Humanity doesn’t count anymore?

Sometimes life just a bitch… or better not life it self but the people around you who you count on. About 6 years ago, I was asked if I would like to teach again. I had studied to become a teacher but I never did the second exam, as music took over back then and in the end I never saw me as a full time teacher anyways, because I need variety on my life and that is why I chose to be a musician.

So after nearly 15 years I was asked if I could help to built up a school band at a regular school. It sounded like fun and now after 8 years I am even leasing it on my own. While I was just working on music lessons and ensemble classes,  I was asked if I could jump in with regular teaching as well, because one of the teacher of the school became sick. I thought why not and gave it a try with just a few hours per week over a couple of weeks. That apparently did work out so well, that I got asked if I could imagine to be a regular teacher as well just not full time but with a certain amount of hours per week – that was about 6 years  ago. Over the time I did well enough so they asked me for more hours per week and since all the people at this school were so nice and I anyways was there for the school band it really was a great time. I even got the leadership for the English and Music department for the school and did all the exams for that the past 4/5 years – the past 3 years all on my own. So I thought, the state – which is the employer for teachers – seems ok with me being at that school. I only got yearly contracts, but that is quite normal when you only have the first exam but not the second one.

But my work must have been good enough and it was even to see with the kids. When I started, I had one person doing the final exams in English and 2 who did Music. Now after 6 years I have 18 students doing the English exams and 12 or more who do Music. And 98% of them graduated with amazing results! For English that is not not normal in that tyle pf school as they usually already struggle with Maths and German.

And then a couple of days ago, I was told I am not longer needed. It felt like a punch right in my face. With Corona the teacher situation is anyways not the best at the moment and they tell me I am no long er needed?!? Then all of a sudden a few days later, they told me to apply again and made it very urgent, so I stopped doing what I was doing and sat down writing my application again. A day later I get an email that my application wasn’t successful and that I already had way too long contracts without having my second exam… I was like WTF? They need people and I was doing a good job with success that was visible… I just lost all trust into the world around me. With that happening they even risk the school band as they have no one who has the skills nor the will to run it. We are an inclusion school.. a school were all kids can be anyways if they are completely healthy, autistic or disabled ion any other way. That as well means you have different way of teaching and music is not just achievement-oriented, but as well a certain type or therapy. That means it is not a typical school band. I have 40 up to 78 kids every year in one band sitting in one room and half of them have their little “weakness” in what ever kind of way. I do not care about those and try to take them as they are, trying to make everything possible so they can learn an instrument, percussions or singing as well, even if the conditions are not that great. I simply enjoy the smile if a student holds a guitar and can play some sort of power chords even if their fingers are not working 100%, or an autistic that can relax while doing percussions and forget about being different than other kids. Over the years I was allowed to learn so much and I enjoyed every minute of it. We even won regular school band contests and were told we are just such a huge bunch of diversity and unique characters. And now they tell me I already had too many contracts for having no second exam?!? Experiences, workshops and seminars plus good work does not count? I have to say getting the second exam you have to teach for 2 years under the wings of an older teacher – that is all. So 6 years of successful work doesn’t make up for missing 2 years of tutored teaching?!? Seriously I do not understand the world anymore if paragraphs count more than the kids or their happiness and success. I do not know yet, what I will do as I am feeling way too hurt and broken at the moment and Corona doesn’t make it easy either to go back doing more music again or give private music lessons. I know something will pop up and make it better again – it always was like that but for now I am just speechless how people can decide over other people like that not even knowing or being interested to look deeper into their work. Humanity doesn’t count againts rules and paragraphs anymore…

Clothing

Jacket: TETRA – “Tokyo Puffer Jacket” (Maitreya)

Top: :::NOIR::: – Corey Top – Black” (Maitreya)

Pants: .: ryvolter x nu :. – “Marly Distressed Shorts – Med” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Louise Trail Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Piercing 1: LeLUTKA – “Ryn.Piercing.Lip.Ashley/Laubert” (part of the Ryn head)

Piercing 2: LeLUTKA – “Ryn.Piercing.Lips. Frenulum/Tongue” (part of the Ryn head)

Glasses: Earthstones – “The Yesterday (S)”

Headphones: Soy. – “S/M/P/L HeadPhone [Gray]” (Gacha)

Necklace: Elle Boutique – “Janis Choker” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No_Freak” NEW @ COSMOPOLITAN // August 2020

Eyeliner: CAZIMI – “Basic B Eyeliners (LeLUTKA) Bonus Liners” (LeLUTKA Evo. HD Applier)

Eyeshadow: CAZIMI – “Dahlia Eyeshadow – 6 Blue 90%” (BoM)

Lipstick: CAZIMI – “Sunkissed Makeup – Lips Tint – Shape 2 – Peach – 25%” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Ears: [CX] – “Sceleratis Ears”

Ears Add-On: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Drip Augment”

Head: LeLUTKA – “Ryn 2.0” – NEW@ Mainstore

Face Skin: [Glam Affair] – “Ryn Layer [LeLUTKA] 002 D” – NEW @ Mainstore

Body: Maitreya – “Lara v5.2”

Body Skin: [Glam Affair] – “Body – Normal 002” (Maitreya, BoM)

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark Geisha and the Cat” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Pose Tool: Anypose – “BVN HUD v1.6”

Location

SSOC – Rieri Ton in Tokyo

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Eastern Asian Adventure! – NEWS from LeLUTKA

And again I have a wonderful new release from LeLUTKA! This time, LeLUTKA gives more attention to their East Asian customers with the new “Ryn 2.0” Evolution head (for the males there is a pendant named “Kane”)

The head has a very young look and so I wanted to find something what would work with such a look and came across the Kawaii genre. It was against my ethnics to put her in lingerie or something too sexy as she has more of a teen or young women look to me with this kind of shape and skin. Certainly I had to use the amazing piercings again that come with the head 😉 Ryn certainly has all the amazing features of the 2.0 Evolution line as well!

It amazes me how LeLUTKa has the skills and passion, to make such different heads for all the ethnics around the world. We had the amazing wonderful African or African-American head with Nuri, we had all kind of European, American heads with Lake, Erin, Nova and now we get the Asian look as well with Ryn. You still can twist your shape and have even all the subcultures of the Asian ethnic with this head, I just wanted to blog it as pure as possible with my first post – I only made the nose a tiny wee bit smaller as it came. I am sure that won’t be my last post as I enjoyed my little journey into the Kawaii look and there is so many more genres you can do with that look 😉

So pop over to the LeLUTKA main store and try out the new – and maybe even all the other ones, too – heads!

Clothing

Outfit: [CX]  Vincue – “Sailie Leather” (Maitreya)

Jacket: ::GB:: – “One Shoulder Jacket Black” (Maitreya)

Belt 1: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “POSH Belt” (Maitreya)

Belt 2: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Ropes Belt tight” (Maitreya)

Tights: Izzie’s – “Tights Lavender” (BoM)

Socks: -SU!- – “Garter Socks Nylon BLACK” (BoM)

Shoes: DRD – “Frankenstomps – Black” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Headphone: [The Forge] – “Cyber Neko Headphones, Black”

Piercing 1: LeLUTKA – “Ryn.Piercing.Lip.Ashley/Laubert” (part of the Ryn head)

Piercing 2: LeLUTKA – “Ryn.Piercing.Lips. Frenulum/Tongue” (part of the Ryn head)

Collar 1: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “October Fest Collar black” (Gacha, Common)

Collar 2: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Ropes Collar” (Maitreya)

Lower Arm: Gemini – “Sis Bracelets – Low L” (Maitreya)

Hand-deco & Rings: [Since1975] – “NoMercy Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nails: Slipper – “Deidra” (Maitrea, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: -FABIA- – “Tuesday”

Lashes: CAZIMI – “Starlet Lashes”

Eyshadow: CAZIMI – “Venus Eyeshadow – 5 Purple” (BoM)

Eyeliner: CAZIMI – “Understated HD Eyeliners (LeLutka) Set 02 Winged” (LeLUTKA Evo HD Applier)

Lipstick: CAZIMI – “Trending HD Lips (LeLutka) Set 3 Colorful” (LeLUTKA Evo HD Applier)

Head, Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLUTKA – “Ryn 2.0” – NEW @ Mainstore

Face Skin: Glam Affair – “Ryn Layer [LeLutka] 002 E” (BoM) – NEW @ Mainstore

Body: Maitreya – “Lara v5.2”

Body Skin: Glam Affair – “Body Normal [ Maitreya ] 002

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Backdrop:   – “Control Bedroom”

Food: [VOZ] – “UFO Sushi Vending Machine – Black (Static)”

Drinks:[VOZ] – “Universe Drink Vending Machine – Black (Static)”

Drink togo: {what next} – “LG Pirate Pool Drink”

Cyber Drink: andika – “[cyber sweets]B/Dispenser”

Moving Box: Violetility – “Ex Box [Bye Kawaii]”

Pizza: [La Baguette] – “Box of pizza 3 slice left v2”

Light: 22769 – “Tripod Lamp”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

The Approach…

Crazy times… Corona still holds the world in its hand and all of us try to do our best to fight it, even if we cannot see yet any success and things seem to get worse and worse. I know it isn’t the fact, but sometimes it feels like it. We are now in our second week without school in Germany. I am a teacher (usually in the mornings I do teach at a school) and I do have a tiny private afternoon tutoring company. Usually I am surrounded by kids all day and in the past I had days where that was quite exhausting. Always having 10 to 60 kids around you from 8 in the morning to 4 in the afternoon didn’t feel always easy but now that I see how it is to have none of them around – it doesn’t feel good either. I am lucky to have the possibility to hold online classes and have some one-on-one tutoring as well, but it doesn’t feel the same. Before the difficulties were the noise in bigger groups, or the kids being distracted by looking outside the window and now… the difficulties have changed. I never thought it could be that hard to explain something like mathematics to a child online only online… you talk a lot more trying to describe everything and if they have to draw triangles with certain length or certain degree angles. Most of them do not have the technical equipment to show you what they did, they usually only can take a snap with their cellphone and send it to me.. and if they spend already like 20 min to do that task and then something went wrong you can start all over again.

Certainly it has a positive side as well – I do not have the distance and the time to drive to school and back in the afternoon and I have the advantage of having an open bowser all the time to find answers I might not know out of the blue for certain questions, so I do not wanna whine or rage about it – I just discover everyday the differences and the different difficulties. Between all that I try to keep my Mom inside and safe – she is over 70 and recently had a brain tumor and chemo after it, so she is in the risk group for that damn virus as well. So my Second Life times at the moment are a little bit more limited and not as regular as I used to be, but I do not want to stop blogging and taking pictures completely as it feels like a little bit of resting time and holiday for my brain when I do that.

The pictures for todays post I already did  over a week ago, but I wasn’t able to post work them and write something about yet. So now the Cyber fair by ACCESS sadly is over but I am sure you can find all the goodies in the designers main stores already or soon.

First of all the amazing vinyl ensemble from A&Y called “Phex”, which is a combination of a long sleeved top and short pants with an awesome, realistic looking shine. It is decorated with straps and zippers and with the huge HUD you can change the colors for all different parts including the metals.

All the amazing accessories I as well found at the Cyber Fair, but like I said before I am sure you will find them most likely either already or soon at the designers main stores. The incredible face art done by Nefekalum Tattoos comes in 3 different versions. You can find many different tings in your folder. First of all the 3 different versions of the makeup it self. Black Tears only, Red Smudge only and a full version of both. Furthermore you will find appliers for head and body materials and the belonging erasers. On top of that, since all his tattoos are materials enabled, Sir Skye added a perfect projector (light source) as well, for you to use if you like.

Certainly I did need some cool nails and rings to complete my outfit and it was no question that the “Creature Claws” from CerberusXing were just the perfect choice. They are available in 3 colors (silver, onyx and gold) and rigged for Belleza Jake,  Signature Gianni, Maitreya and the female Slink hands.

The smart looking hair style was made by no.match. I love the wild top hair, the shaved sides and the fact that you still have 2 wisps at your ears. Like always for no.match hair styles you have different color packs and a fatpack available. The purchases will include a shaved hairbase as well, but since I do have my own shaved hair base I did not use it for todays post 😉

It was time again to built my own set – I found so many cool things at the Cyber Fair, I just had to. All you can see, from the backdrop over the drinks, food (weed) vending machine and the incredible animals, I collected at the Cyber Fair.

I would like to draw your attention a little bot towards the animals. The “Caged Biter” is available in 3 different colors. You can separate the animal from the cage as you can see in my pictures. The Biter is an animated mesh design and has adorable movements, which make it possible to have some more interactive looking pictures with the different poses or the animal.

I do have an immense fun at the moment with cyber and sci-fi posts as they open a whole new range for pictures and styles to me. We do not know what the fashion or environment will look like in our future, but for me that gives us a lot of room to experiment and the possibility of unending creativity 🙂

Clothing

Outfit: A&Y  – “Phex” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Eyepatch: RichB. – “Dex Eyepatch F”

Face Straps: unstable – “Code: WYVERN”

Septum: Astara – “Cthulhu Septum”

Mask: SEKA’s – “HVCKED Mask (no effect)”

Back Attachment: .{PSYCHO:Byts}. – “Feel the Connection – Back Implant”

Rings & Nails: [CX] – “Creature Claws – Onyx” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No. Industry”

Faceart 1: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Two Sides of Madness (Black Tears Only)” (BoM)

Faceart2: LuluB! – “Fembot” (BoM, Cyber Fair Gift)

Lipstick: Izzie’s – “LeLutka – Holo Metallic Lipstick 12 (green)” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLUTKA – “Lake 1.1”

Ears: [Cubic Cherry] – “Altered Ears (glow)”

Skin: Human Glitch – “MNFRM SKIN / MTL GENUS1” (BoM)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 5.0.2”

Legs: Blah. – “Love.Ai/RoboLegs Black” (Maitreya)

Tattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Organic Decay” (Maitreya, Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses:

Picture 1: BellePoses: – “NyxV2 2” (Bento, right arm lightly edited)

Picture 2: STUN – “Debora 4” (Bento, lightly edited)

Picture 3: BellePoses: – “NyxV2 7” (Bento)

Picture 4: Foxcity – “Power-1” (Bento)

Set:

Background: The Bearded Guy – “Industrial – The Future” (Gacha, Common)

Machine: # ninety – “Cyber Vending Food [ Weed ]”

Shower: HILTED – “Decontamination Shower – Adult – Silver/Green”

Animals & Cage: HILTED – “Caged Biter – Black/Green/Light”

Chairs: buildworksdecor – “Cyber / Retro Neon Chair White Changeable X”

Food: andika – “cyber sweets Dispenser set”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

 

Inspired by Tom Ford S/S 2015 – How I put my style together?

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I have to admit the idea to make a Tom Ford inspired look came not out of my head. There was a casting a few days ago and they requested a 70s Glam style after the S/S Collection 2015 of Tom Ford.

So I made my homework and sat down with google and watched first the fashion show of that collection and the I asked google for some pictures out of that show.

I tried to figure out what were the main aspects of the whole collection. Besides many details I saw black, black and black, some straps, a lot of sheer materials, shoes with high platform heels. messy hair and smokey eyes paired with nude lips.

So far so good. Since I did not wanna copy any of those stylings to as well bring an aspect of myself to it.

I started with the sheer part. I went through my inventory to find something that does not cover up the whole body and as well would not totally hide under all the mesh clothing.

In the end, the “Brigitte Body Tights” from LeeZu were the choice after trying on several sheer parts of my inventory. I liked it cause the arms and the lower legs are left bare wich gives a lightly sexy touch wich I found as well in most of the Tom Ford show pictures.

Now… find something that really shows the sheer and does not cover it up totally…

Regular pants would just have hidden the sheer body suit. After trying several pants – short, capri, 3/4 – I remembered the pants of GizzA’s “Donatella” outfit. With only one leg and the belt holding the pants in place that was the exact piece that I wanted. To cover the private part I wanted to use something not super solid and I put on the “Romance Black” panties from [Magnolia In], wich sadly does not exist anymore.

The top should be something that catches the straps/wrap character and as well the 70s Glam part. I decided to go with the “TSADE / Body Cuff” from  .Shi. It looked good and as well the way I wanted, but I was missing something still. I tried several bra, s and short top, but either they did not look good or they poked out under the Body Cuff. Since this was going to be a casting styling, there was no way to cheat with poking through prims :p

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Finally I found the “Daleth” top, as well made by .Shi. With the golden ornaments and the shining black texture it was exact the right piece for the look.

I saw no jewelry on most of the pictures that I saw and with the golden decorations at the top it looked ok to me.

Messy hair… sounds like an easy task but after trying some of the hair I already had and a lot of demos, I figured I need a short hairstyle as everything else was either poking into the “Body Cuff” or the top *sighs*. I did not saw any short hair on the pictures I looked and nearly started all over with a nother idea, when I saw the “Nyja” hair from eXxEsS. It was not exactly what I was looking for but after trying and looking at it for some time I liked it more and more 🙂

For the finish I just needed some smokey eyes and a light lip gloss wich not put any color on my lips, just a little shine.

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Details

Top: .Shi – “Daleth”

Top2: .Shi – “TSADE / Body Cuff”

Pants: GizzA – “Donatella”

Underpants: [Magnolia In] – “Romance Black” (store not anymore existing)

Sheer Body: [LeeZu!] – “Brigitte Body Tights”

Hair: eXxEsS – “Nyja”

Shoes: Cashmere – “Dastard Boots” (closed)

Skin: [sys] – “Eva”

Makeup: [sys] – “Skin – Smokey Eyes” & “Skin – Kohl Eyes”

Poses: Corpus

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Gothic Moments with LeeZu!

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Anyways if furniture or fashion LeeZu always amazes us with her creations. Today I have the pleasure to showcase one of her latest creations, the “Aurora” gown.

This delicate and elegant gown is a firework of textures and fabrics. The bodice is made with a black satin looking fabric. The right side has an amazing line over the shoulder and the left is totally blank what gives a very sexy touch.  The belly is covered by some filigree white lace on a black base. The black skirt is covered by a wonderful white laced top skirt. A beautiful brooch decorated the left side of the bodice 🙂

The jewelry I decided to wear with the “Aurora” gown comes from Baboom. For this stunning gown I wanted to have something that is not blingy or too shiny but still something special. The “Xena Set was exactly the right addition. With the unusual shape and the cool non symmetric wholes it complemented the gown in a very special way. The set contains bracelets and a collar.

The incredible hat was made by [AD] Creations. The “Sophie Mesh HEaddress” added some more elegance and some serious mystic feelings to the whole look. With the horns, the black roses, the steel cage in front of the face and the veil parts it really made a great finish for my today’s look 😉

To underline that black and white idea behind it I put on some of my favourite nails from Nailed It – the “Cracked Set”.

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 Details

Gown: LeeZu – “Aurora” – NEW

Jewelry: Baboom – “Xena”

Hat: [AD] Creations – “Sophie Mesh Headdress”

Hair: Tuty’s – “Adorable UpDo”

Nails: Nailed It – “Cracked Set”

Makeup: Miamai – “Les Makeups Maudite 09”

Poses: PosESioN

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

This is Halloween with Petite Chat

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This is Halloween

Boys and girls of every age
Wouldn’t you like to see something strange?

Come with us and you will see
This, our town of Halloween

This is Halloween, this is Halloween
Pumpkins scream in the dead of night

This is Halloween, everybody make a scene
Trick or treat till the neighbors die of
fright
It’s our town, everybody scream
In this town of Halloween

[Taken from Nightmare before Christmas by Tim Burton]
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Details
Dress: Petite Chat (*PC*) – “Essences Web” – NEW
Shoes: [CC] – “Halloween Special V2” – NEW @ WEIB Special Sale Room October 2014
Easrrings: Finesmith – “Noir”
Hair: EMO-tions – “Love_War”
Leggings: Beauty Avatar Couture – “Dolly”
Hat: Bliss Couture – “Laurenn”
Skin: [sys] – “Eva”
Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

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Medieval Moods

(Models: Falbala Fairey & Wicca Merlin; Picture: Falbala Fairey)

TWA – The White Armory... we all know the creations of Bee Dumpling. She made wonderful creations wh let every medieval heart beat higher. Many roleplayers are basically have a second home in her store 🙂

For the wonderful first picture of this blog I would like to thank my little sister Falbala Fairey. I admire the style she does her pictures in and so I asked her, if she would pose with me for a medieval picture and if she would even do the picture :). The styling card of Falbala’s outfit you can find at  http://falbalafaireyfashionblog.wordpress.com/

Now lets take a closer look on my outfit, the wonderful “Dance of the Maiden Gown – Lady Annette”. The whole dress carries pink, white and black as colors. The textures and fabrics are amazing and detailed made.. you really can see how much love and time Bee puts in her creations. The beautiful white blouse with the long and flexible arm sleeves, the incredible corset vest with the awesome arm parts… simply a dream. Every little detail is captured so intensive and real I rarely saw such a great and filigree eye for the details as Bee Dumpling puts it on her designs. The “Dance of the Maiden” dress you will find in more colors than the one I just showed… for that you better take a look for yourself at the TWA Mainstore.

Dress: TWA/The White Armory – “Dance of the Maiden Gown- Lady Annette” – NEW

Hair: Tukinowaguma – “Selma”

Jewelry: Alienbear – “Yuriko”

Nails: ::GB:: – “Cute Pearl Ring”

Lashes: Panjen – “Dramatic Lashes”

Skin: Silken Moon – “Rookie” /fair lila

Pumps: *GF* – “Eve” Flower Pumps”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

GizzA – Valentino Inspiration

Outfit: GizzA – “Valentino Inspiration” – NEW

Skin: Silken Moon – “Rookie” /Wicca nude smokey (special cstom makeup)

Eyeshadow: L.Fauna – “Smokey Cat Shadow” /Golden/Brown

Eyeliner: Silken Moon – “Wicca” /black straight

Eyelashes: Redgrave – “Diamond Dust”

Nails & Necklace: Candy Nail – “Chidori” /gold

Hair: Wasabi Pills – “Taleen” (mesh)

Shoes: epoque – “Mesa Platforms” /black

Poses: Corpus

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin