Angel of Death

April 29, 2021 by Wicca Merlin

The Angel of Death
Will come from the sky
And claim up your soul
When the time comes to die
When the Angel of Death
Comes down after you
Can you smile and say
That you have been true

[- Hank Williams -]

I had a very rough few days, thinking about friendship and about the fact that you think you know people and then you get badly disappointed to find out… you were completely wrong by thinking you knew someone.

It is not the first time that I had to find out about the true colors of someone, who called me “friend” for a longer time. Every time when that happened, I told myself to not trust people anymore – especially not in a virtual environment, where it is even more easy to trick people about your identity and character.

For what ever reason, I go against my own guts again and again, when I meet new people. I always try to force myself to not trust them right away or maybe do not trust them at all even. But you know how that goes, if you are an emotional and true person, there will be a point after some time, where you feel something for someone and just can’t hold the protective wall, which you built around you, up any longer and again you fall for something you call friendship after a while. In good times, all will go fine and you think you got to know someone, even if he or she lives all across the world on the other half of the globe. And many times it really is like that, but you again and again will face the fact, that there is rotten tomatoes between all the good red ones. Usually they are well hidden and so it takes a while until they are seeing the sunlight. If they do it mostly hurts. In the past even more than today, as with getting older you experience that more often certainly, even if you never will get used to it.

If I think about closely, the situations where it turned out good, feel even stronger. I don’t want miss the friendship to a hand full of people I met in Second Life over the years – some of them I even call family by now and they most likely or better hopefully never would turn 180° on me. What if I would have gone with my “no trust” policy strictly? I never would have met those I truly care for and think about, even if I am not in Second Life. I would have missed those who I can trust and who trust me and all the wonderful times we shared together. So I guess I will be hurt again in the future, as I am not willing to give up on trusting people in general… I do not want to miss out on those, which possibly could become amazing wonderful friends over the time. Some probably would call me stupid for that, I would call it human I guess 😉

Clothing

Collar: [CX] – “Hell’s Harbinger (Black Out+Silver)” (Maitreya)

Top: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Top – Red” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Panty: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Undie – Red” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Skirt: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Skirt – Red” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Garters: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Garters – Black” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Ribbons, Pearls & Roses: ERSCH – “Monie Straps” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // April 2021

Boots: AsteroidBox – “Canopus Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Horns: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Magnus Horns”

Piercing: Badwolf – “Murdured by Love – Chain” – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // April 2021

Pasties: duckie – “Tape Black” (Maitreya)

Cuffs: [ abrasive ] – “Discipline Vinyl Cuffs”

Nails & Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Infernal Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Wings: {PSYCHO:Byts} – “Popobawa Wings 3 Female – Charred” (Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Truth – “Forever”

Face Art: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger” (EvoX BoM, Materials enabled)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “EvoX Avalon 3.0”

Ears: LeLUTKA – “/ EARS / Avalon ELF (add) 3.0” (part of the Avalon 3.0 head)

Ear Piercings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “I<3 Techno Piercing Earrings LEL EVOX Elf linked” – NEW @ Kinky // April 2021

Tongue (incl. mouth pose): {PSYCHO:Byts} – “Grayas Tongue”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo ( Dark ) Providence” (BoM) – New @ Shiny Shabby // April 2021

Piercing: [CX] x Ichigo – “Yoni’s Passion” (Maitreya)

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: VARONIS x [CX] – “Post Mortem Backdrop” – NEW @ ACCESS // April 2021

Poses: Foxcity

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Honey Don’t!

July 3, 2019 by Wicca Merlin

TUNES

Well, how can you say you will, when you won’t
You tell me you do, baby, when you don’t?
Let me know, honey, how you feel
Tell the truth now is love real

[Carl Perkins]

Again I am running after an event, because RL keeps giving me unlovely moments. At the Vintage Fair I found so many amazing things and could only do 2 posts so far. But all the goodies were so nice, that I could not resist to do a 3rd one with some amazing designs done for that event. I am sure you will find all the cool things at the designers’ main stores (listed below) by now.

Ok I have to admit, initially I wanted to write something more about the items, but at the moment, there is so much in my head what even kills my sleep for quite some time now.

Maybe you know that feeling… You start to work on something, something that really develops to a passion over a couple of years and then out of the blue someone – that you brought to that project – becomes jealous and tries to ruin it with all what it takes? Just out of a power addiction and the fact that they want to show you they can take it away and destroy it, just because they want with no real reason.

I use to teach and work with kids for years besides my music “career”. I never had own children and I never will have, but I always felt I could help kids, who do not have such a nice start in the first years of their life. Over the past 6 or 7 years I had a very special project. I was allowed to work with the school I was teaching and giving music or instrumental lessons already, for a little more after the usual school times. Something kinda like homework done under supervision combined with special projects like a Musical a few years ago and recently we did a little theater for kids. It wasn’t only me – one of my best friends, nearly a sister I never had, started the whole thing with me. We grew over the years from a handful kids to over 70 – being a small school outside the city with a total of round about 110 pupils, that was quite a lot. Everything was fine and while we did grow, we had to find more staff. Since we already were a teacher and a social educator, it wasn’t mandatory to find more specialized staff and we had the freedom to look for people that we thought would fit into our vision for the project. If we would have known what one or two people only could do if the they are good intriguers… I swear I would have wished we would have kept it smaller, so that we would never would have needed those people. I never even would have came on thoughts about how mean and ugly people can be, just because they want more power or even prove they can ruin you or a project you run for nothing else than their personal satisfaction – AND what is the worst part for me, those who will suffer the most are the kids. Most of them signed up, because of our concept and because they developed some kind of connection to us. In the beginning I thought, that their bad games would be discovered, but as always before in my life, it seems at the moment as those will get away with it and win… again… sadly. I am not worried finding something else, but if you put your heart into something, it does hurt if someone rips out that part. I still have a tinly little piece of hope, that justice will be done, otherwise I will see where my journey goes to in September 2019 🙂 . Ok… enough for today, but it felt good to write all that down and off my chest. I promise next one will be less emotional and private 😉