Freak Show – Am I a freak? Are you a freak?

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I’ll tell you who the monsters are! The people outside this tent! In your town, in all these little towns. Housewives pinched with bitterness, stupefied with boredom as they doze off in front of their laundry detergent commercials, and dream of strange, erotic pleasures. They have no souls. My monsters, the ones you call depraved, they are the beautiful, heroic ones. They offer their oddity to the world. They provide a laugh, or a fright, to people in need of entertainment. Everyone is living the life they chose. But you, you undoubtedly will be one of those soulless monsters. Perhaps you already are.

[Elsa Mars // American Horror Story]

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In current usage, the word “freak” is commonly used to refer to a person with something strikingly unusual about their appearance or behaviour. This usage dates from the so-called freak scene of the 1960s and 1970s.

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So… what is a freak? Am I a freak?

To me the term freak never had any bad taste. In school people called me freak as I did  not look like anybody else. I had colored hair in deep hues and colors (red, green, blue)I used to have an undercut or s side cut and my clothing never matched the mainstream. I always had an addiction for punk and gothic fashions in RL as well. I never saw a reason to look like all the other girls, just because someone decided that this is an actual trend right now. During my teenager times it was not always easy. If you are called a freak or an outsider especially while you grow up and try to find yourself.. go figure. Several times I tried to level myself down, to what they called ‘mainstream or trendy’, but for whatever reason I always felt like dressing up for carnival and wearing a costume. It never took long before I went back to what I really liked, to again be called freak. Back then freak did hurt, but that changed big time, when I discovered that they just could not handle people who are different, but that was years later…

So I finished my school as the outsider with just a handful people in school I went along well, but each of them was worth a million more as the ‘hipsters’ in my class.

The I went to university to become a teacher, as iI wanted to prove my family I can do something ‘normal’ as well besides running to concerts and making music. That did last quite long and I really made my first exam quite fine. In germany there is required a second one after one year of guided teaching and when I had that first exam in my hands, I already felt that is the end of the street for me, since having the second year done would require to fit into what the guiding professor/teacher expects.

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The same time I was offered my first contract from a record label with one band I had back then. so that kinda made the decision easy, to leave the teacher thing behind with the first exam in my hands and finally turn towards the music scene, which I had desired before, but due to the family reasons not yet looked deeper into that just playing in some bands here and there.

It was not a huge contract, but it was my first and it was one :p and the more I walked into the music business, the more I discovered that way more musicians are freaks that everywhere else I was before*giggles* and I am using the word freak not in a bad way. So many great individuals, great open-minded people and all of a sudden being a freak did not mean to be an outsider anymore!

I had amazing 20 years in the music world before I thought about teaching at a school again.

I always had music students and tutored some kids if they could not follow the teachers in school with afternoon hours of trying to teach them maths, english or what ever was needed but never officially as a teacher more as a private mentor or tutor. Somewhen – about 4 years ago – I got a call from a school. They were asking if I would like to teach some guitar and bass guitar lessons for some kids of the school band, which they just started. It sounded exciting and I thought why not give it a try, especially because the principal was so amazing. He got told about me from a mother, tha had her child at his school, that was having bass guitar lessons from me for years. So I went there for a first meeting to meet the principal and talk about a few things since I was not the only one he called to find a music teacher for guitar and bass guitar. It was a wonderful experience and during our talk he told me he was a musician in his younger days as well, playing trumpet and trombone. I do not know how to say but in german we have a quote that says ‘The chemistry between us was right from the first moment”. Again I was an outsider, a freak with my clothing and my weird stylings at school but the kids liked it, as it was not the usual teacher look. To me it was totally new again to be an outsider but one the kids and as well my peers respected and as well liked…

I am still making music, play in bands and having fun, but I found a new chapter in my life which more and more puts me towards teaching at an official school.

Being a freak… once it did hurt be called like that, but nowadays I do not mind be called a freak or being an outsider, as I learned the most interesting people are freaks somehow and not squeezed into the mainstream 😉 Do not fear to be different.. life can be so much more exciting. You meet so much more interesting people if you dare watch over the border of the little plate we call life 😉

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Details

Outfit (incl. hat): !dM (Devious Mind) – “Dolly”

Tights: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Fishnet Tights” (Appliers only)

Gloves: Sweet Tea – “Formal Gloves Essentials”

Shoes: lassitude & enui – “Wicked Booties”

Cuffs: The Annex – “Lock Down”

Necklace: Empyrean Forge – “Apprize Charm” – NEW @ Enchantment

Hair: Adoness – “Eutychia”

Eyeshadow: Slackgirl – “Candy Shadow” – NEW @ Enchantment

Lipstick: Zibska – “Nereza” – NEW @ Enchantment

Lollipops: Aisha – “Lolipop Patch” – NEW @ Enchantment

Glitter: E.V.E Studio – “Koi Glitter Puffs”

Poses: Poseidon & Aliud

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

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Wild Fairy Dance

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TUNES

I wandered alone to the forest one night
Led by a music strange to hear
And followed the glow of a shimmering light
That seemed to grow distant as I grew near

The woods were alive with the fragrance of spring
But winter was everywhere clear to see
The moon shone bright and a bat on the wing
Beckoned me closer and said to me:

“A clearing close in the forest you’ll find
A fabulous banquet, a fairy ball
If you close your eyes and you open your mind
The veil disappears and you’ll see it all”
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When I closed my eyes to the shimmering light
All memory faded and I could see
That a mushroom circle of red and white
And myriad fairies surrounded me

Beyond all space and beyond all time
On gossamer wings did the fairies fly
With a joy unknown to a music sublime
The fairies danced, and there danced I

“Those who seek us surely find us
See the trail we leave behind us
Some bewildered, some enlightened
Some are brave, some are frightened

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Are we kind or are we vicious?
Nectar poison or delicious?
That, my sweet, you will discover
Fairy foe, or fairy lover”

Come and play as the wild fairies play
In a magical circle, a fairy ring
You won’t want to leave and forever you’ll stay
Where the vision is bright as spring

Come and dance the wild fairy dance
Spin in a circle as fast as light
Once you begin you are caught in a trance
And the world can grow old in a single night

I wandered alone to the forest one night
Led by a music strange and clear
If you happen to pass when the moon is bright
And the veils are thin you will find me here
If the veils are thin you will find me here

[Gary Stadler]

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Details

Outfit: Salt&Pepper – “Cybernized Bodysuit” NEW @ Gacha Garden

Feetstraps: Salt&Pepper – “Ryan”

Hair: EMO-tions – “Selma”

Tattoo: White Widow – “Moonlight”

Facetattoo: White Widow – “Honey”

Set: E.V.E Studio – “Whisper Petals” + “Sugarflies” + “Bioluminescent Fungus”

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Something evil’s lurkin’in the dark…

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TUNES

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It’s close to midnight
Something evil’s lurkin’in the dark
Under the moonlight
You see a sight that almost stops your heart
You try to scream
But terror takes the sound before you make it
You start to freeze
As horror looks you right between the eyes
You’re paralyzed

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You hear the door slam
And realize there’s nowhere left to run
You feel the cold hand
And wonder if you’ll ever see the sun
You close your eyes
And hope that this is just imagination
But all the while
You hear a creature creepin’ up behind
You’re outta time

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Night creatures callin’
The dead start to walk in their masquerade
There’s no escaping the jaws of the alien this time
(They’re open wide)
This is the end of your life
They’re out to get you
There’s demons closing in on every side
They will possess you
Unless you change that number on your dial
Now is the time
For you and I to cuddle close together, yeah
All through the night
I’ll save you from the terror on the screen
I’ll make you see

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‘Cause this is thriller
Thriller at night
And no one’s gonna save you
From the beast about to strike
You know it’s thriller
Thriller at night
You’re fighting for your life
Inside a killer
Thriller tonight

[Michael Jackson]

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Details

Dress: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Rosemary” – NEW @ The Bloody Horror Fair

Shoes: Astralia – “Bloody Bandage Feet Accessory” – NEW @ The Bloody Horror Fair

Headpiece: [ht+] – “Head Bandages”

Blood: Izzie’s – “Blood & Wounds” (applier for mesh body)

Eyes: Arise – “Blind Eyes”

Set/Poses: Poseidon – “The Cell”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Sorceresses

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Details on Wicca (right)

Outfit: GizzA – “Sorcerous Roses”

Headpiece: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Myostola”

Neckpiece: Maitreya – “Vintage Collar”

Spider Prop: Salt & Pepper – “Arachnophilla Spider Companion” (Gacha)

Models: Tempest Rosca (l) & Wicca Merin (r)

Photographer: Tempest Rosca

Autumn – when the season adds color ;)

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Autumn has not only the dark, misty and creepy side – It as well has the colorful, warm and cozy one 😉

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Perfect for this time was the “Anna” outfit from Asteria, which I lately got. You have more color choices for that wonderful ensemble, but I decided to go with the light and brown looking one, as it just was matching so nice to the autumn colors.

The outfit contains 3 parts. The super sexy leather top, the high-waisted skirt and the amazing ‘over the shoulder’ hanging coat.

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I would like to drag the focus a little bit more on the amazing new “Hortensia” hells from Glamistry. The amazing platform pumps are decorated with a super cute lace, that ends in a beautiful little ribbon at the back heel. With the huge color HUD you have an awesome range of trendy colors to customize the shoes to nearly any outfit.

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What could be a better hair choice than the new “Leotie” hair from EMO-tions. Now available at the actual round of Shiny Shabby, that hair style just completed my look. With the light gypsy/boho feeling with the incredible little details and ornaments and the fabulous headband, it totally nailed my autumn feeling on the head 😉

Since I am already at the “All starts with a smile” sim, I guess I am going to explore the sim a little more, enjoying the beautiful colors of the actual season and see, if I can find some more nice locations for future posts 😉

Details

Outfit: Asteria – “Anna” – NEW

Shoes: Glamistry – “Hortensia” – NEW

Tights: Izzie’s – “Sheer tights” (mesh body applier)

Hair: EMO-tions – “Leotie” NEW @ Shiny Shabby

Poses: ALIUD – “Runway 2” – NEW

Location: It all starts with a smile

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Explode!

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There’s something I should get off my chest
I’m losing my mind and my life’s a mess.
Well everyone says do this and do that
Maybe they’re right
I feel like I’m gonna…….
EXPLODE.. I’M GONNA EXPLODE
It is so big yet I feel so small
It’s even in your shopping mall
Is my life wasting away
Don’t throw it away that’s what they say
I don’t wanna go out and fail
Yet I fail at home every day
I wonder someday if I’ll look back
With regrets on how I lived
Each way I turn I turn my back
Each time I turn I always look back
I’m trying to please everyone I don’t know how
I feel like I’m gonna…….
EXPLODE.. I’M GONNA EXPLODE

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What should I do I really don’t know
Should I stay home or should I go
Well I’m struggling with my sanity
Is my life crumbling in front of me.
Oh.
Do you know how it feels?
To feel like you’re gonna explode
Do you ever feel
Like you’re gonna explode.
EXPLODE.

[The Unseen]

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Details

Outfit: Sakide – “Impulse”

Shoes: :)(: Pixelfashion – “Vanina Boots”

Mask: PurpleMoon – “Lost Heart”

Nails & Handwraps: Formanails – “Scarabeus”

Hair: EMO-tions – “Tommy”

Scene: E.V.E Studio – “Broken Chains {The Bomb}”

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Contrast – Black & Silver against Red

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Again Blacklace released an amazing ensemble of panties, bra, stockings, garter belt and this time even boots!

With my addiction for over knee boots I could not pass that one 😉

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Again I tried to think about something to mix and match lingerie with something else to not again have a typical lingerie post (even if i will have soon one like that again since Blacklace does release so many amazing things *grins*)

When I was looking through my inventory what I could use today, a box was thrown against my head. Sora Tatham – owner and designer for agapee – a long time friend of mine sent me her newest release. The “Kelly Shirt” by agapee was the perfect addition to the “Anita” set from Blacklace.

With the open, loosely wrapped down front it was perfect for showcasing lingerie and the length was just right to let the garters peeking out under it :p

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I love several kinds of contrasts and so I thought about something black and silver highlighted just with one color, which I wanted to put on the lips, the hair and the nails.

Contrasts can be done in so many ways. colors, opposite things, things that do not belong together at all usually…and so many more.

The way how the comic Sin City is done always inspires me, when it comes to highlights and contrasts in colors.

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So for the hair I chose the “No.Case” hairstyle from no.match. In a red shade it was just perfect to the light red lip gloss and the red finger nails from Nailed It.

The scenery again was built mainly with designs from E.V.E Studio. The awesome “Ivy Trees M02” paired with parts of the “Broken Chains” set, that as well includes the amazing choker with the long chains in the back of the neck.

All the poses I used for this post come from Del May. I really do enjoy their unusual poses and I rarely found a pose store, that has those kind of poses before.. but a few days ago… I found another! Not yet saying which one, but soon I will have a post about it, I promise 😉

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 Details

Lingerie & Boots: Blacklace – “Anita Lace Set” (lingerie only has mesh body appliers)

Shirt: agapee – “Kelly” – NEW

Body Chain: Kibitz – “Amalia Body Chain”

Bracelets: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Modrem Cuffs”

Chocker: E.V.E Studio – “Broken Chains”

Hair: no.match – “No.Case”

Nailpolish: Nailed It! – “Halloween 2016 Set”

Set: E.V.E Studio – “Ivy Tree M02” & “Broken Chains”

Poses: Del May

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

Shakesburton – This is Halloween!

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Boys and girls of every age
Wouldn’t you like to see something strange?
Come with us and you will see
This, our town of Halloween

This is Halloween, this is Halloween
Pumpkins scream in the dead of night

This is Halloween, everybody make a scene
Trick or treat till the neighbors gonna die of fright
It’s our town, everybody scream
In this town of Halloween

[A Nightmare before Christmas]

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Taylor Wassep, founder and creative head behind the THEMA Magazine had a brilliant idea, which I totally fell in love with.

(Click HERE to find the latest issue of THEMA magzine)

For his latest issue of THEMA, he had the idea to use one of  Shakespeare’s works and then interpretate it in a Tim Burton inspired way.

You can imagine how straight that went to my heart with my Tim Burton addiction…

So for my pictures I chose Hamlet. Since I wanted to bring the head of Jack Skellington into my pics, becasue I totally love that character, it seemed the perfect match 😉

Even more happy I was when Taylor asked me if I would like to be the cover girl for this special issue and if I could style another look. Together with Tempest Rosca who took the picture, we decided to give a try on Lady McBeth 😉 The outcome you can see on the very last picture of this post.

I hope you can see the fun I had with those special pictures and how dear they became to me.

Thank you again Taylor for such an amazing theme for the THEMA Magazine and that I again was allwed to be part <3

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The mastermind behind some of the most iconic art styling and modern filmmaking – Tim Burton, magically crafts story line thought the guise of whimsical fantasy mixed with overtones of dark elements. The result being a masterful experience that only Tim Burton can create. Likewise, William Shakespeare is thought of to be the greatest English writer in all of history. He too, created works of art that cast it’s character in to dark turmoil and suffering. For the enjoyment of it’s audience and unknowing the modern world. Combining these two creative geniuses pays homage to their brilliance in both writing and style. Please enjoy, Shakesburton

[Taylor Wassep]

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Details

Outfit (incl. mask & stockings): Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Sally”

Shoes: Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Dewey Boots” (Burton Inspired)

Hat, Necklace& Shoulderparts: Enfant Terrible – “Showstopper” (Gacha)

Set: DRD – “Burtonesque Skybox” (edited)

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

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Outfit Wicca’s Wardrobe – “Gladys Blouse & Elison Skirt”

Hair: EMO-tions – “Antionette”

Bloody Hands: Clemmm – “Bloody Hands & Nails”

Model & Stylist: Wicca Merlin

Photographer: Tempest Rosca

Surrealistic Autumn with Asteria, EMO-tions and E.V.E Studio

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Surrealism was something, that I liked a lot in school and university when it came to art. The possibility to combine things that do not belong together or even play with sizes to really unnatural proportions can be a lot of fun. To mix dreams and reality as well has a very attractive side for me.

Surrealism:

Surrealism is a cultural movement that began in the early 1920s, and is best known for its visual artworks and writings. The aim was to “resolve the previously contradictory conditions of dream and reality”. Artists painted unnerving, illogical scenes with photographic precision, created strange creatures from everyday objects and developed painting techniques that allowed the unconscious to express itself.

Surrealist works feature the element of surprise, unexpected juxtapositions and non sequitur; however, many Surrealist artists and writers regard their work as an expression of the philosophical movement first and foremost, with the works being an artifact. Leader André Breton was explicit in his assertion that Surrealism was, above all, a revolutionary movement.

Surrealism developed out of the Dada activities during World War I and the most important center of the movement was Paris. From the 1920s onward, the movement spread around the globe, eventually affecting the visual arts, literature, film, and music of many countries and languages, as well as political thought and practice, philosophy, and social theory. [Wikipedia]

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E.V.E Studio lately inspires me a lot, to do more surrealistic looking pictures, because Noke keeps releasing so amazing art pieces which are super cool for little sets. This time it was the “Chained Tree” from E.V.E Studio, that brought me on the idea for todays pictures. The tree is part of the “Whispers Gacha”, which originally was made for Chapter 4. To give the whole set more ambience feeling I added the golden version of the “Ivy Tree” (which as well was part of a gacha from E.V.E Studio), some dry grass from [we’re closed] and the cute “Floating Watering Can” from striped mocha.

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First I thought about doing a creepy Halloween themed story, but after looking at all the gold it called more autumn that actually creepy Halloween at me :p.

I remembered a wonderful body suit with a cute leather harness from Asteria, that I did get not too long ago. Together with the awesome “Lost Mind Headdress” from PurpleMoon, the “Jane” outfit from Asteria it made the perfect look for a warm autumn picture series.  Since I was in a total autumn mood by now I added some tights, as I had the feeling, with naked legs, I would freeze like mad outside *snickers*, but the amazing “Sheer Tights” from Izzie’s took care of that ;). The “Jane” outfit from Asteria is made in 3 pieces. The sleeves, the body suit and the little harness. and you can mix and match with different colors as well if you like.

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The amazing hair cut is one of the latest releases from EMO-tions called “Melanie”. With the long hair that falls down straight over the shoulders to the front it looked amazing with the head-piece and the outfit and was the right match to get the feeling for the look as I wanted it.

I learned something again… even if you plan on something spooky dark scary, it can turn out as something warm and light :p

Details

Outfit: Asteria – “Jane”

Tights: Izzie’s – “Sheer Tights” (Mesh Body Applier)

shoes: [MODA] – “Tessa Knee High Boots”

Headpiece: PurpleMoon – “Lost Mind”

Hair: EMO-tions – “Melanie”

Face Decor: [The Forge] – “Face Art”

Tree: E.V.E Studio – “Chained Tree”

Bushes: E.V.E Studio – “Ivy Tree M02”

Grass: [we’re closed] – “Grass Field Dry”

Waterering Cans: striped mocha – “Floating Watering Can”

Poses: ALIUD

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

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LOTD 10/16/2016 – Lovely Day

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TUNES

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When I wake up in the mornin’ love
And the sunlight hurts my eyes
And somethin’ without warnin’ love
Bears heavy on my mind
Then I look at you
And the world’s alright with me
Just one look at you
And I know it’s gonna be
A lovely day

[Bill Withers]

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Details

Outfit: [sys] – “Canel” – NEW

Shoes: Glamistry – “Peony”

Tights: Izzie’s – “Sheer Tights Basics” (Mesh Body Applier)

Bag: PurpleMoon – “Safety Pin Clutch”

Rings: FORMANAILS – “Simple Rings – Maitreya”

Earrings: Kunglers – “Gabriela”

Bracelet: Kunglers – “Isis”

Hair: [INK] – “Trois” (Gacha RARE)

Hairbase: KoKoLoReS – “Shaved Hairbase”

Poses: ALIUD

Location: West of the Rain

Model & Photographer: Wicca Merlin

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