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Dark, Moody and Powerful – Halloween!

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I did my first monthly subscription!

I never really thought about all those subscription boxes before but when DRD announced they will have a monthly subscription box, I could not resist… I had to have it. Even if I already got my second box this month, I still wanted to do a dark, moody post with the items of the first one in September 😉

What I really do love about that box is, that you get one dark and one light version of all parts in the box. All the items from the September box I used for the decoration of today’s scenery – certainly the dark parts 😉

Talking about DRD, when I was doing the Ironwood Hills hunt I saw many of those items, used as decoration on the sim! Speaking about the Ironwood Hills hunt… that was one of the best hunts I lately did. It is not a usual hunt where you just run around ike crazy and try to find certain items.. way not. It was a very well made one, which was entertaining and exciting the same time. I anyways love the Ironwood Hills sim and did many pictures there for blog posts and magazines, but with that hunt it gets even more interesting and you will find corners that you did not realize before!

When you land you have to click th one sign at the barn where you get your hunt HUD along with a flash light. I highly recommend to use the windlight settings of the sim to have the full experience and for that the flash light is very useful and adds to the whole fun 🙂

The HUD itself already is an amazing idea. You get the impression of a cell phone where you constantly be in touch with the person that is asking you to do something. I do not want to tell yo too much of the story as it would take away all the surprise and you would not enjoy it as much. You have to find a person and the one who asks you to, provides you constantly hints and ideas where you could look for your next step. I really enjoyed that whole story behind that hunt. You have several steps to go and only one was a bit harder to find but all the others where not baby easy but doable if you really read the storyline and hints. When you complete all the tasks you will be able to TP via the home sign on your cellphone HUD to the little market where all the amazing sponsors have set out little gifts for you. It was over 20 amazing gifts from SL’s best designers.

Since I found out lately about inworld games in SL and tried several ones like Madpea or even the ones I found at the Linden Labs Portal location for games, the Ironwood Hills hunt was the one I enjoyed most. I was highly disappointed from the Madpea one, after it was hyped so much when the game “Seven” came out, that I lost some motivation to do such things again. But the Ironwood Hills hunt gave it back to me 🙂 The Ironwood Hills hunt is free to play, with amazing NPC characters that interact with you, so well scripted and you even get 24 amazing high quality gifts in the end!!!

I highly recommend the Ironwood Hills hunt to you if you love spooky, creepy, story based and exciting things 😉 The hunt is on from October 1st until November 5th 2017.

Taxi: Ironwood Hills

Now I would like to drag your view closer on my outfit for today’s post. The incredible “Blood Lust” gacha from Salt & Pepper. Originally the gacha was released for the Arcade event but you now can find it at he Salt & Pepper main store. The whole set contains 3 rares (collar, corset & garters, boots) and 20 commons (sleeves & skirts).

Anyways if rares or commons you always get a clean and a bloody version for each color. While the rares come with full color HUDs too, the commons are all on one color with their 2 versions, that I just explained.

Could you imagine a better outfit that the “Blood Lust” for Halloween? Sexy and dark immortal fantasies 😉 I am totally in love and enjoying the dark season a lot 🙂

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Outfit, Shoes & Collar: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Blood Lust” (Maitreya, Gacha)

Necklace: Codex – “Charlotte”

Nails: Slackgirl – “Ring Queen Nails” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: Entwined – “Elaine”

Makeup: YS&YS – “Immortal Skin Applier” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Teeth & Lipstick: LeLutka – “Beast Teeth” (LeLutka Head Enhancement)

Skin: YS&YS – “Immortal” (LeLutka & Maitreya Applier)

Props & Poses:

Props: DRD – “Shadow Box #1” (September 2017/Dark)

Poses: Foxcity

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

Illusion – Sometimes you wish…

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Illusion

I know it’s hard to tell how mixed up you feel
Hoping what you need is behind every door
Each time you get hurt, I don’t want you to change
Because everyone has hopes, you’re human after all
The feeling sometimes, wishing you were someone else
Feeling as though you never belong
This feeling is not sadness, this feeling is not joy
I truly understand. Please, don’t cry now

Being like you are
Well this is something else, who would comprehend?
But some that do, lay claim
Divine purpose blesses them
That’s not what I believe, and it doesn’t matter anyway
A part of your soul ties you to the next world
Or maybe to the last, but I’m still not sure
But what I do know, is to us the world is different
As we are to the world but I guess you would know that

Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to hate for all the hurt that you feel
The world is just illusion trying to change you
Please don’t go, I want you to stay
I’m begging you please, oh please don’t leave here
I don’t want you to change
For all the hurt that you feel
This world is just illusion, always trying to change you
[VNV Nation]

VIDEO

This video, inspired me for today’s post. In the moment when I saw the amazing “Uh Oh Makeup” from Slackgirl.
We all know that – sometimes we desire to be something or someone else. Those moments when all those self-doubts devour you from the inside and you just wish to escape your own body or the situation that you are in. But would that really be worth it? It might seem easier on the first view but would you not miss your past, all the things that made you to what you are now? Would this new desire not make it even worse? Would this moment not come again some when – a new desire to again be someone or something else?
I do think those moments let us grow. Each time they happen and we work them through we gain experiences and as well come out of them even stronger.
Secondlife to me was such an escape in the past. When my RL turned upside down, Wicca was my refuge. I know how crazy that must sound, but others find their hide out in alcohol and drugs so for that amount of time where it was really bad, I am happy I had Wicca instead. I always was aware of, that it was a running from reality and I never believed SL could be any kind of reality than a virtual one. So I was well aware of what I did and did not lose myself in a virtual environment completely.
I know we all say, that we know Secondlife is a game and that we always can press the red “X” on the right upper corner. But if you are in SL for 10 years, your avatar and the people around you as well as the things you do become a part of you. Certainly I would not go around and tell my RL friends I am a model in SL and that would count anything towards my RL… if that makes sense. But I can tell about a game that I play and that I use it as my free time fun like others use other things – for example surfing on the internet, doing YouTube videos, doing handicrafts or what ever they enjoy in their free time, besides work and socializing in real life.
Nowadays I am not going to SL to escape anymore. My online times are way shorter as they used to be back then and sometimes I do not log in for days when I have RL appointments or wanna meet friends. The purpose of login in changed, but I still do have fun with Secondlife – just different.
I still enjoy to do things that I could not do in real life and as well I do enjoy designing a lot. To me designing is kinda the same as for others doing handicrafts maybe. Producing something and see how something grows under your fingers until you have a final product. The same applies to blogging and making pictures 😉
Secondlife can be an addiction, yes as you can easily lose yourself in it, but if you are aware of that, it can be a nice hideout with lots of fun and meeting amazing people – some even might become part of your real life out there 🙂
For me Secondlife never could replace my real – I do love my life now, but it is a nice way to live parts of your dreams and illusions 😉
Details
Clothing & Accessories:
Outfit: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita – Onepiece” (Gacha, for the Galatea Doll Lolita Body)
Necklace: shanghai – “Xana”
Headpiece: [sys] – “Hecate”
Hair & Makeup:
Face Art: Slackgirl – “Uh Oh Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo:
Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”
Skin: YS&YS – “Immortal Skin” (LeLutka Applier)
Body: Tentacio & Cureless – “Galatea Doll Lolita Body” (Gacha, Rare)
Props & Poses:
Fruct0se & Poseidon
Model & Photographer:

Freak? – Beyond the Ordinary!

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I got  wonderful present from my sister Daff – Those 2 awesome dragons!

The whole post and pictures turned out different from I first thought of it. Many times I was called freak and weirdo, but does that always have to be bad?

What does it mean to be a freak?

“In current usage, the word ‘freak’ is commonly used to refer to a person with something strikingly unusual about their appearance or behaviour.” does Wikipedia say.

If that just means different from the mainstream and as well a little crazy – I take the freak. Sadly to many ppl freak has some bad taste, probably because of the old sideshows, where people with genetic abnormality looks were showcased. That all usually was thought to scare people or as well to show them ‘creatures’ live among us. To me it is sad how some people react to such abnormal things, but probably that does belong to the fact, that many people being frightened by things they do never saw or do not know more about.

Maybe that as well applies to those who call me freak in a bitter and bad way. They are scared off things they did not see or do not understand, or they just have no fun in any life and have to make others miserable. For those I just feel pity. It must be horrible to wake up everyday and the only thing you can think off, is trash and bad mouth other people…

Those do not earn one minute of your thoughts, as their only intention is to make you feel sad. No word or argument can convince them to change their mind, because they are not looking for any serious facts 😉 Just don’t feed the troll and ignore them. Any word you will give them will be twisted and changed as long as it fits their own arguments – you can’t win, it is senseless and wasted time. You can use that time for so many other and more productive things 😉

I am not trying to be all different or force myself to not look ‘mainstream’ like. Sometimes it just happens when I style. I do not think about my styles too much. I just go and play with different accessories, clothing and makeup. Sometimes it does turn out freaky and sometimes not. For making pictures the more crazy looking ones are usually more interesting than just a sweet outfit on a random SL sim, but all have its right to exist and as well their certain purpose.

Secondlife to me is a place where you can express and do so many things that you either can’t do in RL OR that are just impossible by nature. We do not have dragons, or fantasy creatures and most of the time humans have no wings or hooves or what ever you can do in Secondlife.

I do enjoy the fantasy side a lot, as it gives you the room for creativity. I know some people enjoy the realistic side more and that is ok too. For me it always depends on my personal mood and emotions what I wanna go for when I start playing with my inventory.

To me Secondlife should have the freedom of doing what you enjoy no matter what as long as you do not hurt other people and their feelings. I do not want my Secondlife being a 100% mirror of my real life, because then there would be no reason to log in 😉 I love to experiment, to play Barbie with my pixels and dress them up to what ever I feel or want.

I was only playing around with them first, but the more I tested them the more I wanted to do something with them. The “Fierce Dragon Brother” are a gacha rare and they are animated! The move by themselves on default and in certain poses they even react to the movement. You need special bento poses, as the upper dragon uses the wing bones and the lower one reacts on the hind leg bones.

At 4Mesh I saw one of the new releases from Zibska. With the headpiece and the shoulder/chest part of the outfit, combined with the new “Fenris” dress from Moon Elixir, that I found at We♥RP it was the perfect outfit for the dragon brothers.

As much as I tried to make the whole style not be too dark – I guess Halloween is too close and I am way to excited for my favourite ‘season’ of the year – It became darker and darker with everything I added.

The dark “Lexa” eye makeup from IGOTIT and as well the “Blacktop” lipstick from Zibska just pulled it more into the darkness and so I gave in and just went with what it led to 😉

I loved the makeup, as it looks like a loosely painted black stripe over the eyes, lightly messy but as well somehow mysterious. The wonderful rings are bento enabled rings from MEVA. The “Victorian Bento Rings” come with a huge HUD. With the HUD you can hide single rings and as well can color all the gemstones separately. I really do like those options!

The sharp, long stiletto nails are made from Slackgirl. They do have a HUD as well and you can change the color of the nails AND as well the color of the little gems on the rings which are attached to them!

Enjoy YOUR Secondlife and do not let anyone tell you what you should do and what you should not. You are the one to make your desicions no matter what 🙂

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Dress: Moon Elixir – “Fenris” (Maitreya) – NEW @ We ♥ RP

Boots: Diamante – “Laced Thigh High Boots” (Maitreya)

Headpiece. Chest & Shoulderparts: Zibska – “Alured” – NEW @ 4Mesh

Armor: [LAB737] – “Berserker Female”

Rings: MEVA – “Victorian Bento Rings” (Maitreya)

Nails: Slackgirl – “RingQueen Nai” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup:

Makeup: IGOTIT – “Lexa” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Blacktop” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Lights Out” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Aii the Ugly & Beautiful – “Fierce Dragon Brothers” (Gacha, Rare) – NEW @ Arcade

Model & Photographer:

Wicca Merlin

End of Summer

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End of summer… the days getting shorter and colder, fog is on the fields on the morning and we get more and more rainy days in Germany.

Enough reason for having one last sweet summer post 🙂

This time it is something special as India and me found a matching dress from Tiptoes. It was at one of the Gimme Gacha gacha events and it looked so sweet – ok I admit it was India looking at me with sparkling eyes asking if we could do a partner pic with those dresses 😉 Usually we both are not much of dress girl, but I guess she just loved the idea of having the same dress for both of us 😉

We had a lot of fun doing the pics and play with the amazing props from Lil’Bug. The “Daisy” gacha set contains 8 common poses and 2 rares. For the post we used the common ones since the rares are couple poses which did not really match for our idea.

O hope you enjoy your last days of summer as much as we did 🙂

Details

Clothing & Accessories

Dress: tiptoes – “Shimmer Princess Dress” (Maitreya, Gacha)

Choker: pr!tty – “Branch Choker” (Gacha, SoI)

Head Piece: pr!tty – “Nature Kitty” (Gacha, SoI)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: pr!tty – “Hippy” (Gacha, Super Rare)

Makeup: Zibska – “Delight” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Felicity” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props

Lil’Bug Poses – “Daisy” (Gacha)

Models: India Amari & Wicca Merlin

Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Oktoberfest 2017 – My own View ;)

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Tomorrow it will start again – The yearly Oktoberfest in Munich in Germany.

When I saw the last Monthly Midnight Madness gifts from Salt & Pepper, I did know I have to do something with it 😉

Since I am not the bigges fan of traditional Bavarian fashion or music, I had to think of a way how I can put my personal twist on it 😉

If you look at the modern Bavarian fashion trends you can see that young people modernized the traditional Dirndl and Lederhosen a lot. so why not take on that new and fresh thought of a modern Oktoberfest look.

I put on the “Lederhosen” from Salt & Pepper, and the the hard part came… what to add…

I did know I wanted a special hair style. Either some messy braids or some Rasta looking hair. Discord Designs is known for their dreads and braids and so I took a closer look on their creations and found the “Nita” hair. The style was just perfect for what I had in mind!

For the shoes, usually you have typical ‘Landhaus’ style shoes, if you go for the traditional look. But since I wanted to have something modern I wanted to have so thigh high boots. Those I found at Blueberry. During their last sale, I found the “Celia” boots. What really got me was, that you have 2 different styles in the pack. One flat and one high heel version. With the well known high quality of the Blueberry designs, I instantly fell in love with the detailed folds and textures 🙂

For those who know me… a tattoo can not miss 😉 The one I chose today, certainly comes from White Widow 😉 The “Desierto” tattoo was originally made for the Cosmopolitan event, but I am sure Julie has it at her main store by now. I loved the huge tiger head on the chest so much with the “Lederhosen”. It made a great contrast for the whole look.

Last but not least, the cool makeup and the super sharp stiletto nails were made by Slackgirl. I love the way how Slackgirl expresses her creativity and sense for art in her creations. She always surprises me with her release, which are so extraordinary and still so versatile. you can make so many different looks from glamorous or beauty to really artistic and different.

First I was looking for a Ferris Wheel or a Fair where I could take the pictures for today, but then I thought with that typical party look I would not really get what I wanted. I went home again and started to build up a set with the “Abandoned Playground” gacha from 22769. The more parts of that gacha I rezzed the more it looked like the idea I had before :p

In the end, I made it to complete my own vision for my Oktoberfest 2017 and I hope you like it 😉

“Ozapft is!“

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Outfit: Salt & Pepper: Lederhosen (MMM Edition)

Shoes: Blueberry – “Celia Boots”

Collar: Salt & Pepper – “Oktoberfest” (Gacha)

Nails: Slackgirl – “Tow Stiletto Mesh Nails” (Maitreya)

Earrings: Ticky Tacky – “Lick Me!”

Septum: [CX] – “Drop Set”

Hair& Makeup:

Hair: Discord Designs – “Nita”

Hairbase: Mina – “Myla” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup: Slackgirl – “Kam” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4,1”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Desierto” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Set: 22769 – “Abandoned Playground” (Gacha)

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Sporty Moment

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Yes, sometimes even me has a sporty urban moment*giggles*

This time it was the shoes that totally got me and when I bought them at the last sale of Reign. I always was in love with that shoes, but when they were in the sale I could not anymore resist.

The shoes come in 3 different colors if you get the fatpack and all 3 are just awesome 😉 They are made of 2 parts so you could wear them as short ones too without the upper thigh parts.

First I wanted to do a baseball looking style but I did not find all the stuff I wanted for it so I decided to go with a ‘Sporty Spice’ look 😉

That kind of style is out of my personal comfort zone, but sometimes it is fun to try those as well 😉

 

Details

Jacket: Sabotage – “Sports Bomber Jacket” (Maitreya)

Top: GizzA – “Lucy Tank” (Maitreya)

Pants: [sYs] – “Ride” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Reign – “Suicide Heels” (Maitreya)

Hair: Mina – “Indica”

Necklace: Minimal – “Chiker Bow Tie”

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)

Basics

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Shape: Selfmade

Set

Background: anxiety – “Sunday pack %83”

Poses: Poseidon

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Dark Visions

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Dark Visions

There’s something hidden
In the depthsof the night
From a placenot forbidden
But deprived of light
A landscape of mistery
Is the other side
Derying the limits
Of the mind

Dark Visions
Fragment of a story that’s not a lie
Dark vision
Image of an existence destinedto die
Dark visions

A raid into the unknown
Enigmatic strangeland
Where the incognito’s grown
Harder to understand
The faceof silence
The likehood of fear
A reflex that will slowly
Disappear

Nightmares and dreams
Fictions or realities
Dark Visions

[Alien Produkt]

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Outfit: Zibska – “Lilitu” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Secret Affair

Shoes: Reign – “Kendall” (Maitreya)

Nails: glYph – “Apex” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup:

Hair: Analog Dog – “Pipe Dream”

Makeup: Slackgirl – “SecretFreak” (Omega Applier) – NEW @ The Secret Affair

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon

Props: E.V.E Studio – “KOI Square Confetti Ring” & “Sugarflies {Red}”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

I won’t back down

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I Won’t Back Down

Well I won’t back down
No I won’t back down
You could stand me up at the gates of hell
But I won’t back downNo I’ll stand my ground
Won’t be turned around
And I’ll keep this world from draggin’ me down
Gonna stand my ground
And I won’t back down

Well I know what’s right
I got just one life
In a world that keeps on pushin’ me around
But I’ll stand my ground
And I won’t back downHey baby there ain’t no easy way out
Hey I won’t back down
Hey baby there ain’t no easy way out
Hey I will stand my ground
And I won’t back down
No I won’t back down
[Tom Petty]
Details
Clothing & Accessories:
Dress: United Colors – “Simone” (Maitreya)
Shoes: Hucci – “Itabuna Boots” (Maitreya)
Armstraps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arm” (Maitreya)
Headpiece: PFC – “Roach”
Makeup & Hair:
Facepaint: PFC – “Roach” (LeLutka Applier)
Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)
Hairbase: Mina – “Myla” (LeLutka Applier)
Body & Tattoo:
Head: LeLutka – “Somine 3.0”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”
Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Brimstone” (Maitreya Applier) – NEW @ On9
Poses & Props:
Poses: Poseidon
Set:
Trees: Little Branch – “Spooky Tree 1 & 4”
Branches: [we’re CLOSED] – “Shrub Large Bare”
Skulls: [Kres] – “Dragon King” – NEW @ We ♥ RP

The Darkness Inside

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I did think a long time about a title for this post and pictures and after a conversation with a dear, sweet friend today, I suddenly had the idea – “The dark beast inside of me sometimes needs some release”

We all know that feeling I guess. You often just try to be polite and kind even if you feel that the inner beast tries to break free. In my life I learned that his beast has two different sides. It is very emotional and hot-headed on one side and sometimes it can be very dark ironic and sarcastic on the other. That is why I learned to control it and keep it locked in chains inside of me.

Certainly I was told to not always swallow all my emotions and everything that I get told, but the same time there is way how you can express this in a polite and adult way.

The most difficult it gets when you feel hurt. Because then this beast inside just rambles and rattles with the chains, developing immense power so that I sometimes really be afraid it would break that chains and just break free.

But exactly those situations taught me the most. When I was able to still keep it inside, it felt as a success to not let it win over me just because of someones judgement, rumors, gossips or words.

Every time I was able to keep it locked away, I felt that I did grow stronger. It was a long process and it took me years and sadly it is still not perfectly locked. But maybe it does not have to be, because everything has an end as well and so does patience, understanding and politeness. Sometimes people really need to know when they overstepped a line or did hurt me even if they will not believe nor change their behaviour – most of the time because they can’t as they have nothing in their life than trying to make others miserable. Then you do not even need to argue with those, because you can’t win. Anyways what you will say to prove them wrong they will turn it around and again use it against you no matter what. So all you can do is let it go, turn around and move on.

If you move on, you will meet new people in the future who will treat you with more respect and in an adult way. Certainly not only those, but all the others will wait for you left and right as well and maybe it is the personal challenge of everyone’s life to pass those who do not matter to meet those who DO matter – if that makes any sense. That does not mean you should not take any critiques, but you can learn to decide between the good and the bad critique. The bad, that only was used to hurt, blame or accuse you without any content OR the one that sometimes hurts too a bit – because you might have seen it different – but that as well contains facts and things that let you learn and grow from.

In the end you are the one, that has to make the decisions in your life – nobody can do or should do that for – as long as you can.

For me it feels better to have a mainly positive life (all of us have bad days or experiences) instead of a hate filled, jealous and not satisfied one. I always ask myself – before I react on things – if it would be worth fighting or arguing about something, or just smile and say thank you, turn around and move on. Both cases did happen and both will happen in the future, but if I argue or discuss I try to stay with the facts, be polite and kind and as well stay adult and not just release the inner beast without thinking. If that happens, I exactly would do that, what I do not want be done to myself – hurt, accuse or become personal and unobjective – and that is not an option to me if I can control it. I have to admit, over the years I became way more calm in such situations and maybe it is the age that lets you think before you take any action 😉

Details

Clothing & Accessoires:

Outfit: Salt & Pepper – “Strapped” (Gacha, Maitreya)

Arms Straps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arms” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Bax – “Regency Boots”

Chains: E.V.E Studio – “{Apocalyptica} Cyber Snake Chains”

Makeup & Hair:

Hair: A&Y Bunker – “Cyro Hair”

Hairbase: Mina – “Myla Hairbase” (LeLutka Applier)

Makeup: Zibska – “Ballard Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Ears: Swallow – “Pixie Ears”

Arms: Zibska – “Speckles” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props:

Pose: Poseidon

True Friendship

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“And now to something completely different!”

In RL my English teacher – back when I was at school – used to say that if he was changing his topic, and after a roll of post apocalyptic posts (one is still missing), I wanted to do something different and finally my mind was able to do something else *giggles*

I am always fascinated from white pictures and rarely – if I try one – , they come out as I want them too.

But this time it did! I wanted to do a combination of power and fragile moments in a very soft environment.

All I added for the set were the “Waving Bioluminescent Fungus” in white and the “Rapunzel in Evie White Tower” in front of a white background. The “Rapunzel in Evie White Tower” reminded me of the thought of your inner voice, that talks to you if you have decisions to make or that you ask when you are down and do not know who to ask. It looked great in the background for the idea of the picture.

Do you know that moment, where people want you to be strong and you feel right the opposite but cannot show that, because you have a task to end or you have to be there for someone?

It is like an inner fight with yourself, trying to not let the fragile side win. Sometimes you need to be strong, no matter what. Even if I have been told several times to not hide my feelings – if you have a true friendship, sometimes your own feelings have to be pushed behind to be there for your friend. Thank god it does not happen too often that those 2 ‘souls’ come up to the same time. Would you not expect the same from a true friend – to be there for you when you need him or her most? and even if I am always afraid to bother someone with my problems and moods. But IF I do, I really to expect close and true friends to be there for me. And saying that I would even get up in the middle of the night and drive 500 and more kilometers to help , when it would be needed and possible.

True friendship is rare and even more rare in an online environment, but it is there. Many times you might be disappointed from people who you thought you know but if you stop trusting… you never will find those who are true and honest. You would cut yourself off to meet people who could be potential true and honest friends. I do not know if that makes sense – bear with the German – but I hope you know what I am trying to say.

In the past 10 years in SecondLife, I met many people. Some I still talk to, some quit playing and some just vanished. It was a rollercoaster journey in terms of meeting people. A few I let come close to me and they ripped out my heart and left me in pain for weeks. sometimes I even thought I will quit playing Second Life. But then there are some that I met, which caught me, gave me the feeling of being close to them and those I would not want to miss again. It might only be a handful people who really do know me – know more behind Wicca’s pixel – but those I highly value and I could not think about a life without them anymore. Even if we never met, we shared tons of hours on skype or inworld, even further on mobile communication tools and they became part of not only my Second Life but my real one as well.

Friendships are different – Some are super close and with some you share moments and experiences but you do not talk to them on an everyday base. That does not have to be bad though, they are still friends I do care for and in the moment we meet we have the biggest fun ever 🙂

I never would wanna change the past, as it did make me to what I am now – SL and RL. Even the pain made me learn something –  I never stopped to trust people or give people a chance to know me and become new, true friends.

Sometimes it is hard, but if you go out to find new true and real friends maybe do not give them the burden or the doubt out of your past experiences. They are not responsible for that, nor they know.

I hope I did make sense with what I was trying to say – if not… maybe holler at me inworld and you can help me doing it better 😉

Details

Clothing & Accessories:

Outfit: Plastix – “Solaris” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Essenz – “Calgary” (Maitreya)

Shoulder Piece, Necklace & Brows: Zibska – “Verad” (Gacha)

Makeup & Hair:

Makeup: Zibska – “Verad Eye Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Adia” (LeLutka Applier)

Hair: enVogue – “Carley”

Head, Body & Tattoos:

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props:

Poses: Poseidon

Props: E.V.E Studio – “Waving Bioluminescent Fungus” & “Rapunzel in Evie White Tower”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin