“Don’t try to talk, she ain’t in the mood…”

TUNES

The one that you fear is so close
The woman tattooed with the rose
Claws that are sharp, she’ll tear you apart
Make you into food for the crows

Revenge is her aim, she’ll make you pay
She talks a mean game and she’ll blow you away

Get out of town as soon as you can
You don’t want to face the Queen of the Damned

[- Motörhead -]

Clothing

Dress: [LeiMotiv] – “Brynn Short Dress” (Maitreya)

Gloves: Skellybones – “Rae Gloves” (Maitreya, Bento)

Shoes: UTOPIA@Design – “Kora” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Headpiece & Horns: L’Emporio&PL – “::*Hella::*” -Maskface” (LeLUTKA EvoX, Bento) – NEW @ Pandora Fair // May 2021

Forehead Horns: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Magnus Horns”

Septum: -[TWC]- – “Thirst Septum -Silver-“

Face Chain: [CX] – “Tyrant’s Chain (Silver) R”

Collar: [CX] – “Hell’s Harbinger (Black Out+Silver)” (Maitreya)

Nails: FORMANAILS – “Eve” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: DOUX – “Valentina Hairstyle [S]”

Face Art:  Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger” (EvoX BoM, Materials enabled)

Wound: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Promethean Tone 01 70% Mirror” (Lel. EvoX BoM, Materials) – NEW @ Mainstore

Face Tattoo & Feathers: – Tivoli Inc – “Raven Feathers Tattoo” (Lel. EvoX BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “EvoX Avalon 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”

Tattoo 1: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo ( Dark ) Rising” (BoM) – NEW @ UBER // May 2021

Tattoo 2: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo ( Dark ) Secrets” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: [..::CuCa Designs::..] – “The Cult Backdrop”

Throne & Columns: [CX] – “Cerberus’ Throne Fatpack” – NEW @ Fantasy Faire // April 2021

Poses: Selfmade

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“When you understand the Nature of a Thing, you know what it’s capable of.”

You can’t keep denying what you are, man. You think the humans will ever accept a half-breed like you? They can’t. They’re afraid of you. And they should be. You’re an animal, you’re a fuckin’ maniac!

Yay, Cyber/Punk by Flair for Events again opened its doors. It always feels like Christmas if a Cyberpunk themed event opens its gates with all the amazing goodies you can find there! Most likely it won’t be the only post about that awesome event, but I do have to start somewhere *giggles*

The cool pants and boots are a fabulous combo from AsteroidBox for this event. They come together in one pack and even for the single colors you have 16 colors/patterns to choose from. Each color already includes a huge HUD with many details to customize boots, knee pads, belts, leg strap, plus the neon details. For the fatpack you even can mix and match the styling of the leg sleeves individually and you can decide if you want to wear the pants, boots or hip circles all together or just parts of it. For today’s post i just skipped the neon circles at the hips, but I am sure they will come up in one of my next posts *winks* The “Nella Pants & Boots” are rigged for Maitreya Lara, Belleza Freya, Legacy Female.

Another awesome release are the huge but (yes I found out while I was shooting) gentle giants. They are part of an awesome posing set from Black Cats Creations, which you as well will find at the Cyber/Punk event. You can choose between 5 amazing detailed giants with poses for each of them and you even can recolor the monster if you go for the fatpack.

There are so many exciting releases and designs available at the Cyber/Punk event, you should bring time and a huge wallet to not miss out any of them *winks*

Maybe see you there?

Clothing

Top: [CX] – “Hells’s Gatekeeper Tank (Black)” (Maitreya)

Pants & Boots: AsteroidBox – “Nella Pants & Boots” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Cyber/Punk Fair // May 2021

Accessories

Jaw: AsteroidBox – “Metal Jaw” – NEW @ Mainstore

Glasses: :::SOLE::: – “SA – Glasses Tweaky (Black)”

Neck Collar: Hotdog – “Spine Collar” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Cyber/Punk Fair // May 2021

Arms: SEKA’s – “Glitch Arms” (Maitreya)

Cables: .Inkhole. – “USB Set – Black” (Maitreya)

Rings: L’Emporio – “::*Essentia*::” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nails: RAWR! – “Obsidian Nails” (Maitreya, Bento)

Wings: HILTED – “Cypher Wings”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: KMH – “Hair CP008 Rigged (XS)” – NEW @ Cyber/Punk Fair // May 2021

Eyeshadow: Rekt Royalty – “Enhance Evo/X” (Lel.EvoX/HD Applier) – NEW @ Cyber/Punk Fair // May 2021

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “EvoClassic Avalon 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”

Chest/Neck Tattoo: [ContraptioN] – “GPK44 Prosthetic Neck” (BoM, Materials)

Body Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark Fragmentation” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses & Props: Black Cats Creations – “The Guardian”- NEW @ Cyber/Punk Fair // May 2021

Backdrop: .WARETA. – “Light Speed Backdrop” – NEW @ Cyber/Punk Fair // May 2021

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“Money, it’s a crime…”

TUNES

Money, it’s a crime
Share it fairly, but don’t take a slice of my pie

Money, so they say
Is the root of all evil today
But if you ask for a rise, it’s no surprise
That they’re giving none away

[- Pink Floyd -]

Clothing

Top: :Moon Amore: – “Kittylly Blouse – PASTEL” (Maitreya Petite) – NEW @ Mainstore

Pants: SPIRIT – “Leo Shorts” (Maitreya)

Tights: .:Avanti:. – “Cozy Tights” (Maitreya Applier)

Accessories

Bindi: Wicca’s Originals – “Lita Bindi”– NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // April 2021

Glasses: -SU!- – “Barbed Wire Glasses” – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // April 2021

Septum: -[TWC]- – “Thirst Septum – Silver”

Collar: Short Leash – “Bound Pleasure Collar // Small Fit”

Chest Piercing: Wicca’s Originals – “Iridas Piercing Set” (Maitreya Petite) – NEW @ Kinky // April 2021

Necklace: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Damned Heart Woman”

Gloves: [Cubic Cherry] – “{Diem} Leather Gloves RED” (BoM)

Finger Accessories: L’Emporio – “::*Essentia*::” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nails: L’Emporio – “::*Damned Claws*:: )Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair & Hat: KUNI – “Ara”

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “EvoX Avalon 3.0”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3” + “Lara Add-On “Petite” V1.1″

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark Sweet Love” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: Foxcity – ” Photo Booth – Pit Stop”

Poses: Foxcity

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Angel of Death

The Angel of Death
Will come from the sky
And claim up your soul
When the time comes to die
When the Angel of Death
Comes down after you
Can you smile and say
That you have been true

[- Hank Williams -]

I had a very rough few days, thinking about friendship and about the fact that you think you know people and then you get badly disappointed to find out… you were completely wrong by thinking you knew someone.

It is not the first time that I had to find out about the true colors of someone, who called me “friend” for a longer time. Every time when that happened, I told myself to not trust people anymore – especially not in a virtual environment, where it is even more easy to trick people about your identity and character.

For what ever reason, I go against my own guts again and again, when I meet new people. I always try to force myself to not trust them right away or maybe do not trust them at all even. But you know how that goes, if you are an emotional and true person, there will be a point after some time, where you feel something for someone and just can’t hold the protective wall, which you built around you, up any longer and again you fall for something you call friendship after a while. In good times, all will go fine and you think you got to know someone, even if he or she lives all across the world on the other half of the globe. And many times it really is like that, but you again and again will face the fact, that there is rotten tomatoes between all the good red ones. Usually they are well hidden and so it takes a while until they are seeing the sunlight. If they do it mostly hurts. In the past even more than today, as with getting older you experience that more often certainly, even if you never will get used to it.

If I think about closely, the situations where it turned out good, feel even stronger. I don’t want miss the friendship to a hand full of people I met in Second Life over the years – some of them I even call family by now and they most likely or better hopefully never would turn 180° on me. What if I would have gone with my “no trust” policy strictly? I never would have met those I truly care for and think about, even if I am not in Second Life. I would have missed those who I can trust and who trust me and all the wonderful times we shared together. So I guess I will be hurt again in the future, as I am not willing to give up on trusting people in general… I do not want to miss out on those, which possibly could become amazing wonderful friends over the time. Some probably would call me stupid for that, I would call it human I guess 😉

Clothing

Collar: [CX] – “Hell’s Harbinger (Black Out+Silver)” (Maitreya)

Top: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Top – Red” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Panty: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Undie – Red” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Skirt: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Skirt – Red” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Garters: [CX] – “Chimera’s Delight Garters – Black” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common) – NEW @ Epiphany // April 2021

Ribbons, Pearls & Roses: ERSCH – “Monie Straps” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // April 2021

Boots: AsteroidBox – “Canopus Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Horns: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Magnus Horns”

Piercing: Badwolf – “Murdured by Love – Chain” – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // April 2021

Pasties: duckie – “Tape Black” (Maitreya)

Cuffs: [ abrasive ] – “Discipline Vinyl Cuffs”

Nails & Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Infernal Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Wings: {PSYCHO:Byts} – “Popobawa Wings 3 Female – Charred” (Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Truth – “Forever”

Face Art:  Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger” (EvoX BoM, Materials enabled)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “EvoX Avalon 3.0”

Ears: LeLUTKA – “/ EARS / Avalon ELF (add) 3.0” (part of the Avalon 3.0 head)

Ear Piercings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “I<3 Techno Piercing Earrings LEL EVOX Elf linked” – NEW @ Kinky // April 2021

Tongue (incl. mouth pose): {PSYCHO:Byts} – “Grayas Tongue”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo ( Dark ) Providence” (BoM) – New @ Shiny Shabby // April 2021

Piercing: [CX] x Ichigo – “Yoni’s Passion” (Maitreya)

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: VARONIS x [CX] – “Post Mortem Backdrop” – NEW @ ACCESS // April 2021

Poses: Foxcity

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“No, I wouldn’t want to live in a world without dragons…”

“No, I wouldn’t want to live in a world without dragons, as I would not want to live in a world without magic, for that is a world without mystery or faith.”

[- R. A. Salvatore, Streams of Silver -]

Sometimes you log into Second Life and then the journey downwards starts… This time it was me logging in and looking for my animals folder, which I had sorted something into about 2 days ago and it was all gone. First I thought it might have slipped into another folder like I did have it before, but even if  I typed “JIAN”, “Clover” or “HEXtraordinary into the search field of my inventory… nothing would come up… I was furious again.. there were tons of gacha rares, FLF and bought/gifted animals from the past at least 7 years in it – it was all gone and I am 100% sure it did NOT delete it myself. I wasn’t even near that folder except 2 days ago, when I sorted my new animals I got into that folder. First I looked on my inventory number which I watch very close and carefully kinda everyday. There was not much of a difference, that would make me suspicious or worrying. It was round about the same number as always and so I thought of other things that I could do if it just would be a glitch. I relogged, cleared my cache and even finally updated to the most actual version of the Firestorm Viewer as some people mentioned they got shapes and what not back when the updated their viewer. NOTHING! I was out of ideas and now filed a ticket about it and wait since yesterday for a response still hoping I can get that folder back somehow. I alredy peeked into redelivery terminals, but since many of that animals were blogger reviews, gachas or gifts… I would not even get half of then back 🙁 That really would suck plus I am even scared to buy something ne from  non Casper Vendor, now that I have no clue, if it will be gone after 2 more days again *pulls her hair* Originally I planned a picture with the wonderful “ShadowBull” and the “Osaguar” from Clover, but since I already had them sorted into my animals folder they are gone now too… I had to get a different idea. Thank god I didn’t yet sort my “Dragon Hatchling” into that folder so that is the only animal which is left now in my inventory. The sweet little pet usually comes as a fully animated mesh prop. You will find a follower and an attachable pet with 3 incredible amazing animations in it. For my post I just rezzed them and did build my poses around them.

The amazing face chain you can find at the Man Cave event, made by L’Emporio. The cool chain runs from over your ears down your cheeks through your mouth. With the amazing ornaments it really makes a statement and matches to many different styles. The cool Hair you will find at the actual round of the JAIL event and was handcrafted by no.match.

I still hope that Linden Labs will be able to recover my missing items somehow and until then i just will see what I can come up with without animals for now *winks*

Clothing

Outfit: Art&KO – “Hunter Set” (Maitreya)
Sleeves: Moon Elixir – “Faunalyn – Arm Bracers” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Septum: Gorsimi – “Aeroliite Septium (Gold)
Nose: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Vertebrus Septum” (Gacha, Rare)
Collar: [Cubic Cherry] – “{Cata} collar BRONZE”
Feathers: – Tivoli Inc – – “Raven Feathers Tattoo” (LeL EvoX BoM)
Face Chain: L’Emporio – “*Lugosi*” – NEW @ Man Cave Event // April 2021
Upper Arm Band: Clover – “Potion Brace”
Nails: L’Emporio – “*Damned Claws*” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No_Viking” – NEW @ JAIL Event // April 2021

Face Art: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger – EvoX” (EvoX BoM, Materials)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Avalon 3.0”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”
Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark Transparency” (boM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: selfmade
Animals: Clover – “Dragon Hatchling”
Location: Nymphai

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“I didn’t want to become human…”

“We weep for the blood of a bird, but not for the blood of a fish. Blessed are those with a voice. If the dolls could speak, no doubt they’d scream, “I didn’t want to become human.”

[- Motoko Kusanagi, Ghost in the Shell -]

Clothing

Outfit: A&Y – “Atomy Cyber Suit” (Maitreya)
Shoes: A&Y – “Neo-Victorian Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Helmet & Wires: Black Cats Poses – “Zero Gravity” (part of the pose set)
Septum: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Inferno Septum”
Cables (neck/mouth): RichB. – “Recharge Me”

Nails& Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Inferno Septum” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No_Viking” – NEW @ JAIL Event // April 2021
Face Art:  Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger – EvoX” (EvoX BoM, Materials)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Avalon 3.0”
Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”
Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo ( Dark ) Earthly” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses (incl. helmet & wires): Black Cats Poses – “Zero Gravity” (Bento)

Backdrop: .PALETO. – “Backdrop:. Ed. Mohawk “

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“In this Paradise you’ll find just what your looking for…”

TUNES

I could take your breath away,
I could make this feel so right
Out of the blackest shadows
Into your burning light
Your touch would enthrall my heart,
My touch could release your soul
Lying warm and dark in your arms,
Come close to me now and take control
Riding through endless nights,
Bury the nameless dead
The stars will rain down in the night
Cast out of Heaven by jealous angels of death
Together we’ll rule our world
Together we’ll rule theirs too

Lightning and thunder collide
At the edge of the world for me and you
In this Paradise you’ll find just what your looking for,
Beauty right before you eyes,
How could you ask for more?
Here behind these eyes,
Here inside my soul
Hear the screams of a crucifixion ring through the dark,
Ring through the cold
Reach up and pull me down
Into your hallowed ground
I’ll lead you into temptation,
Buried in passion I’ll lead you down…
[- London after Midnight -]
Clothing
Dress: AsteroidBox – “Cara Dress” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Equal 10 // March 2021
Shoes: UTOPIA@Design – “Kora” (Maitreya)
Accessories
Septum: -[TWC]- – “Thirst Septum -Silver-“
Face Chain: [CX] – “Tyrant’s Cain (Silver) R”
Collar: [CX] – “Hell’s Harbringer (Black Out+Silver)” (Maitreya)
Necklace: DRD – “Holy shit wtfbbq Retro Box – Anarchy Necklace”
Bracelet (left): :::NOIR::: – “Sofia Bracelets [L]”
Bracelet (right): [ kunst ] – “Conrad Bracelet / Female (right)” & “Taylor Bracelets /Right (F)”
Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Morphine Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)
Nails: L’Emporio&PL – “*My Nails::Nails & Text*” (Maitreya, Bento)  – NEW @ Main Store
Hair & Makeup

Hair & Hat: KUNI – “Jimin (Unrigged)”
Face Art: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger – EvoX” (EvoX BoM, Materials)
Lipstick: LeLUTKA – “Avalon 3.9 Head HUD”

Head, Body & Tattoo
Head: LeLUTKA – “Avalon 3.0”
Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo ( Dark ) Illusion” (BoM) – NEW @ UBER // March/April 2021
Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”
Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity
Backdrop: ::WetCat:: – “Forsaken”

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Steampunk Heart

TUNES

Clockwork ticker, beating pulse
It lives and loves on wild impulse
Shiver and shake like feverish imps
If you look inside and take a glimpse
Romanticism is just an illusion
To a heart that beats confusion
Mechanical wonder but oh, so cold
The wheels and cogs in brass and gold
Manipulate the ghost in the machine
Ignored and loathed like something obscene
Tarnished and tattered by time and misuse
A strange device suffered decades of abuse
Mechanical lungs, screwed in ribs like art
All of them hiding my Steampunk hear

[- R.K. Summers -]

Clothing

Top: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Aesir (Crimson)” (BoM, Materials)

Corset: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Viscount (Red)” (BoM, Materials)

Shoes: Wicca’s Originals – “Celestine 2.0” (Maitreya)

Dress (inc. Pasties and Ornaments): ERSCH – “Babette” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Engine Room // March 2021

Accessories

Hat: Insomnia Angel – “Steampunk Top Hat”

Collar: Insomnia Angel – “Gear Collar”

Gloves & Claws: Skellybones – “Rayne Claws” (Maitreya, Bento) – NEW @ Engine Room // March 2021

Wings: dM! – “Aeon – “SteamWings” (unrigged) **WOOD**” (Gacha, Rare) – NEW @ Engine Room // March 2021

Hair & Makeup

Hair: KMH – “Hair CP006”

Face Art: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Amunet Color #06” (EvoX BoM, Materials)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Avalon 3.0”

Ears: [CX] – “Wthered Berzerker Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo ( Dark ) Secrets” (BoM) – NEW @ Kinky // March 2021

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: VARONIS – “Dayport Backdrop Scene” – NEW @ Engine Room // March 2021

Pose: Selfmade

Birds: :MoonAmore: – “Caged Soul / Hojalata Birds (Coffee)” (Gacha, Common)

Cage: DISORDERLY. “/ Book Magic / Not so Magical Birdcage” (moded)

Bag: DRD – “TAH – Doctor Medical Bag – Closed” (Gacha, Common)

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Deep Sea…

TUNES

Deep sea dive
Got down, but you stayed alive
It’s only you down there
You and the bends
Lose your mind
Lose track of breathing and time
It’s only you down there
Sleep with the tides

[- Snail Mail -]
Clothing

Bodysuit: AsteroidBox – “Mya Bodysuit” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Tentacles (Eyes & Ears): -[TWC]- -“Sea Witch -Tentacles”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No_Waste”

Face Art 1: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger” (BoM, Materials enabled)

Face Art 2 (incl. Tentacles Mouth): G.I.N – “Habiti” (BoM)

Face Scars: . The Rotting Lab . – “Waster – Scar – Pale” (BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Erin 2.5”

Ears: Ears: .:BoD:. – “Kraken Bom & Tint Ears”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”

Arms/Hands: ANTINATURAL[+] – “Post-Human / Monsterhand BLACK” (Gacha, Common)

Tattoo (Chest): .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo ( Dark ) Akkorokamui” (BoM) – NEW @ NEO Japan // March 2021

Tattoo (Arms): Nefekalum Tattoos – “Descend (Black)” (BoM, Materials)

Poses, Props & Tools

Pose: Selfmade

Prop: WLS – “Lovecraft Throne”

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

My Rage…

TUNES

Everyone’s a sinner, baby
And so are you
We don’t really need a reason
For the things we do

[- De/Vision -]

Yes, finally I found myself in the new Avalon head, but that was quite a journey and without someones help I probably would not have made that…

When I tried the 3 new head releases of LeLUTKA for the Skin Fair 2021, I first liked Ceylon the most. After fooling aournd with all 3, it turned out more and more, that the Avalon head features most of the things I like for Wicca’s face. It takes me in forever if I am finally willing to change to a new head, to find the right skin, the right mods, make the perfect shape… that is why I usually avoid changing heads often for my main character – blogging other heads is a totally different thing, that I actually enjoy, as I can built a character I have in mind at that moment when I do the pictures.

I wanted to try a look with an Albino skin – as I always loved the special features of that very special kind of skins – plus my I had the imagination my “no brows” policy would look lovely with that. I tried various skins from various brands inworld and from Marketplace. It seems I have a different vision of an Albino skin that most of the other have. All I found was either something Goth/Vampire looking or some cute, pale, rose skins with glowy cheeks and/or glossy, kissy lips kinda girly/dolly looking – that was not what I wanted…

A little frustrated I gave up on that thought and just went further with looking for pale, porcelain looking skins. And as fate plays out, you find what you are looking for completely unexpected. I was looking though one of the weekly sales events and my eyes got stuck on a skin. Unfocused and fidgety as I am, something came up and I got distracted. A few hours later I had a talk with Vivien and she reminded me of that skin again and I jumped over there trying it. When I saw what it did to my head, I was just speechless. I never had heard from that skin brand before and what I saw did really blow me away. A skin, very detailed, amazingly toned and without the typical girly look on it even without any face mods – not yet as edgy as I like it, but better than anything I was trying before. Certainly it was just the face as so often lately – I come from a time (before appliers came who made it reasonable to part the skin in body and head as you needed one applier for each) where skins used to be in one piece and not split up in head and body if both are “layers” (BoM) – so I took a look, how much the body part would be and how it looks on my body. I was amazed when I saw, that the body skin had an affordable prize as well and so I got face and body skin.

Back at my working space I sat down and worked on my shape for hours – If you ever tried to make a new shape from scratch, you know how long that can take. After 5 or more hours I finally was satisfied and happy and wanted to share my result with dear friends of mine. So I knocked at their screen with an IM and got a teleport. When I arrived there, I still was so excited about my new “me” and asked, what both of them would think about and I got weird and confusing answers like “Maybe you should fix your eyes they are poking out a little” or “Maybe the piercings need a little adjustment as they look out of place”. I was completely confused… I usually look very closely on my attachments and how can rigged eyes made for the head look out of place?!? I mean I know both of them are perfectionists like me and so I started struggling and caming on myself again, but I didn’t see what they seemed to see. So I did a gayzo and showed them my view. I got 2 gyazos in return and my blood froze in my veins – THAT was not even close to what I saw. The first things I could imagine was trying to undeform my avatar, which didn’t do anything so I came to the idea of toggling my shape with an older one… and then I was shocked. When I opened my current outfit folder, I saw that I am not wearing any shape at all! It was a huge surprise, because usually you cannot take off a shape completely! I went to my shapes folder and realized, the shape I was working on wasn’t there at all and some of the shapes I made the days before were missing, too. I opened the last safed shape and looked at the date and it said 3rd of March – We have beginning of April now!!! WTF?!? Ok, we all know SL and how it can act up sometimes, so the first thing I did was I relogged, hoping that it would just be a bug and that would fix it. When I came back, the shapes were still gone and I realized there are other complete folders missing too in my objects folder. Slowly panic raised up my throat and I thought I might have to clear cache, since I didn’t do that for a while – again nothing… I know it is just Second Life and I know that a shape isn’t something to whine about. BUT if you spent like a whole day to make something and then it is gone, you have nothing to remake it 100% again, as you didn’t make notes of any numbers… It IS god damn frustrating and I found myself in a mixture of madness, sadness, anger and rage. It was at the middle of the night and I was the only awake person in the house, so I could not even talk to someone and yell out my feelings to get rid of them. But if you have really close friends on SL, they even can “smell” though the web, over the ocean, what you are going through and all of a sudden you get an unexpected call. First I was scared to take the call as I didn’t want anyone to hear in what a condition I was, but if you respect someone, value his friendship and especially if it someone that shares your certain lifestyle, you better pick up that call. So to the mixture of already existing emotions, I felt nervosity adding and I was lightly scared as well, but I took that call – it turned out that it was the best thing I could have done. Even if he sounded serious and partwise firm, he calmed me down and he pulled me out again from that dark corner I was starting to draw myself back to. I still was mad about what had happened and sweared to just trash the whole idea of that new head and go back to my existing one. But that didn’t seem an option for him either and he tried to insist on the fac,t I just should restart from scracth and that if I made it once, I can do it again. At the end of the call he sent me to bed to get some rest and to a fresh restart on the next day – I didn’t see that happening at that point, but since the sun already was rising, I logged out and went to bed. I still hoped it was an SL bug and maybe I would login the next day and everything would be back to normal.

Certainly that wasn’t the case and I alredy switched back to my old look when I got an IM with a new vendor picture – The Hunger tattoo, which kinda became a trademark for me on my old face, made for the new EvoX heads. DAMN… suddenly I did remeber that I was harassing him at least 3 times yesterday, to make a version for the new EvoX heads – he said he would do that when he feels like it is time to do so. And now…? I felt it was kinda on purpose, to force me back to work on that new Avalon head… how mean… and how effective! Today I just wanted to do a quicky of my new look, but I will take those glasses off soon to showcase that incredible new version of the Hunger tattoo made b Nefekalum Tattoos. This new version for EvoX comes in different colors and matching materials for your LeLUTKA EvoX head. The reason why I am saying that, would be that I know it will go on the Wanderlust Weekend sale on the 10th and 11th of April and you have the unique chance to get that incredible, amazing design for only 50L$ before it rises to its regular price at them Nefekalum Tattoos main store!!!

Thank you Sir Skye, for catching me in that particular night and for the time you spent to talk to me… and certinly as well for making me sit down on my ass and work on that shape again 😉

Accessories

Horns: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Magnus Horns”

Glasses: -SU!- – “Esme Glasses Silver”

Face Chain: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Gunnhild Cross Goth” (Gacha, Rare) – NEW @ Kinky // March 2021

Septum: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Inferno”

Gloves: Skellybones – “Rae Gloves” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Warehouse Sale // March 2021

Nails: [CX] – “Essential Dirty Claws (Original)” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: Exile – “Nightfall”

Face Art:  Nefekalum Tattoos – “Hunger – EvoX” (EvoX BoM, Materials) – NEW @ Mainstore for Wanderlust Weekend // April 10th-11th

Face Scratches: Glam Affair – “Face Scratches 02” (EvoX BoM)

Head, Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLUTKA – “Avalon 3.0”

Ears: Aii & Ego – “Dark Elf Ears” (Bento)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara V5.3”

Tattoo: .:Vegas:. – “Tattoo Dark Earthly” (BoM)

Poses, Props & Tools

Background: DRD – “Powergaming Shed”

Pose: Amitie – “Hands & Co. II”

Model, Stylist & Photographer

Wicca Merlin