the “Flight” sets. The water with all that detailed parts around it gave me a ‘lost in space’ feeling and so the gravity did not really take place anymore in my mind 😉

For the scenery I picked only items from E.V.E Studio. The creations of Noke Yuitza are just simply perfect for any fantasy or futuristic sets. I do love how many different pats can be combined to a whole and what you can do with all that creations together. Some even have inbuilt lights, that bring the ambiance ‘alive’ – if that makes sense.

It really was fun to go crazy again and I hope you can see that through the pictures as well 😉

Outfit & Accessories:

Outfit: A&Y Cybernetics – “Nexus Cyber Bikini” (Maitreya) – NEW for Summer Loving Hunt

Cyber Parts: V-Tech – “Forbidden Experiment Set – Silver” (Maitreya)

Rings & Nails: [CX] – “Shredder Claws – Silver” (Maitreya, Bento)

Headpiece: DRD – “Wasteland Helmet”

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Eyes: CURELESS[+] – “Surgical Lightning Eyes”

Skin: YS&YS – “Ginny – Zafiro” (LeLutka & Maitreya Applier)

Body/Face tattoo: YS&YS – “Pris” (LeLutka & OMEGA Applier)

Teeth: [CX] – “Dirty Fangs” (Group Gift)

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon

Set /Background: E.V.E Studio – “{Dystopia} Ashes & Ice Flower “, “{Poison Rain} Synapses Fishes”, “Eye of the Storm”, “White Wall”, & “Roots of the Luminescence Tree”

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

Envy and Jealousy are incurable diseases…

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Those who enjoy their own emotionally bad health and who habitually fill their own minds with the rank poisons of suspicion, jealousy and hatred, as a rule take umbrage at those who refuse to do likewise, and they find a perverted relief in trying to denigrate them.

[Johannes Brahms]

It never stops to make me sad to see how some people try to make others life miserable for no reason. Not that I would not know it does exist but that does not mean I do understand it. The world is so huge and there is place for each and everyone. Some humans seem to believe, they do have to try to make others look bad and it does not want to get into my brain why. Do they feel better as others? Does it give them a “I am the better one” feeling? Does it give them any kind of satisfaction? Do they get up in the morning and the first thought is who they could trash today? If it would not be such a bad thing I would say I feel pity for those who cannot just enjoy their life by using all energy to make something out of themselves. But since it always involves that others get hurt by that, I can’t feel pity at all. I always try to figure out what kind of people that are. It cannot be successful ones as those would not need to put a bad light on others. They cannot be very self esteemed, as they probably suck all their power from others pain and sadness. They cannot be very creative as then they would use their energy to do something. They always try to justify their doing with the try to convince someone that they do it for law and order, while they are just doing it to feed their sick addiction of enjoying the sadness and pain they cause for others. There is even no way you could tell such people that they are wrong as they are so deeply caught in their addiction – like drug addicts, they never would admit they are addicted until they have serious physical problems.
Since we cannot do anything against it, the big question is how we deal with it… I guess there is no general way how to deal with it and everyone has to decide personally about how to handle it. First of all you have to find a way to not let to close to you. That is probably the hardest part as we are all humans and if we get attacked, it hurts. But that is exactly what those folks want and what we should not give them. It is only human nature that you instantly think you have to justify yourself, but you do not – especially if you did nothing wrong! It seriously is senseless to respond to such tries, as you never will get down a point against those trolls – they simply cannot see it (remember… addicts!) They will twist every word you say into something that works for them and against you. Anyways how you react or what you will do – it is just pointless.
The best is just to ignore and forget about them… in the end you must have done something right or spectacular, otherwise those people would not have tried to come after you.
After venting, I would love now to get a closer view on my todays look 😉

Today I do not have one special item to focus on, it again was one of those lucky days where different things all of a sudden resulted in a whole.

[Gos] released an amazing combination of leather pants and funky ankle boots for the current round of UBER & FaMESHed. The “Liz” ankle boots (UBER) and leather pants (FaMESHed)!

Again Gospel Voom amazed me with his design and texture skills on both creations. The leather pants have a perfect shine if you use the materials version and the booties fit perfect with the leather pants. It is always hard to find matching shoes for long pants without getting any mesh clipping problems. I chose black for both “Liz” creations, because they reflected the light so amazingly.

Shoes often do not ge the spotlight they deserve and that is why I included a close up with different colors, just in case the dark green swallows too much of the shoes 😉 The shoes again come in all popular body sizes and with the 3 amazing HUD options that lately are standard for [Gos]. The Boutique, the Blueberry and the Metallic HUD. AS well you have the choice for a materials enabled version and one without.

First I thought, To wear some gloves but then I found the amazing “Rallen” set that has makeup, lipstick and that amazing arms applier. That worked so much better than any gloves I found 😉

The cool and funky necklace was made by Zib Scaggs as well. I really do love her crazy and funky designs as they always ad a extravagant touch to every style.

The amazing veil, was made by a very dear friend of mine. She does create for quite some time now and it is amazing to see what fierce ideas she comes up with. Anyways if makeup, headpieces or accessories, she has that little ‘something’ that make her creations very special. The “Shell Veil” comes with a huge HUD for the veil itself and the ruffled flowers on the top of the head. You get all kind of color and texture options with that 🙂

I hope after my little venting at the top, I could do satisfaction to all those creations 😉

Thanks a lot for reading and maybe you have your own experiences and ways, how you deal with trolls and all those who try to make others look bad and want to share that in the comments 😉 Have a wonderful time and enjoy the happy side of life!

 

Outfit & Accessories:

Top: .:PULSE:. – “Proclivity Top” (Maitreya)

Staps: ::GB:: – “Body Belt” (Maitreya, Gacha)

Pants: [Gos] – “Liz Leather Pants” (Maitreya) – NEW @ FaMESHed

Shoes: [Gos] – “Liz Ankle Boots” (Maitreya) – NEW @ UBER

Rings: Meva – “Victorian Bento Rings” (Maitreya)

Headpiece: Spartin Parx – “Shell Veil”

Necklace: Zibska – “Syra”

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: Opale – “Yunjin”

Makeup 1: .AiShA. – “Be Dramatic Eyeshadow 3” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup 2: Zibska – “Rallen Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Rallen Lips” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Arms: Zibska – “Rallen” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon

Signs: *paper moon* – “City Ord. Signs”

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

Pink Therapy!

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Pink always was and is a challenge to me. Some of you might remember times, when I tried to act like I had a pink allergy and even had a special skin with pimples and spots. Or if I got pink outfits for shows, I always predicted I had to have my medicine and pills with me to not get those allergy symptoms again. It was fun times and for what ever reason even nowadays people approach me about that allergy 😉

That even more encourages me sometimes, to try something in pink as it can be a very strong color and not just a Barbie girl tone.

First I wanted to do a picture where I sit on an object, because I wanted to showcase the shoes as well as the dress, the hair and the jewelry. I realized, if I just have a simple standing pose, most of the time the shoes get lost in the whole picture as they turn out way to tiny compared to the the rest of the picture. But I did not just want a little close up on the blog either and no hint for my flickr picture.

Everything what I tried to sit on – that did not seem boring and strong enough as well as matching my mood – did not work out. After some time I really got frustrated and had to step away from the whole thing. I logged out and went to the couch, to continue reading my book. After a couple of hours, I took a look at the watch and it was not yet that late. I thought I should give it another try and see if now the muse would be genuine enough to come back and maybe even kiss me again.

First I did throw the idea away to pose sitting on something and reduced the set drastically to some lights and effects from E.V.E Studio. I still was I a certain mood, which I wanted to express via the pictures as well. Something pensive, lightly fragile and with – here I have to credit Ephemeral Skye, since he was so kind to listen to my frustration and had kind words, which helped to go back to the whole project – “a hint of defiance in her as well”. It made me speechless that he tried to see “behind” the picture and saw what I tried to aim for. He is an incredible artist, which I adore personally for his creativity and ideas and if someone with that outrageous skills gives you such kind words… that is really motivating I have to admit and I am really grateful about that.

If you have a very minimal background, poses and angles count even more to have an interesting picture in the end. I love to jump into my Poseidon poses folder when I try to have a strong mood or attitude in mind. I have no idea how Gryphon Vendetta does it, but he ALWAYS hits the nail on the head when he makes his poses. They are so strong and expressive, even if they have an ’emo’ feeling to them. You can play with the angles amazingly with Poseidon poses as there is always more than one view that works. With the right crops you can even use extreme poses or flying poses without having their initial purpose shown.

Before I now go back to my inventory and look, what I could use for my next look, I would like take a closer look at the shoes, even if they are shown in the picture at the beginning. I so often feel that shoes are underestimated and as well way too often taken for granted.

The new “Charlie Platform Sandals” are available at the actual round of Fameshed (like the amazing dress that I am wearing for todays post as well). The perfect spring season heels come as usual for Maitreya, Slink and Belleza feet and have the amazing 3 new HUDs that [Gos] includes for all their new releases. The Boutique HUD for the amazing [Gos] colors we all know,  as well the Metallic and the Blueberry HUD with matching colors for your Blueberry clothing.

Afterall I have to admit… pink isn’t that bad 😉

Outfit & Accessories:

Dress: [Gos] – “Charlie Wrap Dress” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fameshed

Shoes: [Gos] – “Charlie Platform Sandals” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fameshed

Collar & Brows: Zibska – “Florenz”

Cuffs: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Mordrem”

Rings: *elise* – “Brenda” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nails: ::SG:: – “Catarina” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: A&Y Cybernetics – “Cyber Ghost”

Makeup: Zibska – “Agafia Eyemakeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoos:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Ears: ^^Swallow^^ – “Pixie Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Face: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon

Props: E.V.E Studio – “Heart Stars-Leaves” & “Sunny Spells”

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

No matter where you go, everyone’s connected…

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“ You will be required to do wrong no matter where you go. It is the basic condition of life, to be required to violate your own identity. ”

[Philip K. Dick, Do Androids Dream of Electric Sheep?]

I do have an addiction for cyber punk and futuristic looks… but I guess thats not new;)

What is new is the hairstyle from A&Y which I completely fell in love with 😉

A&Y always was one of my first choices for cyber or futuristic hair. The ideas of Anabel Crystal, Owner and designer of A&Y, are just incredible amazing. She has that special look to all her creations, when you see designs you immediately know she made them. The “Lucia Cyber Hair” is a perfect example for the incredible eye for the detail of Anabel Crystal. The haistyle is an unsymmetrical one, which I anyways love and it is decorated with amazing tubes on one side, which go around, down the neck to meet the tail on the other side.

What I adore as well is that with A&Y has some super vibrant colors in their hair. You can wear them as one color only or you can use the strong colors to set an accent to your style. That brings me to the amazing HUD for the A&Y hair. When I first used it, it took me a moment, to realize I cannot immediately use it, I have to connect the HUD first to my hairstyle. So you wear your hair, then the HUD and the you use the connect button on the HUD to ‘activate’ both to work together. The great advantage of that HUD is, that you can choose each section, which you want to color separately and clearly labeled. Each part of the tubes, the hair parts and every single decoration. I rarely saw such complex and great HUDs for hair, that are to operate so easy and detailed.

Certainly such a great hair needed a strong look to go with. I wanted to underline the cyber though with a non human skin. I remembered that I got an amazing unusual skin pack from YS&YS longer ago, with 4 very different colored skin tones. The great metal effect for the skin and the face, was part of another skin from YS&YS but it perfectly worked with the Zafiro tone from the “Ginny” pack. With the “Samara” outfit from Wicca’s Wardrobe, the cool stompers from DRD, the cyber arm from Naurolab Inc. and the long claws from Meva the look totally nailed a cyber look for me.

While I was styling the look for today I already got more cyber ideas :p So I guess it should not be too long until my next futuristic post 😉

 

Outfit & Accessories:

Outfit & Bracelets: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Samara” (Maitreya)

Shoes: DRD – “p.a.n stompers” (Size 2)

Left Arm: Neurolab Inc. – “EV3 Android” (Maitreya)

Rings: Meva – “Bento Maitreya Rings Silver” (Maitreya)

Nails: Meva – “Bento Claw” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: [A&Y] Cybernetics – “Lucia Cyber Hair”

Hairbase: Mina – “Myla” (LeLutka Applier, part of a hairstyle)

Lipstick: Izzie’s – “Metallic Lipsticks” (LeLutka Applier)

Body and Tattoos:

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Skin: YS&YS – “Ginny” (LeLutka/Maitreya Applier)

Tattoo & Faceart: YS&YS – “Pris” (LeLutka/Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Background: MINIMAL – “Futuristic Backdrop”

Poses: Poseidon

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

Last Day before Christmas…

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Again we only have one day left for Christmas. In Germany we celebrate Christmas on the 24th, in my family usually in the afternoon or evening. It never was a huge party we we only have the closest family around. This year it will be my mom, my brother and his girl friend, Red and myself.

Usually the last day before Christmas was very hectic, as I never made it to have all Christmas presents together in time 😉 This year I am all set and done \o/

So all I have left is preparing the apartment and do some Christmas tree decorating. It is a great feeling if you have everything ready and just can relax and enjoy the pre-Christmas feeling 😉

You can make your self a nice cocoa or – what I like even more – a nice ‘Glühwein’. It was really a wonderful day today and that brought me on today’s pictures and post.

First I only wanted to do a shoe post about the amazing “Kendall” ankle boots from [Gos]. The Kendall boot is a peep-toe leather biker ankle boot. Accented by double buckles and exposed zipper detail, Kendall is sure to add flair.
Kendall is available in 3 colour HUDs – Boutique, Blueberry, and Metallics – each sold separately. The Boutique HUD includes 14 current, in-season colors perfect for any fashionista, the Blueberry HUD includes 21 colors which coordinate with clothing from Blueberry, and the Metallics HUD include 6 metallics which will have your feet shining. Each HUD also includes 5 sole, 3 metal, 7 lining, and 2 heel options.

Based on the shoes I wanted to do a winter, cozy look and I just took the awesome “Lila Sweater” from .:Avanti:. and an older gacha hair, that I never used as I never found the right style for it. To not have bare legs with my denim shorts, I wanted some tights and remembered the cool socks/tights combination I got a few weeks ago, which even had a toe-less option – perfect for the peep-toe boots!

While I was playing with poses and some decorations… my sweet little niece India showed up and we all know how kids can be… curious especially one day before Christmas. She sat down with her little Rudolph cuddly toy and wanted some hot chocolate. She had a lot to tell from Kindergarten and about Christmas and certainly she asked me all those questions about Santa. she did not forget to mention that she hopes Santa got her wish-list in time this year and when I would think that he will come. I told her that we still need to get the cookies out the fridge later and make a little plate for Santa with them. I should not have mentioned the cookies I guess since India is the biggest cookie monster I ever met :p I had a hard time to tell her we cannot eat the cookies for Santa and that she better keeps her hands off them and that they are only belong to Santa and how important it would be to give them to him.

Finally I made it, to get her into her bed and after a little bedtime story she closed her eyes and fell asleep with a smile on her face. I closed the book and turned the lights off before I left the room and went back down to continue decorating and drinking the last few sips of my ‘Glühwein’ before I got sleepy myself and went to bed.

If you want to see India’s little over nightsecret… just take a look at her cute story 😉 https://indiaamari.wordpress.com/2017/12/23/its-almost-christmas/

I wish all of you Merry Christmas and hope you can enjoy the next days with your family and friends as much as I will 🙂

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Top: .:Avanti:. – “Lila Sweater” (Maitreya)

Pants: GizzA – “Betsy Demin Shorts” (Maitreya, store closed)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Kendall Boots” (Maitreya)

Knee: .:Avanti:. – “Knit Knee Warmer” (Maitreya)

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Cozy Tights” (Maitreya Applier)

Gloves: Blackburns – “Short Knit Gloves” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: Sleepy Eddy – “Handknotmuffler+Nao” (Gacha, Rare)

Makeup: alaskametro<3 – “Soiree” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “Fall Runway” (LeLutka Apllier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Facetattoo: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses & Props:

Ladder: 22769 – “Library Stepladder” (Gacha, Common)

Tree: [Chic Buildings] – “Holiday Trimming Tree Pale” + “Ornaments Box Pale”

Drink: RazzBerry Inc. – “Sugar Cookie Cocoa”

Reindeer: Sweet Lies – “Female Reindeer Bow” (Gacha, Common)

Hot Chocolate Set: -tres blah- – “Cozy Winter – Hot Chocolate”

Poses: Poseidon

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

Illusion – Sometimes you wish…

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Illusion

I know it’s hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt, I don’t want you to change
Because everyone has hopes, you’re human after all
The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand. Please, don’t cry now

Being like you are
Well this is something else, who would comprehend?
But some that do, lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them
That’s not what I believe, and it doesn’t matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last, but I’m still not sure
But what I do know, is to us the world is different
As we are to the world but I guess you would know that

Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, oh please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to change
For all the hurt that you feel
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you
[VNV Nation]

VIDEO

This video, inspired me for today’s post. In the moment when I saw the amazing “Uh Oh Makeup” from Slackgirl.
We all know that – sometimes we desire to be something or someone else. Those moments when all those self-doubts devour you from the inside and you just wish to escape your own body or the situation that you are in. But would that really be worth it? It might seem easier on the first view but would you not miss your past, all the things that made you to what you are now? Would this new desire not make it even worse? Would this moment not come again some when – a new desire to again be someone or something else?
I do think those moments let us grow. Each time they happen and we work them through we gain experiences and as well come out of them even stronger.
Secondlife to me was such an escape in the past. When my RL turned upside down, Wicca was my refuge. I know how crazy that must sound, but others find their hide out in alcohol and drugs so for that amount of time where it was really bad, I am happy I had Wicca instead. I always was aware of, that it was a running from reality and I never believed SL could be any kind of reality than a virtual one. So I was well aware of what I did and did not lose myself in a virtual environment completely.
I know we all say, that we know Secondlife is a game and that we always can press the red “X” on the right upper corner. But if you are in SL for 10 years, your avatar and the people around you as well as the things you do become a part of you. Certainly I would not go around and tell my RL friends I am a model in SL and that would count anything towards my RL… if that makes sense. But I can tell about a game that I play and that I use it as my free time fun like others use other things – for example surfing on the internet, doing YouTube videos, doing handicrafts or what ever they enjoy in their free time, besides work and socializing in real life.
Nowadays I am not going to SL to escape anymore. My online times are way shorter as they used to be back then and sometimes I do not log in for days when I have RL appointments or wanna meet friends. The purpose of login in changed, but I still do have fun with Secondlife – just different.
I still enjoy to do things that I could not do in real life and as well I do enjoy designing a lot. To me designing is kinda the same as for others doing handicrafts maybe. Producing something and see how something grows under your fingers until you have a final product. The same applies to blogging and making pictures 😉
Secondlife can be an addiction, yes as you can easily lose yourself in it, but if you are aware of that, it can be a nice hideout with lots of fun and meeting amazing people – some even might become part of your real life out there 🙂
For me Secondlife never could replace my real – I do love my life now, but it is a nice way to live parts of your dreams and illusions 😉
Details
Clothing & Accessories:
Outfit: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita – Onepiece” (Gacha, for the Galatea Doll Lolita Body)
Necklace: shanghai – “Xana”
Headpiece: [sys] – “Hecate”
Hair & Makeup:
Face Art: Slackgirl – “Uh Oh Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo:
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”
Skin: YS&YS – “Immortal Skin” (LeLutka Applier)
Body: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita Body” (Gacha, Rare)
Props & Poses:
Fruct0se & Poseidon
Model & Photographer:

Sporty Moment

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Yes, sometimes even me has a sporty urban moment*giggles*

This time it was the shoes that totally got me and when I bought them at the last sale of Reign. I always was in love with that shoes, but when they were in the sale I could not anymore resist.

The shoes come in 3 different colors if you get the fatpack and all 3 are just awesome 😉 They are made of 2 parts so you could wear them as short ones too without the upper thigh parts.

First I wanted to do a baseball looking style but I did not find all the stuff I wanted for it so I decided to go with a ‘Sporty Spice’ look 😉

That kind of style is out of my personal comfort zone, but sometimes it is fun to try those as well 😉

 

Details

Jacket: Sabotage – “Sports Bomber Jacket” (Maitreya)

Top: GizzA – “Lucy Tank” (Maitreya)

Pants: [sYs] – “Ride” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Reign – “Suicide Heels” (Maitreya)

Hair: Mina – “Indica”

Necklace: Minimal – “Chiker Bow Tie”

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)

Basics

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Shape: Selfmade

Set

Background: anxiety – “Sunday pack %83”

Poses: Poseidon

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Dark Visions

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Dark Visions

There’s something hidden
In the depthsof the night
From a placenot forbidden
But deprived of light
A landscape of mistery
Is the other side
Derying the limits
Of the mind

Dark Visions
Fragment of a story that’s not a lie
Dark vision
Image of an existence destinedto die
Dark visions

A raid into the unknown
Enigmatic strangeland
Where the incognito’s grown
Harder to understand
The faceof silence
The likehood of fear
A reflex that will slowly
Disappear

Nightmares and dreams
Fictions or realities
Dark Visions

[Alien Produkt]

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Outfit: Zibska – “Lilitu” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Secret Affair

Shoes: Reign – “Kendall” (Maitreya)

Nails: glYph – “Apex” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: Analog Dog – “Pipe Dream”

Makeup: Slackgirl – “SecretFreak” (Omega Applier) – NEW @ The Secret Affair

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon

Props: E.V.E Studio – “KOI Square Confetti Ring” & “Sugarflies {Red}”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

I won’t back down

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I Won’t Back Down

Well I won’t back down
No I won’t back down
You could stand me up at the gates of hell
But I won’t back downNo I’ll stand my ground
Won’t be turned around
And I’ll keep this world from draggin’ me down
Gonna stand my ground
And I won’t back down

Well I know what’s right
I got just one life
In a world that keeps on pushin’ me around
But I’ll stand my ground
And I won’t back downHey baby there ain’t no easy way out
Hey I won’t back down
Hey baby there ain’t no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground
And I won’t back down
No I won’t back down
[Tom Petty]
Details
Clothing & Accessories:
Dress: United Colors – “Simone” (Maitreya)
Shoes: Hucci – “Itabuna Boots” (Maitreya)
Armstraps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arm” (Maitreya)
Headpiece: PFC – “Roach”
Makeup & Hair:
Facepaint: PFC – “Roach” (LeLutka Applier)
Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)
Hairbase: Mina – “Myla” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo:
Head: LeLutka – “Somine 3.0”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Brimstone” (Maitreya Applier) – NEW @ On9
Poses & Props:
Poses: Poseidon
Set:
Trees: Little Branch – “Spooky Tree 1 & 4”
Branches: [we’re CLOSED] – “Shrub Large Bare”
Skulls: [Kres] – “Dragon King” – NEW @ We ♥ RP

The Darkness Inside

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I did think a long time about a title for this post and pictures and after a conversation with a dear, sweet friend today, I suddenly had the idea – “The dark beast inside of me sometimes needs some release”

We all know that feeling I guess. You often just try to be polite and kind even if you feel that the inner beast tries to break free. In my life I learned that his beast has two different sides. It is very emotional and hot-headed on one side and sometimes it can be very dark ironic and sarcastic on the other. That is why I learned to control it and keep it locked in chains inside of me.

Certainly I was told to not always swallow all my emotions and everything that I get told, but the same time there is way how you can express this in a polite and adult way.

The most difficult it gets when you feel hurt. Because then this beast inside just rambles and rattles with the chains, developing immense power so that I sometimes really be afraid it would break that chains and just break free.

But exactly those situations taught me the most. When I was able to still keep it inside, it felt as a success to not let it win over me just because of someones judgement, rumors, gossips or words.

Every time I was able to keep it locked away, I felt that I did grow stronger. It was a long process and it took me years and sadly it is still not perfectly locked. But maybe it does not have to be, because everything has an end as well and so does patience, understanding and politeness. Sometimes people really need to know when they overstepped a line or did hurt me even if they will not believe nor change their behaviour – most of the time because they can’t as they have nothing in their life than trying to make others miserable. Then you do not even need to argue with those, because you can’t win. Anyways what you will say to prove them wrong they will turn it around and again use it against you no matter what. So all you can do is let it go, turn around and move on.

If you move on, you will meet new people in the future who will treat you with more respect and in an adult way. Certainly not only those, but all the others will wait for you left and right as well and maybe it is the personal challenge of everyone’s life to pass those who do not matter to meet those who DO matter – if that makes any sense. That does not mean you should not take any critiques, but you can learn to decide between the good and the bad critique. The bad, that only was used to hurt, blame or accuse you without any content OR the one that sometimes hurts too a bit – because you might have seen it different – but that as well contains facts and things that let you learn and grow from.

In the end you are the one, that has to make the decisions in your life – nobody can do or should do that for – as long as you can.

For me it feels better to have a mainly positive life (all of us have bad days or experiences) instead of a hate filled, jealous and not satisfied one. I always ask myself – before I react on things – if it would be worth fighting or arguing about something, or just smile and say thank you, turn around and move on. Both cases did happen and both will happen in the future, but if I argue or discuss I try to stay with the facts, be polite and kind and as well stay adult and not just release the inner beast without thinking. If that happens, I exactly would do that, what I do not want be done to myself – hurt, accuse or become personal and unobjective – and that is not an option to me if I can control it. I have to admit, over the years I became way more calm in such situations and maybe it is the age that lets you think before you take any action 😉

Details

Clothing & Accessoires:

Outfit: Salt & Pepper – “Strapped” (Gacha, Maitreya)

Arms Straps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arms” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Bax – “Regency Boots”

Chains: E.V.E Studio – “{Apocalyptica} Cyber Snake Chains”

Makeup & Hair:

Hair: A&Y Bunker – “Cyro Hair”

Hairbase: Mina – “Myla Hairbase” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup: Zibska – “Ballard Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: Swallow – “Pixie Ears”

Arms: Zibska – “Speckles” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Pose: Poseidon