The Engine Room – Part I

The Engine Room is open now for about a week and it has so many AMAZING designs and creations that I wasn’t able to put them in one picture, so be prepared for so more steampunk madness in the next days!

My first post is kinda centered around that super cool top from [ContraptioN] and the awesome cute Barn owls in the steampunk version from {-Maru Kado-}. There is 2 packs of owls and each all owls come in 2 different version – one ‘casual’ owl and one ‘steampunk’ owl with all the sweet gear and goggles. But when I was setting up my little scenery inside the amazing skyebox from Catacomb –  while I realized those amazing rich and detailed textures – I found so much more cute and superb made things that I really had to hold myself back from cluttering my picture with too much things! The super cute animesh cat from HEXtraordinary in a rezzable and a wearable version, the incredible textured furniture from 22769… if you are a steampunk fan or someone that loves some Victorian gear and vibes, you HAVE to take a look at the Engine Room – you have time until the 20th or October!

But the Engine Room not only has furniture, decor and animals, you can find some totally crazy clothing and accessories. Today I combined the “Enginieer’s Top” from [ContraptioN] and the “Knickerbocker” pants, socks and shoes from Hotdog. The cool “Plague Mask” was made by Static. I was trying a lot what I could wear as a head piece of hair with that mask and in the end i decided not to just put a hat on top, but wear the unisex, short “No.Shallow” hairstyle, which no.match released at MoM this month.

I do not want to write too much today, as the pictures should be the main focus for this mega awesome designs and creations and… I have to admit, I already work on my second part pictures and realized I will probably even have to have a 3rd Engine Room part *giggles*

Clothing

Top: [ContraptioN]  – “Engineer’s Top” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Pants, Socks & Shoes: Hotdog – “Knickerbockers . plain” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Accessories

Mask: ::Static:: – “Plague Mask – Caged” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Nailpolish: DP – Koffin Nails – “Neo-Victorian Keys” (Maitreya Applier) – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Upper Arm Cuffs: Overt – “Summoner Cuffs – Red” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Shallow” – NEW @ MoM // Sepetmber 2019

Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses, Props / Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

Skybox: Catacomb – “The Bunker (With Base)” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Owls: {-Maru Kado-} – “Barn Owl Set 01-10 (Decor)” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Cat: HEXtraordinary – “Lord Bartleby Von Tinkleton Esq. – Wanderer (Rez)” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

Furniture:

22769 – “Salon Chair” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Salon Couch” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Queen Victoria Bust” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Tripod Telescope” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Gramophone” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Industrial Endtable” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Armillary Sphere” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – Cart Coffee Table – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Ashtray” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Box Of Cigars” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

::Static:: – “Woodburned Periodic Table – Warm”- NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

{C&C} – “Aether-Tech Moon Clock – Brass – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

HILTED – “Knicknack Pets – Mean Honker” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

HILTED – “Knicknack Pets – Beep Boop” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

HILTED – “Knicknack Pets – Hop Hop” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

HILTED – “Knicknack Pets – Toot Toot” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

HILTED – “Knicknack Pets – Snooty Snoot” – NEW @ The Engine Room // Sepetmber/October 2019

22769 – “Vintage Camera” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Industrial Wine Rack” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Bike Figurine” (Gacha, Common)

22769 – “Drum Table” (Gacha, Common)

[ContraptioN] Decor: – “Eccentric’s Curios Auric Discindo”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

The Ark – Animalish Moments

See the dark night has come down on us
The world is livin’ in its dream
But now we know that we can wake up from this sleep
And set out on the journey
Find a ship to take us on the way.

[Gerry Rafferty]

Today I would like to highlight an interesting event, that I didn’t see like that before. It is called “The Ark” and it is hosted by Palegirl Productions. Today sadly is the last day, but RL kept me so busy, that I wasn’t able top post earlier.

You can find all kind of designs inspired by animals there, not limited to animals and decor itself *winks* I saw that dress – yes a dress – and even if I am not too much into dresses, the way it was designed caught my attention. I loved the way the cut-outs are done at the sides and especially the arms with the sleeves connected to the middle finger. I never saw such a design before.

If you know me, it was clear, that I could not do just a simple casual look with that dress, so I was thinking a long time what I could do with that. Suddenly I came across the “Fibrous” tattoo from Nefekalum Tattoos again and thought, that would be a great challenge to make an editorial look with that tattoo and the dress! Certainly Zibska had to be involved with that idea too and her “WildThang” leggings just perfectly matched the animal print the dress carried too 🙂

I know the look will probably disturb many that are used to a more casual use of dresses, but that is my personal take on for that dress – even if it really took some time to find the right surrounding for it for my pictures 😉

Clothing

Outfit: [NC] – “Gira Dress” (Maitreya) – NEW @ The Ark

Leggins: Zibska – “WildThang” (Maitreya Applier)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Barbara Sandals” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Belt: amias – “Fenna” (Maitreya, part of a whole outfit)

Collar: -SU! – “Lynexia” (Group Gift)

Glasses: -SU! – “The Shagi Glasses” (Group Gift)

Horns: glutz – “Ramifications Horns” – NEW @ The Ark

Piercing: *PKC* – Collar Lip Piercing” (LeLutka Simone, Bento)

Nails: [FORMANAILS] – “Mayra XXL” (Maitreya, Bento)

Rings: : CULT : – “Rou Rings Set” (Maitreya)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No.Water”

Face Art: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Fibrous” (Omega Applier – Head & Body)

Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Akasuna”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Fibrous” (Omega Applier – Head & Body)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Fontain: [FOURTH WALL] – “Minimalist Garden Fountain – Black”

Animals: Jinx – “Snow Cloud Gacha” (Commons) – NEW @ The Ark

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

“I’ll be there when your reality drowns!”

TUNES

You’ll be seein’ me in your dreams
Even when your reality drowns

There’s a bright side
To every wrong thing
If you’re lookin’ at me through the right eyes
Darkness in my name
Don’t you wanna come and play on the cool side
Don’t be so shy

There’s a pleasure in hidin’ from the sun
No I was never one for pretty weather
I’d rather be a creep, baby follow me into the water
I’ll take you to the darker

[Kailee Morgue]

Again I was in a freaky mood and since the Mermaid Cove event from Flair for Events, I do have a little Siren addiction *giggles*
When I saw the “Liquid Soul” gacha from :Moon Amore:, I was thinking quite a while what I could do with it. I wanted to do something artistic as the whole set screamed for it, but as well I did not want to make it too busy, to not distract from that great design too much. After trying several things from simple black backgrounds to some simple props that didn’t really make any sense, the siren idea came back to my mind and with the awesome halo, that makes the whole look even more wild, the idea was born! The idea to do some water shots again made me excited. While I was again using the sim of a close friend, since I do not have a huge water spot on our land. But all I tried .. Linden water didn’t do what I wanted. So I had to find something different. I went back on my platform to see what I could do to “fake” a water scene. After trying different things I just rezzed a blank white floor prim and put a water texture with a high transparency on top with a certain color I liked. In my case it even was a frozen water texture as the effect was kinda cool :). Later in my post processing, I used some water brushes with some more ripples and did just put it on top of the one I snapped inworld with 30% transparency to get the more rough sea feeling before I added some splashes to add a little action feeling and movement.

I immensely enjoy my freedom lately, to do interesting shoots and have extraordinary outfits from all over the grid, let my freak come out here and there more than usual and just let my mind fly to see what comes out in the end. Sometimes I do not even know myself what will be the end result, when I start fooling around with styling. It is possible, that I start with a complete different idea from what it will be in the end. Sometimes it even takes days until I am completely satisfied with the final result and then it takes me again some times – sometimes days – until I am happy with the post processing. It just feels amazing to have that freedom and time – I am grateful that designers still like me on their blogger list, even if I get dragged away by emotions, feelings, visions and new tutorials for post processing my pictures 😉 It means a lot to me that you trust me, bare with me and my funky ideas and time frames!

Clothing

Outfit: :Moon Amore: – “Liquid Soul / Tales of the Sea” (Maitreya, Gacha, Rare)

Gloves: Wicca’s Originals – “Ryn Gloves (Scales” (Maitreya, Bento) – NEW @ The Ark //September 2019

Shoes: :Moon Amore: – “Liquid Soul / Tap-Tap Shoes – Teal” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Accessories

Splashes: :Moon Amore: – “Liquid Soul / Fluids Halo – Water” (Gacha, Common)

Fishes: :Moon Amore: – “Liquid Soul / Lil Fish – Orange”

Fish: :Moon Amore: – “Liquid Soul / Shoal Fish – Orange”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: :Moon Amore: – “Liquid Soul / Brave Waves Hairstyle – Ginger” (Gacha, Common)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.4”

Skin: CURELESS[+] – “Morphine” (Omega & Maitreya Applier)

Teeth: LeLutka – “Beast Teeth 1.1”

Ears: ^^Swallow^^ – “Ears Elf HD”

Eyes: CURELESS [+] – “Lethe Eyes”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Poses & Props

Poses: Poseidon

Props: E.V.E Studio – “Dancing Bubbles {White}”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Creatures

TUNES

I fall
This is the end of you
Whispers are their weakness

Their weakness
Everyday I must practice
To fake this smile on my face
It’s all the rain that’s putting me to sleep

It’s all the rain that’s putting me to sleep
I’ll let the blood tell the truth tonight, this is my life’s work
11 tracks is not enough, to tell you how I’ve died inside
And love is lost like words

11 tracks is not enough
In spiders eyes a man becomes a fly
In prolonged silence, we all stand defiled
We fall in line with the atrophy of life

The calm before the storm is a defeating silence
I’ve given my all, to this valley of despair
We are the damned, the cursed and the broken
There’s so much more inside us

We are the lost, the sick and unspoken
There’s so much more inside us
I’m drowning in an ocean of the tears that I’ve cried
I tried to drown my sorrows

Instead they’re all drowning me
I tried to drown my sorrows
Instead they’re all drowning me

[Motionless in White – Creatures]

Clothing

Harness: Moon Elixir – “Valentina” (Belleza Freya)

Pasties: .ARISE. – Spiked Pasties / White Silver” (Belleza Freya)

Accessories

Collar & Mask: Zibska – “Maea”

Claws: A&A – “Ornate Flat Claws” (Belleza Freya, Bento) – NEW @ We ♥ RP // September 2019

Hair & Makeup

Hair: no.match – “No_Industry” – NEW @ The Liaison Collaborative // September 2019

Makeup: Zibska – “Maea” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Eyes: -SU!- – “Aure Eyes” (Group Gift)

Ears: [Trap][Gauze] – “Djin Ears”

Body: Belleza – “Freya V5.2”

Skin: ~JJ~ – “Faceted Skins” (Omega Evolved Applier)

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

E.V.E – “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.5 – Splashing Aurea STAR [A]”

E.V.E – “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.5 – Splashing Aurea STAR [B]”

E.V.E – “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.5 – Splashing Aurea STAR [C]”

E.V.E –  “Ivy Tree [M02-No leaves] Silver”

E.V.E – “Ivy Bonsai {Silver}”

E.V.E – “Poison Rain Spikes Grass M01 {White}”

E.V.E – “Poison Rain Spikes Grass M01{Silver}”

E.V.E – “Poison Rain Spikes Grass M02 Fade {White-DelS}”

[FOURTH WALL] – “Mossy Rocks Pack” (Modified: blank white texture with original materials)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Ponygirl

“Your nights are a season at my command, human pony girl”

[Samhain]

If you try to search for ponygirl on the internet, you will probably find this on wikipedia:

“Pony play is where at least one of the participants dresses to resemble and assumes the mannerisms and character of an equine animal. People involved in pony-play (“ponies”) generally divide themselves to three groups although some will participate in more than one category:

  • Cart ponies pull a sulky with their owner.
  • Riding ponies are ridden, either on all fours or on two legs, with the “rider” on the shoulders of the “pony” (also known as Shoulder riding). Note that a human back is generally not strong enough to take the weight of another adult without risk of injury, so four-legged “riding” is generally symbolic, with the “rider” taking most of their weight on their own legs.
  • Show ponies show off their dressage skills and often wear elaborate harnesses, plumes and so on.

Pony play is sometimes referred to as “The Aristotelian Perversion”, in reference to an apocryphal story where the philosopher Aristotle was persuaded to let a woman named Phyllis ride him like a horse, in promised exchange for sexual favors: an episode depicted in various woodcuts and other works of art.”

When I saw that the first time, I thought like “WTF?!?” and then I tried to find more about it. If you dig a little bit deeper, you will find a lot of interesting and sometimes even funny things. Most of them looked, as there would be a lot of fun involved as well. I learned a term from Silly once when she said “What ever floats your boat” and that perfectly applies on such fetishes I would guess. Why we should judge about something, that can be fun and satisfy desires of someone? For me there is no reason and as one that certainly had to try several things in the past, I had the chance to try out a tiny little bit of that kind of roleplay myself. I have to admit I really had good times, even if it is nothing for me, what would be an everyday fun or desire 😉

When I saw this amazing outfit and head piece at the Kinky event, it immediately reminded me of those pictures and little movies and I had to give it a try. Certainly I wanted to have a fashionable ponygirl, so I decided to go for some kind of editorial ideas of fetish pictures in general. I even found some editorial fashion pony girl pictures from popular designers and musicians. The most impressive interpretation of that ponyplay in a fashion way I found at one of Madonnas live concert openings in 2005 (watch HERE). Inspired by that even more and because I adore Madonna’s creativity, I wanted to give it a try.

The “Pony Girl” outfit done as a collaboration between CerberusXing and Maru Kado is an ensemble of a body harness and the head gear, sold separately in either black or white. As always for both brands the textures are incredible awesome and the harness was made for the Maitreya Lara mesh body in a perfect fit. For the head gear, even an animation is included to have the mouth open to perfectly fit the bridle in between your lips. While I was looking for hair, which seemed not that easy when I first tried, as I did not want to mess up or hide that amazing head piece in any way, and all of a sudden the amazing “DoMina” hair fro Mina hair came to my mind, which I found at the last Fetish Fair. The hood with the ponytail fitted perfectly under the head piece! I have to admit, lately I practiced a lot of hair modifications and paintings for Second Life hair. The hair parts that are shown from the ears down are all not anymore true Second Life hair, but I am sure you are aware of that. The hair looks awesome in inworld, I just wanted to experiment a little bit with it for my todays pictures.

Another awesome idea and design I am wearing today are the “Rachel BENTO Clamps & Weights” from Salt & Pepper. When I saw them the first time, I wasn’t sure how I could showcase them properly but for this look they were just perfect. The clamps are not just decorative clamps they are genius scripted to make them perfect for any kind of fetish roleplay. In the box you will find the clamps and 3 different weights for the left and right nipple. Each weight pulls down the breast down depending on it’s own weight and it works as well with your physics and clothing. The handling is easy… you just add the clamps and then your preferred weight to see the effect. I bet you can imagine, how much that will add to your roleplay experiences! There is a version for Maitreya Lara, Slink Hourglass and Belleza Freya.

What is a huge part of todays look and its intensity are the tattoos of Nefekalum Tattoos. For this post I used the body tattoo called “From Ashes” and for the face I chose the “Egyptian Sun”. Both come as Omega appliers and can be used for all body and head types that support the Omega system. For those who already plan on the new “Baked on Mesh” possibility, both of the tattoos have the system tattoo layer included as well. I already tried it – it works just perfect for LeLutka Head and Maitreya Lara or Belleza Freya!

First I tried all kind of different backgrounds like a meadow, jumping obstacles (yes they are available in Second Life I found out!), barns and all kind of naturalistic sceneries and none them looked anywhere near “cool”.

When I did some research about editorial fetish and ponyplay pictures, I found a lot of latex and leather stuff and ALL of them had some kind of smoke in the background and not much more to that. Sometimes there were simple, single props involved like posts, chairs and all kind of furniture, so I decided to go with a simple fence I could lean against or sit on for the possibility to use some cool poses. Lately I realized that pictures that involve movement or a certain action – like leaning against something – make pictures way more interesting, that just standing somewhere with no connection to anything.

If you follow my blog for a while you might have realized, that I have way less casual content than before. Some people asked me, if I now completely said goodbye to casual content… no, not in general, but there is so many casual content around AND I just did casual for too long already. Lately I am more into some edgy stuff – not that I wasn’t kinda crazy before already – I feel it suits and inspires me more. In the past I had my focus more on the fact, to show that I can be very versatile and pull of every style in its own way and not in my way 😉 That lately changed a lot, as I feel way more comfortable to still do various styles and genres, but always in my own way and not following general mainstream or “rules”. I feels more honest and true to myself, while it still keeps me all kind of style genres open to play with. I hope you enjoy my journey of finding my own way of showcasing and interpreting things – thank you for all your support and all the nice word and comments through my personal Second Life adventures! That keeps me going and working on new content as often as I can on my blog and Flickr 🙂

Clothing

Outfit: [CX] & {-MK-} – “Pony Girl Harness (Black)” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Kinky Event // September 2019

Headpiece: [CX] & {-MK-} – “Pony Girl Headgear (Black)” – NEW @ Kinky Event // September 2019

Shoes: **UTOPIA@Design** – “Tera” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Collar Neck: +AH+ – “Pampering Collar”

Collar Implant Chest: Ama. – “Forever Yours”

Clamps: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Rachel BENTO Clamps & Weights” (Maitreya, Bento)

Cuffs: RR – “Vixen”

Hair & Makeup

Hair: MINA Hair – “DoMina”

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Face Art: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Egyptian Sun” (Omega Applier) – NEW

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos – “From Ashes” (Omega Applier) – NEW

Poses & Props

Poses: Foxcity

Fence: [Focus Poses] – “Country Fence” (poses not used in this post)

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Wicca’s Originals @ The Twisted Hunt + Update on our Bloodshed Gloves!

Wicca’s Originals @ The Twisted Hunt // September 2019

It’s time for the 11th annual Twisted Hunt and we are an official part of it! The hunt runs the entire month of September and we have our Bloodshed Gloves in a color exclusive to the Twisted Hunt. Our Bloodshed Gloves are designed to fit Lara, Freya and Hourglass. You can learn more about the Twisted Hunt by visiting https://www.twistedhunt.com/
To make it a little easier, I will give you a hint for finding the hunt gift: “Tick Tock, goes the clock, and what then shall we play?”
Due to popular demand we have updated our Bloodshed Gloves to not only fit Lara, but to fit Freya and Hourglass as well! Of course we have included a HUD to offer you 6 colors and 5 metals to choose from.

“Fragility”

Today I do have the great pleasure to showcase you the work of an artist, that I do admire already for a long time for his photography. I am talking about Sir Skye Nefekalum. His artwork is just breathtaking and his visions and creativity seem to have no end. Recently he started to create extraordinary tattoos and face paint and – as you can imagine –  I am already addicted. He releases them so fast – nearly one per day – that I have a hard time keeping up, as I do want to create images that maybe can satisfy his incredible style and artwork. I am not yet such a picture pro and I try to learn new things lately. That means it takes me even longer to really be satisfied with what I am trying to archieve, as I do not want to dissapoint Sir Skye for his amazing work.

Anyways, today I have the honor to show you two of the very first designs of Nefekalum Tattoos. The body tattoo is called “Fragility” and he face paint is named “Seer”. “Fragility” is a tintable tattoo (except for Maitreya, as their body doesn’t feature any coloring in the tattoo layers). It comes as an Omega applier, which allows you to use it with any Omega compatible body. I just tried it on my Belleza Freya body and it just works perfect. I tried many different colors and shades until my choice fell to blue. I always had an addiction to blue and white for what ever reason :p

The awesome “Seer” facial art as well comes as an Omega applier and you can play a little with the blending options until you have your perfect look. What I do love the most is that all of his tattoos – the ones I already got – work for male and female and gives the avatar a very special and extraordinary look. all of them do have a very crisp and clean look, which for me is a sign of high quality work. I do have many others that are slightly blurry or do have weird seams, but not the Nefekalum Tattoos.

While I was working on the pictures I had to do a teaser picture for an upcoming hunt gift and I could not resist to again use both of those amazing tattoos in a different color as it just worked so perfect with our gloves *blushes* But that shows how versatile the “Fragility” tattoo is with different colors. As you can see I have a different, more darker blending for the face paint on this picture, so you can see the different possibilities as well for the face art.

I am really curious with what Sir Skye will come up next, while I will try to prepare the next showcase of his amazing work!

Accessories

Harness: Luas – “Azahar Harness” (Belleza Freya)

Collar: [CX] – “Hells Harbinger” (Maitreya)

Sleeves: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme” (Belleza Freya)

Pasties: .ARISE. – “Spiked Pasties” (Belleza Freya)

Glasses: -SU”- – “Midnight Doll Sunglasses Blue-Silver” (Gacha, Common)

Piercing 1: Blaxium – “Jaiden Chain Piercing L”

Piercing 2: Blaxium – “Venenosa Piercing – Simone” (LeLutka Simone)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: RAMA.SALON – “Rhonda Hair L+”

Face Paint: Nefekalum Tattoos  – “Seer” (Omega Applier) – NEW

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Belleza – “Freya V 5.2”

Tattoo: Nefekalum Tattoos – “Fragility” (Omega Applier) – NEW

Ears: ^^Swallow^^ – “Ears Elf HD”

Eyes: -SU”- – “Phantom Eyes V.2 All Colors” (Group Gift)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

Dogs: {anc} – “flottante puppy. milk”

Background: E.V.E Studio – “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.4 – Splashing Aurea [A]” & “SUNNY SPELLS Vol.4 – Splashing Aurea [B]”

Face Animation Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Poser Tool: Anypose – “BVH HUD v1.6”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

I can see you understand me…

“Once you put your hand in the flame,
You can never be the same,
There’s a certain satisfaction,
In a little bit of pain.
I can see you understand me
Tell that you’re the same”

[Madonna]

Sometimes it needs a kind person and some amazing conversations to be inspired for a certain picture. This happened today when I was thinking about doing a post about some awesome releases of the Fetish Fair that is currently running for a few more days. It is always difficult to do fetish or BDSM related pictures if you don’t want to be dirty or pornographic but ther is even editorial fashion shoots in the real world that are none of that. For my post I did not want the editorial ones only, I wanted some kind of emotion to it as well and that is, why I did not just use a blank background with simplistic furniture only. D/s is something very sensitive. It is part of the whole BDSM content but it is only one of a million different shades. But many people do have D/s relation ships without even being aware of. D/s itself can have a million different shades as well. Sometime girls like the fact that they are taken care of in life and that they only need to please (please ISN’T always only sexual!) a man, to be his precious he would take care of. Some girls do like older men, because they feel more safe with them and they like if they say how it goes (NOT only in a sexual way). That brings me to my next point… D/s doesn’t always have to be a sexual thing. Making a coffee for the man you belong to, because he asked for it… we could argue now if he did order you to get him one or if he just asked to have one… when you bring him that without starting a discussion or telling him off to get it on his own… you obey… you obey to a wish made by the person you love. So D/s is way more common as that we think about. Same if your partner tells you, he would like you to dress in a certain way… you can say, it is because you just love him and do it, because you know you please him with having him the gift of you wearing the particular outfit. But on the same hand you can sa it was an order you did obey to out of various reasons and motivations. D/s doesn’t mean anything else than, someone that gives orders (wishes, requests, begging… call it what ever you want) and someone that is willing to full fill them, either for a certain result or just because out of love, dedication or devotion. Where I live, we are lucky that we can be free in our choices that we make about our relation ships – I know this is not the case all over the world. And so all can decide how they want to have their relationships without being pointed with a finger at someone. Did you ever think about why in Second Life BDSM or D/s is so big? Because not everyone has the possibility to live their fantasies! Even if I made horrible experiences in Second Life with that kind of roleplay and gave up years ago in SL, because of wannabes and people who think they know it all only because they read the Story of O or saw 50 Shades of Grey on TV, it seems there is attraction in that kind of lifestyle for many and why not just let them do what ever they want as long as they to not violate any law or feelings of others who are not want to be involved? I have to admit I met a few people, that are living this lifestyle in the real world too and I had incredible amazing conversations about so many different things with them – I would not want to miss them. Most of those people are incredible skilled artists in one or both lifes and the lifestyle must have something that touches those sensitive and very special people.

Since my post tunred out totally different as intended and the shoes didn’t get the deserved spotlight on the pictures, I just thought I do a clean close up!

Recently I had the pleasure to talk more to someone, that I did know for a while and when we met, none of us did talk about BDSM or D/s or something like that. We just were assigned to do a print-work job together. It was a fashion job so far away from all of that. But when I arrived there, the way of how that person was talking already got me to my toes. I can not say why, but the way he used the English language wasn’t what I usually experienced. I mean, I did know his Flickr as I always look though peoples Flickr when I am assigned to work with them, but you find all kind of artists on that platform so I normally do not jump to conclusions if I do not know those people. The way he spoke, the use of words I never heard before for just normal conversations, did build some feelings or emotions that I could not sort the first time we met. It was a great shooting and the pictures turned out fantastic. It wasn’t the only time I had the pleasure to work with that person and I do not even remember anymore when or why I started to call him Sir, just in a normal conversation. I remember quite well, how bad I was blushing in real life, when I realized what I just said, but it just felt normal and right. He did not seem irritated by that and since it felt right, it was just normal for me to call him Sir whenever we worked together. A couple times we even just made pictures together, without any particular job behind it and they are some of the best pictures I ever had together with someone. Not too long go we got to talk more in IMs here and there and I had the pleasure to know him more each time we talked. It feels amazing if you can talk with someone in a natural way without ulterior motives, just because you are friends and respect someone. There are no words to describe our conversations, but I feel very honored to be allowed to have them. They unleash creativity, they reduce anxieties about some things, they even are an enrichment for my English skills, as I learn new words and different ways to say things. After all it feels incredible amazing to have someone, that does understand you, the way how you behave, or who you are. I have to admit, I guess I can be happy that he is so far away as I have no idea, if I could stand those eyes and voice, if I would be near him, but since I am happy in my own relationship (Yes – my partner knows about our conversations // NO – that isn’t anywhere near cheating) and far away, I just immensely enjoy those conversations and projects and hope there will be many more. Thank you Sir, for inspiring me for todays post and pictures!

Clothing

Outfit: :::insanya::: – “Helga Top & Shorts” (Maitreya)

Cuffs: Salt & Pepper (S&P) – “Bondage Deluxe Set” (Maitreya) – NEW @ Fetish Fair // August 2019

Stockings: .:Avanti:. – “Vini Stockings” (Maitreya Applier)

Shoes: [Gos] – “Tamara Ankle Boots” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Nails: .:Avanti:. – “Byzzy Nails” (Maitreya, Bento)

Rings: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Morphine Rings” (Maitreya, Bento)

Piercing: Blaxium – “Dangerous Bento Piercing – Simone” (LeLutka, Bento)

Septum: Blaxium – “Aracnida Septum Piercing Unrigged – Silver” (Gacha, Common)

Hair & Makeup

Makeup: Livia – “Desire Eyeshadow” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: alaskametro<3 – “London” (LeLutka Applier)

Hair: no.match – “No.Aspects” – NEW @ Hairfair // August 2019

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Tattoo: RedFish – “Roses Tattoo” (Maitreya Applier) – NEW @ Fetish Fair // August 2019

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Akasuna”

Lashes: Livia  – “Whisper Lashes” (LeLutka Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

3rd Eye Perceptions – “Hanging Chain Curtain”

~*S.E.*~ – “Wall Pallet Bed (PG)”

[Since1975] – “All in1-BDSM Cage/Pole(Maledom)”

[Since1975] – “All in1-BDSM Cage/Hanger(Maledom)”

[Arch] Deco – “Box of Chains v1.0”

Mushilu – “0005bg Whip and Whispers complete”

ED. – “Anu Whip Black”

22769 – “Toys and Lube”

22769 – “Handcuffs”

22769 – “Leather Whip”

Face Animatin Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

Something has grown in my chest…

If you are hearing this, there is nothing I can do
Something has grown in my chest.
And I have seen it.
It is hard and cold.
It’s been dormant for many years.
I have tried to save you, but I cannot come to save you
But this is what you deserve

[Marilyn Manson]

I know it might be a little early for Halloween visions, but since many events already had their applications out I fell in a light Halloween mood and I love to use that as my excuse for my dark, creepy side anyways *grins*

And I blame L’Emporio too, as they released such a kick ass, cool outfit at the oXXcuro event – just kidding, I love the outfit! It is a full outfit that contains garter, bolero, boots, corset, panties, sleeves, necklace, hat, bra, veil and pasties (last 3 I did not use for my post today). You as well get a HUD to color some parts in white, black or red like for example the crosses on the sleeves, the hat and the corset strings.

As I told you before, I was watching the “The Nun” movie not too long ago and when I saw that naughty nun  – plus my Halloween, creepy mood – I could not resist to do something dark 😉 When I was looking for a matching background, I remembered the cool “Crucem Inverso” backdrop from CerberusXing. I am anyways a [CX] addicted and so I just added some more [CX] with some piercings. When it comes to dark spooky looks, I love too use the tattoos and makeups from Cureless[+] and The White Crow. They always have such an amazing feel when it comes to the tiny boarder of creepy and disgusting 🙂 I love how much they stretch them selves out and still make it look stylish and cool, even if it is a super horrific design!

What came in handy as well  – and made the perfect addition to my look – are the “Gormory” ears from .:E.A.Studio:. With their huge crosses hanging down from the earlobe they just looked perfect. The ears come with a HUD as well to match your skin, choose your tattoo and a page for the metals as well to make sure they fit the rest of your style. The reason I did not use the original pasties from the outfit are just simple, I loved the upside-down cross looking ones so much to the look, that I just could not skip them 😉

Halloween comes closer and I guess, I just started my dark adventure through my favorite season. I hope I will find many dark and spooky things this year to be able to realize more of my horror visions I do already have – maybe even find or imagine some new ones 😉

Clothing

Outfit, Necklace & Shoes: L’Emporio – “Badessa” (Maitreya) – NEW @ oXXXcuro Event // August 2019

Pasties: Moon Elixir – “Gothique – 14 – Onyx Pasties” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Accessories

Nails & Rings: [CX] – “Essential Dirty Claws” (Maitreya, Bento)

Septum: [CX] – “Drop Septum (Silver)”

Lip Piercing: [CX] – “Bitten 2017”

Hair & Makeup

Makeup 1: CURELESS[+] – “Undereye Lines & Eyeliner” (Omega Applier)

Makeup2: .ARISE. – “Kulo Makeup” (LeLutka Applier)

Lips & Chin: the crone – “heartbite”

Body & Tattoo

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Skin: *YS&YS* – “Immortal Skin Applier” (LeLutka & Maitreya Applier)

Tattoo: -[TWC]- – “Okami Amaterasu V2” (Omega Applier)

Facetattoo: -[TWC]- – “Okami Amaterasu V2 III” (Omega Applier)

Ears: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Ears Gormory”

Teeth: LeLutka – “Beast Teeth 1.1”

Eyes: Clemmm – “I’m Tired / Burn Out -Regular-“

Poses, Props & Tools

Backdrop: [CX] – “Crucem Inverso”

Poses: Poseidon

Heart: CURELESS[+] – ” Valentine’s Heart” (without pose)

Face Animatin Tool: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin

 

Free your Mind and find Yourself!

TUNES

Before her surrender she had no life
Now she’s a slave, not a wife
Her only sorrow is for women who live with lies
She’s taken off her disguise

[Manowar]

I do love the song above and it is basically a song that has a lot of meaning to me and Red and it was just perfect for this pictures and post. In general it is not always easy if you have to hide parts of your life even to close friends just because the ‘society’ doesn’t really appreciate or understand them. I am not only talking about BDSM or D/s, but as well as things like a male loves a male, or a female loves a female, or if you have a job that other won’t understand whatever it would be. As well as if kids do not have any label clothing because they do not have a rich family, but do not want anyone to know about that when they go to school or meet other kids. There is many things that people have to hide in all kind of ways to make it through their life. The older I get the less I do want to hide things. They are a part of me and they do make me to what I am now. Even for being a musician, I often had to say I am teaching music or I do work somewhere else and just do music in my free time or on weekends. Over 20 years ago when I started my music career, music wasn’t something that was considered as a job and I often heard “And when you will learn something proper to pay your bills?”. Sure it wasn’t the life of a millionaire, especially in the beginning I had to do a lot of side jobs to make sure my bills got pair and it wasn’t only fun all the time. The longer I followed my personal decision, the better it became and in the end I was able to prove them all wrong and made my life out of music completely and it feels awesome.

Why other people or the so called ‘society’ do think they are allowed to tell one person, what to do and what not to do as long as they do not violate the law? Since when law should be able to dictate who you love, or even worse what gender you love? Just because certain religions and a lot of old fashioned people think that would be right? At school we teach all of our kids, the gifted ones and the non gifted ones that they can do what ever they can imagine in their life and be happy with that… and with that we lie to them already, as so many factors will force them to just do something that is accepted by our ‘society’ somehow. I am not anymore a rebel that only fights against exactly that ‘society’ and tries to break free like people in the 70s already tried – I am too old for that and I am way more critical about certain things these days, even if sometimes my punk breaks free and needs its room as well from time to time 😉

Even in SL when I started modeling, people tried to tell me what I should do and what I should not do and that made me even more angry than in real life. Again, I am always talking about things that do not hurt other people or violate the TOS and the law, I am talking about things like “You can not wear shaved hair and piercings while you are in a gown” or “You can not jump between style categories, hair colors or  wear wings, elf ears and hooves to a casual spring dress!” or “If you blog for this store you should not blog for that store as they do not really like each other!” – WTF!!! This is SL! I can do what ever I please especially on my blog, my pictures or my wardrobe! No one pays me a monthly salary and can dictate my Second Life for that! I can make decisions and like in real life I have to be able to stand behind them even if I can not be everyones darling then, which NEVER works in both lifes anyways on a long term if you do not want to lose yourself. You have value, your life and opinions do have value… in our modern times there is no room for hate about religions, races, nations, other opinions and new inventions or fictions. Our past should have taught us, that we need free spirits to evolve and that hate never brought out any productive. Sometimes we need to know a person before we can judge about them and even if we do we should never try to limit or tell them what they should not do – we should encourage them to tell us about their ideas and ideologies and even if we decide that they are feeling right for us they feel right for them and need to be heard. I do not know, if that makes any sense and I am well aware of that a nation needs rules, traditions and laws to work, but all of that doesn’t give anyone the right to destroy others lifes, or make it miserable, as long as they are not guilty of a heavy crime. I am sick and tired of hearing what would be the best of me, when I can feel that this comments are just made out of jealousy, vindictiveness and power games. I did survive – RL and SL –  with going my way. I did not hurt too many people in my life and those I did hurt, if I realized it I at least had the decency to apologize and see if I could make up for what I did wrong – but you only can do that if you have friends that have the strength and grace to tell you and not just go away and talk bad behind your back. I am grateful, for all of those that stuck to me through both lifes even if I had my moments and arguments with them. They helped me to become what I am now – even if I am still no millionaire, I found luck and satisfaction in my life and as well my place in my life. There are still days, where other people try to shake and rattle my pillars and the principle, sometimes it even still hurts, but they do have a way more difficult task to do as they had to in my past. I am not saying I know everything, or I am done learning in my life… that probably never stops and I am always open minded to what ever crosses my paths, but it isn’t anymore that easy to turn my life upside down and make me question everything I experienced and learned in my life.

Just imagine, what would feel more nice if you meet a new person in your life… to look a them, judge them about their first view and words or just smile, be friendly and see what they to have to say on a second view? They might have solutions for things you did not yet found some… they might have to hide things on your first meeting as they are scared you will judge them and turn around leaving them without even really knowing them, or have given them a chance to show you who they really are? And… just turn it the other way round… how you would feel if you are judged by your cover and not even given a chance to show who you really are?

I would like to close todays post with a quote from an En Vogue song, as I really believe in that every day more, the older I get:

“Before you can read me you gotta learn how to see me, I said
Free your mind and the rest will follow
Be colour blind, don’t be so shallow.”

Clothing

Cape: ERSCH – “Devilish Joy Dress Black” (Maitreya, Gacha, Common)

Harness: OHeMO – “Olivia Body Harness” (Maitreya)

Shoes: Mosquito’s Way – “Britney” (Maitreya)

Accessories

Horns: .:E.A.Studio:. – “Horns Dracarys” – NEW @ Fetish Fair // August 2019

Forearm Sleeves: [CX] – “Lance Bracers Femme – Black” (Maitreya)

Collar: #187# – “Leashed Collar”

Piercings: *PKC* – “BDSM Bento Face Set”

Rings: : CULT :  – “Rou Rings Sset” (Maitreya, Bento)

Nails: FORMANAILS – “Stiletto 1” (Maitreya, Bento)

Hair & Makeup

Hair: +Spellbound+ – “Control” (part of the BoundBox, no longer avbailable)

Makeup: Zibska – “Noir Pack 06” (LeLutka Applier)

Lipstick: LIVIA – “Juniper Lipstick” (LeLutka Applier)

Body & Tattoos

Head: LeLutka – “Simone 3.3”

Forehead Tattoo: CURELESS[+] – “Onibi Markings” (Omega Applier)

Body: Maitreya – “Lara 4.1”

Marks: .:Avanti:. – “Rope Marks Applier” (Maitreya Applier)

Poses, Props & Tools

Poses: Foxcity

Set:

Sari-Sari – “Puppet Skybox”

Mushilu – “0005bg Whip and Whispers complete”

BackBone  -“Toy Rack”

{RW} – “Hanging Chain Deco – Pewter”

Fapple – “BDSM Tool Box”

[ zerkalo ] – “Handcuff Chair – Leather”

22769 ~ [bauwerk] – “Leather Whip”

Tool for Face Expressions: LeLutka – “Axis HUD Face 1.1”

Model & Photographer

Wicca Merlin