Captured by my own Thoughts…

The past week was a rollercoaster of emotions for me. Life changed with the pandemic all over the world, I guess most of the people try to work with it as best as they can. For me personal, I am not suffering not too bad from quarantine and lock-down. I still get to teach 7/8 hours a days from Monday to Thursday – I am on of the lucky ones to have students who have/were given all the needed hardware to do online school with them. I just adjusted my work space/office to have a virtual classroom. I set up my camera and monitors to have one screen share for files and another as “chalkboard” where I can write on. That is working really fine for about 5 weeks now, even if I really miss seeing my students in person sometimes.

I followed the discussions about how to start school again with high interest, as according to all other news we are not yet over the pandemic problems since we have not yet any kind of vaccine. So we still have rules like limited contacts only, do not take your kids on your shopping tours and in some areas even the duty to wear masks while shopping or being on public transport vehicles. All over they tell us the self made masks won’t protect us from being infected and only safe the people around you in case you are infected and do not know. Reading all that I thought, they will keep school online for the rest of this school year to be honest, at least for those who have a good running system and perfect contact to their students. I was so wrong… They now force all exam classes back to school with no exception of having better alternatives or possibilities, which would limit the risk to get infected. So even if you have a good running online schooling, it doesn’t matter. If you have better ideas against the given “10 – 15 students in one little classroom”, for example use the gyms which is like 3 to 4 times bigger than a class room and you could keep the class together with 18 people and still have more space between them and as well the teacher… no exceptions allowed. When I read the reason for that “no exceptions” politics I was shocked. The reason would be to TEST how the numbers of infections change, if you put 10-15 people with the teacher in one tiny classroom… WTF?!? What is wrong with our society if we use kids and teachers as “guinea pigs” if we could have other solutions to keep them way more safe and healthy? I would not say a word, if that would be the only possibility to go back to a regular school schedule and if we already would have ways to really protect people like I already said for example vaccine, or at least protecting masks and what ever it needs! Our kids have their parents at home, sometimes even their grandparents. Some have parents, who suffer from all kind of heavy sicknesses or diseases! Just because the symptoms are not affecting the majority of kids that much, we just take the risk of making our kids sick on purpose and make them bringing it home to the rest of their family?!? I just do not see the pressure of having schools back up and having all grades right for the next certificate in only a few month by risking the health and maybe even the life of people or kids, especially if we could have all kind of work-arounds like home schooling or better protection if the classes have to be in presence of kids and teacher. I am not a paranoid person, I wasn’t panicking at all over all that past weeks, but the news of the past few days just totally did throw me off and beyond.

With all of that, I guess it again pulled out my darker side again for my pictures, but I do not mind that, since I do enjoy that side of mine too πŸ˜‰
Lately I found a mega cool tattoo brand called Vegas Tattoo. They really do interesting and well drawn tattoos for an everyday look – if you love tattoos like me that would be πŸ˜‰ Today I chose one of their latest releases for Spring Flair Event called “Welcoming Spring”. The tattoo covers all parts of the body, You have something on your front and back upper body, your arms and hands as well as down your right leg. What caught me the most is, that the seams are extremely well done. A nice little detail is the sweet butterfly at your left hip with all the more dark looking ornaments of the rest of the tattoo πŸ˜‰
Certainly I had to complete my style with a lot of incredible, amazing CerberusXing designs – I can’t help it iam just a [CX] addicted *winks* Since I am in a way better mood now, after venting just a bit today in the beginning of my post, I will see with what I will come up next…

Clothing

Top: Sorumin – “Elegents Harness” (Maitreya)

Panties: [CX] – “Pantsu Codex” (Maitreya)

Legwraps: [CX] – “Legwraps – Leather” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Horns: [CX] – “The Altar Horns” – NEW @ Anthem // April 2020

Pasties: .ARISE. – “Spiked Pasties / Black Silver” (Maitreya)

Leg Straps: [CX] – “Wild Hazard Leg Harness – Black (B)” (Maitreya)

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Essential Dirty Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Chain Belt: [CX] – “Mucronate Chains – M – Silver” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: adoness – “beanie”

Makeup 1: CAZIMI – “Eyeshadow Bases – Classic Shapes – 08 75% black” (BoM)

Makeup 2: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Cheek & Nose Contour (Tintable)” (BoM)

Freckles: Izzie’s – “Pores & Blemishes – Freckles” (BoM)

Lipstick: CAZIMI – “Trending HD Lips (LeLutka) Set 02 Neutrals” (LeLutka Evolution Applier)

Eyebrows: ~Songbird~ – “Pencil Thin Brows : Black” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Nova 1.2”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 5.0.2”

Ears: [CX] – “Ostium Impaler Ears”

Tattoo: Vegas Tattoo – “Welcoming Spring” (BoM) – NEW @ Spring Flair by Flair for Events

Feet Tattoo: [CX] – “Bloody Feet Tattoo” (Omega Applier, part of the Implant Revived Heels)

Poses, Props & Tools

Pose Picture 1: Infiniti – “Cuffs 6” (cuffs included)

Pose Picture 2: Infiniti – “Seduce 7”

Pose Picture 3: Selfmade

Pose Picture 4: Le Poppycock – “Sinking”

Backdrop: [CX] – “Crucem Inverso”

Whip: 22769 ~ [bauwerk] – “Leather Whip”

Candles: LDG – “FULL PERM 766 Candle Drip No.2 Animated Flame /ON_OFF/5 parts/5 textures/Builderkit”

Pose Tool: Anypose – β€œBVN HUD v1.6”

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – β€œAxis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Doubt kills more dreams than failure ever will…

TUNES

She is waiting to kiss my hand
But she will wait for my command
My chains and collar brought her to her knees
She now is free to please

[Manowar]

For those who know me, I am not a huge friend of nude pictures in general, besides some very artistic ones. I mostl try to cover my bits, but when it comes to fetish clothing, sometimes you have to make compromises, as many do show a lot of skin. I usually try to hide a little bit with poses and angles, most of the time that works out pretty well. I love to hide the “facts” and try to just give room for imagination πŸ˜‰

For today my base to start from were the “Marie Ankle Boots” and the cool short hairstyle called “No.Commitment” from no.match. I had put on those 2 designs and was rambling through my inventory, to find some other things I could use for my pictures. When I stumbled over the “Elegents Harness” from Sorumin, I was clear it will be a fetish style. I loved the way how that huge ribbon at the front of the neck gave a contrast to the strong leather harness with its chains. Sadly it only came as a top and so I had to find some pants. I first tried with jeans and leather pants, but nothing really kicked my mind until I found the “Jennie” shorts of JF Design in my inventory. High wasted pants but not wit those mainstream looking high, sexy leg cut outs – had nearly had a light vintage touch to me with their shape (I hope that made sense*snickers*)

The “Marie Ankle Boots”, as usual for [Gos] designs, come with a huge HUD of 21 colors for the shoe and 4 different colors for the sole – I always love the red sole, it reminds me of the Louboutin shoes in RL*giggles. The booties are no leather boots, but some kind of stretch fabric, which is kinda unusual to find in SL and I immediately loved that.

More and more I love the extra ears you can get at many different places. One of my personal favorites is Eclipse Art Studio. I do love her ears and as well her accessories, like the “Thunderstrike” Nails and rings. They are available for all popular mesh bodies and bento enabled. With a HUD you can change the metal and nail colors.

It felt so naked with the harness only and I decided to have a cool, huge tattoo besides my 2 little duck-tape pasties – with tattoos I usually only feel half as naked :p

I enjoyed to do a black & red shoot again so much, that I certainly ended up with way more pics than I could use for this post, but sometimes just shooting is a cool learning process for me too as I always discover new angles and possibilities. I always find something new even with playing with the windlight options… I am really looking forward to the offical release for the new EEP viewer with all the new graphic options!

Clothing

Top: -Sorumin- – “Elegents Harness” (Maitreya)

Pants: JF Design – “Jennie Shorts” (Maitreya)

Pasties: CURELESS[+] – “Sterile Pasties” (Maitreya)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Marie Ankle Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Rings & Nails: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Thunderstrike” (Maitreya, Bento)

Septum: [CX] – “Drop Septum”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Commitment”

Lipstick: Sintiklia – “Lipstick Zipper” (Omega Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Akasuna”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: Redfish – “My Soul” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Pillows: Stockholm&Lima – “Pillow Pile (PG)”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin