You can’t shoot me!

“You see that city over there? That’s where I’m supposed to be. Not down here with the dogs, and the garbage, and the fucking last month’s newspapers blowing back and forth. I’ve had it with them, I’ve had it with you, I’ve had it with all this – I want room service! I want the club sandwich, I want the cold Mexican beer, I want a $10,000-a-night hooker! I want my shirts laundered, like they do… at the Imperial Hotel… in Tokyo.”
[- Johnny Mnemonic -]
Clothing

Coat & Top: toksik – “Vortex” (Maitreya)
Corset: [CX] – “Seer Corsets – Black” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Legacy Spring Fair // April 2022
Pants: *LD* – Faith Pants” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Earrings & Piercings: L’Emporio – “::Meccano:: Piercings” (rigged for ^^Swallow^^ Gauged S Ears)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: .shi – “Gavri’ela – Bangs V1”
Scar: VYC – “Hunter Scar” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: BeSpoke – “Usagi Haruka”
Ears: ^^Swallow^^ – “Gauged S Ears (f)”
Eye (right): Arise – “Blind Eyes /White Mesh R”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”
Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo No Remorse ( Medium )” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: .PALETO. – “Backdrop:.HIGH BASE”
Poses & Katana: Poseidon – “Anime Saeko” (Bento)

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

 

 

“I’m gonna make you a Psycho”

TUNES

Love, it will get you nowhere
You are on your own
Lost in the wild
So come to me now
I could use someone like you
Someone who’ll kill on my command
And asks no questions

I’m gonna make you
I’m gonna break you
I’m gonna make you
A fucking psycho
Your ass belongs to me now

[- Muse -]

So much news again! Let’s see what it will be today *winks*

CerberusXing released a freaking, awesome harness at Sultry. The Harness comes in black, blue, green, orange, pink, purple and white, so you have a great variety to choose from what suits you best.

The amazing scenery around me was made by DRD. With the “Killer’s Cabin” they created another amazing, cool set for all kind of dark fantasy pictures. The cabin can be bought as a full fatpack with the house, as well as all the amazing inner decor (listed below).

Clothing

Harness: [CX] – “Ophanim Harness – Black” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Sultry // November 2020

Pasties: .ARISE. – “Spiked Pasties / Black_Silver” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Piercing: [CX] – “Deepforge Chains (Silver) – L” (Group Gift)

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Essential Dirty Claws (Original)” (Maitreya, Bento)

Cuffs: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Bondage Deluxe Set” (Maitreya)

Upper Legs: Gemini – “Sis Leg Bangles – Up” (Maitreya)

Lower Legs: [CX] – “Spiked Gladiator – Black (Silver)” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No_Karma” – NEW @ Cosmopolitan // November 2020

Eyeliner: CAZIMI – “Basic B Eyeliners Winged” (LeLUTKA Evo. HD Applier)

Lashes: CAZIMI – “Tidy Lashes” (LeLUTKA Evo. Applier)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Fleur 2.5”

Ears: [CX] – “Ostium Impaler”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo ( Dark ) Sacred Focus” (BoM) – NEW @ Shiny Shabby // November 2020

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses & Knife: Foxcity – “Cute but Psycho”

Set:

DRD – “Killer’s Cabin – Cage”

DRD – “Killer’s Cabin – Info Wall”

DRD – “Killer’s Cabin – Tools”

DRD – “Killer’s Cabin – Table and stool (with gore)”

DRD – “Killer’s Cabin – Shackles”

DRD – “Killer’s Cabin – Chains”

[CX] – “Rusty Chains – Set.1”

[CX] – “Rusty Chains – Set.2”

[CX] – “Rusty Chains – Set.7 ( Ground )”

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Captured by my own Thoughts…

The past week was a rollercoaster of emotions for me. Life changed with the pandemic all over the world, I guess most of the people try to work with it as best as they can. For me personal, I am not suffering not too bad from quarantine and lock-down. I still get to teach 7/8 hours a days from Monday to Thursday – I am on of the lucky ones to have students who have/were given all the needed hardware to do online school with them. I just adjusted my work space/office to have a virtual classroom. I set up my camera and monitors to have one screen share for files and another as “chalkboard” where I can write on. That is working really fine for about 5 weeks now, even if I really miss seeing my students in person sometimes.

I followed the discussions about how to start school again with high interest, as according to all other news we are not yet over the pandemic problems since we have not yet any kind of vaccine. So we still have rules like limited contacts only, do not take your kids on your shopping tours and in some areas even the duty to wear masks while shopping or being on public transport vehicles. All over they tell us the self made masks won’t protect us from being infected and only safe the people around you in case you are infected and do not know. Reading all that I thought, they will keep school online for the rest of this school year to be honest, at least for those who have a good running system and perfect contact to their students. I was so wrong… They now force all exam classes back to school with no exception of having better alternatives or possibilities, which would limit the risk to get infected. So even if you have a good running online schooling, it doesn’t matter. If you have better ideas against the given “10 – 15 students in one little classroom”, for example use the gyms which is like 3 to 4 times bigger than a class room and you could keep the class together with 18 people and still have more space between them and as well the teacher… no exceptions allowed. When I read the reason for that “no exceptions” politics I was shocked. The reason would be to TEST how the numbers of infections change, if you put 10-15 people with the teacher in one tiny classroom… WTF?!? What is wrong with our society if we use kids and teachers as “guinea pigs” if we could have other solutions to keep them way more safe and healthy? I would not say a word, if that would be the only possibility to go back to a regular school schedule and if we already would have ways to really protect people like I already said for example vaccine, or at least protecting masks and what ever it needs! Our kids have their parents at home, sometimes even their grandparents. Some have parents, who suffer from all kind of heavy sicknesses or diseases! Just because the symptoms are not affecting the majority of kids that much, we just take the risk of making our kids sick on purpose and make them bringing it home to the rest of their family?!? I just do not see the pressure of having schools back up and having all grades right for the next certificate in only a few month by risking the health and maybe even the life of people or kids, especially if we could have all kind of work-arounds like home schooling or better protection if the classes have to be in presence of kids and teacher. I am not a paranoid person, I wasn’t panicking at all over all that past weeks, but the news of the past few days just totally did throw me off and beyond.

With all of that, I guess it again pulled out my darker side again for my pictures, but I do not mind that, since I do enjoy that side of mine too 😉
Lately I found a mega cool tattoo brand called Vegas Tattoo. They really do interesting and well drawn tattoos for an everyday look – if you love tattoos like me that would be 😉 Today I chose one of their latest releases for Spring Flair Event called “Welcoming Spring”. The tattoo covers all parts of the body, You have something on your front and back upper body, your arms and hands as well as down your right leg. What caught me the most is, that the seams are extremely well done. A nice little detail is the sweet butterfly at your left hip with all the more dark looking ornaments of the rest of the tattoo 😉
Certainly I had to complete my style with a lot of incredible, amazing CerberusXing designs – I can’t help it iam just a [CX] addicted *winks* Since I am in a way better mood now, after venting just a bit today in the beginning of my post, I will see with what I will come up next…

Clothing

Top: Sorumin – “Elegents Harness” (Maitreya)

Panties: [CX] – “Pantsu Codex” (Maitreya)

Legwraps: [CX] – “Legwraps – Leather” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Horns: [CX] – “The Altar Horns” – NEW @ Anthem // April 2020

Pasties: .ARISE. – “Spiked Pasties / Black Silver” (Maitreya)

Leg Straps: [CX] – “Wild Hazard Leg Harness – Black (B)” (Maitreya)

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Essential Dirty Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Chain Belt: [CX] – “Mucronate Chains – M – Silver” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: adoness – “beanie”

Makeup 1: CAZIMI – “Eyeshadow Bases – Classic Shapes – 08 75% black” (BoM)

Makeup 2: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Cheek & Nose Contour (Tintable)” (BoM)

Freckles: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes – Freckles” (BoM)

Lipstick: CAZIMI – “Trending HD Lips (LeLutka) Set 02 Neutrals” (LeLutka Evolution Applier)

Eyebrows: ~Songbird~ – “Pencil Thin Brows : Black” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Nova 1.2”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 5.0.2”

Ears: [CX] – “Ostium Impaler Ears”

Tattoo: Vegas Tattoo – “Welcoming Spring” (BoM) – NEW @ Spring Flair by Flair for Events

Feet Tattoo: [CX] – “Bloody Feet Tattoo” (Omega Applier, part of the Implant Revived Heels)

Poses, Props & Tools

Pose Picture 1: Infiniti – “Cuffs 6” (cuffs included)

Pose Picture 2: Infiniti – “Seduce 7”

Pose Picture 3: Selfmade

Pose Picture 4: Le Poppycock – “Sinking”

Backdrop: [CX] – “Crucem Inverso”

Whip: 22769 ~ [bauwerk] – “Leather Whip”

Candles: LDG – “FULL PERM 766 Candle Drip No.2 Animated Flame /ON_OFF/5 parts/5 textures/Builderkit”

Pose Tool: Anypose – “BVN HUD v1.6”

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Tainted Love

TUNES

Sometimes I feel I’ve got to
Run away I’ve got to
Get away
From the pain you drive in the heart of me
The love we share
Seems to go nowhere
And I’ve lost my light
For I toss and turn I can’t sleep at night

[Soft Cell]

So many great dark news out there – I had not even a choice about not doing something with them *grins wickedly*

Let me start with that ultra cool tongue, pierced with a fish hook. Could be an accident or a fancy fetish, but in the end it is something I loved when I first saw it *snickers* The “Ziecklin’s tongue” is made by CerberusXing. The incredible details on the texture of the hook as well as the tongue make this definitely a must have for all who love the more creepy edge of  SL fashion and style. The Tongue is available in 4 different colors with or without RLV option.

As well from CerberusXing comes that amazing crotch piercing, that holds some delicate laces from the bottom belly downwards. CerberusXing collaborated with Ichigo for this special and super sexy design and with the HUD you get several color options, plus the ability to hide and show the laces as well as the clit piercing, that I did hide in my micro panties as I wanted to keep the post PG so you all can see all the new goodies. I will have a post for that piercing soon, which will be an adult only entrance then 😉

Lets take a closer look at all the goodies I found at the Aenigma event. The event is run the first time this month and already it has so many amazing designers showcasing their newest releases there. The cool face art is one of them. Made by ::moonshine::, it comes with appliers for Genus and Omega and with the new BoM layers. It as well contain a black half moon for your forehead which I skipped for todays post, because my bangs would have hidden most of it.

The kick-ass, cool earrings you can find at Aenigma too. I love barbwire stuffs anyways so the “Heart Security Earrings” from {PSYCHO:Byts} were a must have for me too. At the same event you will find the collar from unstable as well as the mega amazing tattoo from Nefekalum Tattoos. I already said how much I love Sir Skye’s creativity and this time he outdid himself again. The “The Gift / Gave” tattoo concentrates on the front upper body and has a lot of stuff coming with it. In the box you will find the BoM layer for the tattoo, a Maitreya & Slink Applier, an Omega Advanced Applier and a materials only HUD. Sir Skye states: “Materials-Only appliers tend to be tricky depending on what body you are using. To achieve the best effects on any tattoos that seem “bumpy” in the ad, your best bet will be to use the “all together” version of an applier that applies both the tattoo and the materials to your mesh. Most bodies support this option. Bakes on Mesh users can still use materials-only to achieve the shine effects but the bumpier materials will be lost. ” About the materials eraser I guess I do not have to explain much as it simply helps you to remove the materials again fro your body. The tattoo is made with materials and if you want to see it in its full glory, you have to make sure you have a body that supports materials. I mean they still will work without but then you just miss half of the awesomeness. What you as well will find in your box is a materials eraser and a projector that highlights the tattoo at its best.

If you like the more dark side of life, you should take a look at the new Aenigma event, since their first round is called “Tainted Love” and there are so much more amazing designs to discover!

Clothing

Outfit: [CX] x Insomnia Angel – “Luvshuka w/Skirt [Black]”

Panties: [ abrasive ] – “Plastic Sweetheart Thing” (Maitreya)

Stockings: Sweet Thing – “Elizabeth Stockings Black [Footed]” (BoM)

Shoes: UTOPIA@Design – “Tera” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Earrings: .{PSYCHO:Byts}. – “Heart Security – Earrings” – NEW @ Aenigma // February/March 2020

Piering 1: -SU!- – “Medusa Piercing (Group Gift)

Collar: unstable. – “Everlasting Devotion” – NEW @ Aenigma // February/March 2020

Nipple Piercing: .ARISE. – “Pendant Piercing / 7”

Crotch Piercing: [CX] x Ichigo – “Yoni’s Passion” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Hentai Fair

Belly Chain: [CX] – “Mucronate Chains” (Maitreya)

Bracelets: Gemini – “Sis Bracelets” (Maitreya)

Rings & Nails: [CX] – “Essential Dirty Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: adoness – “Beanie”

Face Art: ::moonshine:: – “Desdemona Tattoo” (BoM) – NEW @ Aenigma // February/March 2020

Head, Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLutka – “Nova 1.0”

Ears: [CX] – “Ostium Impaler Ears”

Tongue: [CX] – “Ziekling’s Tongue (Black)” – NEW @ Mainstore

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.0.2”

Tattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos – “The Gift / Gave” (Maitreya Applier) – NEW @ Aenigma // February/March 2020

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

Backdrop: Ex Machina – “Welcome Home – Asylum Photo Scene”

Chains: [Arch] Deco – “Box of Chains v1.0”

Bird: Hotdog – “Dead bird”

Spiders: NOMAD – “Spidey”

Moths: DISORDERLY. – “Dusty Ideas / EXTRA / Moths”

Pose Tool: Anypose – “BVN HUD v1.6”

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Kunoichi

Kunoichi: A kunoichi (Japanese: くノ一) is a female ninja or practitioner of ninjutsu (ninpo). During the feudal period of Japan, ninjas were used as killers, spies and messengers. The training of kunoichi differed from the training given to male ninjas, although they had a common core of skills, being trained in martial arts, such as taijutsu, kenjutsu, and ninjutsu. Kunoichi training tended to prioritize female skills.

[Wikipedia]

Again I had a Japanese desire and with the awesome “Masami” gown from Fellini and the super amazing Katana headpiece called “Shakatu”, it was time to full fill that desire 😉 Both of those amazing creations you can find at the NEO Japan event this  month.

I needed shoes and first I thought about heavy boots as a fighter would wear them and then I was watching a movie… Sucker Punch! some of those really strong and kick ass looking ladies had heels on! Even if I doubt that you can fight and run on heels that great, the “Phoebe Slingbacks” from [Gos] looked so great to the whole look so I could not resist adding them to my look 😉

Having already some ‘girly’ parts to my look, I thought I can add the stunning “Mayra” nails from Formanails as well and still be able to holding my Katana right *giggles*

I still find a lot of inspiration in the web for my posting ideas and this time it were the Kunoichi, that inspired me.

First I wanted to shoot it with a simple background, but then when I tried the Katanas, which had those cool flames coming with them, the fire idea was born. The poses for this amazing shoot certainly were made by Poseidon Poses, one of my favorite pose stores especially when it comes to action and movement in pictures.

Clothing

Dress: Fellini Couture – “Masami Gown in Red” (Maitreya) – NEW @ NEO Japan // October 2019

Knee: .:Avanti:. – “Jersey Knee Warmers – Black” (Maitreya Applier)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Phoebe Slingbacks – Boutique” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Headpiece: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Shakatu” – NEW @ NEO Japan // October 2019

Collar: [CX] – “Hell’s Harbinger” (Maitreya)

Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Morphine Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nails: FORMANAILS – “Mayra XXL” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Exile – “Maybe”

Makeup: alaskametro<3 – “Impressionist” (Omega Applier)

Lipstick: Zibska – “Bussasba” (LeLutka Applier)

Face Art: Nefekalum Tattoos – “The Master Number” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Eyes: .ARISE. : – “Haya Eyes / Brown”

Tattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Fibrous” (Omega Applier)

Poses & Props

Katana: [ Quixotica ] – “Katana Pose Collection” (came as a bonus to the pose set)

Poses: Poseidon Poses

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Creatures

TUNES

I fall
This is the end of you
Whispers are their weakness

Their weakness
Everyday I must practice
To fake this smile on my face
It’s all the rain that’s putting me to sleep

It’s all the rain that’s putting me to sleep
I’ll let the blood tell the truth tonight, this is my life’s work
11 tracks is not enough, to tell you how I’ve died inside
And love is lost like words

11 tracks is not enough
In spiders eyes a man becomes a fly
In prolonged silence, we all stand defiled
We fall in line with the atrophy of life

The calm before the storm is a defeating silence
I’ve given my all, to this valley of despair
We are the damned, the cursed and the broken
There’s so much more inside us

We are the lost, the sick and unspoken
There’s so much more inside us
I’m drowning in an ocean of the tears that I’ve cried
I tried to drown my sorrows

Instead they’re all drowning me
I tried to drown my sorrows
Instead they’re all drowning me

[Motionless in White – Creatures]

Clothing

Harness: Moon Elixir – “Valentina” (Belleza Freya)

Pasties: .ARISE. – Spiked Pasties / White Silver” (Belleza Freya)

Accessories

Collar & Mask: Zibska – “Maea”

Claws: A&A – “Ornate Flat Claws” (Belleza Freya, Bento) – NEW @ We ♥ RP // September 2019

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No_Industry” – NEW @ The Liaison Collaborative // September 2019

Makeup: Zibska – “Maea” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Eyes: -SU!- – “Aure Eyes” (Group Gift)

Ears: [Trap][Gauze] – “Djin Ears”

Body: Belleza – “Freya V5.2”

Skin: ~JJ~ – “Faceted Skins” (Omega Evolved Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

E.V.E – “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.5 – Splashing Aurea STAR [A]”

E.V.E – “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.5 – Splashing Aurea STAR [B]”

E.V.E – “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.5 – Splashing Aurea STAR [C]”

E.V.E –  “Ivy Tree [M02-No leaves] Silver”

E.V.E – “Ivy Bonsai {Silver}”

E.V.E – “Poison Rain Spikes Grass M01 {White}”

E.V.E – “Poison Rain Spikes Grass M01{Silver}”

E.V.E – “Poison Rain Spikes Grass M02 Fade {White-DelS}”

[FOURTH WALL] – “Mossy Rocks Pack” (Modified: blank white texture with original materials)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“Fragility”

Today I do have the great pleasure to showcase you the work of an artist, that I do admire already for a long time for his photography. I am talking about Sir Skye Nefekalum. His artwork is just breathtaking and his visions and creativity seem to have no end. Recently he started to create extraordinary tattoos and face paint and – as you can imagine –  I am already addicted. He releases them so fast – nearly one per day – that I have a hard time keeping up, as I do want to create images that maybe can satisfy his incredible style and artwork. I am not yet such a picture pro and I try to learn new things lately. That means it takes me even longer to really be satisfied with what I am trying to archieve, as I do not want to dissapoint Sir Skye for his amazing work.

Anyways, today I have the honor to show you two of the very first designs of Nefekalum Tattoos. The body tattoo is called “Fragility” and he face paint is named “Seer”. “Fragility” is a tintable tattoo (except for Maitreya, as their body doesn’t feature any coloring in the tattoo layers). It comes as an Omega applier, which allows you to use it with any Omega compatible body. I just tried it on my Belleza Freya body and it just works perfect. I tried many different colors and shades until my choice fell to blue. I always had an addiction to blue and white for what ever reason :p

The awesome “Seer” facial art as well comes as an Omega applier and you can play a little with the blending options until you have your perfect look. What I do love the most is that all of his tattoos – the ones I already got – work for male and female and gives the avatar a very special and extraordinary look. all of them do have a very crisp and clean look, which for me is a sign of high quality work. I do have many others that are slightly blurry or do have weird seams, but not the Nefekalum Tattoos.

While I was working on the pictures I had to do a teaser picture for an upcoming hunt gift and I could not resist to again use both of those amazing tattoos in a different color as it just worked so perfect with our gloves *blushes* But that shows how versatile the “Fragility” tattoo is with different colors. As you can see I have a different, more darker blending for the face paint on this picture, so you can see the different possibilities as well for the face art.

I am really curious with what Sir Skye will come up next, while I will try to prepare the next showcase of his amazing work!

Accessories

Harness: Luas – “Azahar Harness” (Belleza Freya)

Collar: [CX] – “Hells Harbinger” (Maitreya)

Sleeves: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme” (Belleza Freya)

Pasties: .ARISE. – “Spiked Pasties” (Belleza Freya)

Glasses: -SU”- – “Midnight Doll Sunglasses Blue-Silver” (Gacha, Common)

Piercing 1: Blaxium – “Jaiden Chain Piercing L”

Piercing 2: Blaxium – “Venenosa Piercing – Simone” (LeLutka Simone)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: RAMA.SALON – “Rhonda Hair L+”

Face Paint: Nefekalum Tattoos  – “Seer” (Omega Applier) – NEW

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Belleza – “Freya V 5.2”

Tattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Fragility” (Omega Applier) – NEW

Ears: ^^Swallow^^ – “Ears Elf HD”

Eyes: -SU”- – “Phantom Eyes V.2 All Colors” (Group Gift)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

Dogs: {anc} – “flottante puppy. milk”

Background: E.V.E Studio – “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.4 – Splashing Aurea [A]” & “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.4 – Splashing Aurea [B]”

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Poser Tool: Anypose – “BVH HUD v1.6”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Something has grown in my chest…

If you are hearing this, there is nothing I can do
Something has grown in my chest.
And I have seen it.
It is hard and cold.
It’s been dormant for many years.
I have tried to save you, but I cannot come to save you
But this is what you deserve

[Marilyn Manson]

I know it might be a little early for Halloween visions, but since many events already had their applications out I fell in a light Halloween mood and I love to use that as my excuse for my dark, creepy side anyways *grins*

And I blame L’Emporio too, as they released such a kick ass, cool outfit at the oXXcuro event – just kidding, I love the outfit! It is a full outfit that contains garter, bolero, boots, corset, panties, sleeves, necklace, hat, bra, veil and pasties (last 3 I did not use for my post today). You as well get a HUD to color some parts in white, black or red like for example the crosses on the sleeves, the hat and the corset strings.

As I told you before, I was watching the “The Nun” movie not too long ago and when I saw that naughty nun  – plus my Halloween, creepy mood – I could not resist to do something dark 😉 When I was looking for a matching background, I remembered the cool “Crucem Inverso” backdrop from CerberusXing. I am anyways a [CX] addicted and so I just added some more [CX] with some piercings. When it comes to dark spooky looks, I love too use the tattoos and makeups from Cureless[+] and The White Crow. They always have such an amazing feel when it comes to the tiny boarder of creepy and disgusting 🙂 I love how much they stretch them selves out and still make it look stylish and cool, even if it is a super horrific design!

What came in handy as well  – and made the perfect addition to my look – are the “Gormory” ears from .:E.A.Studio:. With their huge crosses hanging down from the earlobe they just looked perfect. The ears come with a HUD as well to match your skin, choose your tattoo and a page for the metals as well to make sure they fit the rest of your style. The reason I did not use the original pasties from the outfit are just simple, I loved the upside-down cross looking ones so much to the look, that I just could not skip them 😉

Halloween comes closer and I guess, I just started my dark adventure through my favorite season. I hope I will find many dark and spooky things this year to be able to realize more of my horror visions I do already have – maybe even find or imagine some new ones 😉

Clothing

Outfit, Necklace & Shoes: L’Emporio – “Badessa” (Maitreya) – NEW @ oXXXcuro Event // August 2019

Pasties: Moon Elixir – “Gothique – 14 – Onyx Pasties” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Accessories

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Essential Dirty Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Septum: [CX] – “Drop Septum (Silver)”

Lip Piercing: [CX] – “Bitten 2017”

Hair & Makeup

Makeup 1: CURELESS[+] – “Undereye Lines & Eyeliner” (Omega Applier)

Makeup2: .ARISE. – “Kulo Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Lips & Chin: the crone – “heartbite”

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Skin: *YS&YS* – “Immortal Skin Applier” (LeLutka & Maitreya Applier)

Tattoo: -[TWC]- – “Okami Amaterasu V2” (Omega Applier)

Facetattoo: -[TWC]- – “Okami Amaterasu V2 III” (Omega Applier)

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Gormory”

Teeth: LeLutka – “Beast Teeth 1.1”

Eyes: Clemmm – “I’m Tired / Burn Out -Regular-“

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: [CX] – “Crucem Inverso”

Poses: Poseidon

Heart: CURELESS[+] – ” Valentine’s Heart” (without pose)

Face Animatin Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

 

Demons in my Mind…

TUNES

Tell you all the things that are tearing me apart
Tell you every little thing thats been bleeding out my heart
Nothing that I say can make you change your mind so doesnt matter
What I do it doesnt matter where I start
Yeah ive been feeling down
No ones been around
My mind is foggy
I can’t tell you what is left or right
No matter what i say you always find a fucking way to twirl it
Demons in my mind they never listen

[plxntkid]

The nice part of having holidays is you have more time to fool around with things you always wanted to learn before. For me that is watching a lot of new tutorials for Photoshop and trying if I can use what I learned in my own ways on my pictures. Even if it takes a lot longer to try new skills and techniques, it is a lot of fun, too.

Today I wanted to do something editorial and I wanted to involve the incredible amazing designs of Zibska. When I put on the “Ruina” collar and makeup, I instantly knew, that I do not want too much things in the background that would distract from the design itself. The collar has 2 orbits with  with fishies and hooks which I am not wearing for my todays picture as it added too much cuteness for my idea*giggles* While I was standing in my black spot and fooling around with lights I realized how cool the “Ruina” collar does reflect the lights and I just rezzed one, pulled it super huge trying t see what it would look like… like you can see on the pictures, I loved the idea :p I even stretched it a little more, rezzed another one, shoved them around and finally played with the color HUD. That again proves, that Zib Scaggs is truly an artist, you even can use her creations totally out of purpose and still they add an artful touch to your picture 😉 For a matching expression to that powerful picture, I again used my Axis HUD from LeLutka. I already wrote about that (HERE), but I just cannot tell it often enough, that it does open a complete new world for me for pictures with some kind of mood or emotions 😉

Clothing

Pants: Decoy – “Apple Shorts” (Maitreya)

Shoes: **UTOPIA@Design** – “Kora” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Morphine Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)

Claws: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Obsess Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Shoulderpiece: Zibska – “Ruina” – NEW @ Driftwood August 2019 – NEW @ Driftwood August 2019

Collar: [CX] – “Hells Harbinger (Black Out+Silver)” (Maitreya)

Lower Armparts: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme – Black” (Maitreya)

Mask: L’Emporio – “Cat Skull – 03 Lather Covered”

Arm Straps: L’Emporio – “Harness Arm” (Maitreya)

Pasties: .ARISE. – “Spiked Pasties / Black_Silver” (Maitreya)

Chains: -SECRETS- – “Danita Nipple Chain – Silver” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: KoKoLoResS – “Oakes”

Makeup: Zibska – “Ruina” (LeLutka Applier) – NEW @ Driftwood August 2019

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “London” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: [White~Widow] – “Lost River” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Poseidon

Background Structures: Zibska – “Ruina” – NEW @ Driftwood August 2019 (rezzed and resized)

Model  & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

From little Seeds great Flowers grow…

“She limped, unaided around the house, like a bird with its wing broken. Tame, because it couldn’t fly away. All her time was taken up with managing herself, working out new ways to do things. Being a different person in the world.”
[ Joan London, The Golden Age ]

I guess I never had  more opposite posts back to back  than the last and today’s… maybe thats because my life at the moment is a little bit upside down and huge changes are about to come. I do have mixed feelings about it, as I did not really plan those, but sometimes you just get forced to make changes and you have to adapt the situation and make the best out of it for yourself.

But then, like I wrote yesterday… I always wanted the freedom to do what ever I want on my personal blog and so I hope you all don’t mind a black/silver against white/gold contrast 😉

It was always something I thought a lot about. When I started modeling, we were taught, that we should find our personal style. Back then it was like either you are a casual person, a formal one, am avant garde one or one of those kind of styles that we all know. I never felt ‘home’ in one style genre only and so I started to call my personal style weird or crazy to at least have category if I was asked about. I do not know where all that comes from, but it is not only happening in Second Life. In real life I am a musician, but as well a teacher and I do give private lessons for instruments and songwriting and I do work for a record studio playing the bass sometimes, too. I never had the desire to have a nine-to-five job, more than that I even was scared about the thought to have to do the same every day in a certain time frame. Certainly it would be easier and you could plan your free-time better, but I guess I would miss something just having one job.

It isn’t the first time that a chapter of the book of my life closes (sometimes I had to close them my self, too) and so I know if one closes another one will open. Just the time until that happens is sometimes a bit scary, as you never know what it will be. Usually those kind of “in-between” times only happen if you didn’t close the chapter yourself. Mostly they do happen, if you didn’t plan any changes and all of a sudden for no reason others decide to screw you over with lies and gossips that aren’t even true. First I tried to fight against that, but if you have 4 people gained up against you they can pretty much tell everything and being their own witnesses for their lies. First it dragged me down a lot and I was trying to find a way how I still could prove the truth, but the longer it did happen, the more I came to the point that it would be senseless. So I had to change my tactics and just make my peace with it and find new ways for myself. It would have been an unnecessary waste of power and time to keep on fighting in the end.

So I am looking forward to what will come. Things have come up to my mind already and now just need to grow and being developed more. That already feels much better than the time of uncertainty, where you have no clue what you are going to. Maybe that’s why I found parts of my creativity back, too and have fun taking pictures again even if they are a little bit weird *winks*

For now I will be on holidays and try to get some rest from all the past half a year crap. I know things will move on, as they always have and every time it happened, there was something new for  me that I really enjoyed. Even if that sounds old and lame sometimes and in the middle of frustrating and depressing times you neither want to hear or see it – Life has so much to give and there always will be ways to find new perspectives. Recently I found a quote, first I read it was from Sigmund Freud, but when I looked it up, there wasn’t any prove for that and no one really knows where it came from, but it does fit so perfectly for now and I like it a lot. I even thought, if I should put it on a sign and place it at my desktop somewhere, so I can look at it if I get bad feelings about the whole situation again. Maybe it makes a great closing sentence for today’s post *grins*

“Before you diagnose yourself with depression or low self esteem, first make sure you are not, in fact, just surrounded by assholes.”

Clothing

Dress: CURELESS[+] – “Pygmalion’s Bride / M / Galatea Bridal Gown” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Gloves: CURELESS[+] – “Pygmalion’s Bride / M / Galatea Gloves” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Accessories

Collar: .Charm. – “Skai Collar” (Store closed)

Piercing: [CX] – “Bitten 2017”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Arrest”

Eyeshadow 1: Nanika – “Gold Eyeshadow” (LeLutka Applier)

Eyeshadow 2: Zibska – “Lennie” (LeLutka Applier)

Face Art: Nanika – “Serena Gold” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Legs: CURELESS[+] – “Pygmalion’s Bride / M / Galatea Legs / MARBLE” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Thauron Ears”

Eyes: .ARISE. – “Blind Eyes / Gold”

Skin: *YS&YS* – “Immortal Skin Applier” (LeLutka & Maitreya Applier)

Tattoo: Nanika – “Gold Sequins Mesh Body Applier” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Poseidon

Set:

E.V.E Studio – “WHISPER Petals {Gold}”  (Gacha, Rare)

E.V.E Studio – “Apple Flower M01”

E.V.E Studio – “Apple Flower M02”

E.V.E Studio – “Golden Apple”

E.V.E Studio – “Flowers of the Golden Apple”

E.V.E Studio – “Petals Path A {Gold}”

E.V.E Studio – “Petals Path B {Gold}”

E.V.E Studio – “Dancing Petals Dystopia in Bronze/Gold”

Air – “Road sign type A stand_gold_CM”

Air – “Road sign type C_gold_CM”

Air – “Road sign type D_gold_CM”

Air – “Road sign type E_gold_CM”

Air – “Lost Bravery stand(gold)_CM”

Air – “Lost Brain stand(gold)_CM”

DISORDERLY. – “Enchanted Extras / Beast’s Library Papers”

Raindale – “Elnaril floor candle holder (light gold)”

{anc} – “mannequin. MermaidPrincess(Adult)” (Gacha, Rare)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin