Free your Mind and find Yourself!

TUNES

Before her surrender she had no life
Now she’s a slave, not a wife
Her only sorrow is for women who live with lies
She’s taken off her disguise

[Manowar]

I do love the song above and it is basically a song that has a lot of meaning to me and Red and it was just perfect for this pictures and post. In general it is not always easy if you have to hide parts of your life even to close friends just because the ‘society’ doesn’t really appreciate or understand them. I am not only talking about BDSM or D/s, but as well as things like a male loves a male, or a female loves a female, or if you have a job that other won’t understand whatever it would be. As well as if kids do not have any label clothing because they do not have a rich family, but do not want anyone to know about that when they go to school or meet other kids. There is many things that people have to hide in all kind of ways to make it through their life. The older I get the less I do want to hide things. They are a part of me and they do make me to what I am now. Even for being a musician, I often had to say I am teaching music or I do work somewhere else and just do music in my free time or on weekends. Over 20 years ago when I started my music career, music wasn’t something that was considered as a job and I often heard “And when you will learn something proper to pay your bills?”. Sure it wasn’t the life of a millionaire, especially in the beginning I had to do a lot of side jobs to make sure my bills got pair and it wasn’t only fun all the time. The longer I followed my personal decision, the better it became and in the end I was able to prove them all wrong and made my life out of music completely and it feels awesome.

Why other people or the so called ‘society’ do think they are allowed to tell one person, what to do and what not to do as long as they do not violate the law? Since when law should be able to dictate who you love, or even worse what gender you love? Just because certain religions and a lot of old fashioned people think that would be right? At school we teach all of our kids, the gifted ones and the non gifted ones that they can do what ever they can imagine in their life and be happy with that… and with that we lie to them already, as so many factors will force them to just do something that is accepted by our ‘society’ somehow. I am not anymore a rebel that only fights against exactly that ‘society’ and tries to break free like people in the 70s already tried – I am too old for that and I am way more critical about certain things these days, even if sometimes my punk breaks free and needs its room as well from time to time ๐Ÿ˜‰

Even in SL when I started modeling, people tried to tell me what I should do and what I should not do and that made me even more angry than in real life. Again, I am always talking about things that do not hurt other people or violate the TOS and the law, I am talking about things like “You can not wear shaved hair and piercings while you are in a gown” or “You can not jump between style categories, hair colors orย  wear wings, elf ears and hooves to a casual spring dress!” or “If you blog for this store you should not blog for that store as they do not really like each other!” – WTF!!! This is SL! I can do what ever I please especially on my blog, my pictures or my wardrobe! No one pays me a monthly salary and can dictate my Second Life for that! I can make decisions and like in real life I have to be able to stand behind them even if I can not be everyones darling then, which NEVER works in both lifes anyways on a long term if you do not want to lose yourself. You have value, your life and opinions do have value… in our modern times there is no room for hate about religions, races, nations, other opinions and new inventions or fictions. Our past should have taught us, that we need free spirits to evolve and that hate never brought out any productive. Sometimes we need to know a person before we can judge about them and even if we do we should never try to limit or tell them what they should not do – we should encourage them to tell us about their ideas and ideologies and even if we decide that they are feeling right for us they feel right for them and need to be heard. I do not know, if that makes any sense and I am well aware of that a nation needs rules, traditions and laws to work, but all of that doesn’t give anyone the right to destroy others lifes, or make it miserable, as long as they are not guilty of a heavy crime. I am sick and tired of hearing what would be the best of me, when I can feel that this comments are just made out of jealousy, vindictiveness and power games. I did survive – RL and SL –ย  with going my way. I did not hurt too many people in my life and those I did hurt, if I realized it I at least had the decency to apologize and see if I could make up for what I did wrong – but you only can do that if you have friends that have the strength and grace to tell you and not just go away and talk bad behind your back. I am grateful, for all of those that stuck to me through both lifes even if I had my moments and arguments with them. They helped me to become what I am now – even if I am still no millionaire, I found luck and satisfaction in my life and as well my place in my life. There are still days, where other people try to shake and rattle my pillars and the principle, sometimes it even still hurts, but they do have a way more difficult task to do as they had to in my past. I am not saying I know everything, or I am done learning in my life… that probably never stops and I am always open minded to what ever crosses my paths, but it isn’t anymore that easy to turn my life upside down and make me question everything I experienced and learned in my life.

Just imagine, what would feel more nice if you meet a new person in your life… to look a them, judge them about their first view and words or just smile, be friendly and see what they to have to say on a second view? They might have solutions for things you did not yet found some… they might have to hide things on your first meeting as they are scared you will judge them and turn around leaving them without even really knowing them, or have given them a chance to show you who they really are? And… just turn it the other way round… how you would feel if you are judged by your cover and not even given a chance to show who you really are?

I would like to close todays post with a quote from an En Vogue song, as I really believe in that every day more, the older I get:

“Before you can read me you gotta learn how to see me, I said
Free your mind and the rest will follow
Be colour blind, don’t be so shallow.”

Clothing

Cape: ERSCH – “Devilish Joy Dress Black” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Harness: OHeMO – “Olivia Body Harness” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Mosquito’s Way – “Britney” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Horns: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Horns Dracarys” – NEW @ Fetish Fair // August 2019

Forearm Sleeves: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme – Black” (Maitreya)

Collar: #187# – “Leashed Collar”

Piercings: *PKC* – “BDSM Bento Face Set”

Rings: : CULT :ย  – “Rou Rings Sset” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nails: FORMANAILS – “Stiletto 1” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: +Spellbound+ – “Control” (part of the BoundBox, no longer avbailable)

Makeup: Zibska โ€“ โ€œNoir Pack 06โ€ (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: LIVIA – “Juniper Lipstick” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Forehead Tattoo: CURELESS[+] – “Onibi Markings” (Omega Applier)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Marks: .:Avanti:. – “Rope Marks Applier” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

Sari-Sari – “Puppet Skybox”

Mushilu – “0005bg Whip and Whispers complete”

BackBoneย  -“Toy Rack”

{RW} – “Hanging Chain Deco – Pewter”

Fapple – “BDSM Tool Box”

[ zerkalo ] – “Handcuff Chair – Leather”

22769 ~ [bauwerk] – “Leather Whip”

Tool for Face Expressions: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“Wait for me at 8 o’clock” he said…

“Alone in the room, she impatiently waited
No aphrodisiac could have kept her sedated
Quietly, he entered, his scent filled the room
He knew her lust for him, would be her doom…”
[Dorinda Duclos]

Today I was in a little bit of a fetish mood and wanted to play a little bit *grins*

The “Aida” head from LeLutka, had such cute, but as well smart touch for me, that I came across the idea of a girl waiting for her Master coming home. I read many novels and books about BDSM and submission. Many of them had the situation in them, about a girl being at home waiting for her Master’s return (from work or what ever). Even in the Fifty Shades of Grey fairytale, he wants her to wait kneeling at the door of the playroom when he enters. That kind of situation I had in mind when I was taking todays pictures.

I did not want to do a mainstream nude or lingerie picture and when I found the “Leonie” dress from amias, I could not resist to use that one and pimp it a little bit with the “Collar of O” And the “Dandy Harness” from Salt & Pepper.

Today I would love to talk a little bit about shapes. I had a talk with a dear friend lately and she creates shapes. During my modeling times, I have to admit I never was wearing pre-made shapes.ย  I learned in several model schools, that the shape/face is the models trademark and somehow that is true. I come from a time in SL where we not even yet dreamed of sculpts or mesh or other body parts than the system body Second Life gave us. So we had to learn how to make our own unique shape and be able to change and twist it if needed for clothing, skins or accessories. When the first generation of sculpted body parts came out or even more when the first generation of bento heads came out – the static ones – it was quite a problem as all of a sudden we could not anymore work on our faces more than having different skins to make them look at least a bit different from others that bought the same head. When the next generation of the bento heads came out we all were kinda relieved as we now had at least a little bot of our freedom back to customize our facial shape again a little more due new bones.

While I always made my shapes myself as a model, I learned how handy pre-made shapes can be when I have to to vendors and teasers for the store or if I am showcasing different heads. If you go out and ask people about their shapes, most will snort and tell you, they won’t be up for sale as they made them their own. If you ask others where they bought their shapes they will tell you what kind of a loss of money it would be, as you can make your own shape. But maybe sometimes you do not feel to sit down and make your own shape? Or you tried and they end up looking always the same and you want to look different? Or they do not feel comfortable with what they did because they do have trouble with finding the right proportions? There is various reasons why people try ready made shapes and there is nothing wrong with it. Most of the shapes I know are even modifiable and you can use them as a base to create your own, having a rough idea for the basic numbers of a direction you like.

So, today I am wearing one of WrenNoir Cerise’s shapes. The “Alba” shape from {wren”s nest} was made for the “Aida” head from LeLutka. Most of the shapes nowadays are based on one specific heads, as you can really get funny looks if you do the wrong thing to a shape for a certain head. I sometimes tried for fun to wear shapes made for LeLutka on LAQ heads what really looks incredible funny. Wren usually has more than one shape in her packs – she provides for example a ‘proportional’ one, a ‘slightly curvy’ and a ‘tall & slender’ and if you get lucky sometimes even a ‘BONUS Candy Size’ which is a little smaller and I do love exactly those ๐Ÿ™‚ With the “Alba” shape I was lucky, there was a ‘candy size’ one in there. As well you will find different eyebrow shapes in the pack and as well a style-card. The style card might be useful, if you would like to copy the exact look of the vendor picture, because even skins do matter and not every skin will make the shape and/or the head look the same. For this post I did not work on the shape at all, so what you see is exact the one I pulled from the pack, but as I mentioned before, you can modify them!

Next time you get asked, where you have your shape from or if you would know a place where good shapes are sold… don’t drag them down by only saying they should make their own… give them a chance to learn from ready made shapes or just being lazy and still look good ๐Ÿ˜‰

Clothing

Outfit: amias – “Leonie” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Blueberry – “Cupcake Boots – Sharp Heels” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Collar: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Collar of O” (Maitreya)

Harness: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Dandy Harness” (Miitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Nails: FORMANAILS – “Wedding” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Click”

Makeup: Zibska โ€“ โ€œNoir Pack 06โ€ (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 โ€“ Londonโ€ (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLutka – “Aida 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Shape: {wren’s nest} – “Alba Proportional – LeLutka Aida Bento Head”

Skin: alaskametro<3 – “Sunny” (LeLutka/Omega Applier)

Eyes: LeLutka – “Eyes.Korina 3.3”

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Couch:ย 22769 – “Chesterfield Couch Black”

Table: DRD – “Bondage Sidetable Dark”

Glass:ย 22769 – “Martini” (Gacha, Common)

Sculpture 1:ย 22769 – “The Hidden”

Sculpture 2:ย 22769 – “Bronze Flamingo Figurines” (Gacha, Common)

Toys: BackBone – “Toy Rack”

Whip:ย 22769 – “Leather Whip”

Wallart: 22769 – “Metal Wallart” (Gacha, Common)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Red Trench…

“Tess, there’s about as much chance of me getting behind a desk as there is of me getting a new girlfriend.”

[Dick Tracy]

I do not know why, but when I tried on the “Roxy” gacha set, I instantly had a Dick Tracy feeling *giggles* Probably it was the cool trench coat of the set ๐Ÿ˜‰

The “Roxy” gacha set is an awesome collaboration between [Gos] and Lybra. While Lybra made the lingerie and the trench coat, [Gos] contributed the cool boots. The lingerie fits amazingly under the trench and for a cool RP, I can see a complete use for that *giggles* I guess I will have to showcase the lingerie some when as well, but for today I just wear it underneath the trench coat and it just pokes out here and there when my pixels move ๐Ÿ˜‰

The super cute hair was my by no.match one of my personal favorite hair stores. The huge wavy hair matched perfect to my little “Dick Tracy” mood. It originally was made for the COSMOPOLITAN event but it should be at the main store by now.

Now you will wonder, why Wicca looks so ‘young today’… that has a special reason ๐Ÿ˜‰

As I stated before I feel so honored to be chosen as a LeLutka blogger and I certainly want to showcase all of their amazing work.ย  Today I am wearing the “Vera” head. Usually I try to look like a middle aged woman between 30 and 40 with my avatar, but the Vera head had such a cute vibe for me, I could not resist to get a young skin for it too. It is incredible how you can change the look of each LeLutka head with different skins and shapes. I did not have that for other bento mesh heads that much, that is probably the reason why I am so addicted about LeLutka heads *snickers* Plus the fact that they are so versatile, they do have an amazing HUD and I never ever had trouble with controlling my head completely. I know that many do have issues with HUD s from other heads, as they are either so many different HUDs, or one way too huge that isn’t that lag resistant. I enjoy the HUDs for the LeLutka heads a lot. They are clearly structured, have several tabs, that let you customize the heads with textures and animations and you even can do backup safeties for your heads if you get updates or if something goes wrong. You do do not have to set up your head from scratch you just can use your back up to restore your settings and safed makeups/skins on a fresh copy. LeLutka update their heads on a regular base with all new features like baked mesh and they are fixing minor issues, which I rarely notice before they get fixed ๐Ÿ˜‰ I soon have to make a post about the great add-ons too. Did you know that LeLutka made several candies that cooperate with their mesh heads? I love chewing their bubble gum inworld on my avatar – but that will be another post soon!

Clothing

Coat: Lybra – “Roxy Trench” (Maitreya, Gacha) – NEW @ Epiphany

Bra: Lybra – “Roxy Bra” (Maitreya, Gacha) – NEW @ Epiphany

Panties: Lybra – “Roxy Panties” (Maitreya, Gacha) – NEW @ Epiphany

Shoes: [Gos] – “Roxy Boots” (Maitreya, Gacha) – NEW @ Epiphany

Accessories

Necklace: < IDEALIA > – “Quera Necklace”

Bracelet (left): [ kunst ] – “Conrad Bracelet”

Bracelet (right): [ kunst ] – “Taylor Bracelet”

Nails: FORMANAILS – “Stiletto 1” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Affair”

Makeup: Izzie’s – “Perfect Liner” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: ALMA – “Fall” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Vera 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Skin: Glam Affair – “May” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

BackBone – “Office Life – Large Locker” (Gacha)

BackBone – “Office Life – Desk” (Gacha)

BackBone – “Office Life – Locker” (Gacha)

BackBone – “Office Life – Wall Basket 2” (Gacha)

BackBone – “Office Life – Frame” (Gacha)

BackBone – “Office Life – Life Wall Sign” (Gacha)

BackBone – “Office Life – Trash Can” (Gacha)

BackBone – “Office Life – Vintage Radiator” (Gacha)

BackBone – “Office Life – Industrial Rug” (Gacha)

BackBone – “Office Life – Stool” (Gacha)

BackBone – “Office Life – Floor Lamp” (Gacha)

BackBone – “Office Life – Desk Lamp Blue” (Gacha)

22769 – “Office Binder” (Gacha)

22769 – “Pencil Sharpener” (Gacha)

22769 – “Vintage Radio” (Gacha)

22769 – “Vintage Typewriter” (Gacha, GG Reward)

Fiasco – “Old Office Lotion and Tissues” (Gacha)

Fiasco – “Old Office Games Gift” (Gacha)

Fiasco – “Old Office Chair” (Gacha)

[La Baguette] – “Box of pizza 3 slice left v2”

[INDO] – “Soda Can”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“Burtonesque”

I sense there’s something in the wind, that feels like tragedy’s at hand.

And though I’d like to stand by him, can’t shake this feeling that we have.

The worst is just around the bend.

And does he notice my feelings for him?

And will he see how much he means to me?

I think it’s not to be.

[Sally, Nightmare before Christmas]

That I am a Tim Burton lover is not a secret. I love the movies and I as well love t he architecture and the clothing that is used in all of the movies. Anyways if Nightmare before Christmas, Corpse Bride or Beetlejuice ( and so many others certainly) – I am an addicted and saw them all more than once ๐Ÿ˜‰ I love the dark humor and the way how Tim Burton expresses things in his movies.

When I saw the “Elvina” outfit from .AiShA., I instantly had a ‘Buronesque’ idea in mind.

The striped leggings immediately pulled the “Burton” trigger in me :p

When I was looking for some furniture for my set, I just typed ‘Burton’ in my inventory search and had a lot of things coming up, that I already forgot that I have them!

I played around with the “Inspired by Burton” set from 22769 and completed the set with a bookshelf from Toiz and some parts of the “Burton Tea Party” from Cheeky Pea. I liked the shelf with the books falling out so much for the whole scene ๐Ÿ˜‰

It was really hard to choose from all the snaps I had – I had so much fun playing with the set and all of my Poseidon poses ๐Ÿ˜‰

Details

Outfit & Hat: .AiShA. – “Elvina” (Maitreya, Gacha items)

Shoes: Blueberry – “Fire Boots” (Maitreya)

Lingerie: ::c.A.:: – “Thea Bodysuit”

Hair: EMO-tions – “Lynette”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “FreeLove” (Maitreya Applier)

Mask: BackBone – “Leather Crow Mask”

Makeup: Zibska – “Nerine” (Lelutka Aplpplier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Powie Lips” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses: Poseidon

Set: 22769 – “Inspired by Burton”, :CP: – “Burton Tea Party” & Toiz – “S.T.A.Y bookshelf”

Basics:
Head: LeLutka โ€“ โ€œSimone 2.7โ€
Body: Maitreya โ€“ โ€œLara V4.1โ€
Eyes: IKON โ€“ โ€œHope Eyesโ€
Shape: Selfmade

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

โ€œThe hardest thing was simply to speak.โ€

โ€œThe chains and the silence, which should have bound her deep within herself, which should have smothered her, strangled her, on the contrary freed her from herself.โ€

[Pauline Reage]

The Story of O is an erotic novel of the French author Anne Desclos written under her pen name Pauline Reage.

Published in 1954 it was a very hot discussed book, maybe that is why it did take Anne Desclos so long to discover herself as the original author. Desclos claims , that she wrote the whole story as a series of letter to her lover Jean Paulhan.

She shares dreams, imaginations and desires, which are nowadays are not anymore that ‘abstract’ than they seemed back in 1954 ๐Ÿ˜‰

Based on the novel, dresses got tailored, according to the description of certain dresses that Pauline Reage made in her novel. Over the time we have many different ones – 50 years are a long time to have several ideas for such dresses ๐Ÿ˜‰ all of them required an open font and back as well as a topless option.

One of them in Second Life would be the “Story of O” outfit by Salt & Pepper. The outfit contains the wonderful dress with a huge HUD to change the texture of the leather and satin of dress to six different colors and as well the typical collar and the cuffs for wrists and ankles (as well HUD driven). If you take a closer look at the collar and the cuffs you again can see the filigree details on the chains and as well the texture on the dress with the combination of leather and satin shows the amazing designing skills of Salt.

The dress is top less as described in the novel but to keep it PG I decided to wear a bra for the picture ๐Ÿ˜‰ The wonderful bra comes from Blacklace and is part of the “Niki” set in red leather & lace. To me it looked perfect to the “Story of O” dress ๐Ÿ˜‰

For the makeup I used one eyeshadow of a set I lately kinda use only, as it gives me the perfect look for colorful lipsticks. The “Noir Pack 06” from Zibska. I really do love either colorful lipstick OR eyeshadow. With the bright, shiny red lipstick from je suis, the light smokey eyes from Zibska looked just perfect.

Speaking of lipstick from je suis… Julia Merosi is back with amazing new lipsticks for Catwa and LeLutka! Her new sets really cover each color you can imagine and with each tone you get 5 different shades of the color you purchased and certainly if you are addicted to have always a matching lipstick you will get the fact pack with all of them :p

Roleplay is a huge part of Second Life, any kind of different communities are virtually living their dreams, desires and fantasies – Which one is yours?

Details

Dress (incl Collar & Cuffs): Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Story of O” – NEWย  We <3 RP

Bra: Blacklace – “Niki” (Maitreya Applier)

Hair: DeLa – “Dorothy”

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06”

Lipstick: je suis… – “lelutka lips no. 002 – shiny [reds]” (LeLutka Applier)

Nail Polish: Dark Passions – “Dominatrix – Silver”

Poses: Poseidon

Basics:

Head: LeLutka โ€“ โ€œSimone 2.3โ€

Body: Maitreya โ€“ โ€œLara V3.5โ€

Eyes: IKON – “Hope Eyes”

Shape: Selfmade

Set:

Chains: {RW} – “Hanging Chain Deco”

Rack: Back Bone – “Toy Rack”

Cage: [zerkalo] – “Imprisoned Steel – Slave Cage”

Pillows: Stockholm & Lima – “Pillow Pile (PG)”

Whip: 22769 ~ [bauwerk] – “Leather Whip”

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Abandoned

Sing for your tears
a song of the hatred
No one can hear
’cause your life is forgotten
I want to give my life to you
but my will is tied with puppet strings
I am fighting and screaming alone
inside this empty room
They let you down, threw you in the rain
They let you down, sent you away… without a name

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The night is dark when you’re alone
and sometimes it can be so cruel
The rain keeps falling on me so coldly
’cause your wishes didn’t come true

Nothing seems real anymore
as I dive into the sea of lies
I don’t understand this sorrow
that keeps me sane

[Ensiferum]

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Details

Outfit: Phedora – “Sirena BodySuit”

Catsuit: Opiums Addiction – “Closed Catsuit” (Mesh Body Applier)

Shoes: Renegade – “Amber”

Head & Hair: Phedora – “Sirena Horse Head”

Collar: Cellar Door – Premonition Collar”

Leash: Diamante Pet – “Leash Implant”

Furniture: 22769 – “Minimalist Bed” & “Fetish Dinner”

Chains: Roawenwood

Rack: Backbone – “Toy Rack”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

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