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“I am the shadow on the moon at night, filling your dreams to the brim with fright.”

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RL sometimes really sucks… especially if it eats up more time as planned and it is not on your own to control it. I recently had a change in my RL job and the new association I am working for doesn’t seem like it is as promised when I had my interview there. I am sure many of you know that if you have your interview, everything sounds nice, all questions you had are answered positive, kinda like to good to be true and when you signed your contract, some things surprisingly change… I am sure I will work it out, but at the moment it just pulls on my nerves, it is time consuming and annoying.

It does hold me back from talking as much pictures as I planned and it does throw me back in my planned posts as well. But I will do my best to at least let all my dark visions for Halloween come true in time 😉

Today I do have some news from the mega cool Samhain event. It is a fantastic event, awesome venue and amazing designers do take part. My pictures today do showcase the incredible cool head piece from “CerberusXing”, the heavy arm chains from “Static”, the cool decor set from “Disorderly” and the amazing bra of the lingerie set from “The Rotting Lab”.

The uber-awesome face tattoo is a main store new release by “Eclipse Art Studio”, while you can find the amazing arms tattoo at the “Vegas Tattoos” main store.

I hope you enjoy the dark seas as much as I do – “I am the shadow on the moon at night, filling your dreams to the brim with fright.” — [Oogie Boogie]

Clothing

Top: . The Rotting Lab . – “Sauin Top” (Maitreya – NEW @ Samhain // October 2020

Belt: [Azuchi] – “Pirate Belt Black” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Headpiece: [CX] – “Mangkukulam” – NEW @ Samhain // October 2020

Chains: ::Static:: – “Draped Fetters” – NEW @ Samhain // October 2020

Rings & Claws: [CX] – “Essential Dirty Claws” (Maitreya)

Bracers: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme – Black” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair & Veil: MINA Hair – “Martha”

Eyeshadow 1: [LeLuck] – “MDM Eyshadow1” (BoM)

Eyeshadow 2: CURELESS[+] – “Undereyeliner” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Erin 2.0”

Face & Neck Tattoo: .:E.A.Studio:. – “TaTToo Scream Queen 60%” (BoM) – NEW @ Mainstore

Body: Maitreya – “Lara v5.3”

Arms Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark Take Over”

Shape: Denver’s Shapes – “Amy for LeLutka Erin head”

Poses, Props  Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Orb: [Val’More] – “Lightning Trapp Orb – 5” (Gacha, Common)

Table: DRD – “Shadowbox – Series 01 – Dining Table – Dark”

Decor: DISORDERLY. / – “Ritual Night” – NEW @ Samhain // October 2020

Posetool: Anypose – “BVH HUD v1.82”

Face Expression Tool: LELUTKA – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Could you lend me an eye, please?

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Today I have some perfect new for the actual season from Madame Noir combined with Hotdog and CerberberusXing. In the dark fantasy mood you can’t live without those brands – ok I never can live without them, but in these days they are even more desired by so many *winks*

So lets take a closer look… The incredible glasses with the long antennae or tentacles and the cool chains the connect both sides are a total must have for all those who love the scary things. To make it even more creepy,I added those cool eyeballs with the inbuilt arm/hand animation. They reminded me of a movie that  love a lot called Pan’s Labyrinth – I know the creature there had the eyeballs in the palms of the hand. To hold them properly and in style,  I felt I need some sharp claws certainly from CerberusXing. Since I am a tattoo addicted, I could not skip that awesome tattoo from Vegas which you can find at their main store.

As many of you know I love to play with opposites… and when I saw the new lipstick from CAZIMI, that originally was made to be sweet, sugarcoated lips, I could not resist to merge them into my look :p

The closer Halloween comes, the more stores release items for this special season… the more I lapse into that mood *grins wickedly*. For me that could go on through the whole year!

Clothing

Top: ~Nerido~ – “Malfa Top” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Forehead: [CX] – “Kishin Bindi”

Glasses: Madame Noir – “Insect Glasses” – NEW @ Miix Event // September 2020

Septum: BLAXIUM – “Aracnida Septum Piercing Unrigged – Silver”

Tongue Piercings: LeLUTKA – “BodyArt.Tng.Barbells EVO (unisex)”

Collar: HILTED – “Locked Collar”

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Shredder Claws – Silver” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: #CHAIN – “Safari Hair – XS”

Lipstick: CAZIMI – “Sugar Lips HD Lipstick (LeLutka)” (LeLUTKA HD Evo Applier)

Head, Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLUTKA – “Erin 2.0”

Ears: [CX] – “Sceleratis Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara v5.3”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark Grim Weather” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Backdrop: anxiety – “%nightvision (w/light)”

Eyeballs: Hotdog – “Borrowed Eyes”  – NEW Gift @ Engine Room

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Come inside, don’t be afraid, I’ll keep you safe…

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TUNES

Hey there, little girl
Come inside I’ve got some sweet things
Put your hair in curls
Paint you up just like a drag queen

I don’t mind decay?
‘Cause you are the night that saves my day

[-Pretty Reckless-]

Today I have a picture for you, which I created for my exhibition at the L’autre Oeil Gallery. They asked me to create 3 pictures for a special exhibition called “Halloween & Goth”. When I saw the Incredible “Plague Skeleton Creature” mask and hands from DRD, released at The Warehouse Sale, it was a must to use them for the picture idea that I had! The hands even come with a BoM layer to make a smooth seam between the hands and arms. While I was styling, I realized that CerberusXing just released new horns at Necrosis another cool event for this season you should not miss out!

The cool tattoo, which perfectly matched the look, I found at Nefekalum Tattoos and the awesome, filigree outfit was made by ERSCH.

This time of the year is like my personal Christmas season. I do love all the dark, mystic and scary things – I know… no news so far – and I can promise, that I already have a few more ideas in mind in that kind of style, for my next few blog posts 😉

Clothing

Outfit: ERSCH – “Vena” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Horns: [CX] – Apis Horns” – NEW @ Necrosis

Mask & Hands: DRD – “Plague Skeleton Creature” (Hands: Maitreya, Bento) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale

Hair & Makeup

Hair: MINA Hair – “Karen”

Head, Body & Tattoo

Body: Maitreya – “Lara v5.3”

Tattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Icarus Brans” (Maitreya Applier, Materials Enabled)

Poses, Props & Tools

Pose: Poseidon

Lamp: DRD – “Voodoo Shoppe – Spirit Lamp – Long”

Mobile: DRD – “Voodoo Shoppe – Bone Mobile – Long”

Gallery Location

L’autre Oeil Gallery

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Don’t Fear…

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TUNES

All our times have come
Here but now they’re gone
Seasons don’t fear the reaper
Nor do the wind, the sun or the rain, we can be like they are

[-Blue Öyster Cult-]
Clothing

Top: MEVA – “Gracie Top” (Maitreya Flat)

Accessories

Mask: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Naruky Mask Woman” – NEW @ Neo Japan // September 2020

Ear Accessories: Madame Noir – “Circe Ear Cuff” – NEW @ Sanarae // September 2020

Piercing 1: LeLUTKA – “River.Piercing.Lip.Ashley/Laubert” (part of the River head)

Piercing 2: LeLUTKA – “River.Piercing.Lips. Frenulum/Tongue” (part of the River head)

Piercing 3: LeLUTKA – “River.Piercing.Nose.Austin/Septum” (part of the River head)

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Creature Claws – Silver” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No_Industry”

Lipstick: CAZIMI – “Intuition HD Lipstick (LeLutka) 04 Bewitching” – NEW @ Mainstore

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “River 2.0”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Akasuna Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara v5.3”

Body Add-On: Maitreya – “Flat Chest Add-On”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark The Fusion” (BoM) – NEW @ MOM // September 2020

Poses, Props & Tools

Weapon: [CX] – “Reforged Reaper” – NEW @ Engine Room // September 2020

Cigarette: BellePoses – “Cigarette (Add) 2 L”

Pose: Foxcity – “Tomorrow-1m”

Model & Photograper

Wicca Merlin

Ballet – Classic versus Contemporary

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Eclipse Magazine, August 2020: https://issuu.com/eclipsemagazinesl/docs/eclipse_magazine_august_2020

For this issue of the Eclipse Magazine I was thinking a long time what I could do. I wanted a challenge for myself and I wanted to show that I can do different genres, not just the scary and crazy stuff 😉

When I thought about what would be the most opposite thing for me to do, I came across ballet. Something graceful and beautiful. While I was doing some research about it, I came across contemporary ballet as well. That really caught my attention, because I found some very impressing as well as emotional pictures and videos. That formed an idea of having 2 different pictures for the magazine – classic and contemporary. In the classic ballet I found very strict rules for the look and even for the hairstyles, while contemporary ballet gives you more freedom in that.

I felt like I was entering a new world, even if ballet wasn’t completely new for me – as a kid I had to go through that kids ballet classes like so many of us. It didn’t last long as I had more fun with gymnastics, riding, swimming and playing volleyball and so those ballet classes stopped after at most a year I think. Being a punk and later a gothic girl in my teens and twens, ballet wasn’t a thing or an option at all *giggles*

Seeing all those pictures and videos, inspired me a lot and the idea for this month genre was made. While I was thinking, where I could find the clothing and accessories for my new idea, Salt & Pepper must have read my mind. She released a huge set of ballet collection at Equal 10 with her “Ballet Dancer Set”. That was the perfect outfit for my classic ballet dancer. I couldn’t even use all parts for my first picture, that means I will have to do another post to show the whole beauty and contents of that set.

For my second picture, I did remember a set, which I already showcased on my blog in the light version. Since I wanted the classic ballet to be in a light muted color, the contemporary ballet was meant to be darker and more ‘me’ and my personal thought of it and so the “Skye Dancer” gacha in black was the perfect choice for what I had in mind. I am really a lover of mix and match but sometimes, if you go for a certain look or genre, mixing too many things and overload the avatar can be contra-productive. That is why I nearly have no accessories or anything that could disturb from the essence of the picture, the emotions and the mood.

A huge thank you goes out to my sister Daffodil Crimson, who helped me with the amazing description for the magazine. English is not my native language, so I often hit her IM box, if it comes to “official” texts for magazines and such. Usually I do collect facts and free sources or try to  write somethings on my own, if I am familiar with the theme. For the ballet one I only had a brief idea what I wanted to be written and that time Daffi jumped in and wrote everything on her own. When she came it to me to read it, I just was blown away! It was so very well written and had exactly in it what I was desiring for, but in words that described it so much better than anything I could have come up with. Thank you from the bottom of my heart for again saving my SL life like so often sis!!!

I hope you enjoyed my little ballet adventure – for the next issue of Eclipse Magazine I will have another “unusual” genre for me, which gives me quite a challenge but I am looking forward to the final frames 😉

Eclipse Magazine, August 2020: https://issuu.com/eclipsemagazinesl/docs/eclipse_magazine_august_2020

Style 1 (classic)

Clothing

Outfit & Shoes: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Ballet Dancer” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Ade – “Beatrix”

Head, Body & Tattoo

Face Skin: [Glam Affair] – “Ryn Layer [LeLutka] 002 D” (BoM)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 5.2”

Body Skin: [Glam Affair] – “Body – Normal [ Maitreya ] 002” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Pose: Poseidon – “Ballet 6” (Bento)

Piano: Alouette – “Evelyn Piano – Word White Wood”

Backdrop: Foxcity – “Dance Hall”

Posetool: Anypose – “BVH HUD v1.82”

Face Expression Tool: LELUTKA – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Stylist

Wicca Merlin

Style 2 (contemporary)

Clothing

Outfit & Shoes: Enfant Terrible (.ET.) – “Skye Dancer” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: .Shi – “Gavri’ela”

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Erin 2.0”

Ears: [CX] – “Ostium Impaler Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara v5.2”

Poses, Props & Tools

Pose: Seline Fleury – “Ballet Trunk Pose” (Bento)

Petals 1: Foxcity – “Diagonal Flutter Petals (Black)” (from the Sweet Bento Pose Set)

Petals 2: Foxcity – “Trail Flutter Petals (Black)” (from the Sweet Bento Pose Set)

Backdrop: Foxcity – “Flutter (B&W)”

Posetool: Anypose – “BVH HUD v1.82”

Face Expression Tool: LELUTKA – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Stylist

Wicca Merlin

Imagine…

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TUNES

Imagine there’s no heaven
It’s easy if you try
No hell below us
Above us only sky
Imagine all the people living for today

Imagine there’s no countries
It isn’t hard to do
Nothing to kill or die for
And no religion too
Imagine all the people living life in peace, you

Imagine no possessions
I wonder if you can
No need for greed or hunger
A brotherhood of man
Imagine all the people sharing all the world, you

You may say I’m a dreamer
But I’m not the only one
I hope some day you’ll join us
And the world will be as one

[-John Lennon-]

Clothing

Top: DRD – “Slacker Shirt/Education” (Maitreya) NEW @ ANTHEM // September 2020

Pants: DRD – “Slacker Pants/Light” (Maitreya) NEW @ ANTHEM // September 2020

Shoes: DRD – “Frankenstomps – Colors” (Maitreya)

Arms: [CX] – “Arm Bandages – Black” (Maitreya Applier) NEW @ The Warehouse Sale Event // Spetember 2020

Accessories

Glasses: -SU!- – “Midnight Doll Sunglasses Amber”

Earrings: [CX] + .TeaBunny. – “Lucent Thorn Taper”

Septum: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Inferno Septum”

Piercing 1: LeLUTKA – “Lake.Piercing.Lip.Ashley/Laubert” (part of the Lake head)

Piercing 2: LeLUTKA – “Lake.Piercing.Lips. Frenulum/Tongue” (part of the Lake head)

Piercing 3: LeLUTKA – “Lake.Piercing.Nose.3rdEye/Bridge” (part of the Lake head)

Necklace: DRD – “Anarchy Necklace”

Bangles left: DRD – “Chunky Bangles – Mixed”

Nails: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Infernal Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Rings: DRD – “Chunky Rings – Mixed” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Hair: no.match – “No_Weird”

Eyeshadow: CAZIMI – “Cruel Summer Eyeshadows 2 – 4 Blue 50%” (BoM)

Eyeliner: CAZIMI – “Basic B Eyeliners Puppy

Lipstick: CAZIMI – “Trending HD Lipstick Set 2 Neutrals” (LeLUTKA Evo. HD Applier)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Lake 2.0”

Ears: [CX] – “Ostium Impaler Ears”

Nose Tattoo: *Rainbow Sundae* – “Forsaken Mini Tattoo Fresh” (BoM)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara v5.2”

Tattoo: ..:: INKer ::.. – “From The Roses Tattoo (M) ” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set: DRD – “Boho Garden Party – full set Adult”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Out of my Head!!!

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TUNES

I cannot breathe through toxic skies
You pollute me with your lies
Thought I died ‘long with my sense of time
And I’m not alright feel trapped in my mind
I can’t escape even if I tried
Too little too late too weak and too kind
My heart is on fire and I’m burnin’ alive
So I guess I’m not fine still trapped in my mind

[Adam Oh]

Sometimes you have so many things on your mind that give you more headaches than good that you would like to tear them out… do you know that feeling? At the moment I exactly feel like that. There is so much things in my head and some anxiety what the future will bring. Even in SL I had some things happen that really did trow me down. In the end SL isn’t in any ways different that RL even if you try to stay away from drama and negative things… people who want to drag you down, will have their stage to do so.

Anyways – that mood I was in, paired with the cool “Eye Spike” and the super cool “Broken Eyes from Madame Noir, todays  pictures came to life 😉 Now that I wrote about it and made those pictures I already feel better! I hope you had a wonderful day without any trolls or “brain refugees” trying to make it a bad one. I will now move on to some more pictures for my next post!

Clothing

Outfit: [I♥F] – “Venus” (Maitreya) – NEW @ WCF // September 2020

Arms: [CX] – “Arm Bandages – Black” – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale Event // Spetember 2020

Pasties: +Psycho Barbie+ – “Cross Mesh Pasties” (Maitreya)

Shoes: DRD – “p.a.n stompers Size 2”

Accessories

Eye Deco: Madame Noir – “Eye Spike” – NEW @ Desolation Event // August 2020

Piercing 1: LeLUTKA – “Erin.Piercing.Lip.Ashley/Laubert” (part of the Erin head)

Piercing 1: LeLUTKA – “Erin.Piercing.Lips. Frenulum/Tongue” (part of the Erin head)

Headpiece: Hotdog – “Trepanning Headclamp”

Collar: [CX] – “XenoCircuit” (Maitreya)

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Essential Dirty Claws” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Hair: no.match – “No_Seduction”

Eyeshadow 1: *YS&YS* – “Immortal Make-up 04” (BoM)

Eyeshadow 2: Izzie’s – “Bloody Tears (medium)” (BoM)

Eye Right: CAZIMI – “Fallen – 1 Eye Right – 95% (tint me)” (BoM) – NEW @ TLC // September 2020

Left Eye: CAZIMI – “Fallen – 6 Eye Scratch Left – 80% (tint me)” (BoM) – NEW @ TLC // September 2020

Cheekbone Right: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Sigurd Gacha – Scar Cheekbone Psycho ( LeEvo )” (BoM, Gacha, Common)

Eyebrow: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Sigurd Gacha – “Scar Eyebrows ( LeEvo )” (BoM, Gacha, Common)

Nose: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Sigurd Gacha – Scar Nose Plaster ( LeEvo )” (BoM, Gacha, Common)

Face Scars: . The Rotting Lab . – “Waster – Scar – Pale Fade” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Erin 2.0”

Eyes: Madame Noir – “Broken Eyes” (LeLUTKA Evo Applier) – NEW @ Desolation Event // August 2020

Ears: [CX] – “Withered Berzerker Ears”

Ears Add-On: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Battle Add-on for [CX] Berserker Ears”

Dirt: Izzie’s – “Face & Body Dirt (medium)” (BoM)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara v5.2”

Shape:  Denver’s Shapes – “Erin for LeLutka Erin Head”

Poses, Props & Tools

Pose 2: Foxcity – “Hair Days – Pulling My Hair Out”

Pose 2: Poseidon – “Beast 2” (Bento) – NEW @ We♥RP // September 2020

Backdrop: #Cranked# – “Backdrop White Padded Cell”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Priestess

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TUNES

Candles raise my desire
Why I’m so far away
No more meaning to my life
No more reason to stay
Freezing feeling, breathe in, breathe in
I’m coming back again
Hazing clouds rain on my head
Empty thoughts fill my ears
Find my shade by the moon light
Why my thought aren’t so clear
Demons dreaming, breathe in, breathe in
I’m coming back again
I’m not the one who’s so far away
When I feel the snake bite enter my veins
Never did want to be here again
And I don’t remember why I came
[Godsmack]
Clothing

Outfit: ERSCH – “Messiah” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Piercing 1: [CX] – “Tyrant’s Chain (Silver)”

Piercing 2: LeLUTKA – “Erin.Piercing.Lip.Ashley/Laubert” (part of the Erin head)

Piercing 3: LeLUTKA – “Erin.Piercing.Lips. Frenulum/Tongue” (part of the Erin head)

Piercing 4: LeLUTKA – “Erin.Piercing.Nose.3rdEye/Bridge”

Collar: [CX] – “XenoCircuit” (Maitreya)

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Essential Dirty Claws” (Maitreya)

Piering Body: -SECRETS- – “Arris – Front – White” (Maitreya)

Cables: .Inkhole. – “USB Set – Black” (Maitreya)

Bracelets & Legwrap: [Dope – Mercy] – “There Be Light”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No_Seduction” – NEW @ FaMESHed // August 2020

Eyeshadow: *YS&YS* – “Immortal Make-up 04” (BoM)

Lashes: CAZIMI – “Starlet Lashes” (LeLUTKA Evo. Applier)

Lipstick: This is Wrong – “Dead Lips Black” (LeLUTKA Evo HD Applier)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Erin 2.0”

Ears: [CX] – “Sceleratis ‘Ears”

Ears Add-On: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Drip Augment”

Facetattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Nordic (Black)” (BoM)

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark Elevation” (BoM)

Shape:  Denver’s Shapes – “Erin for LeLutka Erin Head”

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

DRD – “Magick Shoppe – Spell Supply – Hutch One”

DRD – “Magick Shoppe – Spell Supply – Display One”

DRD – “Magick Shoppe – Spell Supply – Divider One”

DRD – “Magick Shoppe – Mega Spell Center”

DRD – “Magick Shoppe – Broom Rack”

DRD – “Voodoo Shoppe – Bone Mobile – Short”

DRD – “Voodoo Shoppe – Bone Mobile – Long”

DRD – “Voodoo Shoppe – Lecora’s Chair”

DRD – “Voodoo Shoppe – Nganga Cauldron – One”

DRD – “Voodoo Shoppe – Nganga Cauldron – Two”

DRD – “Voodoo Shoppe – Voodoo Wands”

DRD – “Voodoo Shoppe – Spirit Lamp – Short”

MadPea – “Potion – Snake Oil”

[ContraptioN] Decor – “Eccentric’s Curios Orbitus”

[ContraptioN] Decor – “Eccentric’s Curios Reflector A”

[ContraptioN] Decor – “Eccentric’s Curios Reflector B”

[ContraptioN] Decor – “Eccentric’s Curios Auric Discindo”

DISORDERLY. – “Book Magic / Magical Birdcage”

DISORDERLY. –  “Book Magic / Magical Potions”

KOPFKINO – “Magic Potions and Books”

KOPFKINO – “Magic Papers”

Raindale  – “Alouin magic platform”

Raindale – “Magic World pensieve +particles”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Humanity doesn’t count anymore?

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Sometimes life just a bitch… or better not life it self but the people around you who you count on. About 6 years ago, I was asked if I would like to teach again. I had studied to become a teacher but I never did the second exam, as music took over back then and in the end I never saw me as a full time teacher anyways, because I need variety on my life and that is why I chose to be a musician.

So after nearly 15 years I was asked if I could help to built up a school band at a regular school. It sounded like fun and now after 8 years I am even leasing it on my own. While I was just working on music lessons and ensemble classes,  I was asked if I could jump in with regular teaching as well, because one of the teacher of the school became sick. I thought why not and gave it a try with just a few hours per week over a couple of weeks. That apparently did work out so well, that I got asked if I could imagine to be a regular teacher as well just not full time but with a certain amount of hours per week – that was about 6 years  ago. Over the time I did well enough so they asked me for more hours per week and since all the people at this school were so nice and I anyways was there for the school band it really was a great time. I even got the leadership for the English and Music department for the school and did all the exams for that the past 4/5 years – the past 3 years all on my own. So I thought, the state – which is the employer for teachers – seems ok with me being at that school. I only got yearly contracts, but that is quite normal when you only have the first exam but not the second one.

But my work must have been good enough and it was even to see with the kids. When I started, I had one person doing the final exams in English and 2 who did Music. Now after 6 years I have 18 students doing the English exams and 12 or more who do Music. And 98% of them graduated with amazing results! For English that is not not normal in that tyle pf school as they usually already struggle with Maths and German.

And then a couple of days ago, I was told I am not longer needed. It felt like a punch right in my face. With Corona the teacher situation is anyways not the best at the moment and they tell me I am no long er needed?!? Then all of a sudden a few days later, they told me to apply again and made it very urgent, so I stopped doing what I was doing and sat down writing my application again. A day later I get an email that my application wasn’t successful and that I already had way too long contracts without having my second exam… I was like WTF? They need people and I was doing a good job with success that was visible… I just lost all trust into the world around me. With that happening they even risk the school band as they have no one who has the skills nor the will to run it. We are an inclusion school.. a school were all kids can be anyways if they are completely healthy, autistic or disabled ion any other way. That as well means you have different way of teaching and music is not just achievement-oriented, but as well a certain type or therapy. That means it is not a typical school band. I have 40 up to 78 kids every year in one band sitting in one room and half of them have their little “weakness” in what ever kind of way. I do not care about those and try to take them as they are, trying to make everything possible so they can learn an instrument, percussions or singing as well, even if the conditions are not that great. I simply enjoy the smile if a student holds a guitar and can play some sort of power chords even if their fingers are not working 100%, or an autistic that can relax while doing percussions and forget about being different than other kids. Over the years I was allowed to learn so much and I enjoyed every minute of it. We even won regular school band contests and were told we are just such a huge bunch of diversity and unique characters. And now they tell me I already had too many contracts for having no second exam?!? Experiences, workshops and seminars plus good work does not count? I have to say getting the second exam you have to teach for 2 years under the wings of an older teacher – that is all. So 6 years of successful work doesn’t make up for missing 2 years of tutored teaching?!? Seriously I do not understand the world anymore if paragraphs count more than the kids or their happiness and success. I do not know yet, what I will do as I am feeling way too hurt and broken at the moment and Corona doesn’t make it easy either to go back doing more music again or give private music lessons. I know something will pop up and make it better again – it always was like that but for now I am just speechless how people can decide over other people like that not even knowing or being interested to look deeper into their work. Humanity doesn’t count againts rules and paragraphs anymore…

Clothing

Jacket: TETRA – “Tokyo Puffer Jacket” (Maitreya)

Top: :::NOIR::: – Corey Top – Black” (Maitreya)

Pants: .: ryvolter x nu :. – “Marly Distressed Shorts – Med” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Louise Trail Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Piercing 1: LeLUTKA – “Ryn.Piercing.Lip.Ashley/Laubert” (part of the Ryn head)

Piercing 2: LeLUTKA – “Ryn.Piercing.Lips. Frenulum/Tongue” (part of the Ryn head)

Glasses: Earthstones – “The Yesterday (S)”

Headphones: Soy. – “S/M/P/L HeadPhone [Gray]” (Gacha)

Necklace: Elle Boutique – “Janis Choker” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No_Freak” – NEW @ COSMOPOLITAN // August 2020

Eyeliner: CAZIMI – “Basic B Eyeliners (LeLUTKA) Bonus Liners” (LeLUTKA Evo. HD Applier)

Eyeshadow: CAZIMI – “Dahlia Eyeshadow – 6 Blue 90%” (BoM)

Lipstick: CAZIMI – “Sunkissed Makeup – Lips Tint – Shape 2 – Peach – 25%” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Ears: [CX] – “Sceleratis Ears”

Ears Add-On: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Drip Augment”

Head: LeLUTKA – “Ryn 2.0” – NEW@ Mainstore

Face Skin: [Glam Affair] – “Ryn Layer [LeLUTKA] 002 D” – NEW @ Mainstore

Body: Maitreya – “Lara v5.2”

Body Skin: [Glam Affair] – “Body – Normal 002” (Maitreya, BoM)

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark Geisha and the Cat” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Pose Tool: Anypose – “BVN HUD v1.6”

Location

SSOC – Rieri Ton in Tokyo

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Eastern Asian Adventure! – NEWS from LeLUTKA

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And again I have a wonderful new release from LeLUTKA! This time, LeLUTKA gives more attention to their East Asian customers with the new “Ryn 2.0” Evolution head (for the males there is a pendant named “Kane”)

The head has a very young look and so I wanted to find something what would work with such a look and came across the Kawaii genre. It was against my ethnics to put her in lingerie or something too sexy as she has more of a teen or young women look to me with this kind of shape and skin. Certainly I had to use the amazing piercings again that come with the head 😉 Ryn certainly has all the amazing features of the 2.0 Evolution line as well!

It amazes me how LeLUTKa has the skills and passion, to make such different heads for all the ethnics around the world. We had the amazing wonderful African or African-American head with Nuri, we had all kind of European, American heads with Lake, Erin, Nova and now we get the Asian look as well with Ryn. You still can twist your shape and have even all the subcultures of the Asian ethnic with this head, I just wanted to blog it as pure as possible with my first post – I only made the nose a tiny wee bit smaller as it came. I am sure that won’t be my last post as I enjoyed my little journey into the Kawaii look and there is so many more genres you can do with that look 😉

So pop over to the LeLUTKA main store and try out the new – and maybe even all the other ones, too – heads!

Clothing

Outfit: [CX]  Vincue – “Sailie Leather” (Maitreya)

Jacket: ::GB:: – “One Shoulder Jacket Black” (Maitreya)

Belt 1: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “POSH Belt” (Maitreya)

Belt 2: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Ropes Belt tight” (Maitreya)

Tights: Izzie’s – “Tights Lavender” (BoM)

Socks: -SU!- – “Garter Socks Nylon BLACK” (BoM)

Shoes: DRD – “Frankenstomps – Black” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Headphone: [The Forge] – “Cyber Neko Headphones, Black”

Piercing 1: LeLUTKA – “Ryn.Piercing.Lip.Ashley/Laubert” (part of the Ryn head)

Piercing 2: LeLUTKA – “Ryn.Piercing.Lips. Frenulum/Tongue” (part of the Ryn head)

Collar 1: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “October Fest Collar black” (Gacha, Common)

Collar 2: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Ropes Collar” (Maitreya)

Lower Arm: Gemini – “Sis Bracelets – Low L” (Maitreya)

Hand-deco & Rings: [Since1975] – “NoMercy Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nails: Slipper – “Deidra” (Maitrea, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: -FABIA- – “Tuesday”

Lashes: CAZIMI – “Starlet Lashes”

Eyshadow: CAZIMI – “Venus Eyeshadow – 5 Purple” (BoM)

Eyeliner: CAZIMI – “Understated HD Eyeliners (LeLutka) Set 02 Winged” (LeLUTKA Evo HD Applier)

Lipstick: CAZIMI – “Trending HD Lips (LeLutka) Set 3 Colorful” (LeLUTKA Evo HD Applier)

Head, Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLUTKA – “Ryn 2.0” – NEW @ Mainstore

Face Skin: Glam Affair – “Ryn Layer [LeLutka] 002 E” (BoM) – NEW @ Mainstore

Body: Maitreya – “Lara v5.2”

Body Skin: Glam Affair – “Body Normal [ Maitreya ] 002

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Backdrop:   – “Control Bedroom”

Food: [VOZ] – “UFO Sushi Vending Machine – Black (Static)”

Drinks:[VOZ] – “Universe Drink Vending Machine – Black (Static)”

Drink togo: {what next} – “LG Pirate Pool Drink”

Cyber Drink: andika – “[cyber sweets]B/Dispenser”

Moving Box: Violetility – “Ex Box [Bye Kawaii]”

Pizza: [La Baguette] – “Box of pizza 3 slice left v2”

Light: 22769 – “Tripod Lamp”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin